do grades mean anything ?
maybe for this moment.
its the learning journey that brings life.

i'm just hiding behind this facade.
happy on the outside.
broken on the inside.
tears each night,
cries inside.
would you run with me
would you die with me.


XXX

intensive chinese the past 2 days.
and like chinese the whole of yesterday was a killer. i was damn bored.
thanks to my friends who kept me company the whole day. :D
so i skipped school today. to do my own revision at home.
more productive. but still, i slack most of the time.
i just want to concentrate on chinese this week.
Olevels on monday. sigh ): i really hope to pass this time.
but i doubt so, still i must have confidence.
All the Best (:
parents meeting tomorrow. i'm so dead please. [:
i dont feel like going to school on friday either.
ugh.

XOXO.
GOODBYE. i need to go.

YAY (: i get to use the comp again.
sounds like i'm deprived from the computer. heheh :D
anyway.

14may; Monday
had my last paper. physics practical.
which i thought i would fail.
the experiment is stupid. and i end up sleeping for half an hour.
i was so bored. that day was really boring. dismissed at around 10am
went home since i have no where to go . damn freaking bored.
so went home and slept for 3 hours to pass time. [:
yeap. and slack the night away .
after exams make me so lazy and not in the mood to study. ):

15may; Tuesday
marking day so didnt have school.
and i decided not to stay at home or i'll just die or boredom.
my parents went somewhere and i went my own way.
ended up at bugis, then marina square. alone.
and i spent at least 80 bucks shopping. (: haha
as long as i'm happy thats fine. and i'm HAPPY. :D :D :D
went to esplanade library to borrow scores again. couldnt find the one i wanted.
and my head was so dizzy looking through all the shelves.
so borrowed one only and took bus back. met someone to pass the surprise.
heheh. (: then went home.

Today .

school again. which is death day too.
got back most of our results. which is total disppointment.
i'm so disappointed with myself. ): i've done so badly.
but i know i still have a chance. i'm such a failure.
i gave myself chance after chance but all i get is disappointment.
not only me, but my parents.
at least i know i've worked hard and did my best.
the more i study, the more i fail. i hate it. >:
tomorrow will be worst, with chemistry and amath. UGH
i dont feel like going to school. i rather have exams everyday.
school is just so boring. [:



would you be there when everything doesnt seem alright
would you be there for me.
would you be there when my facade crumble
would you be there for me
would you be there to share my joy and sadness
would you be there for me
would you be there for me to lean on
would you be there
would you be there to encourage me
would you be there ?

like finally my brother's so willing to let me use the computer.
but i only can use for awhile.
finally mid years are over. but i still have physics practical on monday.
which i bet will fail. i dont think it will help me pull up my physics marks.
because my physics paper today is screwed.
paper 1 was rather easy, but paper 2 was horrow. i nearly died.
i regretted not memorising all the definations. instead i memorised all the stupid principles which didnt even come out. damn freaking pissed.
i couldnt do alot of the questions. i feel like killing myself.
i studied damn hard for it, hoping to pass. >:
my whole mid years is screwed. my life is screwed too.
i dont want to faillllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ): ): ): ): ):

i'm so bored now. i need to go soon !
pfffttt. i hate after exams, cause i dont know what to do.
i cant seem to take naps in afternoon. i just cant get to sleep.
i thought i could rest after exams, but now even without stress i cant get to sleep.
RAWR>
tell me what i should do.


i dont wish to think about it.
i cant believe almost 6 months have passed.
i cant believe.
it makes me feel like shit.

XOXOXO.
GOODBYE
(:

exams are finally gonna be over.
one more paper (:
its one in a million years since i touched the computer.
:\
emath paper 1 was damn easy.
but emath paper 2 was a killer.
i nearly had a heart attack. and obviously i'll fail. BOO >:
all the best for physics tomorrow.
i love physics (:
chinese olevels are coming and i'm so dead. ):
mug mug mug hard.

XOXOXO.
goodbye.
see you soon in 99999 years time.