exams are driving me nuts.
deprived of internet.

thursday ; 12april

SWEET SIXTEEN :D
i cant remember what happened in school.
but there wasnt any amath thingy after school because of the preparation of open house and carnival. so, went to cwp. and did nothing. i was actually waiting for someone.
i was so bored can. i end up doing some amath.
yeah, so i waited for 2 and a half hours ! the person is feeling so guilty right.
HAHA (:
so went to eat our dinner at pizza hut. at 7 plus.
until 9 plus. then went home.
anyway, thank you to those who wished me.
and some unexpected ones. (: thank you.
and many thanks to shandy who did the card for me.
and also part of 4e4 who wrote on the card. (:
and candice for the sweets and the present . and the treat.
carmen and felicia for the present and card too.
love ya people ! (:
plus brother for the yummy birthday cake.
heehee.

Friday ; 13april

went to school for 3 hours only.
ended at 10.45 (: because of open house. YAY.
rushed home , bathed and changed.
met felicia at woodlands and waited for carmen at admiralty.
trained down to vivo. looked for food first and walked around.
took pictures ! the dogs at the pet shop is so cuteeee. (:
need to leave at 5.30pm./
trained down to marina with felicia. we were so dumb please.
from habourfront to marina bay, we changed 3 different trains.
we are the dumbest people on earth. hahaha
waited for bus 400 for like super long. and finally reached the steamboat place.
waited for teacher like super long. managed to eat only at 7 plus .
i was so tired and bored. and the food was so-so. didnt eat that much.
everyone was taking lots of photos. and i took some. (below)
farewell for the sec 4s. i'll miss co somehow. (:
went off around 9. and reached home at 10 plus. super super tired.
but i enjoyed alot .

Today.

woke up at 9 plus. bathed and all.
went down to school for the carnival. and the weather's super duper hot.
it's killing. so went to my cupcorn stall and did duty.
the corn isnt nice without salt. they only have butter.
nothing much to do. kept walking around. which is so boring.
cause there's nothing much to do. did henna cause i didnt know what to do with my tickets.
i have so many left. went off at 2 plus to cwp.
walked around with candice and her friends. and they were crapping all the way.
so damn funny. went to metro and played with toys again. so fun (:
i want to be a kid again. :D
reached home at 5 plus. bathed and took a nap for awhile.
i'm so tired. its 9 plus and i havent eat my dinner. [:

sorry if i've missed out anything.
i have serious short term memory.

pipa group (:

tears before nightmare.

XOXO

this is for me to understand, not you.

i'm happy this week, and i'm gonna be happy next week too.
i dont feel lethargic at all for the past week.
and i'm sixteen tomorrow (:
plus there's carnival and less lessons.
and there's only two days of school next week not counting napfa.
YAY :D
i'm just joyful (:
i cant wait for school to end tomorrow. cause its the end of the week. HAHA.
but still, i have to wake up from my dreamland that midyear's in two weeks time.
i'm so damn scared, i'm not prepared at all. and i have the whole book to study.
i dont know how i'm gonna do that please. ): stress comes again ! pfftt
!@#$%^&*()_(%$#@

so, i skipped p.e today again ! heehee.
cause i didnt want to run 2.4 again. today's the actual napfa.
but i already passed last week, so i dont care.
(: i told teacher i have muscle ache since last week .
today was kinda slack. chinese teacher didnt came to class today.
she was damn pissed with us for locking the door and not letting her come in.
is she that dumb or what. cant she look through the window. and its like no one locked the door.
maybe its the ghost or something. hahaha.
so, we had one hour free to do nothing. [: but i love it. hahaha
i have so many many amath and ss homework to do . rawr.
its cracking my brain again. i hate ss, but maybe i must start liking it.
cause midyear is gonna kill me. with sec 3 work. i dont know a shit ):

gah, i need to go.
and i always forget what i want to blog. thats stupid.
but. nevermind.
i like this keyboard.

on a negative note,
i've never read a full story book i'd borrowed this year.
i know thats dumb. always reading halfway and it ends up in the library drop.
so now, i just borrowed a new book. and i definately must finish reading it.
or i'll feel like an idiot. HAHA. i know i'm one (:

XOXO.
Bye

i miss this thing (:



i know i am dumb.
yes, i dumb.

anyway, Happy Birthday Zhi Xiang.
and.
co outing this friday ! (:
plus carnival on saturday ! yay.
for once, i'm not sleepy today at all. i dont know why.
maybe i must be more motivated for school . heehee <:
plus i have alot of homework. ): and amath test tomorrow.
i dont want to go to school tomorrow ! cause i dred ss lesson ALOT.
ugh [:

in life, you dont get everything you want.
but life still goes on.

the letter A on my computer is spoiled, damn irritating. pfft
i dont feel like blogging, i feel like crap.
Bye.

its so dark,
you just dont see the tears i've cried.
Never .

i managed to study a little bit yesterday.
but it wasnt productive at all ):
so actually it doesnt consider as studying. [:
okay.
today had church as usual, and VISA after that.
and its so not fun. okay whatever.
i know i'm anti social or whatever. but i so dont like it at all.
so went cwp after that and ate again. i know i'm like eating non stop.
i just cant stop eating. omg ! save me.
the moment i start, i cant stop. so i'll just continue eating and eating.
yeap, just reach home at 6 plus. ate my dinner.
and i have to go and study now please ! stupid ac generator test tomorrow.
and i dont know a shit. pfffttt.
i'm not sure if i've done my homework yet either.
ugh. and and i'm broke now.
thanks to my siblings who ask me to buy dinner for them.
i must claim my money back. i have no idea how i spent all my money within this three days.
like seriously alot of money. just fly into thin air.
HAHAHA (:
and i dont want school to start tomorrow !
need to go back co and order the syf photo, i miss co.
i want to touch my pipa again. ):





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XOXO.

BOO.
finally today is a public holiday. i can enjoy more sleep (:
but still, i woke up at 8am. i dont know why.
i have church at 10am anyway. so went to church and service ended at 11.30am.
quite fast. my legs were aching. and they keep asking to stand, sit stand sit.
i'm like [: want to die. and i didnt listen much in the first part of the service.
you know why ? i was simply thinking of the syf song and the syf day.
its stuck in my head ! like forever. whenever i have nothing to do, i just think of it.
a memory i'll never forget, a great experience for me.
and especially the song thats stuck in my head forever (: HAHA

okay. so after church bused down to fareast.
and went walking around orchard :D
but obviously not alone! my legs ache so much ):
i have phobia of staircases. especially going down ones.
cause my leg will ache alot. i dont know why.
just came home not long, and no one's home. no dinner for me.
i'm not that hungry anyway. so lucky tomorrow's saturday.
no school ! i wished there's holiday forever. (:
i need to start studying soon, like really SOON. but i've been relaxing like everyday.
i have no idea if i'm really taking O levels. hahah :D
okay, i dont know what to blog. but i love today (:
Goodbye.

i know its screwed. (thanks to shawn who doesnt even know how to use a camera)

Before

After.


i've finished the race,
and my journey in co !
filled with mixed feelings.
kinda sad that i'm leaving co for good.
i really miss co alot.
and now, i really never regret joining.
i wished yesterday never ended. ):
even though how i used to drag my feet for co practices,
but after syf, i miss CO ! i wish syf last forever and i no need to go back to school
the feeling is just so nice. sigh :
everywhere i go, i just think of yesterday.
the feeling of being on stage and so tensed up.
especially the song, its stucked in my head for life.
even though we just got a SILVER, we did put in alot of effort. and we sustain the award!
Congrats to all co members (:
time to start mugging for midyear and o level.
stress comes again! ? sigh - i hate it ): ):
i miss syf ! and i cant stop thinking of the song.
i miss my pipa too ! hahaha
i miss the fun we had in co. i miss everybody !
rawr. okay enough.

i regret going to school today. i dont know why i did also.
because i'm missing out alot in school work.
so i regretted coming to school and running 2.4km!
i nearly fainted, omg.
i ran 3 rounds continuously. given my pattern, i've never run for years.
and i maintained that speed. i felt like giving up but i didnt.
and my leg muscle ache like hell. i couldnt stand up after the run.
and its damn damn pain. but now its better but still pain.
i dont want to go to school tomorrow! my hand aches too.
all because of carrying my pipa yesterday. maybe i'm just weak. [:
i have so so many amath homework to catch up on, and i frigging tired.
i was so dead in school. someone PLEASE SAVE ME.
i have physic test tomorrow. plus socialstudies homework.
UGH. i dont want to go to school ! lucky friday's a holiday!
YAY. (: carnival's next week. who wants tickets?
:D

@#$%^&*()$%^&*()
i'm so so tired. ):
i feel like sleeping but i cant. i need to study study study!
maybe bathing will make me awake.
so, GOODBYE.

BOO!
didnt go for lessons today again.
went for co practice in the morning!
and i was freaking sleepy and stoned. i wanted to sleep so badly.
i wished i had a bed. i nearly died ):
and it lasted till 2 plus. :\
mrchua left at 12 plus, so we self practiced.
and it was chaotic, cause no conductor.
somehow, it was messy at some parts. and NOISY !
syf's tomorrow ! omgomg.
i must sleep early tonight. although i can go to school at 9am.
i'm scared something will happen. hope we can get a silver.
then its time for celebration, and then full time mugging.
(: sigh, its the last co practice ever for me.
kinda sad and happy. cause i'll miss my pipa. HAHA !
but not mrchua. he's always scolding the pipa group.
<: we're always at fault + noisy. whatever i dont care. this is going to be my last. :D i've been sleeping so much these days. and still being tired. almost couldnt wake up today again cause i slept at 12am ! and i'm so so tired the whole day at co ): but i came back and used the comp instead of sleeping. so i'll sleep early tonight. like at 9 if i'm really tired. heehee. talking about sleeping, i feel sleepy now ! :)

Bye.

Friendships can fade. Family is Forever. (kind of true, but friends just gives you the smiles)

play on this keyboard (:

Love

Betrayal.

its one thing to be let down by a stranger, but to be betrayed by a friend is like a fatal wound to the heart. To trust and love is to make yourself vulnerable. Which also means you can be let down, forgotten or even betrayed. Nothing is worse than being hurt by someone you love.
To risk love and the chance of being hurt, or to never let anyone close?
Have you ever been betrayed before? Have you forgiven those people?
Jesus did. He felt sorrow and compassion for them; but most importantly, He forgave them.

Accused.

Have you ever been wrongly accused? When truth get smothered by lie, it leaves you feeling broken and crushed. Why ?
because you've been treated unfairly? Because you have to bear the consequences for something that you had no part in? How do you feel when people think wrong of you or make assumptions about you, all built on something false ?
Jesus chose to be accused. For you. An innocent man standing as an accused. For you.


this was from the prayer walk today. i didnt get all the postcards.
i want all ! :D
this two made me think alot. and particulary 2 person.
i chose to forgive them, and maybe i shall not be so mean anymore.
heehee (:
crap, i have to go now. my mother is so selfish.
she gave me two more minutes.
and its like only 15 minutes to use the comp. ugh.
i make sure i delete her stuff. haha i'm bad. [:
sigh, co tomorrow again. and syf on tuesday.
i'm so scared. like real : hah.
i've not been doing any work yesterday and today. except sleeping.
must relax for syf. excuses ! i dont care.
GOODNIGHT.