27january2007. tuesday. (: random

dont ask me about anything i write here.

internet & reality is totally different thing to me.

i have split personality with this.

its just different. -random note (:

i love today.

school ends at 1.15.

for once, i looked forward to school without being so unhappy.

tomorrow ends at 1.15 too (: YAY

my mind is blank. i dont know what to blog.

all i can think of is chemistry test on thursday.

and chem mock exam on saturday.

i'm how freakinggggg dead. and i'm still not studying.

damn. i know i'm gonna fail again.

i know i'm nuts for not dropping to combine.

when i fail for like everything. failing now doesnt mean i cant do well in O level.

sigh ):

i hate it.

i hate it .

i hate physics practical. its just sooo boring i wanna sleep.

& i dont want pe tomorrow. it sucks.

i'm just complaining and ranting.

cause life never seem to be as great.

but certain aspects, its still great.

contradicting.

ugh [:

i'm just so stress, because of last minute studying.

and nothing else.

i hate last minute ! ):

GOODBYE.

24february2007. saturday. cny celeb w neighbours

i cant believe, i'm so hardworking today.
studied from 11 plus to 5pm.
and all i did was physics only. [:
but, i'm proud of myself (:
heehee.
i'm so happy today's saturday.
i can wake up so much later (:
and i dont have to drag myself to school.
i had a funny dream last night.
and i found myself laughing la.
dont ask me what is it. its just stupiddd. :D
hahaha.
i'm lost at blogging.

yes, yesterday had co.
and its super boring.
managed to scrape through my audition.
-yay (:
went home for a feast.
parents cellgroup came, and it was so damn noisy.
cant believed i talked on the phone the whole night.
without doing any other things, then sleep.
this is why i have to study so much today.
so fast tomorrow is sunday.
but i'm not really looking forward to tomorrow.
feeling so guilty ): sigh

i'm gonna dieeeeeeeeee.
i'm so stressssssssss.
i'm gonna break down soon.

i've not cried badly since 2007 like i've promised myself.
my tears and pain have its patience.
i hold back everything.
i controll myself.
i know it sucks.
ugh, bye.

20february2007. tuesday. house gathering [: sigh.

babycousin

family07

bubbles !

bubbles&me (:

cny is boringggggg.

UGH.

but i just love the long break.

waking up late is just so nice (:

i've never had good sleep since school started.

YAY (:

and its so sickening school's starting again tomorrow.

i've not even touched abit of my books.

and all the tests starts. ugh

i'm not prepared at all, not a little.

sigh ):

everything's like shit.

whatever.

people at my house now.

i guess they're playing or something.

and i'm just antisocial not doing anything.

i feel like studying but i just dont want to ?

so contradicting. pffttttt

i hate it. i know i need to study

i just feel damn damn lazy.

damn, goodbye.

you know what.

chinese new year sucks.

its getting boring every year.

too lazy for visitation or whatsoever.

and i'm missing youuuuuu ):

come back soon.

i just feel like staying at home tomorrow.

and i'm not even studying when i know i have a load of test coming up

who on earth have time to study during cny

its so dumb. [:

i feel like screaming my head offffffffff.

i dont want to go back to school at all.

i dont feel like studying.

i just screwed up my chemistry test on friday.

and i'm still not going to drop to combine.

am i dumb or what. i want to dieeeeeeeeee ):

i'm addicted to piano.

i cant stop playing after borrowing the book from esplanade.

heehee (:

maybe i should take it up again.

sigh

15february2007. thursday. amath tuition thingy. (: school sucks

i dont have a life.
school is #$%^&*( so stressful ):
i dont like it .
sigh.

sleeping earlier makes me more tired.
and it resulted in making me waking up late today.
even though school starts at 8.30. haha
but i still reach school so early. amazing (:
super super tired today la.
slept during chinese as usual. my sleeping time .
i seriously cant be bothered, i dont do chinese work too
heehee [: i dont know how to pass chinese now.
whatever .

cme is the funniest lesson.
she wore her skirt the wrong side la.
damn funnyyyyy.
and we did our last chemistry practical.
no more titration. haha.
today's one is the best, cause there's purple solution!
(: the colour is so nice. and i poured it on my hand.
but too bad it didnt turn purple but brown.
ewwww :\

after school still have extra s.s lesson
i hate ss the most. so extra la .
then had the physics retest.
and i was the fastest to finish cause it was like so easy.
maybe i read the paper too many times. like memorise
cause its the same paper just that there's no answer for mcq.
then went down canteen for the amath thingy.
actually sort of selfstudy. so i did my chemistry notes.
but i still dont understand a shit about electrolysis
& i'm still using the comp here.
when i have a stupid test tomorrow.
when its CHINESE NEW YEAR. wth

stupid. i dont feel like going to school tomorrow.
but for the sake of perfoming and stupid chemistry test.
damn. school ends at 12pm tomorrow.
but i have to take the test after school all thanks to co.
i wish chinese new year will never be over.
cause there's so many stuff to do, so many tests.
sigh :\ everything sucks.
almost half the class is considering to drop to combine.
should i or should i not ?
i'm like so cannot make it.
but i have to tell myself i can somehow.
stressssssssssssssssssss
i hate it.
i have to get through everything.

GOODBYEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i need to study, omg.
but i feel like sleeping already.
i have no mood to study at home.
rawrrrrrr

13february2007. damn. extra nagg in co. pfftt pissed

some idiot spoiled my whole day in co.
nag and nag non stop. so extra.
worst than a woman please. UGH !
so pissed off i wanted to throw my pen at him.
go and die la.
people study also cannot. and we are allowed to okay.
damn shit. nag for half and hour.

reach home seven plus already.
and my brother is having a party downstairs
and he didnt order kfc for us.
so i went down and stole some. haha.
and i didnt eat what my maid cooked. hahaha (:
tomorrow physics test. so dead, i haven do my tys.
neither have a bathe. rawrrr
stresssssssssssss.
stupid teachers keep on psychoing us to drop to combine.
wth. i die also wont drop. must perservere.
i cannot i cannot i cannot. i cannot be psycho-ed.
heehee [:

HAPPYVALENTINE'SDAY.
(: for tomorrow. haha
YAY .
<3>

you'd be true,
& i love you.

12february2007. monday. co (:

shermaine must be motivated to study.
and i shall not drop any subjects or to combine.
cause i must persevere and do well (:
i know i can.

hahaha .
so, i must go and study hard now now now (:
and i must pass every test hopefully.

goodbye.
my valentine's day is booked by someone.
heehee. sorry.
<3

11february2007.sunday (:

if you cant accept a sorry.
dont say you love God.
cause you're a liar .

i dont wish to hide anything under the carpet
but you are actually the one doing it.
& if you still have that unforgiveness in you,
your Father will never forgive you.

the sermon on 'sorry' today really struck me
i wanted to blog the verses out. but i haven write them out yet.
another day maybe . somehow its so true.
i cant believe i did nothing yesterday. and i went out alone.
finally peace ! heehee.
church today. then went home.
ohhh. and i managed to finish up my geography notes.
-clap for me. hahaha
then after that i went to sleep.
and i just woke up. i need to eat soon. and i just heard i need to go to my grandma house.
UGH. i thought maybe i could study somemore, now i cant.
and i cant talk on the phone ):
i'm sad. i'm gonna waste another night. pffftt
and tomorrow's monday again. i dont know why time passes so fast.
ohya. i forgot about today's dg fun day. we had picnic at the rooftop.
so much food ! (: i'm growing fat.
and i'm sure i'm going to fall sick this chinese new year.
with all the crap i'm eating. hehehe

got to go.
goodbye
<3

8february2007. thursday. (:

totally turned off.
omg, shameless. thickskin -----.
pffftt.
i shall not be evil anymore.
but its pissing. [:
whatever.

school is shit.
and i keep sleeping in class. esp chinese and cme.
did chemistry practical again today.
i'm getting bored of titration although its fun.
heehehe (:
and tomorrow's gonna be even more damn boring.
2hours of chemistry theory. wth ! kill me.
i hate it.
booooooo ):
i am tired now. i feel like sleepingggggggg.
i'm lazy to do my geography thingy.
i'm lost in blogging. i dont know what to blog anymore.
goodbye !
God bless the O level results tomorrow.
smile,cry,bang your head on the wall or jump down.
(:

07febuary2007. co rehearsal at s.c.h (:

you simply cant be described.
seriously, look at yourself before talking about others.
cause i freaking cant care no more.
we are not your substitute.

/ and if youre reading this, dont think its you.

[:

co costume sucks.
the skirt is so freaking long i can trip over. pfftt
rehearsal was okay. hope can be better though.
(: so silent, so scary. haha
its been years since i blogged.
no comp, no time. :\
and goodbye.

i'm dreading school everyday.
and i cant wait for school to end each day.
sigh.
all the best to those receiving results on friday.
<3>