30august2006. wednesday. lastlast day. (:

school was a total bore.
and i cant remember what i did in school except sleeping.
english lesson was super dumb, flapping wings till i could not be bothered but sit down.
we were like dumb idiots. yeah :]
then laid on the table and slept. and teacher asked why do we always look so tired.
i aint actually that tired. i'm just simply bored ! lol
so we started complaining that we have lots of homework, no time to watch tv
by the time we reach home we are dead tired. then have to do work, study and blahblah.
hectic stressed school life. sigh :( this is singapore.

had assembly during amath lesson, so glad we dont have to listen to amath again.
such a bore. but assembly was as boring though. drawing cartoon characters AGAIN !
wth. we didnt bothered. heehee.
emath period, had amath test when common test just ended. lucky its not counted.
but fail have to stay back tomorrow for remedial.
and its so so obvious ill fail. i know nuts about sets.
and i guess ill get my functions wrong too. how pathetic.
i knew how to do circular measure but i just couldnt get the numbers out.
so frustrating, so in all i shld say i dont know how to do. ugh ! i'm just S-L-O-W alright.
i dont wanna be slow :(
didnt have IT lesson after that, so went off. stayed in school to do some work.
it was raining. and they asked us to leave the sch by 3pm for whatever reason i dont know.
left ard 3pm and went home (:
slept and woke up at 7pm :D hehehe
rained, and its colddd -
all the best for those in the interhouse games tomorrow.
IRVINONG, dont be stressed. no one's watching you alright. only your beloved wife (:
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shopping :D
finally holidays is here. but well, more remedials and work :\ sigh
random ;

its a saturday night
dubutantes in elegant gowns
filled with exuberance
dreaming allure of stardom and glamour
those were my fairytales, & never reality
convulse intermittently
cause my deviant behaviour
in retrospect, i realised my mistakes
i'm sorry.

sweetheartwife, i love you.
& you always know that baby .
<3>

colour our opinions, and our peceptions distort the reality. demoralised results.

everyday you pass me by
i could see you in my eyes
empty hearts that need your care
seems to go nowhere
you succumb me in your arms
and take me to who knows where
the past had shrievelled into pieces
but i pieced it back like a jigsaw puzzle
only in me that i remembered
the past memories, never forgotten
repressed myself and wished you knew
it seemed like a catastophic
the morose i felt each and everyday
when were you there ?
to fetter myself from talking to you
and you left that keloid in my heart
that will never fade away, but will subside
someday, somehow i hope for
and to lleviate myself from this pain and stress
it never seems to end, and all i hope for was you.

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demoralised results.
sigh :(
no words to express/ someone elucidate me.
persevere and press on ; forget the past.
stereotypes colour our opinion,and our perceptions distort the reality.

i'm damn frightened by the fact that eoy is in 5 weeks time.
like omg. i so have to buck up by the look of my results and study real hard NOW !
seriously, ill really go mad. i dont wanna retain, and i dont want to fail english.
i really hope i dont :]
the rest is bad enough. like real real bad .
i'm so stressed out , depressed by the kind of results -
lost for words, only tears :(
& i so hate chinese, this is the worst result i ever gotten.
and i didnt expect my chemistry to be that bad when i studied like super hard for it.
hard work pays n-o-t-h-i-n-g.
but in all, i just want to thank God for bringing me through this.
despite the results, God really did helped me manage my time and studies.
holidays = studies

elucidate those doubts
obliterate everything.
paroxysm of emotions :D

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route to poly
good nights.
bye
<3

26august2006. finally blogged. and a break ! phew

FINALLY A BREAK
like so finally i get to touch the keyboard, since the start of mugging for commontest.
lol (:
i thank God for bringing me through this whole week of mugging and stressing and blahs :]
and before the first test, i was really stress. i prayed and God told me.
'Cast all your burdens unto Him and He will give you rest'
yeap, so i left it all to Him (:

i'm so so glad that everything's finally over.
and finally i get to take a short break, but not for long.
i still have to continue studying and lots to catch up esp amath ! rarr
seems like no holidays for me. almost everyday is school and studies !
hehehe
but there's one thing i'm so looking forward to - shangdong trip !
yays ! i'm just excited for it. but there's still like 70 days to go. seems long,but it'll pass real fast.
8 months has passed. its like a gush of wind just blew by.
and before i know it, its o levels ! sigh :( i'm so scared.
i cant remember what to blog anymore. sorry for not posting for so long
anyway,i failed chinese. there's nothing to be proud off.
but i feel glad for my results cause i expected it. and i'm laughing all the way.
managed to just pass physics. sigh how sad. i didnt expect to do that bad.
gonna get results this week ! haha good luck.
heehee :D

today finally went out.
met sophia at bishan, ate and walked around. then caught love wrecked. not too bad.
freaking cold in the cinema. left and went down to toa payoh.
freaking packed because of the superstar.only saw renfred and zhiyang.
walked down to a less crowded place and ate.
then walked back. saw singapore idol finalist, so stayed and watched for awhile.
it was only autograph sesson,so left for woodlands. meet parents. bought my heels and walked ard.
finally reach home at 6 plus. and i'm effing tired now.
i cant type properly. lol
i heart purple <3
tomorrow's daddy's birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !
i always love you (:
hugs-

L language. (:

i'm here just to say LELLO !
and LYELYE.
and this is our 'L' language !
LOL

loff lo ltudy.
ughh

13august2006.sunday. fireworks yesterday (: hoho loved.

yesterday's fireworks was alright.
it wasnt that fantastic anyway. just that the one coming out from the water is damn cool
:D and it was obviously like how crowded. it felt like the whole singapore was there, but obviously not.
er yeah.
reached there ard 8.30 looking for my brother. fireworks was at 9. and ard 15 mins or so.
busy videoing and taking photos (:
waited for most of the people to leave, then left with brother & friends, sophia darling.
freaking crowded like mad. took the train home. managed to get in.
reached home ard 11 plus. and i nearly puked on the way home after drinking icelemontea.
gosh, i dont know why. ate, bathed and went to bed at 12am :]
and my nose was so blocked. rarrr

had to wake up for church early today.
was quite dead today. and my stupid throat is giving me problems. so uncomfortable.
ughh
sick and tired.slept the whole afternoon. havent studied a single shit.
and of cause i'm so so dead for tomorrow's chemistry test ! sighh
i cant understand a single thing
arrghh. my head is bursting. stress ! -scratch head.
i'm so prepared to fail anyway. no use doing anything now but memorising answers.
SIGH
:( i hate chemistry. its like so hard to understand.
pfftt
& big hug to sophiachong for teaching me acid bases salts tys.
and by teaching me to memorise answers. i still dont get it till now. so pissing.
cause everything is so so confusing. roars !

and i better get going now. i'm not supposed to be here.
so byebye.
study time ! :\
love you.
thanks for the great memories . (:
<3huggs
God help me please !

11aug2006.friday !

school was alright after a short holiday.
celebrated ndp at home with mum's friends at my house.
yeaps.
went to irvin's house yesterday. supposed to study.
but end up 'playing' okayy. studied a little lah.
hahaha :D
had lots of fun ! heehee :]

& i cant live without laughter nor food.
i so love my honey irvinong.
and she knows it too.
i want to watch fireworks tomorrow. its on today also !
ahh so nice. heehee
i want to watch it with my darling. hahaha
<3
ah sheesh. exams !
dead !
gtg
BYE

here i am (:

here i am
playing with those memories again
i thought time had set me free
those thoughts of you keep taunting me
holding you
a feeling i never outgrew
though each and every part of me has tried
only you can fill the space inside
so there's no sense pretending
my heart is not mending
just when i thought i was over you
and just when i thought i could stand on my own
oh baby, those memories came crashing through
and i just cant go on without you

trip to indonesia, karimun. unforgetable memories

indeed my comp went -poof just now when i wanted t blog
cause the batt was zero %. :(
hehehe
i just wanted t blog about karimun.
it was sure great fun !

we went to the school to teach the kids there.
they were actually secondary kids. but we taught simple english.
it was fun. and they sang mungkin nanti to us.
awww it was damn sweet. -melts
i recorded it. and i never seem to stop listening to it (:
food in indonesia was great ! yumm.
the lodging was alright. not as bad as i thought.
& i sure did have great fun with my darlings sophia irvin and shandy.
all the nonsense behind the hotel door.
HAHA :)
ill never forget those.
had t practice for the performance at night.
it was quite screwed though. but we sure did a great job at such a last min notice.
yeaps. :D
started quite late at 9 plus. but in indo time is 8 plus. 1 hour earlier.
and ended at like 12 plus. ughh. was really 'dead' by then.
finally back to the hotel for the night.
and at 1am irvin was like screaming cause there was a croackroach in her room.
LOL. so she changed room and slept with me and sophia.

and my sleep wasnt great :( with blocked nose. it was freezing coldd. :]
yeah. woke up at 6 in the morning. got ready, breakfast.
then to mt jantan.
the track was tough but it was a great experience never to forget.
those logs, branches, ants, mud, plants. and the heat !
i swear i was dying on the way up. but perserverance kept me going :)
i could have given up alot along the way. but i didnt. YAY :D
heehee
going down was worst. i hated to slide down the mud and steep slopes.
gahh it was gross. and all the running down slopes were hurting my toes.
it seemed forever to get down. and we were all cursing and swearing that we rather do so many other stuff then get down this mountain ! haha
and we wished that there was a helicopter up there to bring us down.
a plane , an escalator. and blahblah.
but those would never come true.
indeed we took quite long. like at least 4 hours.
finally we reached the bottom and there was drinks. like finally.
-smiles.
haha

everyone was dead tired. took the wooden bus back, got changed and all.
packed and left. had lunch at the house first.
and the ferry back sucked alot. rarrr.
it was worst than a roller coaster ride. gosh-
the feeling was so unglam. sigh :( everyone was like puking.
but i didnt although i felt like it. and potato chips saved the day. lol
yupp. and the feeling of being back to singapore was great.
the air smelled so WOW. alrights.
i couldnt wait to get home to watch tv by then.
yeah. but i still missed the times in karimun.
the fun and laughter with my girlfriends.
and till death do us part ! cause i love you girls (:
<3>
hand in hand we overcome all obstacles.
i love you :D
/unforgettable memories(: