30july2006. sunday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALASTAIR ! <333hearts

i'm feeling quite scared now.
you know why ?
cause i somehow feel the font of my words for the project is like way too biggg
sheesh :]
and i printed out that 5 pages of shit ! pfftt
ahh who cares.
rarr. so so dead. i'm so stressed out with this project that i cant have time to study my other stuff.
and i'm like doing it ALONE ?! wth. it supposed to be a group project.
everyone send me the stuff and i have to edit and do everything. ohwells.
i'm so effing dead !

i havent studied my amath retest tomorrow. ughh
and chinese = who cares. so obviously i dont study chinese. hohoho
i guess i wont be able to sleep tonight with a whole load of shit to do. pfft
yeaps. and that 4 hours of sleep this afternoon. LOL
and i havent done my homework. omgosh.
hahaha

mhmm. school's gonna be tiring tomorrow.
ending at like 4 plus and i still have to go for co ! my last practice cause friday off to karimun
so ill be quite dead for sunday's performance ! hee :D
it will totally be screwed ! ohno.
yeaps. God bless for my chem presentation tomorrow.
its like a so last minute thing. GAH. so i'm bringing everything tomorrow and we'll cut and paste onto the vanguard sheet. LOL :\

yes, i better be going to get things done.
i havent print out the main word 'RUSTING' yet.
so tata.
BYE :]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALASTAIR ! <3
<3>
& i realised it nevered change.
my fairytale was never a dream come true

29july2006. saturday outing. pfft. happy birthday alastair.

finally i'm almost done with my chemistry project.
YAYNESS (:
just gotta print it out. mhmm.
sheesh. i still got to find more pictures !
ohwells, ask shandy to do it since she have colour printer.
heehee :D

finally done with one thing :]
still got more to come. arghh
all my homework not done. and i have not even studied for any test.
ughhh pfftt.
out the whole day. forced out of the house by noise pollution.
gosh. i swear it fills like the whole house was going to collapse or something.
i can feel the vibration. LOL
because of the carpark road works just outside. GAH
went to the new botanical gardens. and it was freaking hot.
as usual i complained all the way. haha
and finally got lunch and went t queensway. couldnt find my shoe after walking for rounds.
rather pissed. and we left without getting anything. how dumb ! :\
rarr

went for dessert. then head t church for mum's whatever flower arrangement thing.
and i have to wait till they are done. wthh
so darn tired ! and it started t rain ! freezingggg coldddd in there lah.
and my head was feeling pain ! pfft.
good thing i brought my books and work along, so i did some.
studied physics and played pool.
ohwells, i was bored to death i swear. and my head was hurting badly :(
reach home ard 5.30pm. and i slept till 8pm.
hehehe (:
ate dinner. and started doing my work ! omgosh. its 10 plus i didnt know.
church tomorrow :)
-grins

ohohohoh. i so cant wait t go to karimun next week ! wheeee
although i dont wanna climb the mountain. rarrr
=/ but there's gonna be loads of fun.
YAY <3
loves.

28july2006 friday. nearly died. stressed out ! pfft

-faints
i swear i nearly died just now. hahaha
alrights, i'm okay now ! thank God.
(: yeaps.
nearly died during co too.
-faints.
was effing tired till i want to fall dead just there ! omgosh.
ended at 6 and finally i get home.
phew. dropped dead on the bed.
and i felt my stomach damn pain. dont know why also.
=/

yeah, bathe and was feeling freaking colddddd.
covered in blanket on the bed. felt as if i was sick ! i didnt want to.
the feeling was terrible. arghh
i laid there for quite long trying to sleep but was damn pain. rarr
yeaps. got out at 8.30pm got something to eat.
gosh. feeling a little better though. watched tv
and now i guess i'm alright. i thank God ! (:
heehee.
hope the pain wont come back when i sleep. rarrs.
seriously stressed out . pffftt
if i'm sick i wont be able to do any work or study then ill be dead.
LOL :]

so many test and stuff to do no wonder i'm so stressed out and feeling dead .
ughh.
so tomorrow stay at home do my work.
HEEHEEHEE (:
seeyou.
BYES
<3>
tobeloved-
cause you were the tears in my eyes, and the night is fading.
my baby fairytale :D

27july2006. thursday.

ahh.
i'm not supposed t be here but i am anyway.
lol
i dont feel like blogging and i dont know what t blog. i'm just bored !
heehee(:
school was alright.
almost every lesson we'll be talking crap and lobsters. and laughing among ourselves.
but i dont know why we just have that urge to laugh during chemistry
and so, i always dont listen. so know why i fail ? hahaha :]
mrhock is leaving :( sigh. it'll be chaos.
started new phy topic- kinematics.
i hope i can understand. or else gonna be :\

ohwells,
pastoral care today did our karimun stuff. but we end up talking crap.
and start laughing our arse off. LOL
cant wait to go.
:D
andand. i'm freaking stressed out. so many effing test coming along.
projects and sheats. rarrr.
-straight line graph retest on monday
-chinese test on monday(who cares)
-emath test on tueday
-amath test on wednesday(sets) arghhh confirm fail !
-chemistry presentation(acid bases )
-chemistry poster on rust/monday

ohfish. gahgahgah.
and mdm ng wants co ppl from my class to perform for the ppl in karmun.
wthh. and is only pipa and dizi. pfft. what crap man.
why are all the teachers asking about co ?! it aint that great okay.
daddy just ask me t see this flower pecker bird on the tree outside.
i took like dont know how long to figure where the bird was. omgosh.
and when i found it, you know how BIGGGGGGG it was.
like 1 cm BIG CAN ! HAHAHA.
i'm like wth. so small. how i see. and its one of the smallest bird in singapore.
oh cool :))

alrights, i'm off.
BYES :D
<3>
& i thought you were my fairytale
a dream when i'm not sleeping
a wish upon a star
thats coming true
and everybody else could tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
when there was me and you

26july2006. wednesday. HELLO PANDA, jeremy

quick one.
i need to go bathe, eat and study !
yeaps (:
school was great.
iheart mr jeremy.
gosh, he's the nicest teacher. only for the time being. cause its he's last week next week
:( gone back to the states !
rarr
he allowed us to view his music on his comp in class.
and he has like 2000 over songs. omg ! :D
hahaha.
yeaps. and he gives us answers to eng compre. and he goes 'whatever'
ha. so we didnt do anything.
I WANT HELLOPANDA FROM HIM ! he owe us. LOL (:

yeaps. amath teacher sucks. didnt listen the whole lesson. i never did anyway.
gosh, i really want to change teacher.
all we do is complain and complain. hahaha so gonna fail amath.
mhmm.
had IT lesson today. finished up our photoshope proj. which was crap.
didnt feel like doing at all.
and we were playing in the comp lab. leg stacking. what crap man :]
spastic.
then irvin kept staying this phrase.
'omg youre so naughty' in a funny tone. LOL
kept laughing like hell. heehee (:
and i kept scaring irvinong ! hahaha.
'there's something behind you' it the seven month. hoho
hilarious. went t the library to eat and study. did redspot physics.
YAY . damn tired. continue later.
anyone have chemistry redspot assessment book ! tell me !
or whatever book. lol

yeaps. got to go.
byes (:
faded pictures, faded memories ; empty

25july2006. tuesday. karimun next week ! yays

& babyillneverletyougo;midnightsilhouette

school was great !
heehee (:
i love physics practical lesson today.
i was so so disobedient. HAHA
firstly, i didnt get my prac book cause i didnt even pass it up ! (even though i wanted long ago)
secondly, both sophia and me doesnt have. and we were sitting together.
thirdly, i didnt bother to listen and i didnt want to do ! hee :]
fourthly, we start playing with the torches, ruler and everything else on the table
( we were doing something about lens for our experiment)
fiftly, we start talking in a group and playing with torches.

Haha. it was damn hilarious. me and irvin were like little kids.
irvin was asking me to sort of 'chase' her beam of light on the ceiling.
so i willingly did. omgosh ! we were like retards.
and the amazing thing was i played till the torch didnt have battery. HAHAHA. shhhh
so i couldnt do my experiment. and anyway sophia was sleeping.
and yeah, who cares. we continued talking with the guys behind us. LOL
and duh, teacher was quite pissed cause she never expect our class to be like that. monkeys !
heh

and so almost everyone dint get the experiment. hah. its pretty hard though.
whatever.
and i'm happy i passed my physics test for the first time i think. okay, maybe not first time.
hehehe :D -smiles
after emath we discussed our lessons for karimun. so cant wait to go next week ! YAYS.
gonna have loads of fun. yeaps (:
mdm ng will print the song sheets for us. and omgosh.
we have to sing songs okay. like teach english in a form of songs.
i have to know how to sing farmer's in the dell- its the tune. but the song is different.
imgaine wearing a vangard sheet over your neck. with your name. LOL
spastic-

and blahblah. left for cwp, phia went to photocopy some stuff.
then went to mac and did our emath hw. finally done with it ! chapter nine is soo short. omg
yeaps. she went for piano and i went home.
ohwells, i'm supposed to get notes for my chemistry presentation. but i aint doing anything.
i'm always like that. arrghh.
going off soon. i must study real hard this time. no slacking shermaine !
haha
yeaps. seeyou.
byes (:
<3
hearts.
/AMATH STRAIGHT LINE GRAPH RETEST ON FRIDAY !
SHEESH. so dead !!! and set test next week. even more dead.
-faints.
and and and i dont like my amath teacher ms giam. pffttt
dont know what the heck is she teaching. rarrr. DEAD !

i love high school musical (: -melts

in the midst of retrieving my links :(
please tag ! and leave your links.
thanks :D loved songs ! yays (:
these are part of the songs only.
-melts
<3>

UNTITLED - simple plan

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER - high school musical

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU - high school musical

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

22july2006. tanning ! yays (: loved honeys strawberries

feeling kinda sick now. a headache i guess ? rarr
but neverminds.
woke up early today, got ready and left.
met phia at yishun. took bus to safra.
and sun-tanned. it was freaking scorching HOT ! burnt - :]
yeaps but it was nice. after a few hours.
i couldnt take it anymore. i jumped into the pool. HAHA (:
it was the noon sun, imagine how hot it was.
at first i thought it was going to rain cause it drizzled a little while.

at 12.15 went to bathe and all.
left for northpoint. went t mac and studied.
PHYSICS ! yupp. and we went nuts.
cause chemistry sucks alot ! arghh
studied 'sound' . wanted to go home and do tys but i realised i left it in school !
GAHHHH
now i have nothing t do ! slept for awhile till irvin called. :\
so now i'm here, cause i dont know what t do . sigh :(
i'm giving excueses everytime ! ! !
oh whatever.
yeahs, byebye
love you all honeys !
-smooches (:
YAY. church tomorrow.
i'm black , not white

20july2006. baby youre always on my mind. and ill never let you go. sighs

been awhile since i've posted.
i'm lazy !
ohwells, life's pretty boring.
sigh :(

all i need is MOTIVATION now. to study to do everything.
been really slacked. hmmm
(: always dont wanna study.
chemistry test tomorrow. chapter 1-9
gonna be so so dead ! pffftt
i dont wanna study ! arrghh
i dont have a choice. wthh
:D

geog test today was screwed. totally talking crap out of my own dumb brain ! its like confirm fail :(
BLAHBLAHBLAH.
more complains and on and on.
GAHHH
school's always fun with the girlfriends i have. YAYS (:
okays, more laughter and we dont listen in class. people thinks we are insanely mad people.
GOSH :]
whatever.
and i better get my arse off and get going. study study study. must have lots of motivation !
whee
byes (:
<3>

we're soaring, flying
there's not a star in heaven that we cant reach
if we're trying,
yeah we're breaking free !
<333>

my sun never shine-d
fake smiles all the way
i wished you knew.
strawberry roses
and straw hearts
you were always on my mind.
& i can never feel that embrace
the warmth.
forever

i heart purple ! frigging bored. second post (:

shermaine's friggingggg boreddddddd.
the boredess in the whole wide worlddd.
alrights.
i'm super duper bored. but i still dont want to get off the comp
i dont know what the hell am i doing ?!
i can jolly well spend my time doin useful stuff like studying rather then spending time on the comp.
omgosh.
bored till i die ! pfffttt.
no one to talk to.
UGHHHH

b
o
r
e
d

yeaps. i shall go now eat and do my work. shermaine MUST study ! wheee
Loves/
:D
I HEART PURPLE (:

summer silhouette
by the midnight breeze
sank down the bank
& my heart's gone
within you ;

16july2006. sunday (: Loves

-faints
i give up doing the links after spending 1 hour on it !
arghh :]
and i deleted the previous template so now i cant get the links back.
gosh ! so pissed off with myself :(
so if you want me to link you then tag please. i cant remember everyone's.
mhmm. new skin finally. sick of the old one (: this is so orangey. heh

good thing still can regain tagboard. if not FAINTS !
i nearly forgot my cbox password too. and i've been spending so much time on this !
rarr
plus browsing through ebay and all. the stuff are all sooo nice. (:
i want a credit card. HAHAHA
yeaps. church today was great !
had new ppl in dg ! <333>
and yups, i took down sermon notes okay. heehee :D
& that lazy arse didnt come :\

frigging bored. dont feel like studying nor sleeping.
so use comp again to waste time . hehehe
seeing my chemistry book makes me feel like puking. LOL
so i wont study. oh shit. i need to return my library book, havent read finish :(
haha nvm.
ahhh i dont want to go to school tomorrow. i dont want p.e and that innova thing.
pfftt. but i cant pon : ] GAH
i bet many people wont go to school tmr. ohwells. i'm a good girl (:
hee :D
& i wasted 2 whole days doing nothing. OMG
sigh :(
i hate everything.

better stop blogging.
i'm always full of complains.
anyway, everybody COMPLAINS ALOT. esp girls.
HAHA
seeya.
BYE /loves <333>
God bless. have a great week ahead ! -grins

14july06. friday. laugh your arse out. tic tac toe

GOSH.
bored again ! aoifjaofoajnscjnoea k
rarr
someone call me to talk.
i'm getting really bored. ive nothing to do.
HAHAHA (:
yeah.
school was great ! laugh like mad during recess after the call thingy.
LOL :D
and we were laughing thru the chem lesson. never listen abit . hoho
ohmy. so dead !
and the teacher thinks we're crazy. whatever. hahaha
so damn funny.

after school still have co. damn boring ! pfftt
but stil no choice. played mi4 throughout. so tired of the lun-ing
my arms ache. sigh :(
yeaps. ended at 6 and home !
i'm tired. but of cause not sleeping. neither am i studying. heehee :D
i dont feel like studying. nothing to study. what excueses. LOL
gah. i cant wait for 9pm to watch the show. i'm so so bored.
i want to conference ! haha laugh my arse out .
okay. i'm talking to myself.

and i dont wanna go to innova jc on monday for racial harmony.
darn ass boring. i dont wanna go school. lets PON !
:( nononono.
arghhh
yups.
seeya. i'm off.
BYE :]
<333>
and i dont know why my blog is so orangey suddenly. whats happening ?!
(@&#$)@(*$ .
God bless.

13july06. thursday. china exchange dinner.

FREAKING BORED.
on the phone
and i aint studying. nicenice.
always thinking i can make it.
sighh :(
i'm so bored. watch tv. online and phone.
-grins (:

yeaps. co performance for the china exchange dinner or whatever.
hee :D was quite screwed . esp the fast part.
rarrr but who cares. its over !
and the dinner sucked.
gosh. -pukes.
:]
and co again tomorrow. -faints
arghhh ihateit. super loongggg lah.
like until 6pm.
pffttt .

physics test tomorrow so dead. havent studied. and i never bring back my physics textbook. only tys.
nice.
okays.
off to watch tv.
BYES :D
<333>

12JULY2006

its been 3 days since i last posted. (:
and i'm using the comp again. its okay.
only for awhile and back to school work :D
HAHA
i'm so glad ITALY WON ! (although its abit late)
but still YAY ! ((:

yeaps
school has been real boring. ending so so late. rarrr
ohwells, no choice.
i'm being so so mean to that person yesterday lah.
anon, your english is so perfecttt man. can laugh my arse out.
and i'm gay remember. LOL
gosh. haha
everyday sure have laughter. especially when you talk to yourself.
and even worst, laugh to yourself. hysterical ! :]
heehee

so fast end of the week. damn
have co performance for the china students tomorrow. bored :(
sighh.
test and more test coming up. i'm so gonna be dead !
and i dont like the new amath teacher. and i dont really bother listening in her class.
its darnn boring. but i have to listen ! -sleeps
:today's IT lesson was crap. did the photoshop thingy again.
and we kept opening and closing the internet explorer cause the teacher wouldnt let us use.
it was freaking boring. HA
oh whatever. and we saw some damn hysterical stuff.
omg.
:D

okays.
i'm going off.
i dont know what to blog.
ohyes. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOPHIA. (belated)
& the roses with LOVE <333
/HEARTS
BYE

youth sunday. 9july06. llets dance

ITALY MUST WIN
ITALY WILL WIN !
hahaha.
ill cry if italy loses :(
yesyes .
hehehe

gosh.
dance was perfect. -smiles (:
yeaps.
i love my God.
i need to go study emath. test tomorrow.
and school tmr at 9.30 !
YAY (:
LOVES /
but ends at 4 and i have damn cca.
rarr
BYE
cheers to ITALY :D

08july06. sighsigh. i'm dying for you baby.

i can feel the pain inside
i can feel the tears in my eyes


here i am again (:
yesterday was a short day in school yeah.
ended at 11.15am
then cabbed to safra with sophia
changed and went down the pool. it was freaking coldddd !
yeaps. and she couldnt wear her goggles cause she didnt bring her contact lens case
how dumb :\ so we swam like 2 laps.
and then we played the slide. hahaha
went for awhile of relaxing and 'slimming' in the jacuzzi.
and finally sun-tanning ! heehee :D
-grins

the scorching sun was really nice ! hothot -
((: hehe
and we laid there for nearly 2 hours i think. burnt under the sun.
oh wells, i can see 2 different shades of colours.
yupp. changed and took a bus to northpoint.
finally we see FOOD ! LOL.
ate and chat in the food court for damn longgg.
then left to look for something.
and finally home. was pretty exhausted and dead ! gosh
and for the rest of the night i did nothing.
eat slack tv . read my book. tv and sleep ! :]

woke up ard 9 plus.
and and. did some emath. stupid variations. i gotta pass the test.
i doubt i will cause i dont understand anything . only simple ones.
and i dont feel like doing anymore. sigh :(
& my mind was so ______ you.
GAH. i never have it.
going for dance in the evening. so late !
oh wells. i hope my limbs dont ache.
seeya.
byes (:
loved/

six july two oo six (:

wth. i'm supposed to be doing my emath homework
but i am using the comp. gosh !
i aint suppose to use lahh. hehehe.
cause i thought i didnt want to do any work today. feeling so slack.
cause most of them are done except zuo wen. i'm so not gonna do it lah.
pffttt
heck ! :]

and irvinong reminded me of heymath homework. i didnt want to do it.
i hate variations. i still dont understand it ! sigh :(
why everything so hard. or i'm stupid ?! ughh
yeapps. feeling tired after co that ended at 6 plus. GAH
and tmr's a short day. YAY ! going to study maybe ? hehehe
so slack ! loves !
arghh i dont like chemistry. i still dont know what the new teacher is talking about.
like not related to the topic. gosh ! everything is so screwed.
now i know why we have to end school at 4 pm on monday while the rest can end at 2 PM !
WTH. thats super super UNFAIR ! only sec 3 express ! ! ! and i wrote on the paper, 'SCREW THE SCHOOL '
:\
school starts @ 9.30am on monday cause they let us watch world cups final that morning.
why not give us an off day. okays, then we'll miss s.s again.
havent have s.s for 2 whole weeks. HAHA
(:

stress stress ! sigh :(
yupps.
BYE. off to finish my work then can watch 9pm show.
so touching. LOL
BYESBYES . cant wait for dance.
and my right thigh hurts please. all for the stretching to do spilt.
and i stretch it even more now ! :D PAIN -
GOd bless (:

04july06. amath straight line graph test. total failure !

i am somehow sleepy ! so i'm gonna sleep
i guess i cant wake up to watch world cup at 3am. germany and italy
and germany must win ! hehe (:
ohwells, school is stressing. i hate it !
sigh :(
stressed to tears ! :\
whatever.
amath test was horror today. i cant understand anything.
so obviously i cant do the test. -claps
pffftttt
so pissing ! i left everything blank for your info. 3 dumb arse questions !
wth.
okays, i wrote some crap. and i really dont knw how to do !
i so need HELPPPPPPPPPP . gah
i was so afraid i wanted to cry there. :(
i cant go on like this. sighsigh why is school so stressing. lol

oh shucks. i havent found the pictures for IT tomorrow. :]
ahh who cares. tomorrow go there then find or something. i dont really care
what dumb photoshop when i dont even have. nvm ! :D
heeheehee
and i havent study anything tonight. watch tv and some homework.
i cant decide what to study so i didnt . what excueses man =.=
so i shall go sleep so i dont need to study. hahaha
hope i can get to sleep though i slept this afternoon until irvin keeps calling me just to ask if i'm angry with her.
wthhhh. i need my sleep okay ! bleahs
okays,
i need to go off ! opps. there shldnt be computer for me. sheesshhhh.
nvm. for today only. hohoho
BYEBYE :)

03july06 dance practice. finally perfecto. sigh

gah
amath straight line graph test tomorrow.
so gonna die ! ugh i hate my backspace key. i have to slam it damn hard for it to work.
so i cant type many mistakes. LOL :D
went for dance practice today and it was great great !
finally we can do everything so perfectly ! yay (:
thanks to our Lord :]

yeapps
quite tiring. but it was sure fun ! hehehe
and dancing relieves stress ,really.
sigh i still have to study ! but i wanna watch tv later.
i dont care. i guess ill still fail anyway. whatever =.=
i cant believe i need to go school tomorrow. day passes super fast.
i better do something later. hahaha
i' m insane ! :\

i cant wait for saturday full dress rehersal and youth sunday !
heehee :D YAY
and now i shall study super doubly extra triple hard and alot !
i dont wanna slack. i have all the time in the world now . hahaha
sort of . nvm
ill try forget- :)
lol
hope i have a great week. yesyes. and the new chinese show is out next week !
i think he's in the show. hahaha i'm so gonna laugh my ass. LOL
yupps. seeya.
byes.
dont wanna blog anymore. my stupid backspace KEY !
rarrr
/loves (:
thank you irvinong even though you wont see this.

02july06. sunday

lalala
church at 8.30am today.
ended at 10am. practice dance for awhile and left.
ate lunch and home.
slept again ! ohwells i'm a pig
wake up ard 5 ?
whatever and start talking crapp to irvinong.
lol

sighh
i'm so so bored !
tomorrow dance prac 8-12
so gonna faint :(
i havent done my homework
cause i dont knw what crap are those.
better get going and do some crap work. or whatever ! gah
i can slack no more. although tomorrow's a holiday.
get things done. amath test on tueday.
i'm so gonna die ! :( zero again for second test ? nono
and my stupid backspace key aint working properly ! argh :]

i'm in a daze. opps-
i cannot stop thinking.
like duh everyone thinks ! HAHA
okay i'm mad. so really mad and stressed out.
shermaine shut up please. and go do your work !
all the best to those taking their chinese o level oral
trust in God.
God bless ! (:
BYEBYE

when the wind blow, you away :( sigh

When the wind blows,
i felt that cool breeze caressing against my face
i strolled along that path
tears welling up in my eyes
one thousand things flashed.
when the wind blows,
it away-
i could never catch it back
into the air, into the sky
i'd never see it again
imagined it would fall back
but it was my hallucination

it was never a regret
never.
it left footprints in the sand
but the waves washed it away
i lost it
it left unforgotten memories behind
the ever-so-greatest memories
it was gone
it is now dead in me
forever
& i shall write no more

-guess what is 'it' . LOL

memories would be forever :]























hearts(:


















hahaha cute right ?

1st july 2006. shermaine has shattered into pieces. sighh. dont leave please !

SHERMAINE HAS GONE MAD INSANE CRAZY NUTS WHATEVER. PFFT

tried not to sleep last night. or should i say i cant actually get to sleep !
wth ! watched 'the park' on channel U last night till 1.30am
quite scary but lame also.
yeah. and i really couldnt sleep at that time. not because i'm scared of the show.
how dumb :] HAHA
alrights, i dont wanna talk bout last night. sighh :( dont ask me also
felt quite tired so i slept at ard 3am. i so did not want to sleep.
dont ask me why also. LOL i'm retarded.
woke up at least 2 times. nightmares. hahaha
woke up quite early in the end. 8 plus. lie on bed till 10am. craps
i cannot stop thinking ! GAH. i'm so lost.
everything flashed back like i'm rewinding a video. i'm serious ! =.=
going to be so stoned everyday. dont feel like doing anything.
less have appitite to eat. but no choice.
:( really really really ______
ugh

going to have dance later. better concentrate and do well or it gonna be screwed.
lol
:) yeapps.
and i havent done any work yet. long weekend with so many stuff also. whats the use ?!
life's so meaningless. i'm just so STRESSED OUT ! RARRRRR
effing stressedddddd mannn. everything turns the other way round. why ?
I'M GOING MADDDD.
SIGH
BYE :(

i've never regreted knowing you.
& you were my all
and i can never accept this
and i'm so lost and confused
i hate everything.
God help me
i dont knw what i'm doing
i dont knw what you want.
sighh
i'm effing stressed out.
i cant take this anymore
i cannot !
but i still love you baby :(
i hope youre alright !
thanks loads