sports day was shit .
effing boring can esp when sophiachong never comes. sigh :(
hahaha. we just sit there and watch them run. but power house won. so its quite a good thing
cause i'm frm power house. got face to go out. hah (:
and yeah. went home with irvinong. ate lunch and went t cwp t me felicia
walked ard. we were being a public nuisance. *oopps*
especially that pizza hut thing. how stupid. lol
then took mrt to bishan(j8) walk ard and there's like nothing !
felicia wants t find out bout that hacker thing. so we were like walking up and down ard the food stalls at b1 while we were both talking on the phone. how stupid lah
people must be thinking we are crazy cause we dont knw what we were doing ! hahaha (:

then yeah. took neoprints. and the machine is super nice. YAY :]
but we chose the wrong one. so it came out super duper small for 4 ppl. and i cant see a thing.
yupp. and i got cut by a stupid screw on the maching while decorating. UGH
i thought what sharp thing that was. and blood was oozing out. how nice.
there's a scar now. :( rarrr
and so, we went back t woodlands. i didnt go t blk 513. next time !
carmen wanted t meet us. but i guess by that time its too late.
wanted t go swimming bud suddenly it rained. in woodlands it never.
so went cwp AGAIN ! (i think its better) walk awhile. then go home ! sianz
reached home ard 5. sigh
so bored. ill go study later. i realised i din bring my zuo wen book home. how on earth do i do.
GRR

mum nagging. argh
so BYE (: i studied chemistry chapter 7 ytd. YAY hahaha
ill study again later. maybe do maths. grins-
i love studying. heehee
misses* LOVE

sigh
i'm stuck here again. but definately ill go do my work and study later !
i've got homework. wow ! hahaha (: all maths shit. grrr :(
yupp
today school was quite sleepy. i always want t sleep during physics. its freaking boring can !
argh. then after lunch ill be sleepy too. stupid sch must end so late. freaking tired !
i managed t listen in class for most of the lessons. YAY except chinese
bud i knw i almost failed my chinese oral. 24marks ok. and teacher told me the comments.
wth ! cause my chinese is so angmoh lah. i cant pronunce anything the correct way. WHY ?!
and the effing teacher say i kept say 'then.. then.. ' when i didnt lor. i only kept erm-ming
hahaha
cause i cldnt think of the word. so unfair ! when my friends can speak english in oral and get fcuking higher marks then me. i thought i wont be that bad. this is the worst of all.
shit oral ! :[

i need t speak more chinese or else i'm dead for oral in olvl. heehee (:
ahhhh
screwed up everything. i cant even do my MATHS properly. so LOSER
sigh. i hate gradient(emaths) and logarithms(amaths) ! how sucky can it get. screwing my brain
UGH
why on earth do we need t learn that piece of shit. exams are in 1months time.
i really better start now. i'm damn scared lahh
and i never want t bring back physics book to study. its so B-O-R-I-N-G please
anyway bring back also wont study. hahaha i have so so super little time.
actually not if i dont watch tv or use the comp. lalala (: yay
whatever. i just have t hold on for another 2 years. and its OVER !
so seeya. BYE ill go study soon.
LOVE ya baby (:

i screwed chinese oral up. i just hope ill pass by giving that wide smile t that retarded teacher.
he's so cute ! hahaha (: and i dont knw how t say cut queue in chinese. so i thought for like 1 min and said tiao4 pai . and i guess thats wrong too. hahaha
i kept saying wrong words. and my pronunciation sucks big time. i'm so used t speaking english!
arghh. i better speak more CHINESE ! GRRR :]
ahh well. we made good use of our time not practising while waiting for our turn.
but literally talking okay. chatted with sophiachong the whole time so that we'll forget bout oral.
cause we were freaking damn scared can ! sigh :(
talked bout alot of things. and laugh like mad. hahaha
today's ava room one was even crazier. the nice tweety birds we drew hur.
wonderful drawing that we'll win 1st price. hahaha damn funny !
lalala
i cant rmb what else we did. but that tweety bird thing was the most hilarious thing ever. omgosh. its like BLACK . lols (: we are so damn mean.
and ohya. the worst thing today was that we had p.e in da rain. slight drizzle.
that was so sickerning man. cant stand it. imagine the sweat and the wetness in you. *gross*
we were drenched. like just bathe finish. we ran 11 rounds the parade square. but there was intervals. like wow damn tired. and blahblah. dont want t elaborate more.
i'm sick and tired. sigh :( i dont wanna go t school tmr. ARGH i want t fall sick. haha

all the effort i tried my best to
the 'socalled' discouragement you gave t me
the 'sarcastic' remarks.
left tears welled in my eyes forever
i could control in no longer
time after time
and i'm trying my best okay.
get it ? damn
ill proof i can do it baby. (:

everyone try not t talk t me during lesson time okays. i must concentrate will hard.
i must pay attention. ill proof t the world i can do it. i'm not a FAILURE. a LOSER okays (:
heehee. so tata. BYE.
i'm on comp again. its a wkday. cause i just cant seem t do my bloody emaths tb.
stupid piece of shit ! RARRR i give up. so pissed !
LOVEYOU.

rarrr. so bored. i'm always bored can ! someone entertain me !!! (:
hahaha i'm audioing with weetiong since i cant webcam . i have no idea why.
so sian ! why wont the bloody webcam work. i wanna play ! heehee :)
sigh :(
today did nothing. went t church as usual blahblah. then go cwp t eat lunch and bought my fulscape paper finally. and yeah went coldstorage and bought lots of food food food ! hahaha
but i have no time t make breakfast in the morning. i'm ALWAYS rushing no matter how early i wake up. haha cause ill take my time to do things. SIGH
where are you ? ? ? are you really not gonna talk t me.
ARGHHH sad :(

oh sheesh. tmr i have chinese oral i think ! omg !!! so dead lahh. i dont knw how to speak.
but you knw my chinese rocks like nobodays one. lalala
tmr is school and stress AGAIN ! like big shit can. i dun want to go to school.
i find that wkdays i dont have any time to study at all. only on weekends ! ohyeah.
i didnt study today at all. i slept !!! hahaha
cause i knw i studied alot ytd. haha must relax
YAY. ahhh i cant get this stupid webcam to work. shit it .
tmr have pe. i hope its not running. sigh :(
seeya. BYE

just upload some pics. i'm bored ! :]

















joleen.me nd pelyn ! (:

me and pelyn (:














so random. sigh :( i just miss her. this was taken quite long ago actually.

yay. finally managed t change my skin and update alot of things.
hahaha. (: i'm so happy ! okays
i love the skin and the taggy board. please tag ! this is so boring nd dead ! :]
heehee
i still didnt get the kind of skin i always wanted. cause i dont knw how t do it.
ohwell, nvm . this is fine,yeah. :)
yupps. today stayed at home again yeah. i am so hardworking today can ! except for now.
cause ill relax awhile . lalala
woke up ard 9plus. started doing my work at 11 plus. did amaths and it was all screwed man.
arghhh. fractions suck balls. pratically all fractions simultaneous qns i cant do them.
screw them !!! so i gave up doing. i was rather fed up. haha. so i shove them away please.
so i went t eat lunch. then continue. took out my chemistry bk and tys.
i wanted t do. but it was like so damn hard i dont knw a single shit frm the tys. so i decided not t do. oh wells. . .

read chem textbk awhile. whatever shit. lazy t take out ws so never do. watched some tv blah.
cause i was looking for the dictionary and cant find them. uhhuh.
i finally found it and did english vocabs. wrote down the words i highlighted frm the readers digest. then checked the meaning. you knw how diligent i am. hahaha (: grins-
there's like 243872651987 words i got t flip for. omgosh ! so tired man ! i did half way nd irvinong called. talked awhile. then now i got t use the comp so here i am. slacking away.
well, ill continue later for sure. really. (:
finally tmr is church. YAY can`t wait ! i am feeling so proud of myself for studying.
*clapsclaps* and some effing arses had t spoil my morning actually. GRRR get your brains pls. !
omgosh. okays. im off.
TATA. BYE (:
eggs are my life. i want t eat wedges ! awww

sigh. i feel so moody today.
dont knw why either. SIGH :(
im not happy. humpx . heehee
today whole day was like so free. chinese always free, geog teacher nv come. then we were like singing monotonous-ly . damn funny. the teacher keep telling us she can hear us screeching !
HAHAHA
then eng also teacher nv come. talk crap again. lalala
then go for chapel. bored like what. so sleepy !
then after sch still have co. no choice. bloody co is a waste of my effing time can !
sat there for like 2hrs and they just played less than a page. like once only.
always stop because of erhu. WTH la ! whats wrong with them. so wasting my time sitting there sleeping. GRRRR
i rather not go. i can use the time t at least do some work right. stupid arse !
ahh whatever. reached home 6.30 plus le. bathed,ate dinner and started at my maths.
wow ! :] i cldnt do my amaths hw so i did some practices. only some qns. then irvinong called.
and she was so pissed. so we started talking for like so so long. so i wasted another hr not doing anything. so yeah, wonderful. i was too tired so i didnt do anything le. watch some tv and im here! hahaha. okays.

sigh. i'm so not in the mood today. because of someone. haix :(
i want t cry . okays, sorry. i'm abit crazy now ! lalala
so stressed over everything. esp studies. damn it ! everything so hard. got so many things t do. like i cant finish anything. so sucky ! i need alot of time and effort. i really must put in !
RARR
yeah. i'm off.
TATA, BYE (:

amazingly i didnt go online for 2 whole days and din really watch tv too.
HAHA. except for today. its like 11 plus now. i need t sleep soon. SIGH
and yeah, i did my homework. i must be extra hardworking now t do well baby. YAY (:
i have the determination. heehee
today's lessons were like so so long. the teachers taught like alot today.
so sophiachong is dead, cause she didnt come t school today. hahaha
and for once i listened during physics class today.nd copied whatever teacher taught.
i'm so hardworking hur. lalala :]
have so many homework. amaths,emaths,chem,ss .. . . dotsdots.
ahhh
nd if you pay attention during lesson, time will pass faster i swear. cause if youre not listening and youre bored, youll keep looking at the clock. hahaha :) and will wait for it t be recess! LOL

today as usual laugh like mad also. we are like crazy people. HAHA
omg i have chinese oral on like tues ! DIE. ahaha who cares when i cant read.
ohyeah, ytd went for sports heat. bud i din run anw. irvin run 800m .
and had stitches, so she sat on the track after 1 round and abit. LOL
i cant run cause im half paralysed. okay , im talking crapp! bud my leg hurts ! hee
my kawaii bubbles went home ytd ! sobx :( i miss her like so much.
i limped frm the stadium t the carpark t kiss her goodbye. :( so sad. i miss her greetings at the door. i miss her kisses. i miss her PATHETIC LOOK she give and her whines ! awwww
I MISS HER ! :(

sheesh. i dont wanna go t school ! argh ! tml have eng chi and geog. so lucky nothing much.
bud i still have co. UGH :X sian !
so sked for mye in 6 wks. i keep reminding myself. RARRRR
ahh so bored. and yeah ,i need t get my sleep.
so TATA nd BYEBYE. (:
HUGS
LOVEYOU (: YAY

oopps. so sorry. stupid blog is screwed.
and all my words are like cramped together.
UGH. just because of some stupid html think i put in.
stupid blog. lucky it didnt cancel the whole thing or else im gonna be so pissed. haha (:

like how cool was the first day of school. HAHA. will blog as short as possible. AHHH. i'm like so bored. ill do my homework later . i HOPE ! i said later okayy. heehee (: so ill use the comp first. yeah yeah. :] sch is as boring as usual, bud with your friends its like so enjoyable can ! YAY yupp. have t learn covalent bonds. lucky no test today. tmr have some small one. i die dunno how t draw. hahaha =\ maths test was on inequalities. and i think i got everything screwed up. although i thought it was quite easy. i'm thinking too much of amaths and simultaneous qns. GOSH. so confused ! lalala so who cares when i think im gonna fail everything. wheeee (: RARR

today english lesson we were like laughing our arse off man ! when teacher only ask us t rite a newspaper report on fire. nd sophia cld make her story so so hilarious. HAHA and we added alot of crap stuff nd started laughing like mad when the whole class was silent ! paiseh. yeah. finally sch was over like FINALLY. today is one of the earlier days. bud i still got co so damnit ! ill try t love chinese orchestra okayy. by slacking. SIGH :( and it was raining heavily like wad. and mistergoh fetched us t the stupid bus stop. ASS !!! i thought it was to cwp. bud at least quite good ! hahaha sianz. school is drowning me. so exhausting. esp today have pe. i nearly died lahh. leg pain! thinking of tmr end sch at 4 ! ARGHHH . this school sucks. even the good schs does not end so late. wtf ! by the time go home already so so tired how to do work . and of cuz i must not use the comp lah . DUH. :] haix

i must really do super well this term man. i only got like SIX STUPID WEEKS to mid year exam wth ! but 10 wks to holiday. hahaha :) i think so much. die die. i'm super scared i fail again. SIGH :( so sad la. have to study like mad. everyday study study study. HAIX =X yeah. wow my post so long again. sorry ppl. i cant stop typing. haha so yeah, TATA BYEBYE (: apologies t everyboday if i offended anyone. HUGSNDKISSES. LOVEYOU mwackx :]

arghhh
i'm like how effing HOT now can. the weather is killing me. ROARR
:) just hung the phone with my darling irvinong. heehee. :]
love her loads man. she took de time t teach me amaths. but after that long long talking i manage t do just a few mini questions. sigh. i wasnt really listening with the comp infront of me.
bud i did okayy . YAY (: hahaha
i roughly 'sketched' out some qns taught. HAHA
nd i'm lacking paper now. in the end, i dont wanna listen anymore. so i just do it by myself later.
which i doubt ill do baby ; teehee (:
RARR. i keep keep keep everything nd use comp first. SIGH
i dont want t go school tmr , i dont want t start everything again.
i fear i fear i fear i FEAR of studying and school. i fear of everything.
i dont want history t repeat again. i knw ill slack and stuff. i knw i cant. i cant have that mind set when i go t school baby. UGH . so frustrating ! DIE :]

i must study hard and do well. peeps ard me, dont influence me okay. bud i guess i influence myself. SIGHSIGHSIGH. dangdang. i hate myself ! dotsdots.
i have t pick myself up nd start again. having t wake up early nd drag myself t school.
DIEDIE. so tired can ! AHHH
(: I HAVENT DONE MY HOMEWORK YET. OMGOSH !!! GRRRRRR
SO SO DEAD. I DONT EVEN KNW WHAT HW I HAVE EXCEPT MATHS.
AND DIE TMR I HAVE CHEM AND EMATHS TEST I GUESS. omg !
:\ stupid shit covalent bonds blahblah. i dont knw a shit can please. dont kill me !
*screams*
ahh bye. i have enough of stress and shit. i havent enjoy my holidays.
and the thought of 10 more wks t the next june holidays really sucks. its quite long for me.
with the thought of having t mug again for the next 10 wks. UGH. nd suffer like mad !
DUHHH.

TATA. BYEBYE (:
-dance-
YAY.cant wait !
you sho kawaiixZXXZXZXXZXZZXZ .
DEAD. i miss everyone. so glad can see them tmr again in school. WHEEE

RARR. so so bored can !
YAY. finally my beloved darling irvinong is back ! like finally! Hee(:
miss her like mad can. hahaha :]
and the first thing she did was call me. *claps*
i'm so honoured. wonder what she bought for me frm malaysia. lalala
i miss her so so much. life without talking t her was like so how BORING can !
GRRR
and SIGH monday sch's starts. DUH.
like crap lahh . i haven done all my homework yet. why holiday so fast end.
i have t face the teacher all over again. get nagged and scolded again. blahblah.
UGH

my holiday wasnt spend nicely. it wasnt as good as i thought. SIGH
i regretted. so boring. i never enjoyed myself at all. while irvinong can happily got malaysia and shop till she drop. so UNFAIR. RARR
heehee :(
i dont really feel like going t sch again. i have t start all over again. so exhausting can !
die die.
whatever. slept the whole afternoon. frm like 3.30 t 6.30 plus.
wonderful sleep. i sleep since i cant enjoy anything. my leg is like so pain so i dont even feel like going anywhere t walk. went t eat kap this morning breakfast. went cwp for lunch.
and nothing much. life sucks when i cant do the things i want ! obviously ! :]
ahhh
i'm off. play my aqua world maple. so kawaii. HAHA.
TATA. BYEBYE.
i wish i could keep my kawaii bubbles forever. omgosh. she's like how cute ! HA
ohya. i keep having stupid dreams when i sleep. gosh. dont want t say bout it !
its very lame! teehee. (:
LOVES AND MISSES.
YAY

i'm stucked at home doing nth again !
SIGH
i didnt study ytd again . haha ! (:
i dont knw what i did wasting my time away. well , i slept ! till 7.30pm
heehee :]
then i ate and watch tv. then sleep .
YAYNESS
i want t go eat my steamed cup corn later. hee :)
GRRR. i hate boredness. i want t go out bud its all shattered.
HAHA
nvm. i just rot all the way. i did my emaths this morning. thats just a few questions.
i cant do my amaths. so so hard lahh ! whines*
so dead for school. there's chem test and emaths test on monday.
i brought home no chem textbk t study at all. thats just so wonderful babe !
i envy those ppl who could enjoy themself just so cool. RARRR
the weather is effing hot can !
dangdangdang.
(: DUH
you look just as sick . davinci code is just so kawaii cool. HEE
so interesting but i dont feel like reading it at the moment. i read a few chapters.
UGH
i'm off ! TATA BYE
[:
i'm missing irvinongfeihui. haven talk t her for days. i simply miss everyone.
misses :)

i'm like so so bored can ! i've nothing t do.
i want t change my blog skin bud i dont dare. i've like to restart nd do everything again
i'm so lazy !! RARR
:) heehee
so i've nothing t do now. haix
i think i'm going out later. dunno where ! ?
SEEYA
bye (:
baby , i'm sorry !

woohoo.
had fun ytd with my beloved sophiachong and pelyntan.
heehee (:
supposed t go khatib the cafe and study. actually i did okayy.
i did my emaths. HAHA, we talked as usual as well tho
lala
then suddenly decide t go t pelyn's house. YAY
went supermarket t get some stuff. then cabbed t her house in less than 5 mins
and we started baking cookies. frying wedges. we indeed made a huge mess.
HAHAHA
bud it was nice and fun ! yeah ,
and they made cupcorn too. very nice. wow
and il was so full after eating. went home ard 8 plus.reached home at 9pm
was so tired and sweaty. reeking of oil from the kitchen. hee :]
bathed. drank soup only and slept ! damn tired.
haha. today we'll just stay at home and slack and rot. i dont feel like doing my homework.
SIGH :(

i'm like so so bored. i dont feel like staying at home. RARR
=X so so bored. nothing t do. stupid irvinong left for malaysia and she left me behind here.
sobs . she dumped me here alone. thats why i'm bored. i cant talk t her ! GRRRR
faster come back baby . i love you. haha
my leg is like hurting since ytd. i dont knw why either. sianz .
i cant go shopping or towning if my leg is like limping . whines *
i wanna go sentosa. who wanna go with me. and i dont wanna run for sports day anymore
so much for my happy ending.
HEE
i'm off t eat my lunch. RARR. i want t make cupcorn later. lalalas
i really have nothing t do. DUH
TATA> BYEBYE (:
I LOVE YOU ! WHEEEE

i'm going off t study with my beloved pelyn and sophiachong ! (:
YAY.
i want t go eat eat eat at the cafe. i'm dying for that since ytd. HAHA
-grins
i'm gonna do finish my amaths homework . i hope i can . and emaths too.
SIGH
i dont want my holiday t be playing so i turned down the offer of watching movie just now.
RARR
i rather do my work . sorry :(
i'm not being selfish .

uhhuh. i just realise my post is like so so long. read till you go mad. HAHA sorry ppl
it seems like i got alot of things to write. i only knw how to blog and rite diaries lahh.
heehee
i'm crazy ! lalala
okays byebye . i'm off t prepare. i dont wanna copy the emaths frm heymath already.
hope sophia brought it for me. haha
TATA BYEBYE (:
loveyou.

hello. (:
back again . like seems so long never go online like that. HAHA (:
YAYS. cuz i dint go online ytd and on sunday i think. ? lol :]
super tired ytd. end co at like 1pm instead of 5pm . so cool
went cwp t look for my brother. pelyn went t watch big momma with joleen.
we went t watch date movie. nc16. damn cool lor. funny like shit bud super short !! =\
walked ard cwp . then 3 girls have to follow 1 guy t yishun to cut hair. how retarded can that get.
RARR :)
then took 856 home which was like damn long. i wonder how the bus travelled all the way home. direct bus. cause i was sleeping all the way . HAHA. damn tired lahhs. -_-"
then did nothing much. watched tv and slept quite early .
heehee

today had t go school for amaths class. i shldnt say remidial cuz its the whole class. LOL
rather bored. teacher keep looking at me cuz i wasnt really paying attention. haha
i keep talking. bud i got listen okays !! hmm
go thru the amaths common test paper and the holiday hw. some qns only.
well , i din do so it does not make a difference. lalala
i'm like so bad ! HAHA
then went off . . . the story would not be continued anymore.
so lazy t type and for some stupid reasons. RARRR
shermaine GONE CRAZY ! (: lalala
uhhuh. tmr dont knw whether want t go watch shaggy dog with wt they all.
sianz. suddenly dont feel like going le. dunno why also. like everyday go out !
tired like what. argh ! seems like holiday so fast gonna be over le.
whines *
:(

dunno wanna go for some apparent stupid reason. i dont wanna see him . haha
i'm crapping lahh . i feel so lethargic. did my amaths hw just now okies.
i did the first exercise . quite easy tho. haha the rest i dont knw how t do le.
HAHAHAHA. so ill just stop doing for today. start again next time. heee (:
i havent done my shopping. i so wanna get so many thousand things.
okays enough of my crapping. i haven check my hey math for elmo's emaths hw.
darn it ! my holiday is like filled with MATHS HOMEWORK>
dont knw whats the problem. i'm going crazy doing maths can . GRRR
screwed the teachers making us get so hectic bud its good for us.
shucks. sch reopen go chem test. DIE i never bring back my book.
oh shit shit.
haha heck. its only covalent bonds which i doubt ill pass. SIGH :( cuz i didnt listen.
so difficult lahh !
okies. i'm off. type so so much. i never tell my mama for tmr. pfft .
i dont feel like going. still have t meet carmen this friday or sometime. lalala

TATA BYEBYE. bubbles is my kawaii doggie. damn freaking cute can ! HAHA
i want t keep her for life. bud i cant ; :(
ugh .
<333>
yayness .

its like so late now can . and i just start blogging . after reading so many other people's blog.
HEEHEE .
i've nothing better t do lahhs. SIGH
bubbles is at my house now. gosh freaking cute ! ! ! (: yay
she looks like shaggy dog. her hair is so so long . i see it pricking its eye .
it feel uncomfortable. HAHA. gosh , why am i feeling for a dog . LOL :]
i so love her . hahaha
today as usual go t church . didnt have dg. played captains ball. was a good game
then went t eat prata near by. the service and food sucks. actually quite okay.
=] yupps
had service. and sermon was about is the bible reliable. and they talked about all the biblical histories and stuff. wow so amazing . i want t be an archaelogist . HAHA so amusing ! (:
andandandand went for lunch then went back t church for soul meeting .
yeah , and i learnt how to play 'when the music fades'. i've longed wanted t knw how t play.
but i still sucked at it . i have t practise alot . i want a keyboard ! buy for me baby , haha
-grins

slacked all the way. justin webcam with kawaii pelyn. damn funny can.
i want a webcam too. sigh -
i want loads of things. i listed them down. its uncountable. i have done my amaths hw.
that sucks cause i dont knw how to do please. someone help !
i have amaths lessons like on tuesday .GRRR RRARRRR
@#^&%*(@
tmr i have co and that sucks too. bud at least i dont have t rot at home. bud rot in school. hahaha
YAY. i didnt want t go actually bud i dont have a choice. suck chinese orchestra.
=] at least is only once this holiday. whewww
and yeah , i want t go sentosa. anyone wants t go with me ?! HEEHEE.
watching shaggy dog er on wed i guess. the holiday seem short i just realised when i have like so many things t do. i haven go shopping yet. > :( awwww
i want t get like so many things. i need money tho . sigh
okays i'm like going off. stupid felicia wants t go breakfast tmr at like 8.30am.
screw her. HAHA

TATA BYEBYE.
LOVE YA BABES.
YAY. (:
I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS. I WANT T SEE THEM SOON.
I WANNA GO OUT WITH EM` YEAH,
I WANNA GO CLOSER T GOD.
I'M SORRY ! :]

i got 2 words t say .
LIFE SUCKS.
i dont knw who t blame , except myself .
the agony of everything - my world torn apart ! :]
the same mistakes repeat over and over again . i get so tired of everything.
life really sucks for me. i dont knw what t say . bud this is just life .
the pain breaking my heart each time. so my trials in life. obstacles t overcome .
that hasnt really taught me anything. if not these things wont keep repeating .
so sick and tired of everything. my life !
what can others do . they just encourage you. it will help just for that second. that moment.
but if you yourself dont have the confidence t face the reality , the same mistakes will repeat again. OVER AND OVER AGAIN . its not as if you wanted all these. but its just there ! ! ! =]
RARRR

the thought of all the hopes that were gone , the thought of parents not understanding everything. the thought that i tried my so best but everything is like GONE . argh.
just the thought of everything just gets tears swelled in my eyes.
there was always the love that i wanted from them , the things that i get . i didnt appreciate anything. i took everything for granted . i never knew what they are going through. what they felt . to me, they just seem t want the best for us . want us t do everything good. as much as perfect . no one in the world is perfect either . the thought of getting that kind of results really disappoints me more ! even though its just the first common test . i just cant accept the fact .
its all just my fault i could blame. SIGH :(
its all over , i just tell myself i will work harder next term or even now .
they were just all words , all actions . i just keep saying the same old thing repeatedly .
my resolutions were just a piece of junk. i keep repeating everything again . i dont knw where t start. i'm so lost ! no one just understands. i dont want tears t fall , but the thought of my life , my everything just hurts me deeply . the smile and laughter was for that moment only . the hurt was always there . i just hide it right behind myself . =\

i knw this cannot drag any longer . i have t wake up from my deep fairytale sleep .
it isnt a dream , its always reality . i have t face it someday . i always cant !
i just be sad for awhile. cool down and start my holiday story again .
it really hurts. i really cant continue this anymore . thanks sophia baby , irvinong , felicia , shandy and everyone who was there for me .esp God . although i've been real bad.
i'm sorry everyone . esp mum and dad. i did all my best i could. and i will do harder next time.
i dont want t be a failure to everyone. i knw i can do it . someday ill succeed.
i've been real bad this year. i've changed alot .i dont knw what i want in life .
HAIX :( my life is bad enough . i dont want t compare . because of ME .
I LOVE MY DARLINGS LOADS. SOPHIA DARLING , LOVE YOU. DONT BE SAD ANYMORE.
CHEERUP. IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. TAKKAIRES. (: GET ON WITH LIFE.
ITS GONNA BE GREAT . THINK POSITIVE . HEEHEE .
YAY

long entry. RARR
TATA BYEBYE.
(:
<333>LOVE SHERMAINE
/in tears :(

the world's on me. i cant take it any longer. i'm breaking down into pieces.
someone save me. SIGH :(
my life's so hectic. i dont knw what i want in life. freaking out.
ARGH ! no one could understand me. tears just swell in my eyes. when will you even realise.
HAIX. so DEAD.
my life is screwed. my common test results are screwed too. i wanna jump down.
i wanna die. i knw its not the end. i dont like everything. ! RARR :]
why must i lead my life this way. not the happy way . why others can ?!
i cant even have a peaceful sleep at night. thinking on what have i done so wrong.
why my life must be like this. why cant you understand me. whats the damn problem.
i'm so afraid t face life. i cant take it anymore. !!! SO SCREWED.
so afraid of everything. AHHHH =[
holiday is nearing. even worst. i rather go sch can. stay at home nd get scolded for no reason.
wth. i need t study harder anyway. haix =(
i'm feeling so depressed. i dont knw what t do. i've slacken alot.
i dont want t turn away from God. He's my only hope. only saviour. the one who can help me.
I love my God. (:
i feel so far away. so near yet so far. sigh -

i need t buck up alot on my studies. or else i must well die. i'm not studying hard enough.
i'm sucha failure. cant do anything. so useless. why parents must be like that.
they cant understand. i'm just so so afraid. RAARRRR .
TATA. BYEBYE. dont wanna say anymore. i just think more and tears fall. forget it !
SO LOVING YOU> IGH SHTERU. MWACHHS (:
YAY . MISSES.

sigh. long time never post.
actually not that long.
i cant rmb what i last post. ahh nvm =)
heehee. commontest results are like shit. i failed my eng for the first time in my life.
like wth. almost the whole class like fail. shit the teacher.
RARR. i hate the school. i failed my amaths too. my everything is like border line pass.
how depressing can that get. SIGH :( so sad can !
everybody ard me is like so clever i feel so inferior. ARGH ! i need t work harder. i dont knw.
so stressed ! fark up.
the world whole is on me. UGH.
so depressing. irritating ! DIE
today's enrichment was like sian . DUH. the stupid 'doctor' was like talk talk.
they are frm china i just knew. like how boring. irvin and me was like making kachang puteh in the IT resource. HAHA.damn crap. the teacher saw us. we are like crapping in the corner.
so sad sophia chong never come. or else its gonna be more crappy. and shandy is not in physics so she had to go for bio stuff. sian ! hahahaha
teacher caught us using comp. actually not teacher . its the doctor's assistant !
he ask us to listen and off it. we were like we got listen ! HAHA. quite true wad.
we did listen some. we are good girls. heehee (:
YAY

i got most of the qns in the ws correct ok. with some help tho. lalala
i got so many qns in heymath to do. shit shit. tmr i have to pass up. GRRR
dead so dead. i haven do ! RARR. overdued hw. so so dead.
i dont want to do. boring !
AHH BYE.
TATA. nothing more to say. i want to watch tv.
SEEYA> lOVE :)

i will fly is a effing nice song. must listen. i'm like addicted t it. keep singing in sch. even when i'm bathing in the toilet. HAHA. i recorded it ! (:
sigh. whats the problem with life. RARR .
i pray for everything t be perfect. give me peace. i ask God. why must my life be like this.
i cant understand . like there's no meaning or something. GRRR =\
i'm glad common test is finally over. now waiting for midyear. sucks !
i cant believe i got like 60 for my chinese compo when she said everyone failed. HAHA
dont knw how she mark our work. hee (: so happy. plus class test also .
sian like shit. ELMO is back.
=X
i dont like her. maybe i will in future. hahas. she' s our maths teacher. rarrr
i'm so scared i fail my maths. sigh. i got 20/30 . that sucks. i got the answer correct and she gave me zero. wth ! just because i never show how i got that step. cuz i did trial nd error.
SHIT HER. 2 marks is all to me okay. f***

today amaths was like hard can. dunno how t do 3 qns. DUH. i fail i guess. definately !
forget it. i confirm fail so whats the point ! lalala =]
i'm just glad that everything's over. heehee YAY
i thank God that he has guide me thru this pass week. manage my time t study and yeah.
i love my god ! =) YAY.
yupps. i'm bored. i dunno what mood am i in . just tired i guess. had co today. bloody arse.
so many ppl din turn up. and we get scolded. UGH. this is just shit. like wth ! whatever.
i'm off. TATA.
indonesian songs are nice.- mungkin nanti by peterpan. wow.
its a sad song. =( i dont understand anyway.
BYEBYE. loveya. mwachhs.
<333>
HAHA.

Ten2Five – I Will Fly

You know all the things I’ve said
You know all the things that we have done
And things I gave to you
there’s no chance for me to say
How precious you are in my life
And you know that is true
To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
and these are all the things I wanna say, hey
I will fly into your arms
And be with you to the end of time
Why are you so far away
You know it’s very hard for me to get my self close to you
You’re the reason why I stay
You’re the one who can not believe
Our love will never end
Is it only in my dream ?
You’re the one who can not see this
How could you be so blind
To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
And these are all the things I wanna say, hey

yay. common test is gonna be over after tmr.
so fadge yeah , i'm free after tmr. hahas
its amaths tmr and i'm stucked here after irvin taught me that qns. i haven tried.
i bet i don`t knw how t do. so wonderful for me. bless me tmr for my exam. wow !
(:
and today's chem is like wth. i guess i will fail that kind. or just pass ! GRRR
everything is like they ask you t DRAW the digram of blahblah. =\ my drawing really sucks.
and there was like no time. RARRR =]
i keep changing my mcq answers. i don`t even trust my own first answer. damn irritating !
and actually is correct bud i changed it ! wtf. so pissed at myself ! ARGHHH
damn it. i'm like how stupid lahh. so retarded ! everything dunno. sigh- i feel like a failure.
UGH
i'm like so happy i passed my chinese, its by Gods grace and his help. w/o HIM i'm nothing
i got like 60 for my compo. thats like so amazing. she told us everyone failed or something like that.
so retarded. she help us pull all the marks up. raahh. i got b3 i think.
calculated class test . wheeee (:

i got f9 for my amaths normal class test. how cool can that be. sigh- =( i need t buck up!!
so sad la. nvm its only sec3 still got time. HAHAHA
self comforting. LOL
physics is big shit lah. can go nd die the teacher. RARR ! =X
whatever can. i'm gonna study everyday after common test. i dont want t do badly.
i need to do well and at least improve. i hate the smart ppl in my class.
they are like so genius. sigh. i feel so so stupid in 3e4 . i think it sucks. DIE
today class was like fun. we joined tables in a row and were like talking crap during eng. chinese
laugh like mad lahh ! hahahahah =)
i love my friends. YAY

after school went library t do amaths with sophia nd pelyn. wow.
and we ate wedges. left at 7 plus. and you knw the best thing.i only did like 2 amaths qns.
how wonderful can that be. WOW
we like like talking alot of crap. and there's this old man. who came to us.
and promoted about his son who has the perfect score for phd and blahblah.
say must ask him . must follow him. blahblah. nd the website thing. alot of website all over america.
and all sorts of crap. so retarded. we are like in sec sch only. he expect us to knw whats thesis and all those shit thing in university. how smart can we get huh ?! lol

die. i need to practise my amaths. so dead tmr. i'm gonna fail can. i dunno anything.
i no need t sleep tonight. RAHHH. okays i'm off.
TATA. BYE (:
ENIAMREHS. nice . <333>