whee i like! hayley westenra

yay i gymed for an hour!
so it was cycling 13k for 20 minutes and doing the stepping thingy for 40 minutes and watching some bitchy show hehe
but i only burned 380 calories :(
and i know if we have the steak pie tonight its 900 calories wheeeeeee
faints

hee there u go, another fat conscious girl

im a very very bad person :(

ok i feel like shit today
felt like crap yesterday
and will continue being bitchy tmr

so stay away if u dont want trouble.

the entire netball team from notts :) imperial oohlala - courtesy of laura 

haha horlicks! i drink it every night for restful sleep! hahaaha


i have wrinkles. sheesh. :( 

some dumb shit we dumped into the rice cooker with soya sauce and it was so freaking delicious
herby chicken thingy with butter and stuff inside, it was again freaking delicious
my lugguage. sigh how am i gonna make it to the airport. and this is what i do to cheer myself up each day, i repack and repack to remind myself im going back. and yea joel has no time for me cos of the exams and eve is going thru shit as well. life sucks. :( i suddenly dont feel like coming back. i ll stay here and hide. 

22 You are now very sad. But later I will see you, and you will be so happy that no one will be able to change the way you feel.
23 When that time comes, you won’t have to ask me about anything. I tell you for certain that the Father will give you whatever you ask for in my name.
24 You have not asked for anything in this way before, but now you must ask in my name. Then it will be given to you, so that you will be completely happy.”

history is linear and purposeful. It has a beginning, a middle (where we are now) and an end that is guaranteed by God. The grief that we experience now and the distance we sometimes feel from God are temporary. The day will come when our struggles will be replaced with joy for ever.

omg WHATs maurice doing here/
heehee i miss mommy and daddy!

this is the worst picture ever of daddy and eve. when i say worst, i mean its maurice i see, not daddy hahahah im really amused. 

maurice's birthday without me! the family looks happy! everyone looks alike! im missing in the picture! 

and this was our favourite stop. :) hee the elephant is super dooper cute
its my favourite picture! 

camden town with elaine today was realllllllly good and haha food was not bad. mine sucked. but hers was good!
wanton soup!
elaine's charkwayteow
the menu! 

hee the 2 babes were such sweethearts to ask me out on a friday night. so we headed to big sains to get junk + 2 pints of icecream. WHOAH baileys, mighty delicious and finished it up and then talked and talked till it was one, and we realised that it was too late for them to walk home, so they stayed over! in my tiny tiny room! 

happy birthday 19th handsome! and hello bays, ade will be back. arent u guys excited. we can take lots and lots of family portraits heehee
 

i love you, twin!


 

i ran another half hour today! whee maybe someday i ll finally make an hour, though that seems unlikely.
species of ades dont run. hee nerds like me only eat.
hee and its very strange how i can walk all the way home with just my tshirt and shorts and not feel cold at all :)
.
im so very excited
joel just told me
that we would go to east coast three times a week
and run in the mornings
i suggested he drop me off at one point and drive to another point to begin his run so we can run towards each other which is cool but

but he said he knew different routes for us (cos of different efficiencies)

heehee
then we will HAVE A GOOD BREAKFAST and pig out and eat and eat
go back to my place to shower
then some shopping/movies
and study at night!

that sounds like a perfect dec for me! wheeeee
EVE WANNA COME TOO? (with him if u guys can wake up heehee)

see the fatty food. yi cooked today. chowmian with stirfried veg + chicken and the jam doughnuts she got me on the way home :( now i need to run again hahahaha
yi says we should eat whenever we feel like it since "we're not fat anyway". and joel calls her lazyi and makes fun of her whenever she s asleep. its so funny now she has to ask if joel's on skype before she dares to take afternoon naps

Marjory gets a tan!

the world's a bitchy place i tell you

talking to eda really inspires me.
i know im far from the good christian i should be
i bitch too much (abt ppl sometimes)
i complain too much
i do all the wrong things

she's right
sometimes, we just have to do the things we dont wanna do, whether we like it or not
and then we'll get that contentment that hey i did it.

really wish i could stand up tall and proud one day and say that i ve been a good person.

on a funny note, yi told me that running makes you fat
unless u run a lot, hahahaha
she's quite funny :) now everything she tells me sometimes is quite cute.

i was stealing some nice yummy low fat thai soup while joel had cream of chicken ? on skype . greedy us. as joel says "i wanna do the same thing u do (drink soup)"

 

dinner for the week is pretty good. cabbage with eggs and tomatoes and onions, doesn look that good. but it is.
an d this lovely thing here is chicken with honey and mustard sauce + carrots. its fab i tell u.
and im eating a lot of rice now. yi says to eat more rice. so OKAY.
tadaaaa ade is happpy whenever she eats 

VICKY POLLARD DANCE FACE-OFF

wow
the 4.5k run today was good
while watching bbc 1
and i was so hot
i just walked home all the way with tshirt and shorts

and i bravely weighed myself while shutting my eyes.
45 in joel's terms is really fat but
i didnt become -that- fat
i was expecting 50 or something..
after ann bravely told me yesterday over skype

"of course u'll become fat, u go to school, come home, study, and sit all day"
and i went "joel is fat too, look at him"
"joel goes out everyday, he's not fat"

and joel is driving to school alr, he passed on friday. it isnt fair.
i told daddy and he said "your driving is like shit, dont compare."
:( :( :(
big bad dad

2 more weekends 2 more weekends wheeeeeeeeeeee

hahaah these are so adorable. i was so going to get them.