geez
i dont think i'll ever understand people
sdiopspiat em naiag.
i'll live with it.

go away you horrible bloodsuckers
argh its itchy.

haha
church today was good
like how to cope with grief.
man and i dunno why. it so suited my mood. and i felt like crying at everything he said.
why do people always go before you
i cant ever picture myself having to go thru the loss of someone.

haha but yea. today i was comforted more than anything else as well.
he said
blessed are those who moan
for he shall be comforted

well at least i know im never alone when i have to go thru pain all the time.
what would i do without this comfort

i think i would just break down and die

hehe and #$^^%^$%#$ tan my backside
i laid there in the sun for an hour with my shirt covering my face. and MY TUMMY's still white. while the back's like a little darker. somethng is wrong. i mean i only swam half an hour. the SUN DOESNT LIKE ME.
okies. i better get down to doing PW.
stinks. tmr i will be a happy girl.

i tried to dream of my beach house.
but nothing came to my mind
and i couldnt fall sleep again.
either that or i always end up waking up and not being able to go back to sleep and that sucks.
cos usually when i keep thinking, i'll go back to sleep. this time. time just crawls. and i have black eyes all over again. hahaha not good at all.

sob. saw your pictures . hehe i miss last year.
i havent talked to you for so long
and i need someone to talk to
not fair i wanna go to the bird park too
you didnt invite meee
hehe

hmm i see anna online
yay.

og today was quite good.
but most of the time. i was hungry. and my tummy started making garbage noises while karen, xinling, lilian and i were watching chocolate and the guys playing pool upstairs
man . i dont care. im going to open my chocolaterie. hehehe MANMANMAN. their hot choc s like real MELTED HOT CHOC and there we were dying of hunger. bloody pizza took ten thousand years to go. and yea. i didnt really get the idea of the show. i was mostly looking and all the brown stuff
argh. chocolate does NOT make you fat friends. repeat after me.
chocolates are FRIENDS

hehe then the pizza came and all the dumb guys ate ten slices each because we had a million boxes. haha and i actually ate so much today because i was dying of hunger. and then we started playing some silly game. which is actually quite funny really.
zheng's the worse pig. haha the first level nine. and erm hakeem's another one. hahaha and pravin likes to think he's like so darn smart. but i managed to trick melvin and melvin got him in the end. hahaha and they mixed some stupid drink that looked like shit. ahhaha and they fell sick i think

i miss ohgeee. tried making pravin invite us to his place for deepavali but i gave myself away when i asked when deepavali was. i mean. im indian baby. hahaha
when do i always end up discovering all the wrong things that ruin everything i once thought was nice. hmm. not good.

looking forward to next year. karen said the laos thingy would most prolly be postponed instead. shit. i wanna go and i know daddy wont let me go now. freak.

but i do know one and one is two
and if this one could be with you
what a wonderful world this would be

no one ever understands.
and neither do i anyway.


im going to start peeling the skin off my feet. it hurts like crap.
lets go shopping sheralyn :P
keep the 8th free? or around that time. after your peeeedoubleyew ok.

argh im so pissed now i could kill

like did the damn powerpoint the whole friggin' day till 2am
and then wake up early to come to school and the shitty thing wouldnt open.

so yea. everyone came down for fun.
thanks to me

and then the com lab had to close. smriti had to go. shamiah came for fun.
argh irritating
but yea. who appreciates anyway.

wahlawahlabingbang.

wahlawahlabingbang.
hey let's go outttttttttt.
hit the beach. haha

since the both of your birthdays are coming.
haha

but whatever. my face is breaking out. it hurts like crap in the sun and sweat argh i dont even feeling like going out now. boo hoo hoo.
garbage.

open house was alright. just felt a little cheated. but yea. nevermind.

haha. i need a break. and plenty of sleep.

Everybody Loves A Happy Ending

Toe the line
Toe the line

Wake up your time is nearly over
No more the supernova
And no action guaranteed

Wake up you've had an operation
Ideals above your station
Too much reality

Think about the waste of time spending
Watching Mother Nature's knees bending
Everybody loves a happy ending

Wake up you're on your own agenda
Give up the great pretender
With baby eyes of green

Wake up you're holding on to nothing
You know you're only bluffing
As dead as autumn leaves

Think about the waste of time spending
Watching Mother Nature's knees bending
Everybody loves a happy ending

Don't you just love a happy ending?
Oh yeah well so do I
And all your love will shine on everyone

The darkness of the day
A curse in every way
You try to see the light
But you don't know why
Don't know why

They tell you on the phone
To give your God a bone
And grow a set of wings like a butterfly

The guarding at the gate
Reminds you that you're late
You try to take your time
But you toe the line
Toe the line

The children of the world
And daddy's little girl
The grass is always green on the other side
So stay and breathe new lies

Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up

Wake up, wake up
Everything is moving faster than you think

Your pen is running out of ink

Fill up your bath and kitchen sink

They're really kicking up the stink

You've never found the missing link

You should be happy and to think

You're rending members out of sync

And God is whiskered as a wink

Once more are different to the brink

hmm.

live
laugh
love



i'll live by these three.

bought nice stuff today. cant wait to get started.
i want to crumble up and die. again.

die. dying. died.

the end.

i thought i studied.
hard.
i just blew my chances





argh my bin's filled with paper.
what a wuss.

hey sheralyn. i hope you feel better. wanted to call too. but i was trying to hard to fall asleep

sometimes i try too hard.

hahaha. whatever. get a grip. there's more to come tmr.
i will just wait.
good luck everyone. and to those who did well, SHARE THE GRADES alrighty. c:

stole this from sheralyn
oh my. you've got to check this out. its so hilarious i almost fell off my chair
silly dumb exam paper
heehee

hmm. hmm. ouch ouch. i want to go home. hurts hurts.

haha man. im freezing in this aircon haha
but do i care. no. i love it. but im hungryyyyyyy. argh garbage

haha talked a bit to vidhya i miss her and suba's nonsense right at the start of the year when we were gossiping so much about youknowwho. heehee.
and now that they're blissfully together, i always see this smile on her face that i m so happy for her. hahaha because yea i can imagine her smiling to herself because she's so in love. haha

but im too lazy to go back for training. hahaha

and MET PENNYYYYY. wheee. haha miss tt Crazy insane dumb silly woman. this one's worse. she amuses me more than anybody in the world with the crazy things she says and daringly DOES. hahaaha man sometimes i wonder if she's right in the mind or if she's a girl at all. BUT yea tts what i so love about her. haha we were just laughing so hard like while walking that we had to stop and yea those were a few good hours spent well. but yea then we finally sat down and got down to talking about serious stuff. and then sometimes you really wonder so much. how something can be so happy and sad at the same time.

something she said which i'll very much keep in mind. and yea i shall live by it
we should always live for the moment.
im going to enjoy myself, have my happy moments, crazy moments, tough moments blahblah and yea at least at the end of the day, im gonna look back and say i have no regrets. haha so there we were trying to rationalise, trying to be optimistic , trying to turn everything dark -bright- again.

SO I am SO NOT GOING to whine anymore. too bad if we have school, so what if i have to suffer thru waking up early, depriving myself of sleep yadda. haha i'll enjoy every bit of it while i can.

and come to think of it, im quite lucky, arent i. i love the people around me. thank you guys. -that knowing smile-

still, i cant wait for after the A levels. hehe my real holiday starts there WHILE the silly boys go for NS. whoooo hoo. hahaha

and yesyes. the last yoga lesson sheralyn and i went for, I DID A HEADSTAND. hahaha so cool. but lousy. yoga's mighty tiring. haha insane. i need a break from my promos. but the break's not coming. -at all- i think im gonna be more stressed up than ever. just look at those black eyes of mine.
sheralyn remember our tanning date. haha tell GRACE> why dont you guys just come over if we're lazy to go to sentosa or something. haha we'll tan for ten thousand hours at noon. and like die from skin cancer together.

ANNNNNNNNNNNA HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. im sorry this came so late. garbage friend i make.

i slept my day away. sleeping straight for more than 3 hours in a row in the day hasnt never happened haha and i felt so good even though i had a big headache after waking up.

hee hee im such a an oldie
"honey there's a hundred million crazy things i do to keep myself from missing you"