sad lives we have before the exams.
even sadder lives after the exams
h-ar har.
cant wait to get away from all this shit i need to convince daddy to bring me somewhere far away
but let me pass my promos first
hehe NIKKI dreamt i got an A for bio and her dreams always come true
but then again
mini dreamt tt we got a GOLD the other time, and yea while her other dreams came true. that one for mine didnt.
things just happen.

happy birthday eve. love you lots and lots and lots.
she was so amused i smsed her a "happy birthday honey " message that she started calling me a bunny. how POETIC. gags and dies-
and she doesnt care about me anymore when she's with dear gerald. hahaha

mommy and daddy went on their dinner date while we wait for dinner at homeee. saddddddd my weekend's gone again. i need to find a way to study in school without seeing those 2 pretty nice and warm librarians. geez. hehe

garbage.

wheee. OK i must tell the whole world that i got kicked out of the library yesterday. hee. #$#^^%$%%# haha yea but i promised i wouldnt complain so i'll be quiet. joel did all the grumbling on my behalf so he would seem like the nasty one not me. hahaha whatever.
chased out all for trying to form words with raisins. man. where's your creativity. kill my innovative and creative juices. ha! and the world will so not be a better place with ONE less talented young lass.
wheeeeeee. hahahaa amused amused amused. though shocked alright. because we were like if she comes , blahblahblah we would do blahblahblah
haha and when she actually comes, we didnt have time to react. arghhhhh
haha 22sept. wonderful day. nice things happen on the 22nds.
geee. spa tmr. baboon. haha had a long chat with dad and mommy on the way home. and more over dinner. yea. and then it all turned into a debate.
and man. yesyesyes the song's so nice.

I remember when I found out about chemistry
It was a long, long way from here
I was old enough to want it but younger than I wanted to be
Suddenly my mission was clear

So for awhile I conducted experiments
And I was amazed by the things I learned
From a fine fine girl with nothing but good intentions and a
Bad tendency to get burned

All about chemistry
Won't you show me everything you know
Ah wonder what you do to me
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh

Some time later I met a young graduate
When I had nobody to call my own
I told her I was looking for somebody to appreciate
And I just couldn't do it alone

So for awhile we conducted experiments
In an apartment by the River Road
And we found out that the two things we put together had a
Bad tendency to explode

All about chemistry
Won't you show me everything you've learned
I'll memorize everything you do to me so I can
Teach it when it comes my turn

Fine spring day, California waves
Sweet Pacific scenes through the
Windows of airplanes and hotel rooms

So when I find myself alone and unworthy
I think about all of the things I learned from the
Fine fine women with nothing but good intentions and a
Bad tendency to get burned

All about chemistry
Won't you show me everything you know
Ah wonder what you do to me
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh

All about chemistry
Won't you show me everything you've learned
I'll memorize everything you do to me so I can
Teach it when it comes my turn

It's all about chemistry
It's all about chemistry
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh

It's all about chemistry
It's all about chemistry
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I

Can you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Coz I can't help crying
And I wont look down

hooo haaa.
i want at least 2 saturdays and 3 saturdays in my 7 day week. that would be perfect. because we all need sleep and sleep is GOOD. haha
i wanna go back to sleep. grrrrrrrr. and my bladder always has to spoil it all. garbage.
man there's like icecream mooncake in the fridge now from gerald. and i wanna steal them. hahaha and all of us were like trying to steal it without evie knowing. but mommy said we cant until she's back. haha so she's back. and im waiting. i need to at least eat a slice or something before i go out. argh my saturday's SHORT.
crazy crappy thingy.
finally bought anan's and letian's present. i AM so BROKE. haha garbage boys who dont pay the class funds. claim they dont have money when they eat so much hahahahah really.
i ve been eating too much. eve says my arms are flabby. haha GASPSSSSSs. faints and dies. someone remind me. heehee

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
EMAIL FROM MOOO> she misses me. SHE SAID SO. hahahaha
and there are NO BOYS THERE. hahahahahahaha awwwww
ok no hot guys. haha
yea. im screwed. die die die. im wasting time everyday. i want another break. ONE WEEK would do. nownownow . i need sleeep. hahaha argh argh argh i need to scream. would somebody kindly offer me your ears.
haha
HMM. im amused with shaf and anan and the crimes each of us commits which they came up with

letian;;s a pimp. and so is henglip. janicia's a loanshark. grace kidnaps babies. i eat them. shamiah murders her husband. shaf's a public nuisance. anan beats ppl up. blahblahblah. haha oops daddy and mommy re home. they pms and menopause from time to time hahah scary. BYEEEEEEE.

haha whoah its 6 and i haven done anything all day because i was erm out. then looking for my spa notes. .because maurice stole them. and then writing and writing just about what s been going on these past week. . haha argh. im finished. i so loook forward to school MAN. im sure. rolls eyes. haha im gonna start studying my spa in a while. i hope. hahaha crap. i neeed help for gp. i really wanna improve. maybe i should start blogging in perfect english. haha
maybe

oh i just love the word maybeeeee
hahaahahahaha whatever.
ouch ouchouch.. school would rawk if we didnt have spa, practs and if pe was just tennis. / free and easy. hahahaha crap. BYE ALL.

and thanks a million grace sister-in-christ. love ya lots. :P



so here's to all the simple things
the dear "all-in-a-day's-work" things
the "smile-and-face-your-troubles" things
trust God to put them right!

the "done-and-then-forgotten" things
the "cant-you-see-i-love-you" things,
the hearty "i-am-with-you" things
that make life worth the fight.

oh really . geez. if you say so. hahaha

haha am chatting to penny.
i miss that girl
and the nonsense we used to shit on the phone.
plotting and planning
and all our strategies.
hehehe girl talk really.

miss anna too. stupid girl. no word from you hahaha
OI. READ REaD READ

each time i try to tell you. the words just come out wrong -

alrighty aint i doing a good job.
no MORE shopping till after the exams.
except that stupid silly me forgot to buy presents for those sept birthday babies. shit. crap. haha argh. EXPLODES. and im currently quite broke. class OWES me moola. lots and lots of mooooooooooolaaaaaaaaaaaaabcdefg.
haha someone just came online with a cute msn nick. funny.
hee. so we went to Tiffany's yesterday. and i decided that i was going to grow up soon. we decided today would be a good day to grow up. ahah and after they left, we went shopping on MY OWN hahahaha and i didnt even realised i was by myself for quite long. and i got so fed up deciding which one i wanted that i just bought stuff. and yea, knowing me, i'll probably end up wearing everything only ones. HMM.
yea and then i had a heart attack at esprit. because some idiot tried to be a manequin. so he just stood there posing. but apparently some girl kept staring at him -maybehe'ssuchaprettymanequin. hahaha- so he had to move away. and then yea i just walked past this idiot . was thinking 'whattheshit. some girl's boyfriend. move away' but i dont know why i turned again. this time i decided the guy was in blue. so i turned again.
and then
i heard someone laughing.
so.
turned again.
stares for 5 seconds before i realise he looks familiar.
oh-it'syou.
what a pleasant surprise.
hahaha and then he started pickin' this top and checking himself out in the mirror. amusin.
i never walked so much last night. shopped for say 5 hours/ then we walked to ps. too crowded. glasshouse. too packed. clarke quay. hee. ate so much i thought i would die. harhar. and the turkish icecream nonsense. the guy's gay. cos he played with the nose. and only gays like backsides. so walk walk walk till esplanade. ok its not tt far. but i love walking. i was trying to brag when i got home tt i walked all the way. and my mom was so amazed and evie had to burst my bubble and say "its darn near darling." i was like oh. but yea. see then we had to walk somemore. back thru citylink. walking is good. it'll get you nice calves. hahaha then i'll get calves like vidhya's. hehe nice and long. actually ANAN. hahahah gay. i like gays. gays are good. it seems that everyone around me have gay tendencies. must have been my influence.
i had my last great night. no more going out. i need to learn. haha

daddy was like how's your samsung.
why samsungs. i was like he's not a samsung. dont like them. samsungs are lousy.
he's like whoah.
is the tv in the family room a samsung. i need to check. brb
-takes the newspaper article out tt says "which tv set would you buy" and shows him. he laughs-

hahah ohmygosh.
no.
its the one they left in the other house.
hhahahaha hilarious.

am high.
woke up early to read the papers. in like 20 years. ok since like wed.

just saw the samsung advert. haha
it says


small is beautiful.

aint tt cool.
dumb pw to do. articles to find. stuff to study. spa to dread.
SHOPPING TT AWAITS ME.

Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

awful day. i want to crumble up and die.
haha but i shall not have any regrets. since i decided to tag along
but here's a word of advice. dont ever think follow your older siblings arouond. its boring and a waste of time and useless. haha
but really. that lady walks way too fast. hahaha she simply walks and walks. and i just cant catch up with her. whatever. you'll say my legs are short and whatever. hahaha but realllllllly. i had to stop and refuse to walk so many times to remind her that i was far behind. and she'll stop and wait. heehee. she thinks im wierd. but well. i think SHE;s the WEIRD one. hahaha hilarious.
but yea. i feel so cheated. but hehe. she felt so bad and decided that i was such a lovely sister and the best sister anyone can ever have that she offered me anything and everything. hahaah she's like "go get yourself a bag" hahaha i told mommy and mommy was like. give her a break. nooooo but later she reprimanded me for something else and i was like "bye mommy" and chased her out of the room. hahaha nonsense.
i need a bag. good you know evie. i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu hahaahaha :P
sorry i decided not to go to the portieee. and now im wasting my time again. i have a huge headache. not huge. but enough to make me not wanna study. haha every excuse i can get. - ok im gonna hide this thing under the table and pretend not to know where it is. good bye notebook. i shall name you. erm. poooter. ok goodbye poooter
i m gonna fail bio. someone help me.

there's always so much to say but so little time.
haha.
like how i typed this shit last night and before i could click submit. the connection went off. haha but i didnt sulk.

haha sheeeeeralyn. its ok. i think the fair's over anyway. grumbles. i still cant do work. haha today was a fantastic day. woke up early to go for a swim and then spent the whole morning stoning. and clearing the old notebook so tt i could transfer everything over to this one. RA. and then it had to rain. just my thing. hahaha and i couldnt help sleeping and my cosy bed which i pushed to the corner. so that i would be surrounded easily by my nice pillows. now i look forward to sleeping even more every night. hahaha

owells. was just thinking a lot. and yea. im not sure. but this time, i really think i ve gotten over everything tt you've done. because i tried to place myself in your shoes and i realised tt i might have just done the same thing, however horrid i think you were. and i can understand if you ever dislike me or whatever. haha so i guess. im able to do what penny told me to do this time. and yea. i figured its no one's fault. so there. i simply have time for this much. i just pray tt the same thing wouldnt happen to me. anytime soon at least.

whooooohoooo. what a day. hahah im guilty.
woke up at like 9plus. went for a long breakfast with mommy and evie.
then came home. waste time. trying on clothes which gerald's mommy bought for evie from australia. hahaha there was this hot pink top. i 'd kinda like to pretend its mine now. ok hmm..
then i met the darling. went shopping. haha crap. i wanted to get so many things. and i was so undecisive that i told myself that i would go back. but i didnt. and there was THIS TOP. ARGH. the color and design was so PRETTY AND IT LOOKED SO EDIBLE. that i ranting on and on about how i wanted to eat it. haha yea but i didnt get it. wonder why. hahaha i dont want to end up eating my clothes . and yes this BAG. a pretty black and pink one. and a white and blue one. as usual. i couldnt decide between the 2. but forget it. im not getting a white one ever again. although. hahaha what crap. and then PILATES. hahaha sheralyn s too tall. she should give me a third of her bones. tt'll be like enough for me. i'll be satisfied. haha and i was telling her today
"you know i wonder how it feels like to be you, looking down on ME" and with so much humility and all she said the difference isnt tt great. hahahaha whatever. and then after pilates. we went shopping again. and the horrible lady said sheralyn could fit into something while i couldnt because SHE"S MUCH TALLER> hahaha and then she apologised because she was afraid i'll be offended or something. hahaha but yea i told her i was used to it.
MUAHAHA> NIKKI> BRING ME OUT SHOPPING. to TIFFANY's.
i need to study. and i just told sheralyn tt i would throw my notebook out of the window. yea IM SURE. why is it that i want to do well but yet cant bring myself to work hard-
im amused all over again. whoopeee.
build me an amusement park. really. :x

there are somethings i really love doing.
and one's dreaming.
shitty dream or not
whatever happened to my book of dreams.
im a dreamer.

and the other thing.
go figure.

pw stinks. im stressed up over nothin. observations tmr. bah.