
here i m writing my blog again. Is been 3 weeks since my ex broke up wif me. well i m not here to tell abt my sob story,dat bastard ex bf of mine not worth to tok abt anyway. i m in the office right now..nothing to do. suddenly i feel so lonely, i do hv frens , but i need some 1 to take care of me.. some 1 i can rely on, share my troubles and do things together. i guess is nt too much too ask.
well i m some 1 who needs love, w/o love i will wither n die.. sounds drama right? but dats just me :) .. i m nt rushing into a new r/s , but there are times i really wish i hv a bf to tok to.. if u know wat i mean. i really wish to settle down wif the man i love.. hv our own family..dat will be nice :) ... i recently had a dream dat i had a baby wif my 'hubby' ... we were so happy! oh dear ..maternity instinct is creeping up on me.. biological clock is ticking.. well ppl tell me i m still young...in fact i m still young..but time flies yeah..hmmm.
now i m concentrating on my work..telling myself don think so much ..come wat may...but wen night time comes .. i m alone in my room, the loneliness sets in, damn, sometimes i cry for no apparent reason..i tot i was being delusional, depress, sometimes i even tot of suicide.. but hey .. i snap myself out of it..lucky me.. but still the loneliness remains. my frens cant be wif me all the time. well i do learn something from the break up ... some times, certain things i hv to depend on my own. but i m only human, i do hv limits.
Life goes on.....in the mean time, i will get to know more frens, do something healthy n positive, i tends to be pessimistic, maybe i shld take up a new hobby or something.. just to keep myself occupied.
i think i will go crazy if i think too much.. so my dear frens ... pls help me to look out for any good guys around ok ?? LOL
**** In life ,frens and love ones come n go, family is the only place dat one can seek refuge from all the hustle and bustle of the outside world, family is the only ppl dat one can totally open up to. i love my family******