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Sunday, December 11, 2011
The time now is 0245 and I still doing my duties. Gonna try not sleeping at all, cause I realise everytime I start sleeping, I feel even more tired when I wake up. Completed 2 fieldcamp alr, 3rd one next week. One word to describe what I feel now. SHAG!!! Book out later in the morning, go home, sleep, wake up, go back camp. sian. But I guess I sort of used to it already.BUT! Going to route march next monday! Super duper long never march already. Feel shag by the thoughts of it. haiz....just some update to what happening recently,Going to sign up for a new Jap course. ok, not really new, just a continution of where I last stop learning. the last time I went for lesson was last march/april if I remember correctly. dropped it cause they teaching stuff I learned before (even though it like much harder than my previous school notes) and also partially I always too tired during lesson. People normally take 2 years to study for JLPT while I went to take the test barely self-studying the notes for 3 months. Looking forward to the lesson! Hopefully I can absorb, what is being taught. I like almost forget all my jap. Watching a jap drama as I typing this, feel damn shiok when I can just type and lesson and ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND the conversation!!!! relying less and less on the subtitles alr! hmm, maybe I should really go sign up for the conversation course too!just going to rant here until I feel tired so u can actually skip this post....need do something to keep myself awake....going to talk to myself here since I cant actually think of anyone to talk to....wah....No $$$ liao...the other I checked my bank acc, only got $0.25 left!!! and my second acc only got $30 left!!!! wah...Been spending alot sia....I think I am going to start going less le. the jap course will be like draining more $$$ away....to think I thought I am getting closer to buying a new camera, or even have $$$ to buy ticket to tw. But I guess I should be realistic ba, Jap course gonna cost a bomb since the sch is like those good one. letter from NTU to ask me go for medical checkup have arrived too. woohoo...to tell truth, I actually having second thoughts about the course. Can't really see much of a future with it. Got a feeling I might flunked the course given that I also dun have chemistry background and I read chp 2 of one of the module I already feel like vomiting blood...haiz, being a scientist have been my dream since primary 1, but I mean, alot of people also gt their own ambition when they were in primary sch, how many really end up chasing after it?Ok la. One of the factor I regreting is actually the pays for the course. Check the net liao, like not really alot compared to business related course and engineering field! Maybe I should have put business studies first. I never really said this to anyone, but one of the reason I choose to put Biomed and biotech as my first two choice instead of business studies is cause I dunwan to make my friends more depress cause they wanted to go for that course, but failed their english. not blaming anyone since the final choice were mine. I mean I someone who sometimes will go with the flow. I rmb deep in my heart I wanted to choose POA as my elective for O'level, yet ended up choosing DNT instead cause my friends told me they going to choose that. Ended up they lied to me and choose POA instead. Seriously, I never wanted DNT in the first place....haiz...why am I talking depressing stuff....azzzznvm, what past is past, I also won't know I can actually crap so much about electronics if I didnt take DNT. Being called the "cut wood de" during secondary sch...I think I the only one in my family who choose DNT instead of POA....something which sort of change my future...cause one step away from business...Should I thanks my friends for it or should I not. zzz. time will tell, if I ever succeed in my career in the future. $$$$...seriously lack $$$$....I like to save yet I like to spend too. must control...my notes in yen and riggit I think will be like more if I change it to sing dollars...good...I just wasted 1 hr of my life here....4 more hours and I'll be through. $$$...i want to be able to earn enough to give my parent, save up to go on a holiday at least once a year, buy my fav CDs, enough to go out with gf/wife in the future if I got. save up for my kids education...lol...I thinking too far liao....zzz...dun blame me, I havent sleep for almost 24hrs liao and I just finished my fieldcamp then duty. LOL....haiz....omg, i seriously can understand most of the jap in the drama...or maybe I too tired nv notice I actually looking at the subtitle subconsiously ...Less than 6 months away to ORD. Seriously, I can't help feeling scare about the future. My future. Is biological science the correct choice, or should I give up and go for a business course instead, But now is NTU who accepting me, and local uni, alot of ppl wan go also cannot, once I reject I confirm cant get in alr cause my GPA for 6 sems is damn low....My future is ruined if I fail to get a second class upper...Spend like almost a year to psycho my mum to finally agree on letting me stay in hostel. Been hearing people saying it a nice experience staying in hostel and taking part in their activities. And hostel also mean less distraction for me to watch TV, and actually have a study table where I can really study. Instead of studying on my bed. Cause I also realised whenever I study in camp using the table, more things enter my brain. Staying in hostel also mean I dun have to travel so long and be able to sleep longer...estimate it will take me 1 hr+ to reach sch I guess...mrt then bus....but staying in hostel also mean more $$$...more pocket $$$ to be able to eat...etc...haix...dunno what else to rant...nvm, settle some stuff for my duties first before i continue on....0420...I am surprised i still awake and getting more and more awake...might be cause of the stupid mosquitoes flying ard this aircon room....zzz...they noe hw to enjoy also sia! getting crazy....dun noe i what writing....anw whatever i wrote in here is all craps....dunnid to read................BoA's "milestone" damn damn damn damn damn damn NICE!!!! Namie Amuro's "Love Story" also Damn damn damn nice! Super like!!!! like one of the best song this season!!!! fall in love with both songs the first time i listen to it....haiz...cant think of anything else to crap....shall stop here ba....0435 now....3 hrs left!
2:43 AM: Izanagi_ang
