sometimes, i feel like i just don't have anymore to give.
whenever i feel that,
i just keep telling myself to push on.
2 years in, it's almost hard to convince myself that i can do it for another 2.
it's an internal struggle and i feel like there's really no one to talk to about.
everyone I've tried to talk to just tells me that i just have to keep pushing,
that I'm good enough to finish and the end is in sight.

i try to tell myself that too,
and i try and keep my raw emotions under wraps,
but it's so hard.
it's really so hard.
i keep thinking about what i will get at the end of it,
but i have been struggling,
and the end may never be quite enough,
to pull me out of this sinkhole.

it's so toxic.
what should i do?