today was spring cleaning day in the household.
and by definition,
anything that hasn't been touched for more than 4 years has to go.

well, my rule anyway.
which essentially means, i cannot almost throw out my entire room.

so, anyway.
i found some cds that had really old photos.
photos, that i thought i had erased out of my memories.

and then i flicked through them.
and i felt pain.
a whole heap of pain that i didn't know existed.
or rather, i thought had gone away.

funny how the brain works.
it's been years and years.
but yet. it refuses to completely forget how much tears were shed,
how ignorant i was,
or how naive i could be.

well,
i trigger the pain today,
but wake up happy to know that they're all just memories (: