you ask for it, dont you.
now your eyes are swollen and puffy,
and you cant get out of the bed.

you'd think that any normal work places,
it'd be empty after 5.

it's obviously very different here.
it's 12 in the morning,
and i would have met at least 5 people in the building.

i think we have a crazy life.

i browsed an older blog that i used to keep.

many years ago,
i used to have different priorities.
what used to make me upset,
no longer does.

importantly, friendships that i used to treasure,
are no longer present.
it doesnt hurt me anymore,
but on looking back,
i finally understand what we mean by
no matter how much we try, friendships never last.

and more recently,
i read this (i quoted a quote from someone else):

"absolutely made my day,
"cause after everything, at the end of the day,
i'll always know that at least there's one person who'll give me
glow in the dark *" "

and you know what, glow in the dark STILL sits in my wallet (:
perhaps nothing can ever replace the position you have.

all i can do, is appreciate what i used to have.

it triggered all that pain in my heart,
that i thought i buried many years ago.

it really really hurts x(