just made some orange chiffon cake and otak.
and omg, they're so awesome (: (:

my chiffon needs more zest, but so so so so fluffy (: (:
YUMS.

says, after a really really long weekend,
i made it to vic mart to get some all asian grocery.
and i wasnt sure i would get them.

but wow,
i have a renewed perspective of what vic mart has to offer.
from candlenuts to banana leaves, to tamarind, to galangal and betel leaves.
who'd have thought?

for now,
i just want to savour my fare (:

how do you tell someone to just go away,
politely?

i really am not the kind of person,
who needs gentle persuasion to pick myself up.
the more you kick me,
the more i pick myself and go.

maybe i just go against the flow.
and today i just got very very annoyed.

because obviously,
i had a look that said,
go away, this is not a convenient time.

and really,
i shouldn be so pissed.
but ive had a very long day,
and draining one.

the last thing i want to do,
is to have multiple meetings on my failed experiments.
really.

im just angry. leave me alone.

communication,
fucking communication.

can you fucking listen to me?
stop getting me to do freaking useless shit.

i've had a very tough month.
be it work or not.

and i feel almost like ive let down alot of people in my life.
sometimes i reflect on what ive become,
and sometimes i realise im putting all these unnecessary stress on myself,
that it really shouldn be like that.

but then,
i know i'll break down if i took the accelerator off.
so i have no choice,
but to keep hitting the gas.

im sorry guys,
im trying my best,
im really trying.