what have you reduced yourself into?
why cant you just stand up for youself for once,
and say that you really don want to do it.

x(

i had a really angry swim today.
it's just something that has been left brewing in me for a while now.
and i felt like i just needed to let it all out.

so.
i don find it very nice at all when people question why i do certain things, or not
for that matter of fact,
hear that scoff.
watch me cringe.
and think,
what an arrogant bastard.

so you have this ideal image in your mind, eh?
tell me when you actually get to that stage
and whether you actually manage to uphold that ideal.

ideals,
you know what?
i have them too.

at least i am at a stage where i am trying to realize them.
and look at you,
you're nothing.

- back at you -

i just wished i could fly to the west end,
to watch ramin karimloo as the phantom in love never dies.

the melbourne phantom was really good,
but ramin karimloo is awesome.