im nodding cause the butterflies are smiling at me.

and so. i made someone smile today.
all part of this make a stranger smile today thingy.

and. so.

school starts tomorrow.

and. it's quite

exciting.

ok. YUE's email just made my day!!
(: (:

they're coming to melb! (: (:

BEAMS.

i thought today went preedy well.
met some nice peeps at biomed.
met more nice peeps at band.

(:

help me.
im falling.

and i'd like to say my timetable doesnt look as gross as it was before.

x(

long journal entry today. x( and my interpretation of south lawn. x(
i belonged there. once.

oh well. i can forsee myself not going to school on mon wed fri. and chionging labs and classes on tues and thurs.

and. i honestly have nothing to blog about.

sometimes i just wish.
for something im not even sure of.

in solo city

so. clara has been going up and down russell and la trobe sts. trying to get her place in order. and it's definitely seeing some improvement.

our house is looking like a house. should i say.

but there are still loads to be done x(
like having the movers over today.

i want to go sydney x(
and
i wanna go to the gym x(

he says im scared.
i think im more than scared. x(

it's too scary. and i just wanna run away.

x( i hope uni can start now.

perhaps.

i just didnt think it'd hit me so hard.

.change.

it. just. feels. weird.

WAH.

moving into a new place is more tiring than i thought it would be. ECKS. ive been running around the whole day. and im tired.

BUT. this particular guitar song made me a happy happy gurl (: i should really go bourke st more often to listen to them play. (: beams. it makes me happy.

and to all (: HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.
and to this special person. (: yes yes. thank you. i received it.

AND. im moving most of my stuffs upstairs. HAHAHA. so im left with like. err. very little stuffs.

AND. school is starting tomorrow (:

TILL THEN. TA.

ECK!

im at home. whees.

today we finally got my anz visa working. AFTER dunno how many trips and phone calls to anz. FINALLY.

and we went ikea! (: wheeeeeee.

and to the lawyers' to sign papers. AGAIN.

and up to our new place. (:

it's a daily thing.

(: valentine's day is tomorrow. and school's starting on the 15th. (:

AND SO.

clara is back in MELBOURNE! hot and hot. x( hahaha. but credit for the breezes. GRR.

hahaha. so. she has been back for 4 hours. and she has been busy.
got our keys to our new place.
issnt big. issnt too small. DECENT (:
spoke to mummy. who was sounding so groggy.
and went down to the bank.

WHEES. my day has been preeeeeeeeeeeedy busy. EH! it is k!
and apparently. fitness first has some new access card system. ECK. which means i'll prob have to go down to like change it and pay. ECK. not today lah.

and i have to call steve too. ECK.

i could list a thousand things i have to do. but right now im just waiting to go for lunch. cause this poor gurl here is hungry x(

her room's in a mess. and her luggage issnt even going to be unpacked until she moves into her new place.

so right now. she has nothing. but the bare essentials. (: Ooooooh. how exciting.

(:

AND. so.

clara is flying off today (: and while uni sounds like an exciting start. there are certain things clara cannot let go (:

so. clara would like to thank everyone for everything. over the last 2 + months.

forged friendships. forgotten friendships. more importantly the friendships that i treasure so so so so much (:

and i know. i missed a few along the way. but yes (: i love all of u dearly.

and to those i... couldn meet up with. thousands of apologies. x(

and of course. relatives. that mean so much to me.
(: yesterday was like cny. and we were going from one house to another. hahahaha. (:
but what was so nice was the dinner at night. where everyone was so warm. (:
it just reminds me of how much we're loved. (: (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA (: and for many more to come (:

and of course. there are mummy's friends. whom we had lunches and dinners with.

and lastly. and most importantly.
this thing called family (:
which i treasure. alot.

(:

im going to miss singapore not for the food or the shopping or whatever. but for the warmth it brings me (: (nono. not the weather)

AIKES!

im so full i could explode. ECK.

and so. clara just came back from her dinner. with bro and friends. WAH. we ordered like. 27 dishes. count THAT. twenty seven.
there were 8 of us. AIKES.

hahaha. conversations during dinner were preedy hilarious. HAHAHA. whoops.

and so. clara woke up not-too-early today. and says sorry to zhenyu x( x( sorry! next time k? bleh. sorrrrrrrrrrrrrry! this is one guy ive not met for a longggggggggg time.

haha. and so. she met mr lee for lunch today at holland v.
and she found zesty orangey/lemony tea which she likes today. YUMSSSSSSS.
and she realised through her convo about r/ships about how she would never confess to a guy. cause she believes in r/ships starting without having to say or having to confess anything.
and she also realised how she's emotionally retarded and would probably take 1 million years to fall in like with another guy.
and she also realised like she likes kai see meeeeeeee

AND. she also realised that she has to keep quiet everytime this driver has to do something important like reverse or make a turn.
HUSH.

alrights. family photos tomorrow! (: BEAMS. i love daddy and mummy (:

AND! THE ARNIE SHOW.

WAS

TRUE LIES! filmed in 1994 (:

HAHAHAHA.

i spent the last hour lying in bed thinking about stuffs.
and.

i realised how emotionally detached i am from myself. HAHAHA. dammit. but it's true! and i need to do something about that x(
i mean. like. perhaps not the whole. showing my emotions too much bit. but. to actually feel.
DAMMIT.
as in. as in. hahaha. this is so difficult to put into words.

like like. TO FEEL AS THE PROCESS IS OCCURRING.

and like.
not.
feel happy after like a few hours
or
feel sad after a few days
or
i dunno! all my emotions!

eck.

hahaha. makes me sound like some no emotion thing right! but it's just that cause i don feel it at that moment. that's why i seem like some cold freak who doesnt know when to feel satisfaction. or sadness. or joy. x( BLEH.

OH WELLS! anyways. i had a nice dinner with family! JAP! WHEEEEEEEs.

and.
ROCK HARD PEACH SORBET.
-arrives-
first 10 mins spent poking and trying to pry it apart
next 10 mins spent gnawing at the thing
next 10 mins still spent gnawing at the thing
FINALLY. gives up gnawing

hahaha. and we had interesting convos at the table. like.
"use ur fire to melt the thing lah!"
"i think u should be born this year. cause ure better at sleeping than using ur fire"

DAMMIT!

heh heh. AND! mummy was so nice and she wanted to buy me my birthday present. HEH HEH. but i wasnt particularly interested in jewellery. for at least. now. so yes. i didnt get (: but i had to admit they were all preedy nice. i prefer walking into mummy's wardrobe and taking her jewellery instead. HAHAHA.

whoops.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEES. alrights. im going to continue to lie in bed. and.

THINK! (:

SO.s.

clara just got home! and yesterday yesterday yesterday! she had a funnnnnnnnnn time (: heh heh. once again.

she started the day with mummy and bro at crystal jade. (: and then to smps to visit. wow the school has changed a greatttttttttttt bit. heh heh. what can i say. 6 years is a longgggggg time (: HMM. and then. she went alllllll the way down to jus to take her stuffs! YAYS. new clothes (: lots of them (: BEAMS. and then she met up with the gurls! (: BEAMS. it's so fun. (: (: love them to bits (:

says we like talked about everything. and anything.

and then in the middle daph and chel had their mini debate

"she's a PHILLIPINO MAID"

"just because she's from phillipino doesnt mean she's a maid"

"you racist"

...

"u know, my physics tutor looks like daph"

"BUT she was hot"

...

HAHAHA. i hearts them (: and of course clara dearests'

"why is there onli one fry"

...

"why did they onli give u the skin"

BECAUSE THEY KNOW I LIKE THE MEAT.

HAHAHAHA. oh no. x( x( x( HAHAHAHA. beams. but i had a greeeeeeat time (:

heh heh. after which. i had to call a cab cause the q was so not moving at all. BLEH. heh heh. and and and. that was when clara's first cry of the year happened! HAHAHAHA. watching i-not-stupid-2. x( bleh. it was soooooo sad! i wanted to buy 1 hour of ur time x( x( x( ok. and i know where rachel and andrew's group got their drama idea from. hahaha.

alrights. and so. we bummed around and watched ladder 49. and arnie's show! haha. and. i don happen to know the title. but. it was something i watched before lah. i think daddy has the ld. WOW. how prehistoric! hahaha. lds!

and macs! which made me realise i never had a macs birthday or attended one before. bleh. x(

alrights. and so. clara is home. and going out soooooooooooon.

and clara. apologises. for being a pendulum x(
i too. do not like to feel like that x(

BUT BUT BUT. she's happy now. because she saw her bird park photos! and lea does her miracle once again. angsty songs.

AND SO! today. clara had such a funnnnnnnnnn day! (: BEAMS.

she went to the bird park!! apparently she went there before! when she was really really really young. but since i had no memories. this was considered my first trip! (: BEAMS. and it was. yes. very exciting (:

we got to see exotic birds. jump and squeal around like little kids. talk to the birds like i was insane.
and then! we got to feed the lories! (: SO CUTE! and then one little lory bit me. and another scratched me while trying to find a stable position on my hand. ECKS. BUT BUT BUT! SO FUN! (:
and then! we went to see the bird show!
and went on the panorail ride. and there was a pelican on the track! SO CUTE!
and then! we went to the birds of prey show where my heart almost fell. basically cause we were sitting at the top right hand corner AND. the trainer was behind us. and falcons, eagles, vultures were flying DIRECTLY at us. and it looked like they were going to fly straight into us or poke us or attack us. OMG. MY HEART NEARLY DROPPED I TELL U. to stare into the eyes of those scary things. eck. hahaha. so basically we were ducking throughout the show. just like the rest of the audience. HAHAHAHA. dwangs! but but but! it was such an experience! (:

(: to sum up. clara had a really fun time at the bird park. hey! it's not a kiddy thing to do k! (:

and then. after her trip to the bird park. clara went for dinner at lingzhi with mummy, violet, my bro and lulu. it was. good lah. but i'll never ever become vegan. i think i'll just die. x( bleh. oh wells! ling zhi was good and we had seriously random and weird conversations. hahaha. that's what happens when u have 3 adults and two kids who just came back from the bird park. HAHAHA.

after dinner. i went to meet tj peeps at nydc! (: u know it's so strange how i don know them that well but i actually feel comfy around them? i think it's a tj thing. to just make people feel comfy around. (:

and after nydc closed we walked alllll the way down to cine. (: and bummed around. and played truth or dare (: hahaha.

ONE DAY K! i'll learn to not believe anything wensheng says! HAHAHAHA. dammit!

but but. clara had a really nice time with them (:

and yes. here she is at home. (:
ok. so baths help (:

im feeling scared. and troubled. x(
BUT. the thing is.

I DONT KNOW WHY X(

and the feeling is no good no good no good. x(

bleh.

alright. i just got home. and im.
t
i
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e
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hahaha. and so.s. clara had a wonderful day./s. heh heh. hmm.

yesterday.s.
clara went on a bus ride hahaha. which lasted 3 hours in total. heh heh.
and went home to nap. and was supposed to go out. but fell asleep.
and then. she woke up really late and realised she hadnt even bathed nor dressed up.
and then. she rushed. and managed to make it out of the house at 7.20.
and then. she cabs over to steph's place and we both made it on time.
AHEM. in fact. early for mr lee's dinner.
and so. we bum around and talk.
and dinner starts.
and ends. with nice convos in between.

and then. clara onli slept for 2 hours. and has the down down song in her head while she's sleeping. TRUAMATIZING. COME HERE HONEY.

and then. when clara got home to sleep for another 4 hours. the down down song still remained to haunt her. eck.

hahaha. and then she was forced to wake up at 1. to go down to sim lim.
and so. the groggy one. managed to buy her hard disk (:
AND look at her sennheiser. headphones. wheeeeeeeeees (:

yays. ok lah. i need to sleep. seriously. x(
and i heard we're going to the birdpark tomorrow! EXCITEMENT (: (:
squeals like a kid (:

BEAMS.

x( i onli have 2 more hours to sleep before i get disturbed. dinner. bleh.
ok. TILL THEN.

Dear Prospective Student,

I write to you as the Associate Dean (International) and Head of the School of Engineering and

Mathematical Sciences in the Faculty of Science, Engineering & Technology, to personally congratulate

you on your recent achievement of a place at the University and to take the opportunity to tell a little more

about the Faculty.

OK. now. i wonder. what course i applied to at la trobe. HMM. engineering and mathematical sciences? HMM. INTERESTING.

hahaha. i just received this in my email. and. they didn state what course i got into. HMM.

and so.s. haiya. it doesnt matter lah. i think they probably sent the offer letter to melbourne. and i so cannot receive it. so. i wont know what course i got into either. HAHAHA.

OH WELL. MAYBE IT'S CHIROPRACT-. heh heh.

someone just passed me a link to someone's blog.

and. HAIYO. although i don really like to read that someone's blog. i realised. or rather. never realised that someone can love (oh wait. crush) a person for like so longggggggg. omg.

hahaha. i would so never. like a person for so long. hahaha. oh wells.

ANYWAYS. i just decided what jewellery should go with my little black dress for tonight! (: how exciting.

hahahaha. mummy kept pushing for the brown set. but i went with the purple one instead (: heh heh. i so cant believe. i used to make all these. HMMMMMMM. i used to have patience. hahaha.

SPEAKING OF WHICH. i still do lah. AHEM. hahahaha. ok. so clara skipped lunch today. hahaha. cause she wasnt about to sit alone to have lunch after someone's AHEM. lunch break was onli 15 mins. HAHAHA. dammit!

so anyways. clara's home. and is going to take a nap. soon.

heh heh. im sitll relatively pissed over yesterday's thing. HEH. sucks.

u know how i used to think that we'd be best friends.
then i thought we'd be lovers forever.

and then. now i look at u.
and i realise how we are just worlds apart.
and i have nothing very much in common with u.

i dont need to be bossed around.
i dont need to be told what to do.
i dont need to assume blame.

and a million other i dont need to. and i didnt need to.s.

the world's revolving. faster than i thought it would.
but im living.

oh wells. on a lighter note. clara went shopping today! and she bought a nice lovely pink dress. and she shall wear it for her grandma's birthday (: wheeeeees. exciting.

and. clara felt so tired after badminton. ARGH. it so kills. but but but. i love it (: hahaha. as in. cause im improving. so i actually enjoy playing (:

wheeeeeeeees.

ok lah. i dont feel like blogging. im not pissed. but im just urgh.

reunion dinner.

daddy and mummy spoil us. (:

but i like getting spoilt.

so we had our little mini reunion dinner. because we all know how occupied we would be over the weekends (: nothing like abit of gooooooooood food and gooooooooooood company (:

im starting to pack my lagguage. yes. i am. and x( it's not looking good x( my winter jacket takes up like 1/4 of it. x( ARGH. anyone willing to give up abit of his/her space for my jacket? x(

this poor gurl here onli has 20 kg x( argh.

and so.s. my stuffs have arrived at isk's. how exciting. more furry stuffs. (:

u know. i always start my year great and then something always has to happen. but i hope this year. it wont go in that direction (: well. of course. i know what i have to abstain from. hahaha. and yes. my year's going to be great. i just know it.

it's like a sign (:

alrights. so. what has happened over the week. HMM. nothing much actually.
wah. it does help to have a calendar where u write down appointments. HAHAHa. i need to get one when i get back. DAMN!

alrights. so. this week so far.

mon
supper with steph and lionel. (refers to post before this) at chomp chomp. and meeting andrew and teoxu.

tues
queensway with the leeeeeeeeees.
attack!
swensens

wed
bumming around!
getting lazy
and getting lazier
happy birthday yuan yong!

thurs
which is today btw.
dental. i swear the dentist hates me. x( cause he kept poking me in the gums x( and dental never hurt like that before x(
finishing meteor garden. SI!
family dinner

and my plan for tomorrow.
thai lunch.
badminton.
hanging around until who knows what time.

yes. (: im getting so lazy.

but but. i just learnt the armageddon song on my guitar (: and i love it.
don wanna close my eyes
don wanna fall asleep
cause i'd miss u baby
and i don wanna miss a thing (:

hahaha. but it's such a lovey dovey song. HAHAHAHA.

ok. im just ranting but i don feel like ending this post. so yes. i ramble on.

alright. irregular sleeping patterns are haunting me. argh. i don like the 3-9 4-6 patterns. cause they ruin my day! and i onli get 8 hours of sleep x(

oh wells. anyways. i shall attempt to start packing my nonexistent luggage. x( argh.
the thought of it x(