It's gonna be a brand new journey

As the initial euphoria wears off, anxiety, fear, anticipation, and all possible earthly emotions envelop me.

Self-doubt was/is the worst of them all. Questioning my readiness, capabilities physically and mentally. These became part and parcel of my daily worry list. The reluctance to engage showed my lack of mind over body. Succumbing to my urges showed my lack of discipline. I knew I would blame myself if anything wrong (heaven forbid please) were to happen. As lost as a castaway, there is really no expecting what's to come and where to go.

Thank goodness for the shoulders I could lean on. Thank you for the love. These keep me sane and carry on riding along.

Prayers

Past couple of weeks have been the ardent following of the news on missing Malaysian Airlines flight MH370. Nothing rang deeper that the phrase "no news is good news". That fact was the only thing giving hope to the loved ones. It gave hope to investigators that if they worked hard enough they may have survivors. However the news, however inaptly delivered and unsubstantiated, was a nasty wake-up. Leaving all conspiracy theories aside, it leaves much room to ponder about the vulnerability and unpredictability of our lives. I pray that for those who have perished, it was quick and painless. I pray for strength in their loved ones. And I pray for the safety of the heroes out there looking for answers as the 30 days lifespan of the black box pings away this moment.

To love at all is to be vulnerable

Credits to The Unbounded Spirit