So true...

EVERY fucking time...

I am... ?

It's a good thing I haven't updated lately and no one reading cause I could use the space alone here to ramble on what's really going on personally... so... I think I may be hexed. By a wizard which evil bidding is to make people feel like a tomato when they're a potato. Not that I'm a tomato, in fact, right now a real tomato has more character than I do... Simply put, what I meant to say is I'm lost. Limbo. Confuzzled. HHUURRGGNNDDAAABBURRG. I think for me, it began by having one of those days where you spent the whole day by yourself, bored shitless until you realise it... that you begin to feel bored with yourself. And then try to experiment in discovering more about yourself only to fail, or do something you love and fail...

Otherwise, I've put aside any of my activities for a while to contemplate, which led me to this point.................. fuck, that was way too much thinking. I think my issue starts with my reasons to compare myself with others... its a compulsive order I had for such a long time, it becomes my daily nightmare. Worst part comes in when I rarely compete with what the competition is, but instead, retreat and sulk over what I could be more. Like those moments where you saw something awesome and say out loud in amazement, "Damn... I could do that..." and do nothing. Cause in my lifetime, I had a billion times where I said that myself and yet achieved nothing. Or it could be something I can do with room to improve, but procrastinate or lazy. So really, its a combination of these negative forces really puts me down low... for a while.

And then it disappears... or hides back into a hole, waiting to ambush me again. The climax/anti-climax of my ever roller-coaster ride of life.

OR maybe its just teen angst acting up again... ggooodd, fucking drama man, STOP IT! haha! I'd admit, I believe I still have these phases which is pretty much the reason why I can sound like I have a tampon up my butt for 6 days! Which makes my case really stupid, because I know it's (may be) just some lame temporary emo thoughts drilled into my head, yet I treat it seriously. I think I have yet to grow some balls and man up... I cant deny it that I am still a child...

SIGH, and that's how I pass my time when I'm extremely bored.

Samsung's new TV Ad

I cant get enough of this:



I think this is the sort of direction i want to go with filming techniques...

ingenious.

From the mist to the massess

Do i dare say that i'm blogging again?

This is probably the worst time to do so, cause i'm a week from my exams, talk about procrastinating! MAN, i can reallyyyyyy procrastinate! I'm not kidding, i make it look like a job! Seriously, throw anything at me I'll take my sweet time with it! I can even procrastinate while eating... seriously, like just now, i googled 'how does pasta take shape?' or that time when i...

OK i just procrastinated writing this entry by watching this awesome Japanese show! Japan is awesome!

SIGH

So it seems for now, im back... i guess. Its gonna suck if i keep quitting things like this easily. Like my deviantart or my flickR or my youtube channel or my facebook account...

Ok, i lied, i still use my Facebook... and sometimes my youtube, but you see what i did there? I just advertised my links for you to access! SO CLICK THEM! AHEX :D


So whats new?? Well other than trying to jumpstart AAALLLL my accounts, especially my dA (cause i'm trying my best to stick to my artistic side), I made a new account! On Vimeo!

Look how awesome it is being all neat and empty! OH LOOK i haven't done anything since 3 MONTHS ago! HAHAHA--

Pathetic.

Anyway, i made it cause i'm into cinematography now. I'm not bullsh*ting, i'm actually realllllyyyy into it. Just not ready to share some materials... yet. I'm pretty much waiting till my exams are over, i got a ton of ideas i've drawn in my sketchbook but none which i really worked on yet! I like my sketchbook....

In other news, i simply cant wait for this film:

I loved the comics, i hope Micheal doesn't suck in it! And...

I've been listening a lot to these guys lately... Thanks to Azka's love for them, i think they're awesome. Same goes for these guys too:



Passion Pit - Sleepyhead

From there, i'll bid you farewell!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

If you are reading this, I am currently taking my time to change the blog for a better layout and name.

I am not sure how long this haitus will take, but i promise you maybe something good will be produced soon.

Also i will blog more, and again.

Like always, procrastinating.

I quote as an important governor once said, "I'll be back!".\

EDIT (20-01-2010): OFFICIALLY BACK!