Monday, June 30, 2008
OMGosh... Just another blow to me when I'm feeling helpful. If you know me well enough, you would know I enjoy helping others. No doubt, sometime when I feel low, I will not be in any mood to help anyone.
@ 12:38 AM
I won't tell people like, here's what I did... I did so much, how about you? No matter how much I do, I will say I did very little, and is slacking, since most people can relate to that. Then if they do alot, good for them. If not, hmmm... then I will motivate them. Tell them to buck up! They won't feel the pressure, my progression about the same with them. I will give them a little push to get them started.
However, it get pretty weird if in turn, that person come to motivate me. Its like... Okay, you did alot, that's great... dun worry... I also do abit. Its really okay, I got do this, that...
If you don't understand the post I just written, nevermind... this is just some random thoughts I want to get off my head.
@ 12:38 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I was playing my violin. I have to admit Im not very good at it and how good I played it depend on my mood (Seriously)... This afternoon, I was playing it and man... however I tried to perfect it, it just suck, reason being I am really having a bad mood this few days.
@ 10:07 PM
Even when I am usually very optimistic, I really feel I lost all my goal in life. The sound that came out of the violin was really bad. Irregular bow stroke, bad tempo and bad intonation. I was feeling really bad then.
What's my purpose and goal in life? I was asking myself. It came to me that life is not just about chasing goals and dreams. Before that, I needed a macbook so badly that I worked so hard but when I got it, my demand is fulfilled, I suddenly lost all motivation. Our purpose in life is to worship and gorify God. Sometime you will be different because not everything the world do is correct. Its kinda like a different perspective and different way of thinking that set us apart from the world.
Its just that the chasing of worldly stuff that make me sway away from what I am suppose to do. The moment I understand that, the music that came out of my violin became nice again. Ha-ha...
Anyway, I have a sister that I do not know to love or hate. No doubt I am still a very good bro and taking care of her, but slowly bit by bit, she's picking up my mom bad habits (with all due respect). She's also slowly developing qualities that I hate most in people. I do not associate myself with people that has these few personalities (not going to say what they are), but now my sister is becoming that kind of person. Talk about irony...
@ 10:07 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
i'm tagged and have to do this survey... okay let's see.
1)At what age do you wish to get married?
- Hmmm... 27. So a few more years, so gotta find the right person asap. Hehe
2)Study hard or play hard?
-Huh? Why don't have 'Slack hard'?
3)Who is the person you trust most?
-let's see... oh... there's one. The person standing behind the mirror.
4)Why do you think you have not enough confidence?
-you ask the wrong person. I even conduct 'self-confidence 101' class.
5)If you have a dream come true,what will it be?
-the girl of my dream become my gf. Muahahaha!!!
6)What is ur idea of a friend?
-Help you do your work(hohoho), lend you a listening ear when you just wan to tok.
7)What is your goal this year?
-spread gospel to a particular friend
8)Do you believe in eternity love?
-yes, God love for us?
9)If you have all the time and money in the world,what would u do?
-Buy an island, build a chalet, and moved in with my family.
10)If time were to unwind,what would you change?
-Hmmm... I already thought of this question alot of time. It is to prevent disaster. Warn USA about the 911 crash, warn people about the Tsumami, warn China about the Si Chuan Quake, etc
11)If the person you love is dying,would you stay with him/her or lead a happy single life?
-stay. And hope time will stop at that moment. Forever.
12)What are the feelings you hate the most?
-Getting backstabbed.
13)Do you cherish all friendhsip of yours?
-YESHHH... of course. But one need to understand that most friends is just passing-by your life. You need to just select a few a build strong relationship with and cherish them.
14)Do you believe love at first sight?
-Yes. The girl of my dream is one of the example.
15)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-God
16)Who do you hope to be always behind you,supporting you?
-God
17)People who are going to be hated by you?
-what a question. God wants us to love everyone, even your enemies. I hate the sins/wrong-doings of the person, not the person.
18)Describe the person that tagged you in 5 words.
-[Suwen] Smart(top 10 in class leh!!!), Entertaining(her blog very nice), and... and... very... (oops, I ran up of my 5 words limit =/ )
19)How many percent do you think you are infront of your friend?
-101% I try VERY best to be the best friend a friend could ever have. Hahahaha =D
20)Do you think long-distance relationship will work out?
-i know of some who do but if you asked me, I don't think so.
@ 10:55 PM
1)At what age do you wish to get married?
- Hmmm... 27. So a few more years, so gotta find the right person asap. Hehe
2)Study hard or play hard?
-Huh? Why don't have 'Slack hard'?
3)Who is the person you trust most?
-let's see... oh... there's one. The person standing behind the mirror.
4)Why do you think you have not enough confidence?
-you ask the wrong person. I even conduct 'self-confidence 101' class.
5)If you have a dream come true,what will it be?
-the girl of my dream become my gf. Muahahaha!!!
6)What is ur idea of a friend?
-Help you do your work(hohoho), lend you a listening ear when you just wan to tok.
7)What is your goal this year?
-spread gospel to a particular friend
8)Do you believe in eternity love?
-yes, God love for us?
9)If you have all the time and money in the world,what would u do?
-Buy an island, build a chalet, and moved in with my family.
10)If time were to unwind,what would you change?
-Hmmm... I already thought of this question alot of time. It is to prevent disaster. Warn USA about the 911 crash, warn people about the Tsumami, warn China about the Si Chuan Quake, etc
11)If the person you love is dying,would you stay with him/her or lead a happy single life?
-stay. And hope time will stop at that moment. Forever.
12)What are the feelings you hate the most?
-Getting backstabbed.
13)Do you cherish all friendhsip of yours?
-YESHHH... of course. But one need to understand that most friends is just passing-by your life. You need to just select a few a build strong relationship with and cherish them.
14)Do you believe love at first sight?
-Yes. The girl of my dream is one of the example.
15)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-God
16)Who do you hope to be always behind you,supporting you?
-God
17)People who are going to be hated by you?
-what a question. God wants us to love everyone, even your enemies. I hate the sins/wrong-doings of the person, not the person.
18)Describe the person that tagged you in 5 words.
-[Suwen] Smart(top 10 in class leh!!!), Entertaining(her blog very nice), and... and... very... (oops, I ran up of my 5 words limit =/ )
19)How many percent do you think you are infront of your friend?
-101% I try VERY best to be the best friend a friend could ever have. Hahahaha =D
20)Do you think long-distance relationship will work out?
-i know of some who do but if you asked me, I don't think so.
@ 10:55 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Today we watched a series of Twilight Zone on a man imaging things and going crazy for being alone in a small confined space for 2 weeks. Solitary. It will drive people crazy some time. Once you get addicted of having company or companion around you, you can't live without them. Its the same scenario for me now... going back to the solitary of my home, I begin to miss their company.
@ 12:33 AM
Anyway, today while we are told to change group, I was abit reluctant to leave my formal group but in the end, I never regret leaving the group cos I told Daniel to replace my place. He look so cute and his head was low all the time. I think he is shy when he is around the girls (which he do not know). Justin was okay, he was cool, but Daniel just isn't used to talking to girl that is a stranger to him.
He reminded me of a friend who was in Boy's school from Primary to Secondary school. That friend of mine was just like him... Being shy when looking and talking to girls. But all his talk about is how to get girls. He was pretty girl deprived... and looked a little desperate and needy.
Hmm... I had alot on my mind rite now but I have to sign off here since I need to wake up early tomorrow for violin lesson... so ciao. Good nite
@ 12:33 AM
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Recently, I went crazy over movies. Watching past movies. Just today, I downloaded(oops) Hellboy, Spiderwick Chronicles, Next, Sunshine and Chocolate (thai martial art fighting movie). Just watch Hellboy and Sunshine. Ha-ha, so anyway, I'm waiting for the DVDrip version of Kungfu Panda to come out.
@ 6:29 PM
By the way, the whole family, except me, went to Thailand for a church excursion. SO, finally HOME ALONE for 3-4 days... Its damn cool. The whole house for myself, and stock full of tibits and foods enough to organize party! Wooohoo, but I won't lar, of course, I rather stay alone and slack the whole day. WHeEe...
I forget to mention, I got my touchscreen system ready. I can totally turn my mac into a tablet mac, or even do a touchscreen on any projector projected screen. I achieve this by using a wii remote (all thanks to johnny lee's projects). The only cost that I had to folk out is for the wii remote(remote used to play the nintendo wii). It cost $69~!! and I walk around PS (plaza singapapura) for 3 hours before I decided to buy it. Figuring I can use it as an Apple Frontrow remote, a mouse and even a Presentation remote, I find it quite a worthwhile investment. ( A good Presentation remote cost from $30-50, maybe more) This remote uses bluetooth, has a built in accelerometer, and an infrared camera (usual price $100 plus). Initially I wanted to buy a Apple remote for myself, now came this wii remote which is even better than the Apple remote. Apple remote connect using Infra-Red (Apple is so good as a visionary, why they never think of using wifi or something), while a wii remote connect using bluetooth (not as powerful as wifi but alot better than using infra-red)!
Anyway, that's all for now!
@ 6:29 PM
Thursday, June 05, 2008
It's being a long while since I had that 'tingling' feeling. I felt my heart was stolen once again (credit to monkeylove). I used to go out with my girl friends and even if I make joke or have alot of fun with them, the feeling is just different...
@ 8:15 AM
I am not ready to go into another emo stage and not attempting to. Being the expert in interpersonal (me and the other person) relationship, I know very well exactly what to say and how to read body language... however, having my heart stolen, messes up with my brain and I am really afraid I would do the wrong thing.
I met her sort of accidental. She's from VSC too, but is still in year 2. I was thinking of writing where and how I met her, but... I think I will not say. Or else it will be damn obvious... I do not want rumors to start spreading. I just want the person who stole my heart.
I was thinking of writing more about our IMD excursion to the museum and discovery centre but I just couldn't stop thinking. Ha-ha, but at least, I won't be as despo as that Moon man we saw in Creative Writing. Just keep my cool and believe that "boat reach bridge head naturally straight" (direct translation of a chinese saying) =D
@ 8:15 AM