I'm sooooo in love with... Reese's milk chocolate peanut butter cup!!!

I don't get it with Singaporeans.
What's the damn hurry ?
Mom was fetching me to the train station cos i was late for work. haha.
so mom dropped me off near the taxi stand.
As i came off, some fucker honk at us.
but i let it go..
den when my mom was trying to cut to the next line cos she had to turn right really soon, she stop to wait so that she can move from the last line to at least lane 1 or 2.
And guess wad?
That FUCKER went to jam on his horn.
What's your problem?
Damn fucker.
Want to horn, horn softer abit right ? Do u have to press so damn hard that it was like so fucking loud ?
FUCKER!!
my regret was that i didn't think fast enough to see the car plate number. fucker.
If i were to see his car again, i would go fucking scratch his damn car or throw eggs or the whole ants colony.
FUCK man. Not like it was a total wrong thing to stop. it wasn't like in the total way. Is cos this stupid loser was right behind my mom. Use ur brains and don't go so close then u can cut to the next lane lah. Brainless fat pig.
If cannot cut lane, then fucking wait a while lah.
One minute also cannot is it ?
FUCKING BASTARD!!!
asshole shit.

sorry for the vulgarities

crying to sleep. wish it would all go away.

I'm sorry for acting like a bitch.

What a Night i had yesterday..
Had farewell for Des and Kenny.
and it became a farewell for my contacts.
Lost it while playing in the water.
I'm sorry that the rest had to help me find it.
but all was in vain.
the water was freezing cold. haha..
was shaking like mad in it.
but... persevere!
but still waste my time and the rest..


i'm really sorry that you all had to help me find when u all were supposed to enjoy. I'm sorry..



Feeling ultra dumb now.
Regret touching my damn eyes...
argh! hate myself.
Stupid shit --> me.

Birthdays are sometimes such a pain in the butt.
I don't Know what to do with mine now.
I don't have a place.
Original plan - Cancelled.
Chalet - Fully booked.

I need help. Anyone??
I need a place big enough for 2 persons' worth of friends.
Say big enough for about 100 people ?


save me..

One Word: Biased

One word :BIASED


Why biased? You may ask.
It's cos of dad.
I have absolutely no idea what is his problem.
It's like the whole family knows that i have work at 8.30am. Ok i admit that i don't go to work at that time. Haha. Slightly later but not until so late. And today, Vic followed with us cos she wasn't taking the car cos she had to do some misc stuff that can't use the car. But we did told dad to drop us at Bugis, so that Vic can take a train while i go work. But did he ? NO! he went into PIE. So i asked him whether he can fetch me to work. it was already almost 9am by then. He didn't reply so i assumed that he would probably exit at Kallang to go Bugis. But again, He didn't! he Just went forward. So i asked him where he was going. And his reply was : Toa Payoh right ?Vic is going by this way right ?
It's like he knows i'm so damn late and Toa Payoh and Bugis is not very near. you have to go backwards just to go to bugis. I dun understand. Cos Vic's already late and so it doesn't matter much if she's slightly later. But i'm like soo late for WORK. haiz. Now i know...

Actually it's not his fault or anything. maybe it was mine to begin with.



Things aren't going well. I'm so confused.

Realising how little i meant to you made me bleed...

series of eventss..

Today was a series of unfortunate events for me. What a day to start of the “glorious” weekends..

All started out at work. Actually the work thing is both good and bad. Yesterday at around 2.45pm, there was a blackout. Was told that the black out affected almost half of the building. That is wad others said. True or not, I’m not sure. Anyway, it meant that we had nothing to do since there was totally no electricity.

It was damn funny, cos it is such a big building and all and yet, a power failure could happen. So, my colleagues and I spent our time fooling around. First we stapled my friend’s banana and made it seem that it had stitches. Then we went to operate on it. I have a pictureee!! And here it is… haha..

Anyway, we fooled around till 4.30 and then our manager said we could go off cos it’s pointless sitting around doing nothing.

Today, there was electricity but the computers couldn’t be switched on. But after 45 mins or so, it could so it was shitty cos had to do our work again.. That was when the first unfortunate event came about.. my in-charge told me that I cancelled a policy on a totally wrong date. Not just a few days late or few days early but it was a difference of 1 year. And the year that I cancelled it was the year the customer paid for it. So it was terrible cos the letter has been sent out and it seem like shitty to them that it’s not good to send another letter to the customer and apologizing about that major error that I did. So whatever lah!

Anyway, there’s this main computer where everyone uses it to print bulks of paper or something and there are 2 systems to it. Basically, cos of the power failure, the computers were abit cocky.. and so I couldn’t get things done cos so many people were waiting for the computer and cos it was my first time doing wad I learnt yesterday, it was shitty. Bottom line was that my in-charge wanted me to send some stuff and to upload into the system but cos the program wasn’t there, I couldn’t even do it. But she went off much earlier cos of fasting month.. and she didn’t even supervise me to do. what if I do wrong. Tts shit.

Realised that I talked too much cock about the office. Don’t bother reading if it’s too long winded. Haha. I know it might be..

Anyway.. Mom’s bugging me about my 21^st birthday. I dunno wad to do. it’s like where should I hold it and what to do. Any ideas? Cos it’s like if it’s in a function room, it would be freaking expensive. WHY? Cos there’s for 2 person. Vic n me. And then our birthday is during the super peak period. Haha. Wat to do. Please help.

I sort of knew that the higher the expectancy, the higher the disappointment. But I didn’t know that disappointment was such a bad feeling.

I would never want to expect anything if I knew that this would be the outcome.
I didn’t ask for anything much or something big or expensive or wad sort. I didn’t. I just wanted a memory. Wanted something that would remind me of that special day. But it wasn’t what I expected.

Why expect so much Alicia. You had it coming. You know that you always get disappointed when your expectations are higher or that when someone recommends u something, obviously the expectancy would be higher. Why put yourself thru this over and over again? I too dun understand. I guess I’ll never understand.

So wad am I supposed to do now? Am I supposed to just act normal and like everything went well? How am I to face you when if I think or look at you, I subconsciously recall that memory I don’t want to remember.

I always thought that Firsts are always special and all. Guess it only applies to everyone else. How can I face you now? Can I not face at all?



Once bitten, twice shy. Never again would I do this again…
But will that be never???

FINALLY!!!

i can totally blog in the office now cos my colleague give me this anonymous proxy server website so that i can surf the net without getting blocked by the websense blocker. it is so irritating to be soooo out of touch of the internet world..

Rather disappointed in myself lately... especially yesterday..
it was a bad day to start of with, first forgetting my dance shoes. however Darren went down to my house to take for me. That was sweet of him.

but i didn't dance well. didn't at all. samba was alright. Shaky but fine. but samba formation was like for me to play around. why ? cos no partner. but that wasn't the disappointment.

After formation, went to practise out Rhumba routine. and true enough within the first few bars, i couldn't do it.
1. The turns. cos i couldn't turn on the spot as i took too far a stride.
2. The Ronde. Never did get the correct way of doing it.thus i couldn't do it properly
3. Spins. it's either i grip too hard on the fingers tt i cant turn much or i grip too lightly that i loose the grip and loose balance or stop turning.

and this is my first rhumba rountine part. wad about the rest of the routine? haiz.
i'm just lousy.