Is it just me or that i feel that dance to me has lost its spark. i think its me. What i feel in dance is like it's not really fun anymore. maybe cos i feel pressurised when i dance with Darren. It's like i keep on focusing on getting my steps correct that it gets funless. even for samba class. everyone seemed to be having so much fun except me.haiz... the 2nd time and it's already so stressful. will it always be the same with every practise i have ?

anyway... i got another problem. it's about my job a Haagen Dazs. i already told Tracy that i would be finding a full time job in July. but i guess i sort of took my time and all.but the thing is i told her in advance. and now that i'm may be changing soon, she tells me that she cant accept it if i were to work only one day. so means she expect me to work full time in the morning and work for her in the night. and sh knows that i have dance. i would be like so damn tired lor. Then she goes on by saying that if i work full time for like 3 months, it's like as though i might as well dun cos i wouldn't learn anything much. but that is not true at all. my attachment was 2 months and eventhough i didn't do anything related to banking and finance, at least i learn something about excel. haha. But sriously, i think that she's really selfish to hold me back. she said that if i go, it's like wasting her time to train me and all. but it's not her tt train me most for mornings. It's Pei Feng. haiz....

Dance sensation!

It's nice to know that there ARE people reading my blog. haha. i thought people think that my blog is stale and all. haha. I'm thankful especially to Pei Feng and Tiara. haha. Didn't think that they both would read it and both of them having a special place in my heart.

Pei Feng! i miss you alot! i know your new work is TOTALLY boring but we know you can do it. we all miss you alot at HD too... come back soon... but it's best if you don't. don't marry to HD. haha.

I miss my bestie, Tiara. It's been a long time since i saw her. Actually, it's been a long time since i saw my KC friends and i miss them. Thank you Tiara for your words of encouragement...

Now... for my competition... I guess it was both a mix of goods and bads.. why good? Cos... NP won the team match! i'm so happy for them.. And... I'm damn happy for alot of people.. They are....

1) Melody and Tin. They were really great out there!I'm so happy that you all won something. =)
2) Pin and Mahen. They won first for cha cha and rhumba (open)!! i'm really happy for pin. she really deserve it lots.
3) Sojini and Richard. They won first for jive and other awards. i'm so happy. their jive was damn good!!! and i didn't know u read my blog.. haha.. thanks Sojini!!!
4) Michelle and Desmond. Our fabulous grade A dancers. They rocked the dance floor and i mean really rock it!!!
5) Shi Jiao. For being there and to know how i felt even when i'm "happy". thank you for taking me in your arms and letting me cry.

why i was disappointed in my dance. And it's no one to blame so don't blame yourself ok, Gino? We both felt the harsh reality hitting us. that we only made it to Jive finals and only cos it had so few couples for jive.

Life in NPDS is totally different after this competition. there were drastic changes. especially to the juniors. Many, and i really mean many have changed partners and it's terrifying. cos there would be girls who don't have a partner in the end... and that's sad. i wouldn't want to be partnerless when i know that dance is my PASSION. i would be sad and totally lose that passion and hope. but to those who don't have a partner, don't give up looking for one! i too changed my partner. Both Gino and I have a mutual understanding and we both are cool with it. we must do our best!

now, i can't wait to start lessons with Darren. haha. but i'm really scared. scared that i won't be able to meet his standards. i know i'm not even as good as yvonne. i'm afraid that he would regret. haiz. I'm really scared that i won't do well... haiz...