Naive :adj. having or showing a lack of experience, judgment, or information; credulous: She's so naive she believes everything she reads.

That is me. what a person i am. to think that i believed and listen to ur stories and to find that you lied to me ?how many a time that i choose to trust cos we were able to talk. a pack of rubbish. to think i gotta find out myself from others. major wrong thing to do.. tt way, u just lost my trust for u.

life's full of ups and downs.. but only when you have weathered life's ups and downs, can you face the future without fear....

going to have performance today at ngee ann city. at 7.20 and around 9. wish me luck! i'm scared...

oh oh!!! i wanna put up pics!!! ahhaha.. on the 13th of april.. was Yani, our manager's birthday!! hehe. celebrated it at the shop and here are some pics!!!


























Ika, pin and me!!! cam whoring in starbucks!!!!


























Pei feng and me!!!

























Danny boy, Ika and me!


































these 2 crazy girls flooding my phone..



























Danial trying to act cute!!!!





























Alicia, SUPER GEEK!!
i look like a geek but danial doesn't. UNFAIR!






























oh btw... if you have never seen a $500 Brunei Dollar... here's how it looks.. cool eh.. customer give 2 somemore.. one word. RICH!



























Is this sunglasses big or wad.. haha.. took it from mas... haha... make my head so tiny now.. haha.. dun i look cool ? hhaha. more of look retarded!!!



























ALERT! : supervisor slacking and play DS!! haha!

Do i not smile as much anymore ?

My grand aunty told my mom that I don't smile as much as before like when a child has a free mind without any of those "adult" problems. Maybe what she said is true.. I'm not that bubbly, all- round cheerful kind of girl anymore... where with all the times i stone and think of all my troubles n little bits of problems...

Wonder wad kind of problems a 20- yr old girl would have ?? That.... i wonder too. but.. even if i have "old" people problems.... i still got my darlings to make me smile!!!
i wish i can see them everyday.. they are my sole reason for me to smile each day... and yet, i can only see them in dance.. it ain't fair. i want more than just that. haiz. i want to see them everyday... i want to see pin, melody, michelle and shi jiao everyday.
can i please? i really want to. and then, my life would be filled with hugs and kisses each day.

i love them so very much. they are like my little sisters and i would never ever want anything to happen to them. i love them all to bits.

I LOVE YOU MY DARLINGS!!!

you are the ones that brought joy into my life....

Thank you NPDS for that beautiful appreciation night. i really enjoyed it very much. it really touched my heart. and it was sad to finally realised that I'm not going to be in NP anymore and that broke my heart.

It started with a very rainy start where in clementi, it was raining cats and dogs.. however that didn't dampen our spirits. Met with my royal family for tea just before the dinner and it was great fun. i really miss them but guess we sort of drifted apart due to each of our busy schedules..

there's this saying : that we only treasure and cherish what we have lost.

this is so true.. this applies so much to me.. Many a times in my life, i have lost things and only after i lost them, i treasure them. how can i stop these regrets if i don't know what i should and should not treasure?

and that's the wonders in life...
take an example of poly life.. when i entered poly, i didn't really like it. cos my perception was that i want to go only to biotechnology and cos I'm in banking, i won't like it. cos i waster 2 years of my poly life thinking that i should be in biotech cos i like it more and therefore slacked and fooled around.. only in yr 3 did i wake up and felt that i do like banking. wad a waste of my poly years.. haiz.. if i hadn't think of wad i didn't have or could have, i would accept banking n finance n love it.

my 3 darlings

Dance
Dance is the place of my second home. It's the place where i know that i can go to if i need comforting and love. Really thankful for it. i regretted not staying longer in dance when i was in Year 1 and 2. But i'm glad that i stepped up and got committed in dance.

That was when i knew Pin, Melody and Michelle.

Pin... My dance bestie! when i first know her, it was weird cos i didn't have a good impression of her cos of her friend, J. haha. but cos she lives near me, the bond we shared grew n grew. she's the one tt gave me the more "girly" Alicia as i didn't have alot of girl friends but more guy friends. she was the one tt made me see the light in life. i love you PIN!

Melody...
Little melody... I thank God for Dance camp where i knew lil' mel mel.. Paso rocks!!!
"i say....... i say Paso number 2 , u believe, u ku ku! i say paso... i say! i say paso ... i say!
i say Paso number 1, u believe, very good. i say paso... i say! i say paso... i say!
i say lah!"
our famous Paso cheer where this brought lil' mel to my life. Melody is always there filling my life with her little hugs and kisses... always calling me " ally" before give me a hug and a peck on the cheek.. those things that make my heart so touched... i love her perkyness in life where she would be there always to brighten up my day! i love you melody!!!

Michelle...
Got closer to her only recently but i still think it's a blessing. to be able to still know u better. Michelle is one girl that is ever smiling.. she can just smile and smile till the end of time! my little sister, both u n mel and i will remember that always... i especially love the way u smell! haha. always telling u that i soooooo love your perfume.. it suits damn nicely on u. i love ur hugs too.... and u are sooooo skinny i tell u. skinny and pretty! wad a perfect match! i love you Michelle too!!!

my 3 darlings in dance... however it's sad. sad because i'm so much older than time. that i graduated already while they are still in Poly. Life's not the same. I won't be able to see lil mel in school in canteen 1 where she'll run to me and hug me. or i wont see pin for lunch in canteen 1 eating our fav yong tau fu.

sometimes i wish that i'm still in NP. i dun wanna grow older and find a full time job and all. i'm really scared of the working world. cos i'm short, they would first think that i'm such a kid and that i wouldn't be up to their standard. thats wad i don't like when people stereotype short people.. i want to grow taller. i really do.. but i guess i can't anymore....