It's so nice to have someone you know you can rely on when you are feeling down and depressed.

Thanks for your assurance and effort in cheering me up. I know you are having a tough time too.

I will become stronger and stand by you the next time.

What to do.. When you enjoy work and find work fulfilling, although it is stressful at times. But at the same time, you do not have time for your family, and to have time for yourself?

Society. I am starting to wonder how real people are. Are they really concerned about you? Or are they just trying to force their believes and opinions onto you..?

I feel so attached to the 2 ipoh cows hahhah

I really like how we give each other support, be it mentally or physically.

Not sure how much I helped, as I am not one who consoles or advises well. But I guess I am a good listening ear.

This few months has been, and still is, tough. I do not think I would have been able to go on without the emotional support from my co-workers.

I am still not doing well enough, too many things to handle. And I am still in the process of learning.

We have been let down so many times. But I hope we will not give up hope.

One thing I hope to be better at.. Being organised.

Trying to accept the fact that human do make mistakes and error. Learning not to be so hard on myself when problems arise.

Trying my best not to make any mistakes, but human err.

I need to be strong, much stronger.

So tired, mentally. Problems after problems, after problems..
So many things to solve and rush. So many things to figure out on my own.
So many things that I could have done better. So many changes months after months.

My hectic work started the month my manager left, when I started to take over the tasks she did. Then, the next month, my best colleague left so I had to cover accounts. After that, appraisal. And then, problems, then issues, now disappointment.

I have burnt out since April, hanging on.. but I don't know how long I can last. Trying to be strong, trying to not show my stress. But I am really tired from the many problems which occurred these few months. Sometimes, I really wish I could run away.

But I know, this is a learning process. Learning the hard way, and I will know how to solve problems like these in the future. I will know what to take note of in future. Stay strong.

Just hope that they won't hate me for not being capable and experienced enough, although I am trying my best.

How can I replenish my energy? I am ok, just in need of some rest.

Thoughts of giving up and running away strikes again. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I am so inexperience.

Disappointed. But there are these kind of people in life, everywhere.

Situations and problems one after another. But it's ok, I am strong. I learn, I improve and I will be better at handling these situations in the future.

我會想為你們打抱不平. 但如果你犯規, 我也不會放過你.

All of us learn through lessons in life.
But i feel so bad that the lessons that i learn from affects the others.

Don't give up, Qian Yi. They need you.

When times get tough, and I feel tired and unmotivated, I try to think of those who keep me moving forward. Those who believe in me, and those who I care dearly. Although some of them keeps giving us problems and disappointing us, there are some who I hold close.

These 2-3 months have been tough. 2 people closely linked to my work left. 2 handovers in less than 3 months. OT-ed almost every single day this month. Really burnt out. But on the other hand, I get more freedom in my work. A lot of self-learning, and I get to participate in more decisions.

Tough, but I guess in a way.. fulfilling. Stressed, but I know that there is always this support behind me, my non-direct superior.

I am happy, but i think i could have been happier. Still, let's not take things for granted. Learn to appreciate everything I have now.

I like how i have more freedom at work now.. But i am crazy busy.

It's weird. The guidance I get, which are beneficial to me, are not from my direct head.
Well, I learnt quite a few things from one of the outlet managers today.

When people say.. Not everyday need to ot, i feel sad. Cos i need to ot every single day this month, and probably the next. I can go on time, but it just means i need to stay even later on other days. 슬프게..

I think i must be crazy, i have no courage. Such a big stage, so ill-prepared. So out of my ability.

Thoughts of backing out, and giving up.

Too tired and not motivated to practise.

When the challenge becomes a chore and something you want to get over and done with, is it time to let go?

The thought of resigning (already) is going through my mind. But then again, that's not me.

It seems like I'm not that important after all. I guess i overestimated myself.

Honestly, I'm very tired.

Endless work to do.

Feels like I forgot how to laugh, or even smile.

Excited with all the competitions coming up. But if I get in, I will feel binded. I will not be able to have so much time on my own.

I guess.. this is the "sacrifice" others always say. But 进了再说。

Thank you. thank you encouraging me and pushing me to my limits.

Yeah, my life has been too stagnant. Thanks for adding some excitement to my life, by jio-ing me to join competitions. I really should try out and grab any opportunity to allow me to sing.

I am really not confident, but you are right.. gain exposure. I have nothing to lose if I don't get in.

And these few months, I have seen people who disappointed everyone, and act as if they still care. People who gave so much trouble and left as though nothing happened.
Yeah, adult life is not that simple. But do not let those people make you lose faith in others.

I will be fighting this 'war' without my dearest comrade soon, but I know you will be happier as you will be able to do what you really want.

I am quite unwilling to leave yet, not until I make a difference.. Or if one day I feel that they can do well without me.

It really sucks when other people make a big deal out of everything. Is the problem really that serious? Just ignore if you don't like the idea.. Must you make everybody so unhappy and spread the unhappiness?

People always see faults in others and not in themselves. Be more peaceful. So that life can be better. Don't anything also angst.

Why does some people have something negative to say about everything..

So nice to have someone who is always there to help. So nice to have someone to rely on at work.

Well, making the videos. And with the sad and meaningful songs. I teared. They better be touched too. 6 years worth of memories..

So many things happened within this period. People come and go. People broke the trust. People let us down. But it's all part of the journey, and a good learning process. It's part of growing up and making us stronger.

Interaction with people is never easy. But i dislike people who are so judgemental and critical. I really can't stand it when people assume what others are thinking.

Well, yeah correct. Next month onwards, i am going to have a lot more responsibilities. I hope i will be ok. I can do it.. right?

Sometimes, being a bad ass isn't cool. You don't have to be bad if people ain't nice to you. Continue to be nice, just be yourself. It is upsetting when people don't appreciate your effort, but do it anyway. Or at least i try. But it's tiring.

Trying to be optimistic, but those around me keep seems quite negative.

I. Shall. Complain. Less.

Too Bad..

Socially awkward. Always saying and doing the wrong things unintentionally.

Mine is not that bad a case. But nice song by JJ once again. :)

I don't get how some people can be so negative about everything. Makes me wonder if I'm too ignorant, and am unable to think deeper. Cos the matter is perfectly fine to me.

Well, I guess ignorance is bliss sometimes too. I hope I can remain true to myself.

Perhaps I think too greatly of myself. There are many things which will be passed on to me from next month. A lot of other things I have to responsibility for, a lot of things I will have to cover for. And yet, I expressed my interest to visit the stores once in a while.

When things seems bland, and when morale is low, I think I need to do something about it. For the staff at the outlets, and for myself. I am losing sight at the moment, and I need to find some motivation. To get back the feeling I once had, and to refresh myself.

I want to know more about how the staff feel, and if there is anything I can do. And I want to remind myself who I am working so hard for. Back to basics. I just wish to boost some morale and let the new staff know that you can have fun while working seriously. And let old staff find out the fun in the daily repetitive work.

And of course, me, to go out of the office once in a while. Hopefully I get to know more staff, especially the part timers. And I need to really get some re-freshness.

Next month is the start of uncertainty. It is gonna be tough, but grind your teeth.. cos that is how you grow.

Haha and Karen-san keeps saying I should find a guy who is in his 30s. More stable.

Met Drum TAO's lady boss yesterday. Just wow.

For 2016, I would like to be less critical. I wish to be able to be the me years ago, where I can overlook the flaws of other people. Cos everybody has their weaknesses. Overlook as in notice, but let go.

Cos I realised some around me are too quick to judge, and even assuming others' actions, and the reasons behind it. They choose to believe what they assume. Which is not nice, as many times, that is not the case.

This year, I wish to just listen. I hope not to be influenced. I will try to see the good in others more.

Although it might be silly to do so, but won't it be a better place to live in? Where people are like this? To be peacemakers and mediators?

Peace yo.

Cute little kiddo is cute.

Company Year-end Dinner that day. Kids grow up so quickly. He loves running around and is not shy around strangers. I carried him a few times and he shared his crackers with me. He ate half and gave me the other half, while I carry him. So sweet.

Too cute. He will grow up into a charming young man. His eyelashes are so long, hui dian si ren. LOL.