When people say.. I trust you. It gives me nothing but more stress. Just because, I am given the responsibility and I have to work harder as not let the person down.
Happy stress i guess. To me, it means that I have succeeded in a part of my life.
But for me, it is still difficult to fully place my trust on someone.
Many things left unsaid.. Either I'll be honest and risk losing a friend, or I'll just say what Is pleasing to the ears.
Kind of relieve that I said my piece. I tried to be fair to everyone after seeing the bigger picture. Fault actually seems to be from both parties. But decision is theirs to be.
Just hope that everyone will turn for the better. To you, who will never ever read my blog, it's really time to let go. I guess she is really not for you.
旁观者清, 当局者迷。 Although i cannot say what i see now is absolutely correct. And in fact i usually think too much.
Colleagues in the outlets say that I'm always smiley. Yes, I'm always happy to see them. But on the otherhand, I am not a person who shows emotions and share thoughts and feelings easily.
What i said are sometimes shared too casually.
No one can understand my thoughts, just like i can understand nobody's.
Why is it so hard and so tiring to be myself?
I'm already turning 24, I know what I'm doing. But always a kid in my parents' eyes. Just like how I'm always worried about my little brother who is just a year younger. Whatever it is, i want to get away from this hectic and dramatic life. I just want a short getaway..
Still trying to be strong. But I'm tired of being independent.
Just want to be alone, like seriously. Don't need to deal with drama, politics and stuff. So much more peaceful.
But can people really be by themself? No, I supposed.
This might be hard to imagine.. But my patience is running out. Yes, Qian Yi is losing patience.
