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It's the time again. Many people are leaving. I hate to see this.. But it is good that they are looking for opportunities to improve themselves, and do what they really want.
As people leave, i start to ask myself.. When will it be my turn? Then i thought.. there are other colleagues working so hard. Let's work hard together.
Many of them, too, are struggling with the tough schedule. I hope that we will give each other strength and motivation to continue.
And there are people in this company who i cannot bear leaving. I still have so much more to learn from my Ippudo mother. One day, i hope to be like her.. Counselling staff, being able to make good judgement.
People say friends tell you the truth. So i did, i try to speak my mind directly. But it seems that, maybe i should not have been that direct.
But the past proves that being wishy-washy is time-wasting and ineffective. And i have no more patience to be as kind as last time. Too tired to do so.
Sometimes i really wish that i can care less. Too tiring to care so much. When others don't. Somehow i always became the person responsible for the matter..
Caring too much, people think that you are too intrusive. Care too little, people think you don't care. How sia. 做人难啊..
When people say.. I trust you. It gives me nothing but more stress. Just because, I am given the responsibility and I have to work harder as not let the person down.
Happy stress i guess. To me, it means that I have succeeded in a part of my life.
But for me, it is still difficult to fully place my trust on someone.
Many things left unsaid.. Either I'll be honest and risk losing a friend, or I'll just say what Is pleasing to the ears.
Kind of relieve that I said my piece. I tried to be fair to everyone after seeing the bigger picture. Fault actually seems to be from both parties. But decision is theirs to be.
Just hope that everyone will turn for the better. To you, who will never ever read my blog, it's really time to let go. I guess she is really not for you.
旁观者清, 当局者迷。 Although i cannot say what i see now is absolutely correct. And in fact i usually think too much.
Colleagues in the outlets say that I'm always smiley. Yes, I'm always happy to see them. But on the otherhand, I am not a person who shows emotions and share thoughts and feelings easily.
What i said are sometimes shared too casually.
No one can understand my thoughts, just like i can understand nobody's.
Why is it so hard and so tiring to be myself?
I'm already turning 24, I know what I'm doing. But always a kid in my parents' eyes. Just like how I'm always worried about my little brother who is just a year younger. Whatever it is, i want to get away from this hectic and dramatic life. I just want a short getaway..
Still trying to be strong. But I'm tired of being independent.
Just want to be alone, like seriously. Don't need to deal with drama, politics and stuff. So much more peaceful.
But can people really be by themself? No, I supposed.
This might be hard to imagine.. But my patience is running out. Yes, Qian Yi is losing patience.
Blocking negativity out of my life.
Too much complain.. Anything also unhappy. I'm out, I'm not gonna be like you. I'd rather be alone, than to be like you in order to gain 'acceptance'.
And I can't be bothered with some people who are so attention seeking. You want attention? Nope, not gonna give you. :)
There are somethings which i don't understand, and i think i can never. I prefer to keep my life simple.
Maybe that is why i never had any ambition. I just want to do my best in everything, one step at a time. I don't think it's wrong too.
I think it is better than to 争出位 or 争出头. Why make life so complicated. I believe other can see your effort as long as you do your part.
I do strongly believe in "practise what you preach".
Turning 24 this year. Always thought I'm mature but in the working world, I feel so ignorant.
I can't differentiate what's what anymore.
I wish I could be better than this.
Is it good to be too helpful? Is it good to be too emotionally attached? I guess i need to find a balance.
I need more courage to enquire and face the reality of work life. It really isn't that easy.
But I still believe in being myself.
Nope, no longer gonna be nice to everyone. Just hit my limit. No use pacifying me. It just makes things worse. From now on, I'm gonna be nice and kind only to those who deserve it.
I'm gonna be kind to myself. Too hard on myself trying to make everyone around me happy. I'm not as patient as you think i am.
Practise what you preach. No more benefit of doubt for you.
I'm kind, but no pushover. I'm nice but not that ignorant.
Sorry, these complicated stuff.. I'd rather not be involved.
It's either I block off, or be fully concerned. There is no in-between. Block off means that I do not get personally and emotionally involved. But I do know what is going on.
I'd rather believe in the innocence, and purity, of others. Benefit of doubt. Am I too naive? But I'll treat them equally till they do me wrong.
