Just a day ago, I thought everything was smooth-sailing. The very next day, everything seems to be crashing down on me. The shoulders of mine is getting too heavy for me.

I am really very very tired. Too many things to handle on my own.

I just hope that I have someone I can talk to and someone who can understand how I feel.

Not sure if it was a bad timing and a wrong move. But I just felt soooo.. suffocated, I just needed to let it out of my chest a little.

The same old thoughts again. The one who cares the most feels the worst. In this case, why do I have to care so much. Making myself so pitiful.

Very sleepy, but I haven't felt so happy for a long time. Stressed, cos everyone is so strong, but I'm getting pushed by my team mates to do even better. Learning a lot through this experience. I hope we'll go far, Queentet. :)

Being busy but doing the things you love, is just so fulfilling.

Still wondering how to be a good leader. Still learning. Should a leader do most things themselves? They should do so to motivate team mates, and to show that they are willing to put in the effort right? But what if the team mates just simply take it for granted. Will the effort even be appreciated?

I really hurts when you care too much while others does not, right? But.. I just want to be a responsible leader. I guess I need to learn to let go a little.

Me, I feel tired too. My shoulders are getting heavy. Even a good leader is nothing without followers. I am not even a good leader, therefore I need strong support from my team members to help me grow, we should all grow together.

Suddenly, so many commitments and responsibilities. I mean, it is not a good thing. But I just need some teamwork.

Why am I always tying up loose ends? Can't people be bothered? Or at they bothered with the wrong stuff?

I'm feeling excited. Going as a group means nobody gets left behind. When times at tough, let's just encourage one another. 가자. 우리 할수 있어.

So many things on my mind that I can't fall asleep.

Too much of a perfectionist and expecting people to be like me. No good.

Hmm and I don't know whether to be strict and fierce. I mean I can, but I would like to make a stressless environment. Please just help me.. I don't want to come off as bossy too..

Now I get what people feel when they say they are tired of chasing after people.

But singing becomes even more fun and interesting after you know how to express and to reach out to the audiences with your voice. Acting.. Haha, still a long way to go. But I hope I'll do better. Not much time left. But hwaiting!

So I got scared by a raw fish head today. Cos Sam placed it in front of me on the table. At first, I didn't realise. Almost touched it and it was so close to me.. 😱

I am really afraid of what I will have to give up in the process of chasing my dreams. Of course, sacrifices have to be made. But I shouldn't live my life with any regrets, right?

It is impossible to have the best of both world, right.. But it's good to be busy with the things you love, correct?

就走一步算一步吧。都不知道能到多远。

There is no turning back now. Don't look back, just keep moving forward. Supportive family and friends. :)

Live life with no regrets and no "what if"s..

Gapdongi, I would say.. Does not have any effect on me. No laughter, no tears, not much fear.. But it is starting to get a little more interesting. It still feels funny watching Lee Joon being so serious.

Haha, is it weird to say.. Thinking about the day itself is a lot more scary than the show. It always send a butterfly into my stomach and a chill down my spine. How sia..

Honestly speaking, I really hate uncertainties.

Gapdongi. :)

My number 5 in MBLAQ, but his acting seems awesome. And the drama seems exciting.

I would love to watch ep 2 but I should sleep soon.

Today, I realised the importance of confidence. Well, I hope I can keep this mindset and work towards my target.

Not quite, but maybe, a fangirl post. Well, an idol is someone we all look up to, and find inspirations from right? Was watching some videos on MBLAQ..

Quote from Mir.. "If we can't avoid it, we should enjoy it."

I should learn from them.. Even if you make a mistake, just laugh it off. So I should not be afraid to make mistakes. Seungho is not the main vocalist, nor main dancer, but he is not afraid to show. (He is sooooo talented, omg) I love his confidence.. So.. Although I might not be the best.. Just believe in myself, in my own voice.

Another quote, "If you do not make mistakes, you did not try something new."