I have taken a first step to have a potential to save lives. This post is to remind myself, if I were to have second thoughts. Well, it is scary. But I have to be determined to be brave.

Mum had worry all over her face. But after I told her that there is no surgery required, and the blood will return to my body, she felt a little more relieved. She mentioned that we give it for free, but the patients get charged. But I believe that we should help others in need, so that we can, too, receive help in times of need.

Hmm, how to say.. I am really very broken to hear the updates on Sewol, I am keeping a close follow up. People keep saying that it's a pity and a tragic. Well, it really is. I really feel teary reading news on it. But we are not able to give any help, except to pray. Through this tiny actions, we might be able to save the people awaiting a bone marrow/stem cell transfer. They are there for us to save. We can do something to help them in this case.

I guess since I dare not donate blood anymore, this can kind of help me give back to the society, a bit. I need the blood back in my body.. If not I will feel light-headed and turn all pale. So yup, I do not dare to donate blood again since J2.

Although a match is slim, but at least.. you know that you took the first step. Visit www.bmpd.org for more details.

Actually I don't know how longer I can last..

Haven't even started and I feel suffocated already..

Just finished the busy period of work, coming again soon. It's getting busier now..

With Japanese and Korean, which I don't even have time (or lazy) to study and do the homework.

Just what have I landed myself into.. Overestimated myself. I just feel like crashing in bed. But I know if I skip last week's homework, I'll be lazy next time.

Went one big circle, and in the end, I still live for others..

This morning's NEL was unusually crowded. Already full when we at Buangkok, and passengers couldn't even board at Hougang. Worse still, there was a lady who could not alight at Serangoon, not to say the others to board. Nobody was squeezing in, it was very organised. But the door closed in some of the passengers, too quickly. The train was so empty from Serangoon to Boon Keng.

I was so afraid that I could not get out of the train at my stop as I was already running late. But lucky the train stopping time was enough at my station.

Sometimes, I guess we really can't blame people for being to angst, and 'kiasu". We can't help it at times.

Too many things going on.. Too much commitments.. I don't even know if I can handle.. I don't know how much more I can contribute..

I don't know what my future holds...

Ugly mosquito marks on my arms. :( I need to stop scratching.

Well my area now is also a 'black' zone (my own category), okay red but very dark red. There are 139 cases of dengue this month, and it is only mid-month.

People complain about others changing, but don't they change too? And isn't change the only thing that remains unchange? Change to remain unchanged, no? I mean, everybody grows up and changes their priority, don't tell me you still want to be having naive thinkings..

They say people who don't get angry easily are scary when they really get angry. Because other people have never seen them angry before, so it is kind of unexpected. But maybe, just maybe, they know that they are really scary when they get angry, that is why they learnt to control their temper (outside).

My body does not feel well since the end of last month.. Not fully recovered, still. Seeing what I eat daily.. no wonder.

On a side note, tomorrow is a P.H.!!

Always heartbreaking to hear of disasters, even if it is not in my hometown. Why do people fear death? Scared what comes after death? Fearful of being forgotten? Or, afraid of how their loved ones being left behind will react and handle it. Regret that you are unable to complete want you want to accomplish in life?

Don't even know if I am a leader or a follower..

I just got reminded that learning should never stop. Never be complacent. Self studying is good. I have been stagnant for too long at work, getting too comfortable.

I finally understand the meaning, you will prefer school to work next time. For work, it's really some serious stuff.

Sometimes I really wish to be able to speak fluent Japanese, and Korean. But it requires a lot of hard work.

Was talking to my Ippudo mother today. Always appreciate her being there.

Positive stress at work. Because people expect a lot from you, you have to continue to work hard so that you won't disappoint them. It's good. But sometimes I am really scared that I am unable to live up to the expectations.

Changes are coming to the office soon. New location, new jobscope, etc. Hope everything will go smoothly.

Pissed. Times like this, just leave me alone with only music and I.

Sometimes, you really have no say. Do not comment, because you should only do that when you can do better.

I am really glad we graduated together, although ours are different sessions.

Thank you for always being there, although our opinions are different at times. And thanks for being patient, when we actually know you are not really. Hahha. Cos sometimes I know I have my moody periods as well. It is really not easy to see someone almost everyday. LOL!

During our Uni times, we see each other really al
most everyday. Weekdays school, weekends work. I see her at least 5 days a week, 10 hours a day. 7 years and counting, from not really close to who we are now.

As she mentioned, she is my sec classmate, jc classmate, uni classmate, and now my colleague, my friend, my neighbour a junction away.. And of course, my girl friend.

Thank you. :))


And I was planning to graduate 'secretly' cos I thought the school is too inconvenient and crowded. And because I actually finished my exams so long ago, so it didn't really feel like a graduation to me. I already started working full time 7 months ago...

But it still feels nice to have friends popping by, I didn't know it actually means so much to them and to me. Thank you, Jean really, for making the day even more memorable.

Twin was really sweet to call all the way from Aussie to congratulate me. I miss you, twin.

Miss times like this, when everybody (from the different outlets) gather. Feels like a big family. But still office is not as close to the outlets. Really appreciate WG's effort to bond, they are really close. Keep it up!

MS is like a family member to me. There are a few people I cherish in MS, but these people's hard work are often taken for granted. I hope that they can really be happy. But still, I always feel welcomed, to be 'home'.

WG is like my baby. I always feel happy going there. The liveliness and friendliness.. Kinds of reminds me of when I first started.

And I haz handsome brothers.