Felt to awesome singing today. Under guidance, I feel like I have improved so much. Feeling more comfortable singing in front of people now. Now I have to work towards being comfortable on stage.

11 plus and I feel like I'm gonna faint anytime if I don't sleep soon.

Gaining a little bit of weight from sitting whole day in office but I feel life I'm gonna fall sick very soon. Being sick will make me lose weight.

I am happy with what I am doing now. Looking for staff. Cos I know what I am doing will help my colleagues in outlets to lighten their burden of work.

But at the same time, I am afraid that I am a burden to my current colleagues. Cos I'm very new and sometimes lost. Just worried that I keep disturbing them.

I'm angry now, yes at this timing. >:(

Sometimes I just don't get him. Got awaken by my father, while he was scolding my younger brother over the phone. For returning home late cos my dad needs to fetch passengers around this timing. Okay, after cooling down maybe my father has his reasons. But I'm angry at the fact that I was awoken.

I stand for my brother. I feel that he should have some life, since he stays in the hostel 90% of the time. Should just let him have some free time. Even if he is wrong, but should not scold him as often. Later he don't want to come home then you know. Pampering much?

Went out to get some water and dad asked who came back last. Can't even remember. And got reprimanded for not locking the door. My elder brother came back last, now I remember, but I checked everything else.. forgetting the door. Aiya, whatever. My brothers.. Elder brother always being careless. Younger brother always so stubborn. And I, with my own conflicting beliefs.

Now, I can't get back to sleep. D: Monday blues are setting in.

Finally did something I should have done 3 years ago. Finally registered for jap class. Looks difficult. But I feel it might be easier to speak than Korean.

Maybe because I have high expectations of myself, in terms of work, I feel stressed at times. Maybe cause I was sort of recommended by my managers, I feel a duty to do well.

Back to MS yesterday, saw all my ex-colleagues. Felt like tearing, miss them so much and they were so nice to us during that short 1 hour. I miss working with them. Ippudo MS feels like my second home. A bunch of fun-loving people.

I really am more interested in the Korean language than Japanese. But Korean lessons timing is not  convenient for me. :(( So I think I will start Japanese classes. Useful for work, though I'm not as interested in the language. But afterall, I love learning languages!

I hope I won't get mixed up. But I think I will. Jap seems more difficult.

Kay, I think I'm a little excited to learn Japanese, knowing some of my favourite kpop groups are venturing into Japan. And I have some favourite classic jap songs too. Will be able to sing them soon. :)

I kind of miss my colleagues from MS. I kind of miss being in the front line, the service line. But thinking of going back, maybe not yet. I want a break from it. Hahhah. Don't feel like handling human for the moment.

I need to remember this:

Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. 

Actually, thinking about it, I've came such a long way. I don't want to give up now. :)

My heart breaks a little when I knew another colleague left. No other reason, but just that there is really not enough staff already!! On the floor, there are only 3 FT, 3 PT (really PT), 1 chef, 1 attachment, and my 2 managers. Working for long hours, it's really not easy for them.

I have left too. I have to move on with life too. But perhaps someday, I'll be back in operation.

Learning new things everyday. I learnt how to operate office phone. Lol! For things which just magically apart in the restaurant in the past, mystery is solved. Haha, cos it's part of my job now. It's kind of like behind the scenes work.

Now I realise how important the office is. Operation is the frontline, and the entire office forms a strong support.

I joined this company some 3 years ago, without a single knowledge of them. Never thought that they will be so important to me in my life. :)

I grew and learnt a lot here. I will continue to grow. Thanks for believing and trusting me.

It's a new beginning.