First time really talking to my mortal. Hahaha.

Now, I feel less awkward talking to people whom I am not close to. Which I guess is a good thing. :)

I guess I'm more or less set on leaving my current company. I am really grateful for my managers for taking such good care of me, and believing in me for the past 3.5 years.

But i would really like to step out of my comfort zone and see the outside world. Although i really met many kinds of people as a server.

But the main reason is, I'm loving the CJ family too much. I feel that i have so much more to improve on and i won't have the time if i work there as a full timer. As much as i can't bear to leave my company, i can't bear to leave CJ. It's just too soon.

Maybe I'll go back to Ippudo after a few years.

Back to Basics.

I really feel so much more confident doing Chinese dance. Perhaps because I learnt it since young, although I have not danced it since sec 4, which is... 5 years? Started in P2 until Sec 4. Omg, that's 9 years!!!

Chinese dance fans are like my weapons. :b

But I can't remember most of the things already. But I really love the fans swirling, it's just to beautiful. :)

I am really loving my Chinese dance choreography. Hahhaha! BHB, but to be honest, I am quite happy with it.

Really glad to have such cooperative group mates, can't do it without all of them. Thank you.

I will continue to work hard to be a better dancer, and singer. :)

Really got a different aura when I dance chinese dance arh? Hahha..

I can have a good night sleep tonight. :) It was hard to sleep with all the steps running through my mind, randomly.

I really love dancing. And it feels long since I last sang.

The second time I choreographed. All I can say is, I really love 扇子s.

The feeling of dancing my own choreo this time, and have others dance to it is really good.

My first choreo is really horrible. Haha! That was when I auditioned for CJ Crew, but since I was auditioning for singing, I guess they closed one eye. Heh.

Lol, I'm probably the first person ever to dance Chinese dance at Scape, with my bright blue fans.

Sihui the second.

Too many insecurities.. Too many conflicts regarding the things I want to do after I graduate. 어떡하죠?

The best memories in primary school are friends, innocence and carefree-ness.

The best memory now is CJ. <3

I was thinking how good it would be to be able to go back to the past. But I thought I like how things are now too.

I think a good thing now is, I feel more confident. Singing in front of everybody. They are always so supportive.

I should not run away, face it. Sing more. It really helps. I feel so much more comfortable now, I enjoy it more. Making me want to sing more! :)

It sure is scary. Late at night, 1am, while walking home, a van drives in and stops at the rubbish chute. I tried calling mum twice, but she was sleeping. Kor picked up, ask him come down to bring me up.

He came down, laughing/grinning.
I told him got van very scary, I scared they kidnap me.
He said, "You also no money."
"That's why I scared they kill me."
"Did you buy insurance?"
"No, only those for work."
"Then wasted, why you never buy."
"Huh, then I'll die in vain."
"If that's life, then accept it."
"Sad sia, but thanks for saving my life."
"You think too much."
"Ya sia, I watched too much drama."

Funny leh! But better be safe than sorry..

Sometimes, I need a listening ear too. I am weak at times too.