I suddenly realised where my fear and insecurities come from. I need to get over it soon. I need to believe in myself more. It is part of my insecurities, where one comment had such an impact on me. Yeah, that's only an opinion. I will prove it wrong.

I think it's funny and a happy thing when people thinks that I'm actually young.

When I was younger, people thought I was older than my age cos because of my height. So my face looking young should be a good thing.

I will, one day.

Something is wrong with my priority.. A reminder to myself that finals are in less than 2 months time.

I'm more inclined to not continuing now. If I become a part time, I have to work my weekends away. Meaning I can't continue CJ. I rather give up this work.

Thinking of it, I don't want to work in this area forever. Perhaps I'll go back in the future, but not now I guess. Still not my final decision. My passion for dancing is burning again. Till now, I have more confidence in dancing than in singing. Cos I have done foundation in dance and as a group, they give you that push. But I really love singing too, just less confident.

我應該看開一點. 這樣才能讓自己好過一點.

太害羞, 太獨立.

Uncle: "How's university? Okay right? Actually uni is very easy, correct?"

Me: "It's okay." Although my results just pass. Can't let him look down on us.

In my heart, "Ya, it's so easy to study, work and commit at the same time, try it."

But actually, it's just my self control problem. Cos I always study last minutely.

Studying and working part time makes me stronger and more independent. So no regrets.

His children and wife are okay. It's just him. Dad likes to praise my uncle's smart son too. So kind of add on to my uncle's ego..

If my brothers are like that, I'll slap their faces. But I know they won't. :')

Happy Lunar New Year!

Many things happen once a year, or is rare throughout the year unless there are other special occasions, especially during this CNY period.

1. Meeting distant relatives, or even those quite closely related
2. Painting nails
3. My room is relatively neat, won't last long though. Lol.

We complain that relatives ask the same questions every year, but I realised that my siblings and I ask about the same questions to our nephews too. Omg. Like how old.. We are getting old...

My elder brother repeated the same answer for at least 3 times today, cos different people asked the same question.

My grandma looked so happy and fortunate just now when all her sons, daughter, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren gathered.