a little time killlla

-When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
'I need to put on moisturizer' ...dang Utah. So dry.

-How much cash do you have in your wallet?
$24. $4 of it is in gold dollars thanks to the vending machine.

-What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
Slore. It may be a made up word...

-What is your ring tone on your phone?
"Hey Baby" by Pitbull and T-Pain

-What shirt are you wearing?
My Crunk Caroline tank top.

-What were you doing at midnight last night?
Midnight? Sleeping. I am slightly geriatric and require at least 7.5 hours of sleep.

-What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"I love you too babe" ...if you must know.

-Does your significant other know your favorite flower? What is it?
I don't think he does. Peonies.

-What color is you car interior?
Black and a pain in my ass.

-Do you wear lip gloss or lip stick?
Most days- neither. I'm a Chapstick/Burt's bees kind of girl.

-Are you more optimistic or pessimistic?
I'm usually pretty optimistic. I just have to be careful not to let things get the best of me and kill my optimism.

-Would you say that you're a good singer?
I'm terrible, but that doesn't stop me.

-Are you craving any certain foods?
I could always go for some SUDS

-What's your thoughts on the song 'Friday I'm in Love' by the Cure?
After one particular Friday it makes me smile (:

-How do you feel about your current relationship status?
Wouldn't change it (:

-If you had the chance to be the opposite gender, would you?
Maybe for a day or two. I know I'd be a terrible, sissy boy. I'm all girl.

-Is there somebody you want out of your life right now? Why or why not?
I think I have rid my life of most of the toxins... feels good.

tell me whatcha know about dreamin

Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget

I am opting out of today's "picture"- I was trying to think of something to put in place of the one thing that pops in my head, but that's not being honest... now is it?

With that... here is what played in my head when I thought of today's "question". Obscure? You betcha.

stamp my passport, please.

Day 20: A picture of somewhere you'd like to visit



I was trying to decide on ONE place that I'd like to visit and it became an hour and a half of me looking at beautiful places- dreaming of going to all of them. I compiled photos of only a few of them. I have travel plans much larger than one place... I hope to follow through with them.

sweet hair

Day 19: A picture of you from when you were little



That's me circa 1993. My hair probably didn't move- thanks Mom and White Rain. My parents always talk about how I was the "sweetest little girl- so kind and good natured." I think I look like that in this picture. (:

Lucas family ribcage

Day 18: a picture of one of your biggest insecurities



I really didn't want to do todays post and draw attention to this. I especially didn't want to put up a picture of my ribs... so I didn't. I know, it seems strange... my ribcage is my largest insecurity? It really isn't a big deal- and most people don't notice, but I HATE it. I have a LARGE ribcage. A ROUND, "barrel" (as my mom calls it), ribcage. Since I've lost some weight I'm not AS bothered by it, but still I am. There is not a damn thing I can do it about it. Seriously. They aren't FREAKISH or anything- they just don't match the rest of my small frame- small hands, small wrists, small feet, tiny arms, etc. Sigh.

The origin of the ribs: my Grandma Troester. Love the woman dearly, but why did I have to be the granddaughter to inherit this? haha.

According to the doctor who was trying to make me feel better about it, having a rounder/larger ribcage will have it's perks. When I have children my pregnancies won't be as painful because those babies won't be pushing up inside my too-small ribcage. Doesn't really make me feel a whole lot better, but it is something I guess.

Here's to that Lucas family ribcage (:

I'm that diet girl

Day 17: A picture of something that has had a huge impact on your life recently

Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter

I decided it was time to get into shape. I went from being on the too-skinny side, to gaining 50 lbs and being completely self conscious about it. I have spent the last few years feeling disgusting and having very little self confidence. I decided 2011 was about getting to where I want to be. March 2 and I am down 20 lbs.
myfitnesspal.com has been a great resource to help me get here. There are a lot of people with similar goals providing a support system, weight loss ideas and a calorie counter. I'm not to where I want to be yet, but I am well on my way. (:

Patrick Henry Hughes

Day 16: A picture of someone who inspires you.



I'm not gonna lie... I was gonna put Justin Bieber. I'll stop right there though. I watched a special on ESPN on Patrick Henry Hughes. Patrick was born blind and crippled, and now "marches" in the Louisville marching band. Really, I want a picture of his Dad too. His Dad goes to marching band practice everyday with his son and pushes him in his wheelchair so he can perform. Patrick has had so much working AGAINST him and he hasn't let it hold him back from doing what he loves.

God is love.

Day 15: A picture of someone who understands you



God wasn't available for a photograph... but God loves me. He loves you too. My largest strength and happiness in life is knowing this. No matter what I'm going through I know He has a plan for me. My Dad has told me time and time again: "The Lord always provides"- I believe this wholeheartedly. When nothing in my life seems to make sense, and no one seems to understand, I know He does. He knows what I need. I will be the first to admit I need to be better about "feeding my soul". God has never turned his back on me, and I need to make sure I never run from Him.

my boo.

Day 14: A picture of someone that you love

This is my boyfriend, Ian William McCandless:


This is more of how I know him and what I love him for:


I figured day 14 was a great opportunity for me to formally introduce him on my blog. I met Ian many many years ago- like Elementary school days. Back then he was just Whitney's cousin and one of the boys that were always around (and sometimes terrorizing our sleepovers). Fast forward a handful of years and this is the person that I am in love with. Ian is in the Air Force. He is currently in Wichita, KS (McConnell AFB) and hoping to get out of there soon. That is definitely NOT the most interesting thing about him though. He makes me laugh. He quickly became someone I could talk to effortlessly- even before we were dating. He is my best friend. He has perfect teeth...and lips. He sings off key with me in the car. He can be hard headed at times, but I love him anyway. He takes xbox a little too seriously sometimes. He wants to see the world. Really, he wants to do a lot of the same things I do. He makes me happy. He loves me too.

turn the quiet up.

Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist



Love me some Eric Church!! I may be borderline obsessed with this man. I am a part of the "Church Choir" (his fanclub), was front row at his concert (HE SANG TO ME! You can ask anyone that was there with me!) and I got to meet him on his tour bus. Yeeeeee!!!!!!

happiest place on earth

Day 12: A picture of something you love



What a tough one. I love LOTS of things. (: Disneyland, however, is on the top of this list. How could you NOT love the happiest place on earth? I have been lucky enough to go multiple times- most recently on my 23rd birthday a month and a half ago. There is no feeling like hitting Main Street, breathing in that So Cal air and getting your Disney on with people you enjoy being around. I look forward to going back!!!