Wow, thanks for all the comments everyone! That was record shattering. The last post was the short version of the new baby and this will be the very long and probably very boring one. I've been wanting to write these things down for journaling purposes, so feel free to skip this post if you want:) I won't feel bad.
The story begins in July of 2009. Tyson and I were in Heber celebrating our 2nd anniversary (early). When we went out to dinner to and Italian place the first night I decided to get brave and tell Tyson that I thought it was time for another baby. Easton was only 8 months old at the time and it caused quite an argument. I don't blame Tyson for thinking I was insane, but for some reason I was really worried that it would take a while. And I was right! We waited and waited. I know a year isn't that long to wait compared to so many others, but after you have one baby, you don't really expect to have problems. I saw the doctor a couple times and everything looked fine.
At the end of May I was driving up to Sandy at 10:00 at night. I had gotten off work at 8 and gone to get my toes done and I felt really sick to my stomach. I had to go pick up some back drop paper from a neighbor in Sandy that we were borrowing for a photoshoot the next day. Tyson was working late at the hospital and couldn't get away. As I was driving up to Sandy I started having a lot of pain in my lower back and right side. It was the weirdest pain I had ever felt. I was driving with my hands on the bottom of the steering wheel and my elbows digging into my sides to try to help the pain. It was almost 11:00 by the time I got to Sandy through the construction. The pain felt like it was coming from my kidneys and I really had to pee, (TMI I know) but my family was in Lake Powell and I didn't have a key to the house. I couldn't go to a gas station because Easton was sleeping in the back seat. I called my friend Desi and used her bathroom, but the pain was getting worse and worse! Desi was having a small crisis, so it actually ended up perfect that I could go pick her up and talk to her for a while. We went to McDonald's and got a coke. I dropped her off and headed home as the pain got worse and worse. I got home and put Easton in his crib and curled up in my bed. I cried myself to sleep. The next morning I was fine! The pain was on and off for a few days, but not nearly as bad as it had originally been. On Memorial Day Tyson was at work again and I was home with Easton. The pain started to return and I knew it was going to get bad again. Nothing I could do helped. It didn't matter how I laid down, what I ate or drank, hot pads, ice, pillows, baths, nothing helped. When Tyson got home from work I burst into tears and told him I thought I should go to the doctor. Being a holiday, we decided it would be best to go straight to the emergency room. I cried and cried in the waiting room until they finally took me back to a bed. As soon as I got back there - NO PAIN. It was gone. They made me do a urine test and couldn't really find anything so they suggested maybe it was a UTI. Yeah right. I left angry and embarrassed.
The pain didn't come back for a while. We went to Lake Powell, Canada, and Idaho and had no problem. Then one morning after Tyson was, of course, gone to work, I woke up to the excruciating pain. I got Easton out of his crib and let the poor thing wander around the house alone while I cried in my bed. I reached for my cell phone and called my mom and could barely get the words out that the pain was back. She said she'd send Kate down to pick up Easton. I was able to get up and walk down the hall to knock on Kelsey's door and ask her to watch him until Kate got there. When she got to our house I decided that I didn't want to just be home alone dealing with this so I decided to go with her. By the time I got to Sandy (about 2 hours after the pain started) I was starting to feel better again. It was the weirdest thing ever. The worst part was that no one ever saw me when I was experiencing the most pain. I felt like the boy who cried wolf. The problem was, this was happening around June 28th. Tyson had just started his new job and our insurance from the previous job was supposed to end on the 30th. I wanted to make sure this was taken care of before then. Because I had just taken my first round of Clomid earlier that month, I decided to make an appointment with my OB to see if it was maybe a cyst or something. I was pretty sure it was a kidney stone and thought they could do an ultrasound to check. They were able to get me in that morning and my mom took me to the office. I did another urine test and they found blood in the urine. They did the ultrasound looking for cysts and Dr. Agaard said, "Well, your ovaries look fine, but did anyone ever tell you you have a bicornuate uterus?" I said, "Uh... no?" He said, "Ya, it's definitely heart shaped." I said, "Huh. Weird." The doctor said, "Alright it looks like the pain is not coming from anything gynocological." And sent me on my way.
My mom and I thought it would be best to see a urologist to see about a kidney stone before the insurance was terminated. I called the one my dad had just seen (kidney stones seem to run in his family) and they were able to get me in the next morning. Dr. Clark listened to my story and said it sounds like a classic stone. He explained to me that kidney stones are very common and people often have them without even knowing it because the only time they hurt is when they get stuck somewhere along the way. He said there is a good chance that I had already passed it and not known it, but suggested I go straight to the hospital for a CT scan because of the insurance issue. I had the scan and waited in the waiting room for Dr. Clark to call. He said he received the scan and could not find any stones. He said I probably already passed it and shouldn't have any more problems. I was glad, but also a little annoyed because I wanted some concrete evidence.
So I went home. Tyson worked late again. I decided to google "bicornuate uterus." I was shocked at what I found! I read on website after website that having a bicornuate or "heart shaped" uterus decreases your chances of delivering a living baby to about 40%. Of those 40% over half would suffer from fetal retardation syndrome and almost all would be delivered by emergency cesarean because of breech or other uncommon presentations. With a bicornuate uterus, the top part of the uterus is made of defective tissue and isn't able to grow and expand to acomodate the baby. Additionally, if the baby initially implants in that top part, you will just miscarry. I was very confused, especially about the fact that the doctor told me none of this. Wasn't he looking at my chart? Seeing that it had been almost a year we had been trying and trying? Didn't he know that I was taking the Clomid and thought I had had two possible miscarriages? Tyson and I talked and decided maybe we needed to re-group a little bit. We did not want to have a baby knowing that we might be putting its life in danger and knew that we weren't prepared financially for all the complications that could come up. Besides that, I felt like my hormones were completely out of control and I had taken a test and found that the Clomid had not worked. This was the only time I have ever been relieved to see a negative pregnancy test.
We decided to call the doctor and ask him to call in a prescription for birth control. I filled the prescription when I got to work later that week and we felt really good about the decision. I also called my friend Kristi and got the information for her high-risk doctor so I could get a second opinion. I came home from work that night and Tyson wanted to go for a drive up the canyon. By the time we got to the top, I was so sick I thought I was going to puke! We went home and I went straight to bed. I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache and wanted to take some Motrin. For some reason, I thought I should maybe take one more pregnancy test (this being probably the fifth for that month) before I took the Motrin just in case. It was positive! I was totally in shock. Tyson doesn't get service at work so I had to wait for his lunch break to tell him. At which point he was in shock. We were excited, but our excitement was kind of being taken over by worry. I called the doctor right away to see if I could get an early appointment for two reasons: first, I wanted to see where this little thing was implanted asap! and second, we were very concerned about the fact that I had just had a CT scan. They told me I would have to wait until I was 6 weeks to be able to see anything.
At my 6 week appointment, I saw Dr. Bean. He told me that as far as the CT scan affecting the baby, if I was going to lose it I would have lost it already. He did an ultrasound to see where the baby was implanted. He told me that he couldn't see anything wrong with my uterus! And even if there was a slight heart shape, this baby is right in the middle. He reminded me that bicornuate uterus is often very hard to diagnose and usually can't be seen until you are already in the middle of an emergency cesarean when the doctor is actually looking at the uterus with his own eyes. So, I still might have one. Maybe that other doctor did see what he thought he saw, but Dr. Bean told me he thinks I have no greater risk than anyone else.
We are so grateful that this baby is healthy and is coming to us at just the right time. Also we are thinking it is a girl because I have been SO sick! I was NEVER sick with Easton. On some days like today, I have been lucky to get down some applesauce and rice. Had I known I was going to be this sick, I might not have tried so hard! I never would have been able to get through as much school as I did if I had gotten sick any earlier. The bottom line is that Heavenly Father knows me so much better than I know myself. I wonder how many times he'll have to remind me:)