woot

Anat anat anat is coming.

Oh my. and i just started yesterday.

Die liao.

P.S: alamak jervis, the post was on tues midnight ma. ah hah.

Ok. Thank you for wishing me happy birthday JERVIS!!!!

haha. this year's birthday is great.

But a bit sian, cos my exams are coming.

Next year'll be worse. Cos year 2's exams starts even earlier...

Happy birthday!

Yesterday was great.

Met up with S19 girls at this posh posh jap restaurant and ate jap food. Wao. I must say the food is GOOOOOD and the portion is not bad seriously. Next time i shall intro pp there. :) And the girls surprised me with a birthday cake! Gosh. it's so so good. And i've got presents from them too.

Awww. That's so nice of them.

Had a long long chat at the restaurant with them and i must say. it's been a long time since i've had such a great laugh.

S19 rocks.

After that, went to meet COOW and dennis.

Haha. it was a great outing too. We went west coast park.

Wa. Westcoast park changed a lot leh. We ate Mac and played with fire crackers.

Of course, we didn't forget to cam-whore a bit.

Hahaha. It's so great to meet up with them again. And the chit chat sessions are just so nice.

Brings back so many memories and we still laugh at the stuff we use to do.

Haha..

Nice.

Oh yeah.

I recieved a secret bouquet yesterday too.

Haha. gave me a shock man..

Then.. i saw the name.

It's from Miss Yeo!!!

Wa.. it's such a wonderful and pleasant surprise! The flowers are so pretty seriously.

Thanks so much. :)

Today, my class sang me a birthday song and my beloved cario group gave me a plush toy flower and a book. Awww. so nice of them leh.... haha.

And that made me kinda shy. lolz.

Meiyan and Hui Jing bought me a cake and a barney balloon too..

It's so nice of them.

:)

May people wished me happy birthday too.

I must really thank each and everyone of them, but a bit difficult la, cos hard to write down everyone's name.

But i'm really thankful for what i have today.

Thank you everybody.

I'm now 20!!!

Happy birthday

Just barely 3 days ago,

I've decided that birthdays are no longer important for me. Just another day to be spent mugging and perhaps an hour more of rest.

I didn't expect anything for this year.

And i guess that's when you least expect things to happen, they happen.

Initially i thought i'll be having a quiet birthday like last year.

Then the dinner and lunch invitations came.

Got my first present from Ash, Siew and Reg just now during the dinner as well as a Andersen's treat from Ash.

Then got a call from my cousin at 11.58. She's ill. And i felt so bad about not being able to meet up with them for dinner to celebrate my birthday. They're always the first few to be there for me when i turn a year older. And i felt so bad, so so bad, for telling her i can't make it, then after that having loads of appointments suddenly. I felt so sorry.

12.01, my first birthday nudge from Qiyuan. Didn't expect him to remember and it came as a surprise. Thanks a lot.

12.02 Ouyang send me an msn msg wishing me happy birthday. This darling never fail to wish me every year for the past 7 years. Thank you so much.

Then it was Mark, thanks dude, really sorry i can't be there for you when you needed help but you always never fail to remember my birthday and wish me EVERY single year for the past 5 years. Thanks dude. Meet up soon k?

Then recieved sms from Marcus. Haha 10 years already. How time flies. Thanks marcus, yeap. it's today. you didn't remember wrongly.

Then, another cousin sent me a msg. She never fails to remember my birthday for the past 20 years. Although i can't stay at her house as often, but i appreciate EVERY thing that she has done for me. Thanks Lixia.

Regina, Ling, Another cousin(Guan Zhen), Hsiu Tzu wished me happy birthday too.

Thanks reg, siew and ash for being there for the past 3 years and going through thick and thin in JC with me. I'm glad that i got to know you guys.

Thanks ah ash, for remembering that my birthday, though you got the dates wrong and wished me on the 25th midnight instead. Haha. Thank you.

Ling, Ouyang and Cai, thanks for putting in so much effort to accomodate my time so we can meet up on my birthday. Thank you all so much for giving me that ULTIMATE surprise birthday amazing race back in 2006. I'll never forget it. 7 years of friendship and still ongoing. Thanks a lot girls. Sorry i may not be able to be ther for you all the time, and not being able to attend meet ups due to my schedule. Thanks for being so accomodating. :)

Hsiu Tzu, I hope i've got to know you so much better back in J1 and J2. But i'm glad that we worked together last year and i thank the Almightly for letting me have such a great friend like you. Thank you for being there for me when i'm down, patting my back when i needed it the most. Thank you so much.

Guan zhen. Thanks so much for accompanying me at Music Lib and laughing with me and not at me when i'm having my Dumb blonde moments. Haha. We shall have a cousins muggin club when Lixia joins the club yeah?

Thank you Mei Yan and William for remembering me Birthday. Sorry William i forgot to wish you happy birthday on the 15th Feb, but you didn't forget mine. Jia you for your final year. I'll do my best to make the line proud!

Mei Yan, though i've not known you for long, you're one of my closer friends in FOD. Thanks a lot for being so meticulous. Thank you for your wish that i'll smile more and laugh more like i use to be. i'll try my best. Thank you so much.

Kenny, thanks for the sms ah. Don't worry, i won't grow fat from the food one. Thanks for remembering that it's my birthday.

I ddn't expect so much.

What really touched me is the little gestures that people do to show that they care. Although it may seem small and insignificant to others, it means a lot to me.

I was expecially surprised to recieve a call from Jie Jie. I was feeling so bad about not being to have dinner with them.She never fails to cheer up my day, and she never forgets my birthday for the past 20 years too and i felt so bad about not being able to do so this year.

Then she called me a while after 12. To ask me to look out of my window.

Faintly, i saw the flickering of candle lights. They brought a Birthday cake to my doorstep!

A simple birthday celebration, only the 3 of us and a simple birthday song. Made me feel so special, so loved. I didn't expect them to turn up at such an hour. Somehow they always turn up when i needed someone the most. I am so happy i've got my cousins in my life.

It's so hard to describe how i feel now. And i can never find the word to describe how i feel towards my cousins. It's a mixture of everything good and nothing bad. I suppose when you truely love someone, you love them for who they are and you just can't find a reason to justify why.

Love doesn't need to have any explanations, it doesn't need to be justified nor does it have to be always mentioned.

It is felt with the heart.

I don't think i can do as much as what they have done for me and i thank God for giving me such wonderful people people in my life.

The past year hasn't been smooth sailing. It was tough hanging on, difficult to maintain my beliefs.

Sometimes i do find myself losing my direction in life, even worse, losing myself along the way.

Too much time was spent pursuing what i wanted so much, that i've neglected so many people.

That i've been so engrossed with that speck of dust in my eye to appreciate the beauty of my surroundings all these while.

I really didn't expect all these to happen.

Perhaps that's why i'm so touched that i can't help it but cried.

Not tears of sadness nor anger, but joy and guilt.

Guilt for doing what i shouldn't have done. Joy for having so many special people in my life, who goes all the way out to make my day special, who makes me feel different, who makes the effort to remember and wish me and for being with me and accepting me for who i am, someone who is not flawless, someone who is often a devil who brings hell into other people's lives.

Thank you all for being there.

The 1st time i cried happily was when i graduated from FHSS. The second time was when i recieved the letter for the interview and selection test for dentistry last year. The third time was today.

It's when you don't expect that you treasure and cherish what you have. And that's when you really see the beauty of whatever you have.

I believe, material gains will never be able to replace anything that comes from the heart.

When it comes from the heart, it's when it'll be the most precious.

Thank you to all of you.

Happy birthday to myself.

Gratitude. 1 more to the big 2.

Pardon my typos etc.

It's my last day being 19.

Into the big 2 soon.

The year hasn't really been enjoyable. I hasn't really smiled nor laugh my heart out for a long time.

But it's in these times where i find my friends.

I didn't look forward to tuesday initially, to me, it's just another day going to be spent mugging.

I thought i'll spend it alone.

I didn't think that there will be people who'll remember, since even i, myself, almost forgot that it's coming.

Then...

Meetings from S19, Coow, penguins, cousins and miss yeo.

I'm happy, yet at the same time i feel guilty too.

I've been mugging so hard sometimes i think i've neglected some of them. Not fair to them.

Sometimes i'm afraid whether i'll be able to sustain a conversation properly after losing touch for so long. To the extend that i may even be afraid of having nothing to say, to reply or to start a conversation.

I'm so thankful that i've got them. I do constantly remind myself that i have friends outside whenever i feel out of place in school now.

And that is always ever so comforting.

I don't want to hide my emotions. Nothing to hide.

I want to show my gratitude. I don't take my friends for granted and i make it a point never to forget my first encounter with them nor the silly things that we use to do.

Till now, i can still remember how i met everyone of my friends on our first encounter.

I'll never forget that bday surprise coow gave me in 2006, and the RED LACY thong and the "lucy" nickname s19 gave me. The dinners and long chats with Miss yeo, the meetups with penguins, the late nights out with cousins etc etc.

I am thankful that i get to live to this age, to have food, shelter, clothing, education and lots of love, tolerance and understanding from my parents and the people around me.

I really appreciate it when my friends ask me to sleep early, tell me not to mug too hard and tire myself out, how they will give me calls and smses to ask me how i am, how they will ask me to be happy, how they will say sorry for evoking bad memories whenever they ask me how is school now, how they will call me lucy, how they will say "YO ah kuan", how they will listen to my woes, talks to me on msn, buys me food occasionally, sits with me during my physio lectures, bear with my tantrums, look at me while i cry, laugh with my and NEVER at me, experience air headed and ultra dumb blonde moments with me and sends me smses to ask me to jia you, how they read my blog religiously( i know u do, come on, just admit haha) and how they will ask me whether i'm alright after reading my entries.

And to my cousins and Yan Xiang, how much they dote on me, how much patience they took to teach me how to swim, how they will take the effort to send me home and make sure i'm safe and sound, how they will specially just buy the sweet potatoes from IMM and deliver to my door step when i'm so busy i can't go out, how they will buy Ben and Jerry and bring to me specially, how they will surprise me with a christmas present, how they will always pay for my meals when i'm out, crack silly jokes with me and laugh along at my air headed moments, how they will bring me out when i'm so so stressed and cheer me up when i'm at my lowest and of course, mugging with me, giving in to me, bringing me out and making me feel so so so loved.

I have great parents and it'll be impossible to write down what they've done. For one, they gave birth to me and gave me more than what i asked for in the past 19 years and 364 days.

I know i am a devil at times, and that happens ever so often.

But i still do count my blessings. I still appreciate what others do for me though i don't say it.

We are all so fortunate, it's just that sometimes we forget to see what we have for the society has moulded people in a way to just focus on what we do not have.

Little things need not be said, they are felt.

Thank you.

Welcome 20. 1 more day.

:)

Dreams

I have 2 dreams.

Which i know will both never come true.

Despite this,

I still like to dream about them.

And pretend they exist although i know it is impossible.

At least they give me some joy and let me at least look forward to something sane in this insane world.

Somehow despite what i may get from pretending that they're fulfilled.

I hope to wake up from it soon.

For i know that certain dreams can only stay as dreams.

And nothing else.

I need to learn how to live in this insane world.

"If these are nothing but dreams, then please wake me up this very minute."

neighbour's son

Hah.

My papa just got molested.

By this 4 year old boy. Aka, my neighbour's son.

Mixed blood la, holland and chinese.

He keep asking my my papa isn't wearing any top.

Then my mama said he went to attack my papa's chest.

Lolz.

so old still kena. some more is by little boy.

haha

then i caught him kicking my dad's leg as he's reading the papers.

Sia la.

Naughty.

Smile :)

I've been feeling this way for sometime.

Weird.

I cannot explain why.

I have all that i need, all that i wanted.

I am contented.

But something is missing.

I am unhappy.

Don't ask me why.

Don't attempt to guess.

Cos it's something i cannot explain myself too.

It's not stress.

I'm not being emo or what.

I detest the word " emo" in fact.

3 letters can never mean much, especially when it involves emotional stuff.

I don't want to reduce my feelings to just 3 letters.

It's like a description for adolescence who are just having raging hormones and thinking too much of the opposite sex, leading to too many troubles of the heart.

I've grown out of that stage.

Though i can be childish at times.

But i know that life is more than just the opposite sex. Definitely much more.

What i'm experiencing, i do not know.

Perhaps i just don't know myself well enough.

To the extend that i need someone else to tell me that i've not been seen smiling or laughing in front of them.

But then, who really knows themselves?

Sometimes i wonder why i work so hard.

Is it to distract myself, to make myself seem important, to make myself happy, to make others happy or what.

But how can i make others happy when i'm not?

It's heart wrenching to sometimes see people smile when you clearly know that they are bleeding inside, and i know it's even worse for those feeling that way.

I ponder and i wonder.

Whether the people now are actually happier than they use to be in the 1950s and 60s.

Perhaps this is another phase of my life that i have to get through.

Been told and heard that 4 years is gonna be tough. I didn't take it to heart, thinking that A levels is the worse i can get.

My belief is begining to falter. Perhaps, they are right.

Though i've been trying to convince myself that this is not so.

But at the back of my head, i am preparing for the worse to come.

It's like an overwhelming feeling that i'm having.

And it's not positive stuff.

What is it?

I have no idea.

Shall wait and see.

Smile. :)

Anyway, tokyo kosei is so good. Their tone is superb.

Listening to them makes me melt. seriously

P.S

As a note..

I am not stressed.

I am perfectly fine and normal and the usual ky.

I just like to rant about things so that my thoughts are cleared.

Unhappiness is emptied and flushed from my minute brain, so i can have more capacity for better things.

Perhaps i have a narrow view about life.

Perhaps i think too much, too deep, too sensitive.

but i suppose i'm just like that.

Tell me about it.

Haha.

...

Small conversations.. Deep thoughts.

#1

XX: hey, i saw your facebook photos, what were you doing? I've never seen you smile like that before.

me: photos? hur? oh you mean those.. took them during class outing last year. Yeah. my class is great.

XX: really u know. never see you laugh or smile like that before.

Ky: hah. really ah.. ya. was much happier back then la. not as much worries compared to now.

I didn't realise that there was a difference to my smile and all until she told me.
That was when i realise.. it's been so long since i had a good laugh.
And i realise i've not really laughed nor smiled as happily, as truthfully since start of sem last year.
Never.

That was when i realise that actually..... i am so unhappy.

#2

YY: You know ah, you're 2nd intaker, then you come in and do so well.. We, as the first intakers are like..... (does action of looking upwards, hands raised to face level, fingers all pointing upwards).

Me: Hur? Why leh?

YY: no la, just that you're 2nd intake, then you do even better than us, the first intake ones.. it's like we're like ..........( can't remember, but along the lines of being 'not gd enough?')

After this, the first thing that struck me was.. oh.. so perhaps, being a 2nd intaker.. i'm supposed to be lousier? I didn't get in the first time round cos i wasn't good enough. So.. i'm expected to be lousier because i am a 2nd intaker?
Although i knew it was simply said as a not so serious thing. And i didn't take it seriously, i just can't reflect upon it and it disturbed me all the more because it was said like a matter of fact kinda thing. Which i suppose it's because it's what they assumed until they were proved wrong.

Somehow, i'm glad i worked hard.

I'm glad i proved them wrong.

Showed them that being in doesn't mean anything else.

All the things about elites.

I don't support elitism.

#3

ZZ: "Wa. it's an honor to have you with us during lunch time lor. Always pang seh us one lor..."

Makes me wonder. what does "pang seh" means. In the first place, i've never promised anyone i will have lunch with them and abandon them afterwards. If i've never promised, when where does the pang seh comes from?

Being always as a whole during the week. it is an obligation to lunch together or go out together etc? Is it a duty i have to fulfil? Why do i have to bear with such comments over and over and over AGAIN AND AGAIN?!!!

I come to school to study. Period.

I've never promised anyone and so. where does " pang seh" comes from?

Stop asking me " Where does your loyalty lies?"

Loyal? Define loyalty to me. Did i do anything to betray?

And stop talking about rag 07 and harping on that issue.

My answer to that question will be

" My loyalty lies with my friends."

Woot

Just finished my physio test.

Oh my...

It's kinda tricky.

And i seriously feel like i'm lacking sleep.

Anyway, looking forward to COOW outing tonight!!

Yeah..

One hurdle down, the next one will be Anatomy Spots.

Bring it on.

Let's all be positive.

Oh ya, something my cousin dis last night really made my day.

As usual, i was kinda grouchy after my nap and thinking of the amount i have to study for my tests and BDS, decided not to go for dinner anytime soon.

Then......

Recieved a call at about 9.30 pm from her and her husband, to ask me to wait for her at the door.

Guess what.....


IT"S BEN AND JERRY'c SPECIAL ICE CREAM DELIVERY!!!!

Oh my..

I seriously don't mind getting fat.

haha

Bring it on 2

Currently in CBLC, sci lib..

I feel the stress levels going up man..

Will bring it down.. lolz

Don't worry my fans. all will turn out fine.

GOsh.. gettting a little thick skin here. but heh heh.. dun worry. i won't turn into a monster because of stress.

Btw, CA is coming, Lets all jiayou and aim for that CAp 5.0. i shall work hard too and make sure i do well.

Physio CA this thurs, Anat spots in 2 weeks time, then oral bio mcq and prac the following week.

THEN....

MY FIRST BDS.

Let me cross the first hurdle and welcome it with joy.

Well, that is what i wish for. but i guess i'll welcome it with agony, pain, stress, fatique, frustration and irritation.(symptoms of stress).

Hopefully it's a happy thing which i can look forward too.

I mean.. shouldn't muggers look forward to exams?

Lol.. or perhaps, i should look forward to it since it marks the finishing of my first year, meaning..

3 MORE YEARS TO GO. ( that is when i'm trying to physco myself to ignore the special terms that i have)

Bring it on.

I shall be positive and opptimistic and what not S***( i mean. fecal matter)

We shall all be positive.

Haha EXAMS. HERE I COME.

P.S: after typing this... ben, i tink u're right. i am stressed. lolz. going kuku liao.

6.5 more semesters

Been really thinking hard about this.

"Have no desire to be happy"

That's when you stop doing things to try and make yourselve happy that you will realise that you are happy.

Been a unproductive day today.

But i've rested enough, thought enough to start again.

Let it be the starting point for me once more.

Thank you to those who've been giving me encouragements and support.

I'm glad i went NJ and met S19 and the penguins.

I'm glad i have coow.

I'm glad i have my family.

Thanks a lot. :)

You guys jia you too.

6.5 sem more to go.

Bring it on.

certain thoughts

I admit i am anti-social towards certain groups of people.

But not going out with them or anything, is because i want to have the choice to hang out with the people i want to.

And not be there physically when i jolly well know i will be much happier elsewhere instead.

Sometimes i wonder....

What did i do?

Why can't i lead my life the way i want it to be, when i know it is not going to affect other people?

Not going out with the rest..

Does it make me an oddball, does it make me a freak?

Why do i have to put up with all these remarks and stereotype?

Do they assume that i am like that when they don't even know me, not to say know me well.

I know these are said in a joking manner...

But this is sem 2, being asked where my loyalty lies and bearing comments abt me being anti-social is still going on?

Why don't people respect other's choice and individuality.

Some people just like to be more independent and just chooses to open themselves to selective people.

Is that a sin? Is that forbidden? Is that wrong?

Can't i choose who i want my friends to be?

Knowing someone doesn't necessarily means that they are our friends. Knowing is knowing. Being friends is another issue.

Somehow, this is a grey area.

I want to focus on my studies. i know what is required of me, and i work towards that.

Being serious in class and attentive is my responsibility as a student and a form of respect for the rest and the lecturer.

Is that going to make me an oddball too?

Clarifying my doubts AFTER the lecture ends so that i don't delay lecture time.

Is THAT wrong too? If not, why do i have to get questions from others asking me: " got so many qns to ask meh? why you always ask so many qns?"

And when there are also others doing the same thing, why is that i am always the target for such remarks?

I won't question whether is it fair, since the world is always never fair.

All that i ask for is peace.

Why can't it be granted?

I didn't say anything to offend anyone, because i don't usually interact.

Then why is it that i always recieve such remarks. No matter how harmless they are, how jokingly it has been put across.

Why does it always need to have "subtle" underlying meanings?

To a point i've become immune.

I's starting to not feel anything about it anymore.

No frustration, no anger, no disgust or what not.

Simply no emotions.

Just a whole load of questions.

I'm beginning to wonder if i made the right choice, did the right thing.

I am starting to dread what i used to think is all that i wanted.

Fight for peace?

What an irony. How can you fight and expect to get peace as the ultimate result?

Fighting never leads to peace.

Tolerance does.

Let it be bestowed onto me then.

V day.

Alright.

My previous post make me sound like a mugger freak.

Perhaps i am.

My valentine's day is spent mugging and having double session for tuition.

Got paid today.

Great.

At least it brings some meaning into my mundane Valentine's day.

Happy V day peeps.

lucy mugger's letter to her fans. lolz

I'm a mugger freak.

i wish for more time so i can mug.

i sleep less so i can mug.

i wish that traffic is better so i can mug.

i go school earlier to mug.

i reach home late because i'm mugging.

i skip meals in an attempt to mug.

i use the toilet and i mug too. (only at home, habit la habit la. lol)

i go out and my mind is worrying about mugging.

i feel guilty not mugging.

I am a mugger.

Why?

Because i have a CA next week and my finals are coming.

I shall blog less and come online less.

Reason: i want and i need to mug.

Bye bye

Yours sincerely,

Lucy mugger

^(*&#@(*&@^&*$^@*(#&G#V()#@F#*97T@F#@Y*T

*&(*^32^*(&#2&(&$7&$)(3.

After changing the tap, the water from the shower head is like DAMN IT WEAK.

Makes me feel so unclean even after bathing.

Especially when i'm VERY PARTICULAR about bathing and cleanliness esp after a long day out.

I WILL DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE WATER.

ARGH.

MIA

Well,

My timetable really clashes with a lot of pp,

And it's kinda hard to meet up with people.

Sometimes i've just like disappeared.

Bo Bian.

Gotta get used to such things.

I need to and i want to put in my best to do well.

My choice, my life.

Mugger life.

4 years will pass by soon. I hope.

Suddenly, i have the urge to shut my blog down.

Shall see how.

Been spending much time online i shall make sure i do some control over it.

Internet-less life is still much more interesting, like the A levels

What is it?

I'm having adrenalin rush.

I don't know why.

Perhaps it's the upcoming exams, perhaps it's something else?

I need help for this. Been needing a lot of sleep, but no matter how much, it just doesn't seem to be enough.

School is starting and i'm panicking.

I don't know why.

I hope it's not the A level syndrome. Had it once and ONCE is enough to drive me crazy.

Something is lacking.

I don't know what.

And this is making me worried, simply because i don't know what it is, i can't even attempt to find it.

I know there is something i need. but what is that 'something', i don't know.

Is it time? Drive? Motivation? Friends?

Argh...

My life revolves around only a few things for now and i miss having friends around me, like back in fhss, COOW, nj, band, s19 etc.

I feel. weird.

I suppose i shall return to mugging to drown these first, before i find enough time to start figuring out what is it that i'm missing out.

Meanwhile, just try to be happy.

Hahahaha

My first attempt.

nothing interesting

I realise i realy need to do s spell check before i post anything. my posts are plagued with typo errors and disgusting grammar errors.

Heh heh.

Anyway, school is starting tomorrow.

Insanity is going to begin.

Exams are really coming.

I don't like exams.

I wish i'm still in 2007, having my long break, earning money, slacking and not mugging.

Sian.

A dentist's role

Just talked to Mr B*******.

Haha. It was kinda nice to talk to someone from SOW after some time.

Realise it's been a long time since i've last seen some of them.

Even regina, it's been such a long time since i met up with her.

Gained some new insights today too.

About the special abilities of Mr B*******.

Amazes me. simply.

Oh yeah.

He's the one with the tooth ache.

Remember to use mouth wash with the active ingredient Chlorhexidine. ( Heard that those with alcohol aren't really good.)

And floss often (w/o flossing, 40% of your tooth's surface area is not cleaned) .

Oh yeah, brushing is IMPORTANT!!!

I shall attempt to post something about brushing techniques the next time.

Haha.

Nope, no aunty agony, only Mugger Wong here to ATTEMPT to answer your questions " CORRECTLY AND ACCURATELY?"

haha

Happy CNY

Happy CNY everyone.

Well, my work plans have been put to a stop due to the festive period.

Shucks.

Utterly bad, and now i'm panicking.

Went vivo with my cousins, aunt, uncle and parents yesterday.

It's funny to realise that they were the ones who use to bring me out, and now it's my turn to do so.

Role reversal as my parents age.

It's their first time to vivo, and we had Kim Gary for dinner.

New Year is like a extended holiday which i initially had many many plans for.. er,you know what la.

But now, i'm trying to finish up what i should have done last week.

Am going to cousin's house for gathering later.

I hope my holidays are spent in a more fruitful manner.

I'm more or less a workaholic i realised.

Ompf

Last day before the new year.

Last few hours before the new year arrives.

Yet why am i not excited at all?

Watched a movie.

Realised something they said which was so true.

I don't fancy new year except the food and the break.

And the money.

I'm going to be so bored stuck at home.

I shall most prob be doing my favorite hobby, unless my parents have got other plans.

But i would very much stay at home and have a good time for myself.

Before insanity snaps in.

I need more ompf in my life.

And by that, i mean the good ompf, not the bad ones.

I hope all's well there.

Water

A glass of water.

Plain but is ever so vital.

Who ever notices it's importance.

Only when we realise that we can't live without it.

A glass of water.

Evokes thoughts.

Thoughts which cannot be voiced, only felt.

Yet it's such a ambiquious emotion.

No idea whether is it exhaustion, anxiety, exasperation or what.

It's simply not a right feeling.

Not even overcomed by the coming new year.

Nor by valentine's day.

It's just...

A manifestation of my unique "christmas" syndrome.

I wonder why does it appear only this year and never before.

I shall sleep now.

My friend(s)

It's nice to talk to someone.

Someone who takes you as who you are,

who accepts you as who you are,

who asks you not to change yourself,

sees the best in you even when you don't totally agree,

who listens to your woes,

who pats your back,

who consoles you when you are down,

who knows how terrible you look and feel every morning,

who knows that your fave hobby is stoning in the toilet,

who listens to ur complains,

someone who tells you to be happy.

I am so glad i got to know her.

That's what i found in my friends.

Thank you. :)