Hello peeps. I've been missing in action. Yes I know. I've been ridiculously ignoring my lovely blog for quite some time. Therefore, to my Stuby , I'm sorry.
Oh man , I cannot possibly believe that I have not been airing my thoughts on this cute online portal for a LONG time !!. This is insane !. Poor blog .
The vampire has decided to tone down on its activities. Its undying thirst for blood have been quenched. It has decided to search for a new victim, Completely sound and not safe Poor YOU!! The cocoon – the place that ensured your safety has been invaded . A fatal decision that changed it all What can I say ? Betrayal is my middle name.
I miss my blog terribly! Let us look at the past happenings.
Sports day 2007
We were having our GP mid-year examination in the morning. I wasn't really prepared. I was busy doing my GPP the previous night and slept at around 2.30am. I was fighting back my fatigue when I was doing my GP paper. I was feeling slightly better when I was doing my essay but when it was down to Paper 2, I couldn't help but feel tired. It was really a Herculean task in trying to instruct my brain to work. Thank God that I managed to subjugate it to my commands. Mind over body honey!!
I was smiling to myself when I flipped over and saw the essay questions. My eyes were trying to frantically scan each and every question. But soon, it made an abrupt stop at one of the questions and I could literally feel my eyes popping out from the socket. I shall not elaborate on it till the results are out.
Soon after the end of the GP paper, students dashed out of the examination venue and exchanged anxious comments with their friends. Some of them were cheering and jumping in sheer delight while a handful some walked away silently, thinking about their impending doom. No matter what happens , let's abide by one of our institute’s core value – Resilience. It only matters whether or not we choose to bounce back from our setback and work towards our goals. So yeah. Chill .
Pravin , Karpagam , Mehraaj and I took a cab to Pravin's house and waited in the cab while he went to his house to grab the warranty card for his Nokia 6288. He wanted to send it for repair. That silly goose dropped his phone in the bus—well not the first time peeps. He’s just too playful and all. Silly goose !!
After that , we went to Al-Ameen to have our lunch. Pravin and I forced Mehraaj and Karpagam to order a plate full of prawns !!! Yummy. Pravin and I decided that we have an insatiable thirst for prawns – thus our desires were not fully satisfied. How sad!!
Soon after , we travelled to Orchard to send his phone to servicing. While waiting for him, the girls decided to eye-wash. Haha. I shall not elaborate on it. This little attempt is to ensure that I don't stir up shades of jealousy into Zard :p .* See I can me considerate at times ( unlike someone else ). After eye-washing , we took a train to Queenstown and waited for Pravin to grab his Onyx shirt for our sport's day. Finally, we took train to school.
The stadium was reverberating with the echoes of all students screaming in delight and excitement. My gang of friends decided to sit near my house – Garnet. We were making a hell loads of noise. Thanks to the donkeys and elephants who resided in my house ( no pun intended my friends ). I was getting ready for my 800m run. I was prepared this time. My runs ( 3000m and 1500m ) at heats were completely disgusting. I don’t know why but I just didn't have the mood to run. I know that it wasn't my best run. I'm starting to feel the intensity of the injury that I sustained 2 years back. It's threatening to swallow my self esteem. Man, this is one of the setback which I'm finding hard to fight back.
So yes, coming back to the brief description of my run. Soon the call-up came. I went to report to Mr Roslan. There, I got the shock of my life. My name was not in the 800m list. I was like " what the fuck ?! " . I saw my name in the 800m list at the Garnet board. So what was happening? How in the world can my name be omitted from the list?. Mr Roslan suggested that I look for Saiful. I tried to look for him and he was missing. I saw the names of the reserves. So right at that juncture, I decided not to run. I mean, due to some errors, my name was omitted. It's not my fucking responsibility to ensure that my name tallies with the name in the Garnet board. I was fuming in anger. Red hot hammers were working hard in my head and I was clearly in the verge of lashing out my anger at someone. So I ran to the toilet and vent my anger onto the walls
After that , I joined my gang of friends. They were wearing their hearts on their sleeves. I mean I could see their face peppered with tints of disappointment. I just heaved my shoulders and continued to show support to my friends.
Soon after , I decided to chill out at the car park . I met Sanjay,Shah,Joy and a few others. We were chatting about a lot of stuff . Suddenly , Pravin had a brilliant idea. He came up with a suggestion to leave school early and catch a movie. It was already 9.30pm. I was quite fucked up with the whole "error" thingy and I silently agreed to it. Upon reaching the bus stop , I decided to head home. I was really angry you see. My train of thoughts came to a sudden stop as I alighted from the bus. When I reached home, my dad surprised me with a new handphone. Good riddance to my poorly handled ex-phone. Hehe.
After checking out my new phone, I decided on a few things. I made a few promises. I have to abide by them for now. I'm really disgusted by the attitude I portrayed in this year's sports day. I will achieve my goals SOON. Watch out. I want to talk about a lot of things but I feel distracted now. My house is not conducive enough. I cannot really air my thoughts now. I can really concentrate well at night. Especially when it is past 12. Night owl I am !! .
Ok . This year, I might not be playing for the upcoming A Divisions. Coach's decision. I definitely disagree with it as she pointed out to biased reasons for not choosing me. I don't wish to argue further as I don't believe in blowing my own trumpet. I thank all those who were by my side as I shed tears. I thank my precious for being by my side too. And yes! To Rose, I share the same sentiments with you but then again, the coach made a mistake. Let her realise this. Observations do not always yield the right kind of results. Her decision might lead to a myriad of repercussions in the near future. Till then, no qualms – although it's hard to come in terms with reality, I've decided to accept it and face it. I might not have a strong heart but I certainly know how to keep the fire of my passion from burning brightly. I don't think your decision can put a permanent stop to my passion. But I seriously loathe you for a plethora of reasons. I should have noticed the signs much much earlier. But it's ok!. You are not my idol nor my favourite player. The previous coach produced better players because she saw the passion and talent in us unlike you, who only Destroyed the passion of the players ( I'm not talking for myself alone but other players as well- and I don't wish to name them ) .To top it all up , FUCK YOU. I wish I can show you the middle finger man!. The authority you now possess completely made you blind. You will repent soon.
But to the rest of my team mates , you should by now know of the sword of Damocles hanging over your head. Work hard and bring us glory. Go Team MI!!.
Alright. I'm feeling angry now.
Time to catch up on my studies. Adioz to all and God bless.