2008年12月30日 星期二

past and the future

so..it's the last day of 2008
leme think about this year
what happened
and so on
as they say, 初一是拿来玩的,初二是叛逆的
我初一的确是拿来玩的,但是初二...
是拿来发觉自己的弱点的.
基本上,3/4的时间,精力都献给了学会
do i regret that?
no:D
i learned a lot this year.
about myself,about others, about the world, about human,about leadership,about life as a group
but i kind of lost something too
or maybe,
i never used to have that something
friends?this year i knew lots of smart and terribly talented people
especially in maths
i met one whole class of intelligent people
and at times i feel not up to it
i also knew a lot of gentle girls this year
very high class>< lolx.but i also met a lot of crazy girls this year.haha boys?err....just to say, i didnt hang out much with boys this year except for with the prefects
okay,next.
results?maths i suck no doubt there...my logical mind is keksui my art is...very messy never really put my mind to doing it
next,class? fun.nice. but i would prefer if we got to sit with people we don't know still got some people i would prefer to know deeper
okay.now, for the "thanks"
thanks to: ruru-someone to go crazy with me in class
holi-someone i can talk to
wenyee-i can touch ur hair^^
jaymin-also.some to crazy with
zora-i LUV u!!!
aileng-a mighty great listener!!
kaiyu,jiawen,peiwen,shuang-haha.crazy together
joyjoy,yuyu-sorry for bothering u guys always.lolx
weiyi-always nagging u.haha
yimeng-for planning the gathering/being my friend for SO many years
perng,en,phatz,xin-my sisters since LONG ago.haha==
all the prefects-we're in the same boat!
flowers-nice memories!but i couldn't go to the gatherings>< color="#ff6600">sorry to-
prefects-well,for being stupid?
flowers-for missing out gatherings.><>< hopes for next year and the future?
-study hard
-learn how to lead
-find talent
-find out about more careers that might interest me
-have fun with my class ^^lolx.
happy new year, guys and girls
it's a new year
head for a new aim and strive towards it



P.S-me birthday ya 11jan haha><
hapi bd yeelen,chermaine,bro,zorzor,clarissa,yanling,jun and everybody else's birthday in january

倔强?

我的倔强呢?
早就决定好的
我的倔强呢?
那么快就动摇
那么快就心软
我的倔强呢?
肯定有出路的
我两个都要
怎么抉择?
应该倔强的
又是哪个?
我自己心理应该知道吧
别人失望了
说出原因?
只让人笑.
好.改了.
只剩下一个选择了
怎么办?
怕失去
又不爽
又倔强
责任,胜于玩乐.
对吧?
我,还是不果断
还是不倔强
还是不够严厉
不够有信心
好容易动摇.
我,去这营
到底有没有觉悟到?

P.S看不懂,算了.
im just writing to question myself. to test myself. to convince myself.
yes, im a coward.

2008年12月28日 星期日

back to earth

everywhere around me hurts now
ouch
jus back from the camp
wasei
SO tiring
had to run here, run there...
...
everywhere hurts!!
lolx
haiz如果问我学到了什么
是,往往不是我们做不到,而是我们不相信自己可以做到
干训干训....><
对!我们P组步操竟然拿冠军叻![我在炫耀.哈哈..]
超级无法想象!全组最少人,而且只有一个男生="权少"
其实我觉得其它组都很厉害咯
只是,我们喊的"左左左右左"是高分贝的
哎...
总觉得,自己好象缺了什么
不象其他人那么容易HIGH,不象其他人那么SMART,人际又MAMADEI
好.不比
可是总觉得自己还有更多
没有这小点罢了
可是
好怕会失去/浪费这一段时间哦
在团里回忆好多好多...
im confused?or am i thinking too much?
ii want to learn how to lead.
i want to cherish every moment with my friends.
yes!!
i also did a stupid thing.
er.i wanted to send an email with attachment of my e card
but
i kinda sent to everyone
BUT
forgot to put the attachment
stupid or not?

2008年12月23日 星期二

[交流营+everything else]

this post is several days late
haha...im attracted to the idea of typing english
but im gonna have trouble writing some stuff
so i'll stick with chinese.
第一天,一大早就到学校了
练习了一会,满身大汗[你可以想象我们有多臭HAHA]
巴士上他们一直玩什么
"这样对不对?这样对不对?OK,这样对不对?"
我到最后才明白==
尊孔...国中很象警察局.开玩笑啦...是它的建筑物很古老,很象历史遗迹.
独中呢,就很高...10多楼叻
报告一些事项,派营服,放书包,讨论...
开幕!!冷到..[我是说真的冷]
筹委会表演手语的时候我们中华的全全站起来参与
哈哈
分组!!我在-天平座
要想口号吗...超冷的...只有一个人在讲话
我做了一些很无聊的IDEA,
后大家也开始有意见了
ALAS,我们的口号-..懒得打.
ANYWAYS..就玩破冰游戏咯
踩气球!很好玩!!乱乱踩,管他认不认识...哈哈..最后我还是输了啦[...忆文....><]
然后...吃饭!!跟新的组别吃...
吃饭后就到听讲座了
"华教的故事"
可能是我太不专心,
一时睡觉一时清醒...
接着就是...跳舞!!没有啦..是手语
教我们那个好象...自己也不清楚酱..一直去问别人
可是他很可爱啦.哈哈==
冲凉咯...
分组讨论男女..准备那个黑红大赛
我在...FASHION SHOW!
可是我好象没IDEA 叻...
沈雁金葵跟我同组...随后出:HAWAII...==
吃饭后,就听多一堂讲座.
我超喜欢这个主讲人!!很喜欢他讲的东西!!
NEXT-游戏.
是"杀人案"的游戏..以前玩的都超级恐怖的
所以一开始我也很怕
结果
越来越..不恐怖了.
只是头混罢了,要做侦探
哈哈
吃SUPPER...练习...睡觉==

第二天
一大早醒来要练习
可是只有佩仪,UBI和小惠在那儿...
哎..做早操咯
跳MR.Q
WASEI!!那个活动组组长!!跳到很厉害!!!
从今以后,他叫MR.Q!
吃早餐后,选手他们都去彩排
我们叻...在外面练习
然后就到专题讨论.啊,不说了.有点闷.可是,讲的人讲得..不错啦.
继续做FASHION SHOW用品.
吃完后,到游戏啦!
先是什么交易的东东
然后就到分站的游戏..
有些很好玩,有些有少少闷.
最好玩的有两个~
传榴莲和用布拿水的.
哈哈....那个zhentao很可怜...==
冲凉后,男的穿黑衣,女的穿红衣
到礼堂吃晚饭!!最好吃的一餐咯...
可惜我们不能吃很多东西><
然后就播到这首=I like to move it move it
某间学校的就开始出去跳舞
慢慢的大家就开始绕场跑,开始HIGH了!!
接着播了很多首歌,我们大家都一直跳舞跳到傻!!哈哈...还上台那种
黑红大赛
超好看
我觉得男生,比我们合作多了=D
FASHION SHOW 最HIGH的!!![全用报子]
我们的HAWAII..性感
另一组的女的走到一半,撕掉衣服,露出BIKINI
XY和XIAOHUI=一个恶女一个SEXYLADY
哈哈...还有XUEROU=BUTTERFLY!!
还有最好笑的..
惠茹...SAKAI!!本来她就很HIGH了,一直笑个不停,害到她的衣服一直烂掉,负责她的一直要帮她贴回...哈哈.
男生的就有很多个SAKAI/土著
裤子短到.....>还有一个穿水果帽的!!
结果,男生赢了..
OF COS,过后就是继续大家的HIGH啦!!哈哈..跳舞跳到
完了后,就去跟各组,一起写一个感想
很夜了HO...还没啦!!我们去礼堂练习了一会才去睡觉
第三天
恐怖的一天
醒来后,练习
早操
换衣!!!
为了统一,领带绑过[洪良帮我们绑到三根半夜叻!!]
PIN一切的都弄过.
然后叻,吃早餐咯...要超级小心不能弄到衣服==
谢慧来咯!!大家一起喊口号
过后就进场了
哇...好多种校服哦!!
看他们一队一队的上去
都很PRO
很多老学长来...
中华上前时
我们都拍掌
不错啦!有一写错误[这是我的意见]可是我觉得都OK啦.很齐
然后就到我们出场了
怕怕!!我的眼镜脱掉了
所以看不到循人的花试操...
我们表演时
很多掌声!!!!朝开心的!!!
只有一个小错误..[根据我的...看法?]
=D
评审给评语
就散
...
换衣,吃东西,玩最后一次的交易
闭幕,看照片,拍照,离开
还记得,吃东西时我刚好跟三个循人的做在一起
我问他们我们操得怎样?
哈哈...很有气势叻...且我们才初二初三水准不错哦..
...还有说,我们的花式很想跳舞
哈哈..的确啦
BUS上...常委骂到...
我不想提了
anyways
im SO glad to have entered this camp
SO glad to have known so many people[actually, not that much lah..haha]
so...thank you!![to everyone lah]
我没有认识带坤成的叻...遗憾><
lolx
我的天空,我的梦
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now it's the "everything else" section!!
bakery lessons with my aunt!
haha...
slept over there with two of my cousins..7 yrs and 3 yrs
then in the morning, went along to buy some stuff
then started making brownies!!
=D...they said it was the easiest to make of all
ah well
it was VERY nice to eat when hot
yum
then me and me cousin started making cards
for me granma's bd
haha
after lunch it was baking time again!!
this time, we made Butter shortcakes
in forms of all types of shapes
haha
the fun part was making all those shapes
i made a gingerbread man, snowman, and my cousin's hand!!
haha
[i just realised i kept using the word "haha"]
anyways
we kept on making cards...till me granpa/ma came to fetch me=D
made a date for another bakery lesson
so the second bakery lesson was made
this time, my OTHER aunt brought me, me cousin and another aunt out to 1 U
to shop.
window shopping
din buy anything except for 1 thing
MAMMA MIA!!THE MOVIE!!
hoho.
then my aunt fetched me to my OTHER aunt's house[the one teaching me baking]
had dinner with them all
then went to my aunt's house to prepare to sleep
i watched a bit of the Oprah Winfrey's show, then watched 200 pounds beauty
i LOVE that show!!!
"maria!!ave maria!!"
then went to sleep.oh wait, before that
i off-ed a switch
and the whole house's electricity tripped!!
woo...
anyways
i didin't sleep for a long time cos was talking to my cousin.
or playing.
then in the middle of the night
me 3 yrs old cousin started crying for her mum
man, i couldn't sleep!
so i patted her...
then she fell asleep
as for me..
><
next morning
made pancakes
it's my first time=
MAKING pancakes, FLIPPING pancakes!!!
wee!!
then, i helped me aunt to peel some stuff
fry an egg[FIRST TIME TOO!believe it or not]
then played with my 3yrs old cousin
dolls and all
then make CHOC COOKIES!yun
ate lunch
made some cards.
MADE OATMEAL COOKIES!another YUM
then FINALLY
set off to me gran's house.
lolx><
another anything
zy (co) published four cards recently
wanna see them?
haha/only those four people get to see them.
==
class list is out!
3 zhong!
woo
okay..SAME WITH ZORZOR!
and a lot more people
haha
but tak da with .==
lolx
anyway
look into your email inbox
i might have sent a card to you
to those who didn;t
here's to you=
Merry christmas!!

2008年12月8日 星期一

last

this is going to be my last post for a lot of days..
so just coming up here to say
GOODBYE
sob.
im still sad i can't go to hleong's house
but AM looking forward to the camp
wish we have a wonderful time
wish we have a wonderful performance
YAY!
merry christmas everyone!

yp!happy birthday!

2008年12月6日 星期六

flower LAST at Mastiara

last time of practice at Mastiara...
today there was only us, flowers.
even roger didn't come
we ran for 8 rounds..first time i didn't stop!!wowee!!
the nwe started practicing
wasei man
it was so tiring
at least, my leg was very tired
we weren't really good
and it was the second last practice already!!
aah..
after getting scold by our commander
we got better.
kept practicing..didn't even stop to eat lunch
then we all sat and rest..talking about..
erm...
weird stuff
from breast cancer to sex to condoms...yucks
it's so hard, i think, to get cancer or any kind of long term illness
it's like, once you get it, you know it'll be your burden for the rest of your life.
it's so...
well..
hard.
anyway..we continued practicing and FINALLY finished
we wanted to go eat paobing
then, we saw 168
last time going there!
so we went there to yamcha
no lah..i drank lohanguoxut
after that we sat at the roadside, waiting for T225...
we waited for SUCH a long time and NO bus appeared.
...
Is the transportation system at Ma. so bad?
traffic jams, unpunctual shedules, traffic accidents...
once when it was raining really heavily, even the FLYOVER was FLOODING
==
by the time we got out to buy uniform, it wa sgoing to rain and quite late.
but the uniform was cheap
haha
after that, we decided NOT to go eat paobing already
SOB
i HAVEN'T ate before!!!
next time gathering we MUST go there!!
MUST!!
lolx
ate at sungai mas there.
then, followed xy and xh to look for some throat lozenges at a few shops.
finish
oh, and we squat-ted down 300 times
every 50 times we crumble to the floor.
haha..wat a picture we were
i realized that
there is just SO many things i don't know.
i never had the experience of navigating through some place alone
i never SAT on a bus alone
i never really ate at roadside stalls a lot...
i know, it may be due to me being a coward
but,
any other things leading up to it?
i wonder.
or maybe i just ain't observant enough
going to be missing for quite some time after a few posts.
haha

tags. ALL.

1st type:
tagged by Lim Jay Ming
The Self
[01] Real name : Tan Zhai Yun
[02] Nickname : Nat
[03] Married : single and available(JOKING!)
[04] Zodiac Sign: capricorn
[05] Gender: somewhere between a Boy and a girl
[06] Age: 14 08
[07] High school: dun wan tell u
[08] College: lalala
[09] Height: 150++
[10] Weight: 43
[11] Do you like yourself:not really..
[12] Piercing: non!!
[13] Right or left : whaddya mean?
[14] Are you a freak:kinda
[15] Hair: totally black
[16] Skin: brown.black
[17] Allergic: to prawns?
[18] What are you doing now : typing,duh
[19] What will you do 1 hour later : watch tv
[20] What will you do 10 years later : earn lots of money(HAHAHAHA)
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: parents
[22] Siblings(included you): bro..let you guess how many
[23] Eldest: tan something
[24] Youngest: hahaha
[25] Love/hate your family: LOVE.duh
The Love
[26] You found your another half: non
[27] If yes, who is he/she: -
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: no idea
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: non.im pure
[30]-[40]=non.
[41] Your first best friend: all !
[42] Your first enemy: non
[43] The friend you love the most(1 only): all.
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): non
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: all.
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: all.haha
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: life's aim is to gap zai and so carefree till out of control
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: smoke,drink beer, life's aim to gap lui
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: non
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: non
[51] If your friend backstabbing you :be careful, but will forgive.
[52] If your friend betray you: like [51]
[53] If your friend woo your lover: see if he is loyal
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: watever lah
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: dunno.
The Studies
[56] Are you a good student: yes?
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yes
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: dunno wor
[59] Always late to school/college: Nope
[60] Your class: dun wan tell u
[61] You love your seniors: uh huh?
[62] Seniors who you love the most: watever
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Good
[64] Excellent result classmate: okay okay lah
[65] Laziest classmate: dunno
[66] Smart people: all
[67] Stupid people: me
[68] Good looking people: all
[69] Ugly people: me
[70] Funny people: all
[71] Cute people: all
[72] Bad people: me
[73] Honest people: never noticed...
[74] Acting people: a lot loh
[75] You are what kind of people: crazy type
[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: hugs
[78] Shorter or taller: Shorter
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous:
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: non.neither
[81] Listener or Talker: both
[82] Romantic or rich:neither
[83] Good wife or good mother: ??
[84] Age to get marry: dunno?
[85] Numbers of kid(s): ??
[86] Career: dunno yet
[87] Salary: dunno
[88] Retirement age: dunno
[89] Properties value: enough to last me
[90] Wishes: world peace and safety, happiness for everyone
2nd type
tagged by: Clarissa,Leshin, Huiru
1. The last person to tag you are? above 3
2. Your relationship with him/her? friendship everlasting
3. Your 5 impression towards him/her ? good,caring,wonderful,friendly,beautiful
4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ? to actually remember me
5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you ? everything
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will:gay much?lolx
7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:cry
8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on:the gender.haha
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is:i did something stupid
10. The most desirable things to do with him/her is:continue being friends
11. Overall impression towards him/her is:lovely
12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?crazy and uncaring
13. The character for you for yourself is ? stupid
14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?no self confidence
15. If you’ve a chance to choose how a person you wanna be:anything God wants me to be
16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them:uh..i LUB you
17. Ten people to tag
1.holy
2. leshin
3. ubi
4. wen yee
5. hsin yee
6. i-lyng
7. weijian
8. yi ming
9. jayming
10. ryan
[above people DONT need to do it if you DON"t want to]
18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ? no idea
19. Is 3 a male or a female ?female
20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing ?impossible.unless they're gay
21. How about 5 and 8 ?nay
22. What is number 1 studying about ? sex.JOKING!
23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ? long time ago
24. Is number 4 single ? think so
25. Say something about number 2. leshin, can't believe you still remember me!!i LOVE YOU!!
type3
tagged by :ubi,jia qi
幸福套餐 NO。1♥
01 你的绰号 : nat
02 年龄 : 14 on 2008
03 生日 : 11/1/1994{remember ya}
04 星座 : capricorn
05 兴趣 : art.music.talking.everything!
06 专长 : 好象没有叻...幸
福套餐 NO。2♥01
你有没有喜欢的人? : 没
02 是否在交往? : 没
03 现在幸福吗? : 超级
04 如果上天给你勇气,最想做什么事? : 去认识一个人.LOLX
05 如果有天,你爱的人跟你告白的话? : "是吗?我也是哦..hihiihi...malu lah"
幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是: ubi,jia qi
02 他是你的 : friends!
03 他的个性? : like family
04 认识他多久? : one is last year, one is this year
05 你觉得他怎样? : part of me.
06 你想对他说什么 : thank you for everything!
幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 : nodame Cantabile!
02 最爱的音乐 : everything?
03 最爱的季节 : summer
04 最爱的卡通 : erm.all studio Ghibli's
05 最爱的人 : friends!families!
06 最爱的颜色 : 灰,蓝,红,粉色系,天底下所有的颜色
07 最爱的国家 : Malaysia and New Zealand
08 最爱的天气 : sui bian lah...not thunderstorm then ok
幸福套餐 NO。5♥
01 如果上天给你三个愿望: 1)世界平安2)家人朋友幸福快乐安全3)大家快乐每一天!
02 你是很专一的人吗 : nono
03 最深刻的回忆? : All my time with my friends and families
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? : absolutely no
05 你很爱微笑吗 : of course=D能笑为何不笑?
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活,你愿意吗 : 不愿意!
07 妄想什么样的生活 : 大家快乐,没有猜疑,没有恶念头,与朋友家人happily ever after!
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 : nonnon
notice the font size difference?coz it's same as down there, so it's smaller.
take notice, im not doing this anymore

2008年12月5日 星期五

cockroach festo

After the mosquito "wen you" they sprayed around my neighbourhood,
LOTS of cockroaches came out. Okay, it went like this:
i went to the kitchen and saw one BIG cockrach. i screamed#1[duh, normal reaction]
then i saw the SECOND cockrach, smaller one following it. i screamed#2 AGAIN.
then i ran tip toed to the front. after some minutes or sth, i went back again
this time i saw the BIG cockroach at the stove, the SMall cockroach climbing up the sink
i screamed#3 AGAIN.ran to the front, my mum accompanied me to the back. went past the cupboard and a cockroach FLEW past . screamed #4.stood on top of the chair and didn't dare to come down. eew....
then, i went to the kitchen and cooked rice, all the while tip toed and sweating.
then ,at night my bro asked me to open the door. went out, saw FOUR dead cockroaches at the door. Went out further, my bro saw even MORE dead cockroaches.
he forced me to clean them up. URGH.
so i used the broom to put them on the ..what's that called?sao zou..
THEY WERE STILL ALIVE!!!
screamed#5,#6,#7
haha.
okay. now for past experiences
#1.
put my hand down the sink and two antennas came out.
the rest you can imagine
#2.
a cockroach on the curtain of my room next to my bed
#3.
wanting to wear a shoe and a cockroach came out of it onto my skirt
#4.
a cockroach in my bag, after my bro beat it dead, green goo came out of it
#5.
climbed past my feet.
#6.
flew and stopped at Weiyi's face
#7.
went in the toilet and saw two cockroaches fighting
#8.
i can't remember.
want to know the reason why im so afraid of them?
=
long time ago,
someone told me that they would climb in your ears.
how many times my bro told me it's not true, the phobia is still there.
EEW
after the spray, not only my HOUSE had a lot of dead cockroaches,
on the road, there were too.
so,
in this 21st century, not only we have cutting-edge technology,
we have
a
COCKROACH INFESTED CITY.
the end


p.s. whoever who tagged me, i'll return later.im lazy to do so...lolx

2008年12月3日 星期三

xut.ice.bing.

lately i've got addicted to cold stuff
lo han go xut; kokfa xut;xut cha;ice green tea;ice everything;ice kacang;cold water shower
issit because i spent so many hours HOT?
lolx...
im not in the MOOD to march today
kept making mistakes
sorry everyone!!
especially after the ending time, when i had to go [mii granpa's waiting!]
but i wonder about something.
roger kept saying, it's X 15 now.it's X 30 now...
but then on the car, half way home, i glance at my watch and uh...
it was just X 21
??was he just saying to make us NOT make anymore mistakes?
lolx..or maybe it was just my watch, being slow.
anyway
it's so tiring already...first ti me i ran whole 8 rounds.dying==
doing the same movements again and again
because we weren't err...齐
有够累的...
但是下星期就是表演[算是表演吧?都不是比赛}
所以...
再累也是需要的!
虽然
我觉得我父母不会再给我参加了[nex time, i mean IF i have the chance again]...
flower hands add oil

p.s. me typing chinese is just WAY weird.hmm.

2008年12月2日 星期二

singapore+sarawak

Singapore
nice trip,sitting the MRT everywhere, walking MILES and MILES
ending up with a VERY sore leg everyday night...
lolx..
but it was fun actually, to see Stamford Raffles up front
haha...i think, knowing sejarah, history is even BETTER when u get to see the landmarks and places and documentaries...
u get to FEEL and REMEMBER it more
it's like a better way to study.lolx
had to take care of my younger cousin all the way..
she's seven and looks like a miniature version of me
haha
lolx...taking care of children is HARD JOB
i don't know how those nannies cope with it lolx
they talk non stop and say some unfunny things which they think is funny..
and they have all the energy in the world!
but then, at the end of the day, u'll just think that they're cute
and they let you remember memories of the past=D
i guess that's why nannies can bear children

sarawak
haha
don't think i ACTUALLY went to sarawak
lolx...about running, i hate it
today XY asked us how much we hated running?
weijian said 70%i think
xy said 80%
me?90%
lolx...today i think roger got angry with us
well, not i THINK
it's he IS angry with us...shouting too soft i guess.
but i tried my best already!
i DID shout all the way, just, probably not as loud as the others
Sorry
sorry
i'll try my best
and not think of HOW MANY MORE ROUNDS!
lately practice has got tough
stressful, tiring
woo...
but then, the camp is coming
we can't afford to be bad anymore!~
me too, lolx. missing so many days of practice, pulling back their pace
sorry again
roger is scary when he gets..erm...angry?
lolx...he SHOULD be...the way we are buchao-ing now
lolx...WAIT>
we're not THAT bad lah..
so, don't think of us as..so cham..
anyway, we're sarawak right?
i kinda remember hleong writing something on the floor today...

"flower hands add oil!"


p.s. 8th i can't go hleong house lah..parents don't give. SOB.gonna miss another thing><

2008年11月29日 星期六

.[tag].....{im an immature!}

第一:被点者请在自己的 BLOG里写下答案
第二 : 请传另外十位的人.=)
第三 : 传阅人‘请在于这十位当中斗留言版’ 告知他(她) 被点名了.
第四 : 这当中的十位的人‘不得拒绝’
第五: 被点者‘请注明被谁点了’ 在哪接到‘在传给下十位’
第六: 这些被点名者’
你们被点会得到祝福‘并且愿望会实现’ 也会得到幸福.^^‘幸福套餐'开始咯!!^^
tagged by xIAOxIn
幸福套餐 NO。1♥
01 你的绰号 : nat
02 年龄 : 14 on 2008
03 生日 : 11/1/1994{remember ya}
04 星座 : capricorn
05 兴趣 : art.music.talking.everything!
06 专长 : 好象没有叻...
幸福套餐 NO。2♥
01 你有没有喜欢的人? : 没
02 是否在交往? : 没
03 现在幸福吗? : 超级
04 如果上天给你勇气,最想做什么事? : 去认识一个人.LOLX
05 如果有天,你爱的人跟你告白的话? : "是吗?我也是哦..hihiihi...malu lah"
幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是: xIAOxIn
02 他是你的 : 朋友!
03 他的个性? : 很友善!!好人!Lenglui..
04 认识他多久? : 今年开始
05 你觉得他怎样? : my hero.lolx><好人,友善!!
06 你想对他说什么 : dun worry be hapi~
幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 : nodame Cantabile!
02 最爱的音乐 : everything?
03 最爱的季节 : summer
04 最爱的卡通 : erm.all studio Ghibli's
05 最爱的人 : friends!families!
06 最爱的颜色 : 灰,蓝,红,粉色系,天底下所有的颜色
07 最爱的国家 : Malaysia and New Zealand
08 最爱的天气 : sui bian lah...not thunderstorm then ok
幸福套餐 NO。5♥
01 如果上天给你三个愿望: 1)世界平安2)家人朋友幸福快乐安全3)大家快乐每一天!
02 你是很专一的人吗 : nono
03 最深刻的回忆? : All my time with my friends and families
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? : absolutely no
05 你很爱微笑吗 : of course=D能笑为何不笑?
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活,你愿意吗 : 不愿意!
07 妄想什么样的生活 : 大家快乐,没有猜疑,没有恶念头,与朋友家人happily ever after!
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 : nonnon
调卷到此结束‘点人者请至于被点者的留言版’ 告知被点名了.I want to tag:
1.Ru
6.jayming
7.yimeng
[invitations will be sent out later..lolx..
im lazy to post ...if u see ur name here...then do as it says lah
haha..sorry]
[if u dun wan do, nv mind]
=D

2008年11月23日 星期日

longish post[marching+ gathering}

first, marching
i'm sorry
i can't get out of it[thanks for offering ur house though,xy..haha]
well
if you know my parents
you'll know that begging
just ISN'T the way
sorry...
gambate when the changwei come to see yar...
i'm gonna miss lots of things, i know
going to have to catch up with everybody..
missing 5 days!
omg...
u don't know how bad i feel about it...
i want to go marching
but
i also want to go singapore..
or else...
it's gonna be lonely.
and
it's going to be a whole lot of masalah for my parents...
so, sory><
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
6m gathering
tell the truth
i wanted to skip this one
cause
i want to watch Ratatouille!!
lolx
but i went anyway...
REALLY happy i went though..
thank you for everyone who planned this gathering..
especially yimeng lah..
feel like waste a lot of your phone money
keep changing my mind about want to go or not
but glad that i went
=D
saw so many people i haven't seen for so long..
but got a few people i didn't even talk to also..
sorry..
lolx...
i shy lah==
lazy to upload pics..
want to see, wait nex time or go find friendster lah
haha


2008年11月21日 星期五

nuts

holidays
spent almost everyday
marching
im BLACK
but
i had fun^^
doing the "huashi"
and then watching 4th JB a 100 times..
watched STomp the yard SLOW motion
on Xy's finger print covered laptop
lol
i guess
this way of spending holidays
is better then being locked up at home
facing technology stuff
all day
but spending holidays like this
cuts up my time of doing things like
reading, drawing,revising,starting a project
i can't really do those stuff during school times due to the hectic life
CHKL students lead
and it's PMR+UEC
mayb e i won't have time
for doing things i LIKE as long as i want?
drawing in a limited time and in a frustrated and hurrying mode
does not bring out anything
anyways
im out of inspiration and ideas all the time
my friend
isn't
able to
go to form3..
losing a battlemate...

2008年11月17日 星期一

another practice

2day was quite
easy
well...at first we had to run SO many rounds
[hated that]
then
we all rested and thought that there would be basketball after this
BUT
no chance
started marching immediately.
we went to march one by one
as in
"插续法"[roger say d]
anyway
辛苦洪良和佩仪了..
做第一和第二个
after that
we went to Shenyan's house
no one was at home
when we entered, the alarm was on
MAN
it was so loud
then roger got the passsword from Shenyan
only did the alarm stop ringing
whew
we went to see videos on youtube
about huashi cao
because it was SO slow
we went to eat lunch first
but it rained while we were eating
mind you, the rain WASN't small.
we ran back to SHenyan's house
buyt it was LOCKED!
cham..
called Roger
he told us to go find a place to stay out of the rain
okay..we went to the basketball court's little pondok
stayed there for VERY long...
we planned to pretend we were all very cold and sick when roger came
lol
after the rained stopped we went back to shenyan's house
saw the vids
wow
they were SO pro..
we then sat around
and thought of ideas
^^
then
duh==
i went home
PS. when i crossed the road,qingying did sth
[spit water ]
==
lol
duno why
i feel high today
shrug

2008年11月15日 星期六

wow

SO感动
看到大家的留言
><
lolx
gonnna open a blog specially for 08 2zhongs...
ask weiliang lah
ask him to open geh
08 2 zhongs!!留意留意!
开始
有点向往
步操练习了
可以跟大家一起步操
很好玩!
可惜...
ZHIYU退出了...
希望他还OK吧...
不知道谁会代替他呢?
哎..
很怕自己没有好好珍惜这些时光
父母们都好象
有话说哦...
"时间很不对,地点又麻烦"
"地点很晒"
"为什么不要在学校?"

Jusco


drew it
negative huh
that's a mimer by the way
anyway
went to jusco today with xuan shou and hua shou
i
have never
watched
a
movie
with friends before
lol
the basketball match in the rain
was fun
exciting
yeah!
but lots of people got hurt
anyway
had a fun time today.

confused

this is a meaningless post so u can skip reading this one

im invisible
unspecial
nothing unique
nothing special
easy to forget
easy to disappear
where am i?
is this me?
maybe.
hate it, then.
i don't want to miss this chance
i don't want to regret
no one
notices
im lost
where?
i just wanna be myself

2008年11月13日 星期四

hols

im going to miss another buchao tomoro
no!
it's not like i WANT to
sob
i also want to go!
it's fun!!
lol.
today roger tummyache..
we all planned to go "visit" him
[we were all buchao-ing when he suddenly went missing]
weijian found him in the toilet
we all surrounded him as he walked, acting as his "光环"
then xy asked this disgusting question:
"是固体的还是液体的?"
i'll not bear u with the answer
lol
1st time we won the basketball match!!
yay!!
lol==
wenhui is REALLY good at playing though
okay
lemme show u somethings
i've been doing during the hols.
[too bored]
lazy to msn
yet miss frens so
dunno they miss me or not?
==
lol

1st outfit.


2nd


3rd
[all this outfits and hairstyles are entirely clipped out by random pieces of cloth and pins.]


2008年11月11日 星期二

free-dom?

got out of one day of training for buchao
feel REALLY bad about it
others are out there buchao-ing and im at home...
err..
better not say doing what
lol
tomoro gonna go training
dead
hate the morning routine= run around the garden and play basketball
dunno why but
i just have to play basketball for a while
then i feel REALLY out of breath and tired
Xieying caN play throughout the whole game!!
man...
i suck at sports==
im black too==
aaaahhhhhhhhhh
but its nice to be able to spend time wif friends^^
still remember the day when we all were late...
when the xuan shou waited for us huashou
lol
and gt scolded
wasei
i shouldn't be laughing now, should i?

2008年11月9日 星期日

holidays

graduation
saw the videos they made
some of them were very creative
one thing about me
is that i love to daydream so much
normally if u see me staring into space
that means
im probably making up a play/video/designing something
i know, lame==
想到拜三到拜六要步操...
LOLZ..
又想又不想...
很怕自己的程度,进度跟不上别人...
ROGER说这星期
不好的人会被更换..
好怕哦..
若是我的话,我会超级失望...
SARAWAK,加油加油加油!!!
致宇好象看起来不想操步了...
上次他好象...
很累酱...
大家加油啊....

2008年11月7日 星期五

Terribly...

weird day
started off with feeling absolutely impatient
remembering that i have a LOT of things to do today
and then
it was the "rush"
then
sadness[got scold by KH teacher(a lot of them) cos din finish shirt]
haiz
my fault lah
i dint go and do the shirt
anyways
after sewing
i went to do the "things" with rou and hliang
we did it until 3 oclock
we were STARVING
and no SHOPS were OPEN!
...
tergamak kita jalan keluar makan di Mamak
i ordered maggigoreng
so so so PEDAS
= =
others are out "gai gai"
and we had to stay back and do this stuff and stay HUNGRY for it
haiz

2008年11月2日 星期日

Toilet


[eew!in a MALE"S toilet]
初二领养厕所计划
lol
at first i thought that it wa utterly meaningless and NO ONE would bother
hmm
seems that im wrong
LOL
so i actually wasted my whole holidays doing other things
and didn't do much for the toilet
when i heard how much others are doing
i started regretting
oops
it's a little late to be regretting, ain't it?
argh
going to have to finish some stuff TODAY
haiz
im just afraid that stuff i do will be destroyed by the boys using that toilet
sob
doesn't matter...
just as long as i TRIED
right?
lol
sorry, WeiYi for keep pushing m responsibilities to you




2008年11月1日 星期六

What i like

i like marching
but just TWO days of it
can kill me
my feet ACHES
my back is SORE
my lips feel BURNED
my skin is RED
my body has turned BLACK
ouch
and the basketball match
haha
my FIRST
and
i only got up a while
snatched a few balls
and then i felt tired
and my legs felt like jelly
and i can't breathe properly
....
see?
im not MEANT for sports
though someone told me i did OK on the 2nd day
we lost
lol
it was fun though
better then being locked at home doing nothing
wasting time
it was quite a good option of using time wisely
although
sometimes i feel like i can't fit in with 46th
sometimes i suddenly feel the warmth they give me
haha
lol

2008年10月28日 星期二

moviemaniac

im CRAZY
saw THREE movies in ONE morning
whew...
Mean Girls, Enchanted, Just my luck
Maybe if we look at life simpler
and expect EVERYTHING
be positive
life might be better than we think
it would be opened to more possibilities
in Mean Girls..
everyone was incredibly TWISTED
and lots of them were MEAN
it might be because of their upbringing
their parents influence
or the media
or just plain,FRIENDS
i think
when u meet peole as TWISTED
best is
ignore them
and pass life as normal

EmpTy


WEnt to zozo's house today..
tell ya'll what we did all day
erm...
watch Harry Potter Order of Pheonix
watch lots of movie trailers
play piano
play guitar
watch Stomp the yard+eat lunch
Watch FLushed away
Watched Just My Luck

How many shows we watched?
hmm....
her house is like a museum
full of hidden treasures..
woo..
haha

2008年10月21日 星期二

Weird


issit weird not to like someone?
i think it's not, right?
=]
no,i think something's wrong with me
lol
it's not safe to say here
hmm
im not a good listener
neither am i a socialiser
i am easily hurt by the merest thing
i don't know
i don't know
idon'tknow

2008年10月16日 星期四

1 day trip...



[our FOOD]


hoho


it was SO not worth it


but it was still fun anyway~
Visited the Rice factory and Tenmoku Pottery factory


the clay made artworks there were incredibly pretty and expensive(DUH)


conclusion,i didn't learn much at this trip


wasteful, i know, for a trip worth RM50...


[our FEET]

We took this picture because we were all wearing SNEAKERS

lol
lazy to put more pictures
blek

2008年10月15日 星期三

ART ART ART!




[tekkonkinkreet]


saw two of the art books in kinokunya..


so so so yeng..


LOVE the pictures inside that anime..


the perspective is so so so so great


although tell you the truth i have not seen this anime yet


lol



NEXT on!

[studio ghibli art books]

saw some pictures online

OMG

they are just so magical

so real

yet so

so UNreal

....

that day went to kaiyu;s house

then went to Tesco

and bought snacks worth RM50++!

specially for the one day trip

lol

crazy jor

2008年8月31日 星期日

subs

forgot something
jayming said he can't hear what we were saying..
so i'll make subtitles.
video 1~
耘:喂!你为什么坐我的位子?
如:这是我的桌子啦!
耘:这是我的啦!你没有听过啊?
如:没有!
耘:这地方是我的啊!
如:这哪里是你的!我买的啦!
耘:比啦!比啦!谁赢了这就是谁的拉!
如:好啊!怕什么
比气....
ZOR: KitXXX, take a break~(i don't want to mention the food name)

video2~
耘:哦~小姐小姐,请问你对KITXXX有什么心得?
ZOR:没有什么心得哦
耘:怎么?很好吃!你讲很好吃!
ZOR:会吗?哪里好吃!我不要讲!
FIGHTING
如:KITXXX,take a break

another video~

zor and me and ru

zor..

dun b angry

hoho

tht day went to pizza hut to eat pizza with hols ru wenyi and kaiyu

believe it or not, we ate FOUR regular pizzas

haha

we eat a lot^^

then kaiyu thought she say kaihow outside

so we used her phone to call kaihow

okay, here's the conversation:

kaiyu: hello, is this wong kai howe?

kh: yes. who are you?

kaiyu: i am someone from mutiara.

kh: oh. is there anything?

kaiyu: you left your wallet here, at mutiara

kh: but i just took my wallet out.who are you? holi?

kaiyu: no

kh: huiru?

kaiyu:no

kh: wenyi?

kaiyu: no

kh: zaiyun?

kaiyu: no

kh: then who are u?

kaiyu: u guess?

...

then the conversation continues

haha.

that's just a rough draft

yesterday

ru and zor came to my house

we wanted to play basketball at the field actually(i failed!)

but it was raining

so we stayed indoors first

i played the cd the guitar teacher lended

it was so hawaiian-like

so zor and me started dancing

hoho

crazy...dances

2008年8月26日 星期二

Changes

above video was made some time ago by zor,ru and me

anyway

"change"

that one day after a meeting

i found out about how WEAK i am

how i don't have any ideas

how i am so "suibian"

i really hate it

how can i be a leader like that?

i have a lot, a lot, to change about myself

well, await this change then....

although i don't know will i do it.....

self-esteem needs extreme boosting

courage too

and my general knowledge sucks!

not only that..

my brain turns too slow and i am often in blur blur mode..

i HATE myself///

2008年8月19日 星期二

宅女

因为如如的影响
我终于知道什么是宅女了
也发现
很符合我在假期时的
行为
天天躲在家
很懒惰出去
不是我不要(OK...有时是我不要)
而是我很懒惰.......

Control freak!!

why am i such a control freak??
i cannot live through a day peacefully if i don't plan ahead
and write down all the things i have to do on a post-it note
i can't!!
i have to plan all stuff ahead of holidays so i won't feel so uncomfortable
YET
i am so lazy to plan
and manage and even THINK about planning
i need to go to a meeting on thursday
but i don't know how(transport) to go
i want to go to a concert on thursday night(SOUL)[ahkam gt perform ler!!!!]
but i have no transport
i feel like going out with the "guitar people"[lol] on friday[ahkam gt go lerr!!]
but i am a bit lazy and don't dare to ask my mum and am afraid i will be lonely
mm
see the contradiction?
oh right
the gathering yesterday was AWESOME!
so fun!playing in the rain^^

2008年8月14日 星期四

1st day

today
i
learned a lot of things
i need to change about myself
a lot
i have to
start being more
confident about myself
and dare to do stuff
and actually
take full responsibility of things
and stop being so dependent of others
i really
dun want to be that blur girl again
i want others to be confident in me
of course
i have to start with having confidence in myself first
but
i will try my best
and not worry about doing something wrong everytime!

2008年8月13日 星期三

高三欢送会(吉它学会)

^^
食物很好吃
而且
人也很亲切
很感动
主席团所付出的
真的很多
也突然感受到
学会
真的很
好玩
而且也对一个中学生的生活带来许多~
很感动咯...
yining so geng...
must be a very good person^^
ahkam so geng also...
all guitar so geng...
all so yeng...

Naked

Today
the last 4650
lead by Xie Hui
we
were naked to each other's faults
we all gathered in an unlighted room
and
cleared off all the tables
leaving an empty space
in the middle
with us all seating around it
a chair placed in the middle
we all were supposed to come out
and stand on the chair
facing everybody
and say out our faults
3
it was
a very serious activity
i was
trembling
when i went out
it was scary
i think
everyone took it seriously too
we all then went to another room
and wrote down what we said
on a paper
and hung it up
later
all of the papers were tore down and kneeled on
and written: what kind of person we want to be
then
we stepped,ripped,threw the paper
signifying that
we are going to throw the old us out
then
we all chop our hands
on a piece of paper
agreeing
to be a good prefect and all
until the end of 50th
after that,
it's our choice
i REALLY wish
i can change myself
really.
i don't want to be that blur self again
1. 我是一个没有主见的人
2.我是一个没有自信的人
3.我很胆小

2008年8月9日 星期六

吉它学会音乐会


美吧...

^^


终于


有一个华语的贴了


不懂大家觉得这个音乐会好看吗?


至于我,


我真的觉得很好看


也很喜欢


绝对不后悔做了筹委....


可以认识那么多人


学习那么多东西


真的爽到暴....


^^

bad News

okay
those were the good news
today
i also did a lot of bad things
i don't want to mention them
but
it just got me thinking
i
really
want
to change
i don't want to be the blur me again
i don't want others to think that i can't do a thing properly
i don't want to make others suffer
i want to help
really, i do
i don't want to be that, so suibian person anymore
or else
i cannot be a prefect
aa..
another thing
i just learned that
i REALLY should have my own opinions
and if i ever want to help others
i should really
really get to know the whole thing first
and not agree with everything everyone says
i should have my own thinking
i should
OH!
riight
good news
i love
i love
46th prefects
i really want us to all continue in the road till we graduate
and shine too
really..
i don't want anyone to leave us...

Holi Bd!!

today
we celebrated holi's birthday
huiru.wenyi.me
we folded loads of paper birds
and put it on her table
in the middle, we put a box with several color birds inside
when she came in
we asked her to pick out
any of the cranes
and there are words inside, or more like, DARES
that she should do
lol
the first one she got was
that she had to sing one of Angela's songs
which she did, really softly
then, the next she got was a good one,
just wishing for something and it will come true
then next she picked one wanting her to belanja ru,wenyi me and mama
to eat ice cream
oh!
and she also picked this one= sing the theme of powerpuff girls to lbc(some1 in class)
which she did
with loads of audience
and she kept laughing
and here comes the climacs!!
she had to go around form two classes and get three banchao's phone number
so we all followed her around as she got it from 2xiao, xin and yi
lol
that's nice
i wonder if she had fun?
....
Beijing Olmpics
the opening was SO nice
loved it
really creative of them
especially the last one, in which Lining ran "flying" around the stadium
WOW

2008年8月2日 星期六

Guitar/Prefect

lookin forward

to the

guitar society performance!!

yay!

i don't know do i still want to stay in it next year or not..

being a prefect is like, SO busy

but

2008年7月28日 星期一

WAIT

before u say anything, listen to me
" i know i am crazy for posting 3 posts in one day within 30 minutes but sorry, i kee forgetting to write stuff or suddenly have an urge to write that i can;t fight it"

just look at all my previous posts.
my english SUCKS
although it might be due to laziness(lazy to tye full words and grammar)
but
it still sucks!
sorry to everyone's whose eyes and brain got hurt from my writing


that time

me and hui en

decided on a title

and drew a picture about it

apparantly the title was " empty"

so this is my picture

ugly i know

and the details are purposely blurred out

because

i am too lazy

sorry


seems like such a long time since i wrote here...

everytime i have loads to say in my head

but when i face this empty space, i don't know wat to write.


hmm

err

see?

urgh


there's so many things in the world

that i like

and want to try

but

this things

take time and money

and i

really don't have those things

especially with all the things and exams in school

i hav no time to do other stuff

which kills actually

that i cannot draw for a whole day

that i can't touch my guitar

where is my time??????????

is it my fault

or

the school's?

i think it's mine

hm

but

being a typical human

im wishing it aint

2008年7月9日 星期三

how to help?

i dont understand
hw people can get
affected by things around them
so easily
is it because they willingly want to?
is it because they just want to follow the trend?
is it because they're too lazy to think?
is it because they think they can benefit from it?
i don't know
there'r lots of people who might need help out there
in which
i don't know how to help
i really don't understand them
really
i feel so down sometimes
all,
suddenly
feel very self depressed
that i cant do much for them
that
my society gave me so much
and i have nothing, except time
to give
but
by giving my time
and i lose time
to do other things too
where's me?
y am i suddenly so
erm
serious or something?
huh..
is it because i m too busy?
why am i suddenly not like last time,
being able to be crazy every second
afraid
of breaking the rules nw
because
im afraid
i let others down
i dun have anything else to give
so the best i can do
is not let anyone down
==
guitar society
yin yue hui
7/8/08
thursday
after school
COME!
i will LOVE u if u come

2008年6月4日 星期三

back from pd
had quite a great time wif min and ru there
actually
it's kinda like an escape
from reality
as in, school...
all day
jus walking round the beach wif frens
eating
watching tv
sleeping
haha
im gonna get fat==

2008年6月1日 星期日

camps

i think, camps are like magic or something
every time i go to a camp,
i will get REALLY addicted to that thing(example,guitar camp- guitar, prefect camp-prefect)
and then, after the camp i will still be thinking about the camp and in a dream haze..........
well....
lol
i really have nothing to say except for.....
im very worried about my geometry
i dont want to THINK about it anymore
urgh

2008年5月24日 星期六

gathering

had great fun at the 46th gathering today
lol
Went crazy and kept shouting
i start to love and love and love prefect everyday
but then
i dont really have anything to give, i found out
i look at others and
wow, they are really talented and so!
i mean, they dare to show themselves(hong liang==)
and have great ideas(xie yiing==)
and blah.........
they're all so good

but me, i dont really come up with good ideas
and i have a problem of going 100% crazy
i can only do it with my friends
don't know why i can't when im with prefects.
hm...can only go up to 85% crazy
haiz
anyway
i will try my best=]
whenever i think of some prefects..
i wanna cry...
think of them in the past, so good, so "form"
haiz

2008年4月23日 星期三

The Difference

1. there wasn't so much homework during Jm1
2. It wasn't so quiet
3.It was quite stress free
4. we were quite pure then(not so during end of year..lol)
5.More freedom last time
6.More stress this year
7. Self depression++

anyway
anybody noticed this?
when u know someone
and well, become good friends
u start thinking that that person became beautiful
lol

2008年4月17日 星期四

Geografi project

went and interview people today
It started raining REALLY heavily today after school
and we had to borrow umbrellas from everyone
although we still got wet
my shoes were like wet sponges
gross..
saw yuyu,felicia and wei yi at mutiara
then we say puiwoon,ling er and si ting
hehe
we went to eat first
after ordering,
kaiyu,zishuang and jia wen went upstairs and interview whereas me, huiru and holi interviewd people from that level
lol
ate the food
so delicious!!
we continued interviewing
then we suddenly remembered our umbrellas were missing
had to run to the door and get the umbrella from the washing maid and the restaurant
ahhh
then we met weiren
he intereviwed two person
actually
he was bad-lucked
coz
lots of people he asked were either interviewed before or didnt want to interview

2008年4月12日 星期六

Far far away...

a child's mind, world is pure and simple
~although it seems to get more polluted nowadays
saw the REALLY talented guitarist 11 year old boy-Sungha jung's video
wow
he's so great...
then i start thinking
i dont really particularly ace anywhere, heh?
that day, during tuanke
i kept talking
and then someone asked me: walau, u r actually so noisy de ah
i started thinking AGAIN
well
sometimes i really think that there's a wall between me and my xuehui
i have no idea why but
i just dont feel really comfortable in it
as in,
afraid or something
i suddenly get very quiet
and suddenly get very noisy
i have no idea what's wrong
besides,
everyone is so talented and good at what they are doing
haiz
i dunno?
i dont think anyonewill know what i feel and think anyway
since that
i dont really show my feelings

2008年4月5日 星期六

Sharing~

chatted to my friend today
and well, she says that
she thinks she's got lots of problems and
is like, burdening us with it
and she feels like we're helping her but she isn't helping us
that makes me think about this~
my problems
what made her think that she isnt helping?
i don't know, but
it might be due to lack of sharing
come to think of it,
i dont think i really tell out my problems to anyone
they just kind of float around,
then disappear after some time,
resurface again
then i will try to solve it myself
i know now.
i dont share much, do i?
always going around, thinking ive got lots of problems
and kind of grumbling that no one knows how to solve them
when it is my own fault
that i dont share
i dont tell,
so no one knows
although my problems are weird
really weird
they all happen because of myself,
thinking,worrying,complaining
too much
or maybe im just selfish
hmm
maybe i should put my heart out?

2008年4月3日 星期四

hehehe

it's 4/4 today
no school
and guess what?
i go all..erm.....RELAXED
and don't even feel like studying!!!
AAHHH
i finally finish watching NOdame Cantabile live action
SO NICE!
the songs were...
so so touching and nice
made me fall in love with music
we have to read "liao zhai"
hate it!
ghost stories?
i hate it!

2008年3月27日 星期四

sailing in a boat

ok
i just saw other people's blogs
and...well
i really envy them, you know
so sociable, dare to speak out
haiz
everytime at class
i tell myself to speak to them
but then
it feels so awkward
it's always, them all sitting doing hw or sth
and i go running there kacau-ing them
haizz
HAIZZ
HAIZZZZZZZz
in teenage years
(i wonder does it happen to u guys?)
i like want to do a LOT of things
learn a LOT of things
yet dont have the time nor the patience to do it
iknow~!so greedy!
im currently interested in art, music(guitar, electone, piano, drums)
dance(break dance, ballroom dance)..
oh.
another thing
this blog
because i lack of friends
this is just for personal writing
lol

2008年3月15日 星期六

heart

i kinda often felt out of place in pref.
feeling very...useless and...talentless
it's like...there's nothing i can do to help
im too...too useless
like.....
like pref. is so cold
and no one cares...
no one cares for talentless people like me..
but then
after this camp
i kinda think it over again
well
i didnt give pref. my 100%
so..
naturally i will feel cold
i will feel kind of out of place
i didnt believe in myself well enough
that's why the things i do just arent that good
i didnt give my heart to pref.

i decided
to try my best at pref.
so touching..this camp...
i really cried..

2008年3月6日 星期四

OVER

"i got OVER you"
yay
exam is FINALLY over
woo~hoo
lolz
it's the hols again...
it's going to be a weird holiday as it is only for one week
lolz!
so so so short....
and there's three days gone for camp...
argh,,,
no days for total relaxation
as in
sitting in front of radiation-due things(tv, computer)
the whole day without worries!!
i seem to have gotten kiddish nowadays..

2008年3月4日 星期二

EXAM SUCKS

"suck" hassome how became my favourite word
-describes myself
-describes exams
lol
studying kemahiran hidup for exam tomoro
HATE IT!
it's so boring and....
urgh...
no meaning
and it's all in malay!
URGH
the only good thing is that
it's all in "ABCD"
lol

2008年2月29日 星期五

exam!

exam
so so so dead
yucks
eew'
hate it
bryan cheong
see?i got add post ah
who say i don't have?
ahh.........
i love and hate exam
urgh
"and i hate it, u know i cant stay mad at u"
lol

2008年2月18日 星期一

sick..........gua?

symptoms
1.breathing difficulties
2.not severe chest pain
3. unfrequent headache
4. flam
5. dry lips
6. can't fall asleep
....
tell me...wat's wrong????!!!!
am i doing to die!!
i found out that
i m going out of control
not thinking before i act, not thinking before i speak
talking too much
annoying others
getting MORE and MORe self-obsessed
neglecting my friends
ALL of my friends
especially p,f,h,y,z........
sorry...
sorry....
im not a very good person
pls pls forgive me

2008年2月17日 星期日

underground dudess

underground dudess> social wreck
it actually means someone with bad social
social failure
>>>it will not b found in the dictionary
anyway
suits me huh?
>ugly, annoying,talkative,talentless, paranoid, think too much, lazy, self-obsessed
im not trying to get pityness or attention
but am just facing the truth
love gothic/punk clothes!!
lol
everytime i try to study
i will get distracted by my drawing book, manga and computer
lol.....
how to avoid distraction>>
i want...
i want to improve my social
really
i want to

2008年2月14日 星期四

studystudystudy

study!!exam is COMING!
......it's like sometimes i want to study sometimes i just dont even want to touch a book
haiz///
i flipped through all the old "xiao kan" of ChongHwa
and saw lots of people
with lots of pictures
with lots of awards
they r so talented!
i mean, they actually excel at something
and can win others at that something
i especially like it that they can win it together with friends
i mean, the feeling is like.....AAaaahhhh.....
but then////
i cant even win anything INSIDE the school
so.....im THAT useless.
hmm...today is 15/2
happy birthday hui en!!!
haha...
hui en is a very white, tall and pretty girl=]
NO sarcastic tones there

2008年2月12日 星期二

holidays!going to end!

my cousin from batupahat came yesterday
she brought me and my brother out to sungaiwang, pavillion,lowyat...
cannot find Manga studio software...
hmm...
the holidays of CNY are going to end
i dont think i did anything
dont even feel like opening textbooks
argh
between me,my brother, and both of my cousins
i m the worst
my bro is popular because he is very smart
and both my cousins are popular because they are twins, and are VERY pretty
whereas me.....
even if i dont say, everyone will know anyway
ugly, lazy, crazy
the worst of them all
and my social life?
dont evenmention it.
suck at it.

2008年2月10日 星期日

hmmm

i m actually kinda like Hunny Mitsukuni from Ouran HighSchool Host Club.
Everytime after i wake up
i will be in a very bad mode
example,
if i just woke up
and u ask me sth, i answer u
and u didnt hear clearly and ask me to repeat the answer again,
well, u wont get a good reply
or when u ask a VERY obvious question
u'll either get a very impatient answer or not get any answer at all
haha..

2008年2月5日 星期二

new year..(again)

this time, my mum went away for work
and is only coming back today.
she goes away often.
AND
everytime tht happens,
our house bcomes a mess.
except this time, actually.
last time, we used to have maggots all round the house(indoors!!) bcos our rubbish bin overflowed
then there was unwashed dishes, loads of clothes yet to fold and keep(a cockroach hiding inside)
THISTIME
there was NO maggot incidents
we finished washing baskets of clothes, hung them and folded them and kept them
so that means
we actually did not cause any mess
=]

SORRY!

the las post with the title~Chinese New Year
is a mistake!!!!
IGNORE IT!!!!
anyway...

this time i thinik i can wait.haha

anyway.........

trying to finish ALL my homework BEFOR CNY

so i can sit back and relax...ahh...

think bout it....sitting there whole day dunnit worry......

my social skills are on the brink

got problem~not enough courage

lol.

dun care lah

new year think about GOOD things.

GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life is GREAT!

talk about being sarcastic= =

no actually.

SIMple PLAN ROCKS!!!!!!!!

they're gonna have a new album soon!!!

awaiting the arrival.

they put out one of their new songs~When im gone

Which TOTALLY rocks.

12M.21M

still v long.

5 more M!!

ONE MORE M!!!!

COME ON!!!

so re wa wa ta shi no hon de

= this is my book.

=]

2008年2月4日 星期一

new year comin=]

happy chinese new year everyone!!

haha...have fun....

made a card for cikgu SOh and let las year de onezhong ppl sign

sorr ah...got a lot of ppl i no time to gif...

so still got a lot of ppl din sign...

also made another card for Miss EE

actually...is i print the one day trip picture wash for her and make it into a card...

dunno wat is her response??

my guess is ~ waste paper= =

anway...

wanted to upload Kiss Kiss~chris brown tpain video

but...

too big lah..lazy to wait.

2008年2月2日 星期六

weird

um..
yesterday i told my parents abt the breathing problem, and they said it might be due the fact tht i havent exercised for a long time, or due to flam.
anyway
i have always hated/dun really like boys who like to "kaolui" a lot
i don noe y exactly
but den, i just dun have a liking for those kind of people
even though they r friendly, good, or whatever
but.....i just cannot talk well to them
and have nothing to talk to them
and pretty much have nothing in common with them
hmm..........................

symptoms

1.coughing
2.sore throat
3.flam
4.breathing difficulties
5.occasionally feel tht hands lack of energy
...
anyway
saw the longteng CHCO performance today
me bro....
anyway
it was actually quite good...
i didnt fall asleep!!
and the songs werent very sleep slowy type
u know
there are a lot of times i wonder
inside prefect
wat can i do?wat can i learn?
bcoz like in CHCO or photography society
u get to learn something
and show it out, as....ur talent or sth
den in performing groups u get to show others wat u have learned
and show urself
tht u hav done well.the feeling after shows are, very very great
i wonder........
although think about it
as a prefect u actually learn more Mental stuff...
as in....
how to stand on our rights
and live right through the teenage rebellion years with non prefect friends
without actually ove rebelling
it's tough.

2008年2月1日 星期五

sick

dunno y...
feel tht it's kind of hard to breath
or mayb just my own problem
but...
a lot of times like very hard to breath, i mean
as in...
im breathing with my throat
and my throat(down area) feels very tired..
scared...

2008年1月31日 星期四

Undergrounder

im an undergrounder
after seeing some othr ppl's friendster pictures
i feel tht way
They r SO pretty
AND the have so good social lives
really,really envy them
y do some people just seem so perfect?
yes, nothing's perfect
but, they r JUS NEaR PERFECt
not tht i want to b perfect
but i just dun wanna fail myself and feel lonely
or bore myself out
bcoz
lots of times(especially tis days) i bore myself out...
dun dare to go find ppl to talk at 2zhong...swt...
i normally go find yulijing or liusiting....coz they r mre quiet..i not so scared....
is there no one else??!!!

2008年1月27日 星期日

sorry.....

i did stupid things AGAiN
people's secrets r to keep, i know
The MOST BASIC rule of all!!
yet i kinda broke it........
sorry...whoever is it u should know....
im so sorry..........

another thing.
i think i REALLY m a big failure
i mean, i might look OK to u
but then...
inside me i really hav lots of "cons"....
very very LACK....

if u dunno wat i m talking abt
jus ignore it

2008年1月23日 星期三

talented!!!

OMG
jus went to youtube and saw all the Studio Ghibli Joes Hisashi directed songs....
both orchestra and piano...
SO GENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m fainting with admiration!!!
OMG!!!
cant blif it!!!
anyway...
wanna put in a good word for Studio Ghibli
~~it's movies(animes) are great great great!!
u might think they r kiddish, but they r SO NOT kiddish
it has a lot of meaning in it
i would recommed Princess Mononoke( vry touching, gross yet beautiful) and Howl's moving castle for romance lovers.
and it comes with nice songs too!!!!!
i dun regret buying the DVD for 80++
it is so nice.........
**faint**

2008年1月22日 星期二

ugly people

ever found out that
pretty people get to know others more easily and they tend to have more self confidence??
except for some lah...
not saying all
but it's normally like that.
then people like me(ugly)
hav to b automatic
only can get wat u want
....

2008年1月20日 星期日

2zhong2zhong

still thinking about 1zhong.
i KNOW ppl will say dun live in ur past or watever
but.............................
2zhong is kinda cold...........
1xiao de ppl are ok but(sorry sorry!!) they kind of talk to their own people
except for some, of course
i think, the worse kind of people to know are
those where u talk to them and they dun face u and they dun even BOTHER to look at u or answer u
very "fish"
hmm..........
is there some kind of book which talks about how to know other people??
or "why u were so crazy and suddenly tone down and want to burst ledi"
watever....................................................................................................................
time past so fast...........................................