What's On Your Mind?

Through the notes we've written, the sand in the hourglass should be running high and dry by now. Second chance draws to an accelerating halt. Still didn't manage to express myself in a way I want to. Bummer. Damn.

Sometimes I don't even know what I am doing. The reluctance to do nothing always seem to get better of me than the urge to do something. I feel really really confused sometimes. I don't know what's on my and your mind. It's really tiring to guess or pretend not to care.

Tell me have you ever met someone you think you find an instant connection with? Even though it may be unrequited?

Wish I had a chance to say I'm sorry to myself for pushing everything afar because I'm terrified. However, please hold faith in the fact that your eyes always caught mine in a sea of people. Why does it seems so hard to say hi when you're staring at me?

What's going on? Who are you? Friend, infatuation or passerby?

Monday Routine

On a typical lazy Monday, I was supposed to be writing my ENV104 report to a politician... However, I ended up going to Garden City for shopping instead. Zzz...
Went to Coles Liquor Land to purchase some alcohol. As usual I was asked for ID since I don't really look like I'm 20.

New beer to try out Pure Blonde. Not bad... Better than Carlton Dry and Toohey's Extra Dry =)

Listen to some music. Finally figure out the track names for my favourite unknown musics in junior high. Tracks by Simon Robertson & Stephen Roots. Love 'em!

Itsy bitsy spider crawling and lurking near my study table, giving me such a big shock. Now that it's almost summer, this is absolutely predictable. In fact, I saw two spiders in my room today. However, being in a good mood, I don't feel like committing zoosadism today.Did my laundry. Boring routine...I don't think I look any different from high school at all... Zzz...

Just that my hair is unusually long now. I trimmed my fringe a few weeks back.Bought some new clothes during the weekend. Yeah! But they cost me $95++ I realise both of the newly-bought tops are black in colour. Maybe it's the latest fashion trend. Oh please, as if I understand fashion by any chance.Nice sticker. Paste it on the wall for deco.

That's all for now. Need to do something else now. Dinner time.

1+1=2

I was reminded that I have a blog all of a sudden. Can't recall when was the last time I updated something.

Other than I have a statistic test tomorrow (Yeah!), I don't know what else should I type... Reading hypothesis testing at the moment =) I just love stats... Why don't we have it for UEC Advanced Maths? Or did we? Can't remember anything about UEC!!!!

Oh yeah I think Facebook is amazingly boring now. Is this a probable good sign? Couldn't be bother with all my friends' updates now. Who cares anyway? Maybe I should just leave it. Promise to update something decent after my test tomorrow =)

Remember Me?

Now...

This is a post dedicated to information technology, instead of human population.

I really should clean up my computer. Too much unorganised files and folders, and junk items that should go to Recycle Bin.

Oh, another annoying thing. Lately my computer seems to ultra dumb. Why? I keyed in my Facebook username and password and click the checkbox "Remember Me". 40 minutes when I log in into my Facebook homepage, it asked me to log on once again. Damn it... Whatever happen to Remember Me forever? The most annoying situation is that this happens 3 times everyday.

Not only that, Blogspot is the same thing. I read my friend's latest post. As I was gonna post a comment, I cancelled the idea after seeing that the website can't remember who I am. Sigh...

My right hand hurts so much today (old injury), so I can't write my notes today. Will have to do it tomorrow afternoon. And laundry, grocery shopping and a very important errand...

Small Tin of News

First of all, why the hilarious title? Just ignore it. It's a sudden urge to come up with something that sounds like a ship in the bottle.

It seems like I haven't been updating my blog very often these days. Love being a slob. I guess that's what happen when you have too much stuffs occupying your mind. Anyway, I'm supposed to be writing my Cell Biology Lab Report but I guess I'm lazy as well. Assignments are kinda boring, especially lab report.

This is what I have for dinner 2 times per week for a fortnight: Subway. I don't think we have that in KK but I dunno now 'coz I've left KK for almost 8 months now. I would think I'm a monotonous person for 6 inches Turkey with everything except red onions and pickles is what I always order. I did try Subway Club once but I don't really like ham to be stuffed in between my healthy sandwich.

Oh yeah, and this afternoon tea delight: Kuih which I discovered in my nearby Oriental Shop. Can't really find people in KK who enjoys this compared to West Malaysians. The Kuih Lapis on the left brought back me childhood memories. The problem is that I need more nutrition. I've been losing quite a lot of weight lately due to I-dunno-why reason (but I suspect would be stress). I weighed 43kg now (nomal would be 45kg) and all my jeans are bit loose. Need to gain back my kilos!Someone drew this on the flat whiteboard. According to this, I'm one third German, one third Singaporean, one sixth Aussie and one sixth Kiwi. How I wish...

It's kinda boring to be a pure Chinese sometimes 'coz you don't have much ancestry to talk about. If there was blood-mixing I won't be this short. This doesn't explain my brown eyes though. I'm the only one with brown eyes among my siblings. I wonder why... Both my parents are brown-eyed, although my mom's are the "brownest". Maybe I'm mistaken. Whatever. Random arrangement of chromosomes I suppose. Maybe my ancestors include one or two non-Chinese. Perhaps some foreigners came to China for trades and marry one of my ancestors. Haha...

That's it for now. Gotta continue my report.

Depriving of Good Food

The title says it all: I need good food! Or at least I need to cook more often. But I'm just plain lazy, kinda resemble Pheobe in her latest post. Too lazy to be bother about my own nutrition. I remembered back at home my lunch & dinner would appear in front of me as if they're been zapped by Aladdin the genie.

Sadly, I can't cook, or should I say cook very well... I eat basically the same thing everyday: cream crackers, cereal (for dinner), bread+ strawberry, rice with meat/vegetables, instant noodles, baked fish (got bored by it). Sometimes I would skip my meal altogether, so I just have to cook once. Sometimes I don't even cook. Sometimes I go with take-aways. Take-away pizza, take-away Subway, take-away Red Rooster, take-away Chicken Treat, take-away lunches.

I wish I could cook the Chinese herb soup my "kakak" always cook for me. But I'm not that obsessed. I'm not really that fussy with food, but I get bored if I eat the same thing too often. Now it seems like I don't have a choice due to my lack of culinary skills. Sigh...

Critique Rip-Off

The frustration of reading a 220-page book and writing a critique essay on it is indescribable. Especially to do it during a study break. Sigh and double sigh...The book that is causing such a pain in the you-know-where: Only One Earth.Was reading page 125 out of 220 before writing this post. Been speed-reading the whole afternoon and since dinner. Only read 47 pages today...
The idiosyncratic essay is worth 20% of my overall grade. Another whooping 40% essay coming up. Exam is only 30% and it's open book!I regret of taking this unit: STP109 Approaches to Sustainable Development...It's a warm night today. 15.6 degree Celsius at 2213 hours. It was colder in the afternoon: 13 degree Celsius.

Probabilites, Chances and Random Variables

Was gonna blog something exciting today. But then, I dropped by Pheobe's blog and listened to its background song: Yiruma- Do You. Such a beautiful piece of melodies. My mood was dampened.

I become very withdrawn lately. I stopped talking to some of my friends in uni. And all my flatmates as well. Hate to make them worry but can't help turning on my antisocial mode. A few stuffs are bothering me =(

I don't know who should I talk to sometimes. It feels like I'm at an intersection in a busy highway. Chances really come and depart when you're not expecting them. I feel so depressed for not taking my chances when I had them. Now everyday I'm reminded by how I lost them. Every single moment when I think of them. What are the probabilities of them coming back into my life? I swear I'll never let this happen again. I just need one shot of Pure Windfall.

Oh well, I guess I'll figure it out during my stats test later.