Summer has arrived

Well, actually its been here for a good couple of months now, but hey. So, the update of my life.

Work: I started off the summer getting a job at Sears and then another job at CVS three/four weeks later. Sears was okay, minimum wage of $8.00/hr, 8-13 hr weeks, and pretty boring during slow time because all we could do really was stand in front of the register and wait for customers. CVS however was quite different. They paid $8.50, could give me 40+ hours, and are 2 minutes from home. Thus, I quit Sears and am now training in the Photo department at CVS (enabling me to get the 40 hours). Do I regret quitting Sears?- NO! they said they would be able to get me 15-20 hours, but what they didn't mention is that hours are based on how long you've been there. And with me being new I didn't get those hours. So I figured that they had kinda cheated on me in that sense so I don't feel bad at all about leaving them. Besides, with Sears having the priority of a full availablity schedule and giving me less than 15 hours while CVS gets my availability weekly and still giving me 25-30 hours, it only made sense to give CVS the full availability and leave Sears behind.

Depressions: Yes I can admit it, I suffer from depressions from time to time. I am now seeing a counselor to help me control them and be able to get over this problem. I've actually had a few depressions since being home. None of them suicidal like at school, but still pretty bad. Of what I want to say on this topic, I can say this much: some are due to the feeling that I have no friends where I'm at (at home) or in general. Yes I do have close friends and family, but sometimes family isn't the one you want to talk to and texting or calling isn't the same as being face to face. The scary part of these depressions is how I react sometimes. I keep getting the feeling of just needing to get away and make those same feelings follow and then leave them there. I've even been gone for 3 hours one time, just took the car and drove. Eventually I let my dad know where I was so he wouldn't flip, but other than that, no contact with anyone. Another time I planned on running away from home. I had all the clothes I needed for work and play the next day (if any play was to be had), had some snacks, and a sleeping bag all in the car ready to go before I headed to work. But that plan fell through as work provided the distraction I needed. Those feelings left me for the most part and instead of running away, I just drove to a park to be alone and write for a good hour. I've since then told the counselor and we are picking out the possible triggers and causes of these depressions. I've also noticed they come less often and less severe. So there is progress with these depressions.

Sarah: lol...I can't even think or her without smiling. We met back in high school when I was a senior and she was a freshman (at least that's when I started liking her) but then she moved to Sandy Utah for her dad's work. Didn't really stay in contact because of my dad's urgings to date/like girls more my age. But then i went up to BYU Provo (30 min. from Sandy) and got talking to her again on facebook. Ended up visiting her over Easter break and then eating over about a month before Winter semester ended. It was kinda difficult being with her because I liked two girls at that time and wasn't sure about either of their feelings towards me so I didn't know how to proceed from there. In the end, the other girl made it clear we were just friends. So i've kept up with Sarah and realized that I like her a whole lot! We've been texting all summer and now its probably come to the point where we are un-official girlfriend/boyfriend. The only thing stopping me from making it official is that my dad told me "No girlfriends before your mission" once I got back from school. The only problem is that I started liking Sarah before I came home. Not to mention, that for her birthday present this Wednesday, she asked her parents if she could come visit me (and other friends down here).
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Right now I just really wish she could be here right now to help cheer me up. I've just had a tough time at church and want to be able to be with someone I love. Someone outside of family that can be there for me and that I can talk to about it and not feel bad about involving them.

Boating: -One of the great joys that I can have! Saturday my mom, dad, spencer and I went skiing at a lake and had a blast. Two turns each (short on time overall) and each one pretty good. My first run I just played across the wake, as in, clearing it from one side, then the other and just doing small bunny hops on it. My second run the water was getting pretty choppy so I couldn't cut out as easy but I did manage to get enough air on my bunny hops to land a 180 from the right side and go goofy before doing another 180 on the left side to come back to regular position. That run with those tricks made my day...other than talking with Sarah.
Not to mention that a week from now we're going on our houseboating trip for a full week in which I get to work on the tricks even more before I have to put the board away for two years.

Well, that's pretty much all you really need to know about my life that important anyway. Anything else is pretty much everyday stuff so there's no real need to talk about it.