hate

i did some bad thing yesterday and i apologize at the end..

i try to forgive what had happened at that time...

but instead of keeping everything in my heart, i want to tell you all my sadness and get the support from you.

BUT

i get scolded and cried during the midnight :(

ya, i'm not perfect

ya, I'm childish

ya, im Stubborn

ya, I'm sensitive

what to do , im just a person like that...

endure , endure and endure...

and woke up with red bengkak eyes...

that's me...

I HATE THE LIFE NOW






i just want to be a 1 year old baby so no stress, cant understand what other people talking..

the lousy day

receive the wish after 12 in malaysia or can i say i received it after 4pm in uK??

seriously, im in the bad mood now..super emo..super down

everyone out...

my house now is just like a lonely house that nobody in..just me..

i feel im not happier than last time but sadder than last time.

i just dont know what im feeling now..

in the morning heard/ see people sweet sweet ..

afternoon..turn the volume to the "max" and watch movie with earphone..i dont know what happen arround me..and i dont care..

evening..im here typing blog and going to cook lonely dinner for valentine day :)

and say good luck for my presentation trw and aic trw:)

ok, i have a lot of work to do (just an excuse that everyone is out but not me)

bye

the feeling is gone---------------------------------------------------------

half an hour more

yesterday i CRIED

today i Feel like crying :'(

trw??be better or worse??

...

sick..

it didnt happen in 2011 but it happen after cny???!!!

it does not sound good too..

i couldnt sleep well at all and what can i do is just lying on my bed and sayang my stomach..

firstly, i thought i ate something wrong..and i eat the medicine..but it still pain..im a fake doctor and assume it is gastric..and i ate medicine again..but still pain...i dont know whats wrong is it and what should i do??!!

i feel so helpless...

but im a good student i still going to coll as usual :)

cheerss...

again

and here again..

same words and same sentences....

it wont disappear forever and forever..

even until 80/90???

did i choose the correct 1??

even i have so much ideas of it but i didnt receive anything or even i should say it wont happen on me forever...

i just can keep dreaming that actually it happen and keep looking at what others people plans and doing..

may be this is my life...

i cant change it and im a loser... T.T

new year

I was so happy that I didn't faint in 2011:) that was a good thing and i was so worried during the end of the December..

BUT,do you think this dragon year is good??

just the first day on Jan, i have some problem with someone and after that, i lost my camera..

However, it had came back to me in the end. there were a lot of stories related..hard to explain..

3 jan i had successfully complete my exam

BUT now i feel STRESS again..:(

sometimes, i just want to share what i really don't like you to do.. BUT u always don't feel like listen to me..

seriously, i feel very pek cek....arghhhhhhh

other people can get such treatment but why i don't have??WHY WHY???

will everything change in this year???

it is JAN, and yeah, my PARIS trip coming soon:)

bye!!

recently, I have kept looking at the proposal video in youtube..they are so sweet and nice and touching...

I watched 1 time cry 1 time...

because they are too touching :)


sometimes, we should not expect too much, because it just will turn to nothing at the end..

Once u didn't expect anything, miracle occurs.

Merry Christmas and happy new year, everyone :)

I hope I have a nice trip on 26th and 30th until 1 Jan 2012