Sometimes i feel like leaving.
Sometimes i do feel i'm not good enough.
Sometimes...
Sometimes i don't know whether i'm making the right decision or not.
Sometimes, i just want to run away.
Sometimes, i want to end things.
Even if they are deemed as good things.
Sometimes, you would think you don't deserve them.


random thoughts.

Watched Death Race last night. Pretty good.
But i still miss my horror shows.. where are the ghostly movies!?!
Thanks for last night, it was really a huge difference/change that I saw.
Was destressed a little from all that assignments and work.

Happy!
Realised that i've "graduated" from certain cases in OT.
Little things i didn't know i could do...
Its surprising to hear once again that the surgeon who once nagged and scolded me now puts me on one of his preferred ppl to do imaging in his surgery.
And to think that i tried to avoid doing his cases as much as i can!
Cos i tot he blacklisted me.

But then again... i'd try to stick to trauma cases.
I think its easy to get hooked to doing pelvic cases.
Its more tiring than most cases but more rewarding at the end.
Today's CT recon was very very niceee!
My second one! Am so happY!
Even Mr khong also say.. waaaaa soooo nice!!
=D
More new pelvic and femur cases coming up.
Seems like we have alot of peeps in the west breaking their pelvic bones.
Hmmm...

Still pretty much sleep deprived...haiz.

I'm soo tired.
My legs are literally gone.
Been using the heaviest and biggest machine around the operating theatre this week.
Even my shoulder and arms ache after a day's work.

I just want to sleep.
yawnz.
And saturday i'm being sent to go for a course...can't even sleep late on my off day!
Argh.
Jun will become cranky and crazy when she doesnt get enough sleep!
=(

Figuring out the physics calculation is driving me nuts especially when the person who wrote the text likes to round up and down his numbers as he wishes!
Argh.

Anyways, on a brighter note, i managed to change my shift to go to my bro's graduation!
Hehee.
Oh.. his first cake attempt was passable. LOL.
I guess the recipe was kinda fool proof. Haha.
Lets just say that he's a little clumsy at it. :P
I seriously didnt have the time to buy my bro's pressie. And its his bday today.
I'm cramped up at home with the studies and assignments. =(
Gotta go buy something for him after work next week.


And and... and.. i maybe going for another trip in oct!
Heheee.

Back to my busy busy schedule..
More OT work, more shift, more assignments...more brain wracking things, more courses to attend, more skills to learn...etc...
Suddenly I wish that by drinking essence of chicken could make me the same as Utt in the advertisement (if you haven't seen it, Utt's brain was literally working like a genius after drinking essence of chicken)
Yeah.. how i WISH.

I need sleeep.
Sleep.

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