Back to working shift.. this time its constant shift for 4weeks...

My current partner feeds me during shift.. hahaz.. everytime we do afternoon or nights she'll pack an extra portion of food just for me. How sweet she is.

Feel so xin fu working with Woof Woof. Heheee..

But i think if this goes on i'm gonna get fatter~ hahaz..



Now i'm already on my way to gaining lots of weight liao!

Cos my bro's not around so my dad got no one to stuff food with except me.
Even my mum's joining the stuffing with my dad.
They wait patiently for me to return from shift and insist i eat the food! And that's even when i told them don't leave food 'cos i'm having it outside.
Grrrr.... i'm like a pig now.

Everyday on the way to work, i would stop and smell the flowers, admire the beautiful blue sky or watch the moon and stars if i'm working nights.... or just enjoy the nice breeze that blows into my face.

Little things like these become so important in my life right now.
They are just so beautiful. Just wonderful moments that I cherish dearly.
They remain my sources of sanity. That the world has its beautiful sides.
How I wish i could just run away to some place where no one knows me.

When you've seen enough of the real world, its hard not to be assertive.
Sometimes I prefer to be in my innocent self.

I don't know.
People seemed to think that my perseverance and determination are endless.
I hope they're right.
If that's why i'm chosen...i'm not sure.


What is real, is what I cannot see anymore.

My bro's gone to Aussie yday night for 3weeks due to studies.
Hah.. now everything at home is so quiet.
I'm kinda not used to not having someone to bicker with. Haha.
Snatching tv, food, newspaper and toilet!
And his morning overpowering perfume stench that never fails to wake me up even when i'm freakingly tired. Haha.

Ahhh...The Irony.


Anyways, been out yday night with Shu'er and her bf and his best friend. Was stoning at home the whole day till the dinner date. I couldn't have said no...cos i wanna meet the guy who swept my good friend's heart away. All i can say is that i support your choice. You two, like his best friend had said, are puuurrrrfect match. I'm sooo happy for you.
I know your other motive for the outing lar.. i really appreciate it but my real motive is to meet your bf and give my blessings! =D
My mission accomplished! Heheee.


My life now revolves around work and work. So many issues and fear.
Been given a long pep talk about stuffs and i'm full of fear. I really don't think i can do that and I don't know what makes you think that i can.
Just felt like staying at home away from all these that reminds me of it.




I just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don’t want to hear them say
“You’re no good at this”

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Swimming in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I’m meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Cut away
All within me
That won’t bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

To some people, in some places, no matter how committed you are, no matter how many people are on the same side, it just doesnt matter.
When you're on a heck care attitude, there's nothing the rest can convince you otherwise.
Teamwork is really an understatement here.
You can talk whatever shit crap but with no action, you're just nothing.
But wait, even with your talking - its not even constructive at all.

As much as I love what I'm doing. There's bound to be a limit.
My passion for this will never die but I'm not about to torture myself to death.
Yes, at this rate that I'm going, I'm most probably going to dig my own grave soon.
Its not just me. Others too feel the same way.
Just remember, You'll be nothing without us too.

I finally understood why some became such a cynic.
Its driven by everything here.
Everyday, the struggle goes on and on and on.
I'm really not a super human. Nor are the rest.
But we have to constantly perform "magic".
I'm really tired. Really tired...

The pictures have to wait a while. I'm totally not in a mood to blog about that.

Nursing a sunburn.. which now turns slightly itchy but I cant scratch cos its still painful!
Working with purple fish had made me feel more itchy.. cos her skin started to flake liao and she kept picking at it during work.. eeeks! HAHAAHAHA..

Pictures of the great weekend getaway soon! =)

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