play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

「 bouncing away 1:13 AM 」

sisters hold hands walk very weird mehs? wads with the big hoo-ha?
haiyoish.. -.-

temptations go away...
was going on strong.. now faltering a bit.. hope i can get back my momentum and continue studying... into week4... eerr 15 weeks per sem agar ration? so 11more weeks.. come on ican do it... fuck...
hate readings really.. as in interesting la.. (much better than previous sems.. since im taking courses im interested in.. but still.. a bit TOO MUCH liaos...)
bloody hell.. dunnoe wads wrong with me today.. went for 312 lect.. alone as usual.. went to sit with the rest of the yr2s.. end up.. so weird.. sit there might as well sit somewhere else.. like im suppose to participate in their conversation? but then not even close as in talk cock that kind with them.. dun even talk to them!!! oh my gosh. end up sit there.. at a lost.. simply praying for time to pass and simply.. stay in my own world.. sians... then after tt got tut class tt's the same as the bunch of them.. so like damn weird if i wait for them and walk tog.. ESPECIALLY since i wun be talking to them.. but also like a bit social overcasting myself if i go off without them.. in the end... PON.. aha.. best solution of all.. but oh well.. temporary solution cant simply pon all the rest of the tutorials however much i want to.. its tutorial after all.. sians.. -.- im dead.. need to tink of ideas.. FAST...
back to hexis high.. seriously.. how pathetic can i get.. gosh.. -.- hexis.. of all things... -.- gee... oh wells..
shall go back to my reading and attempt to read finish before going to sleep... -.- hopefully.. -.- dang..
pessimistic as usuall....

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:02 PM 」

when u have all but given up hope.. and then suddenly, unexpectedly a ray of DIM light shines through...
the fantasy long-given up..
reality tells you that it's impossible... you yourself also knows deep down, unconsciously, subconsciously,consciouly that it is impossible... yet you couldnt help but hope...cling on that fray of light... and hope...desperately? maybe...
the desperateness of one..

when your feelings tells you that this time round it feels different.maybe it'ld be different- excellent example of your feling going wrong- couldnt help but want to believe in your instincts, your feelings... however wrong it might be...
why oh why? irrational beings...



my fantasy... desperate claim to it... desperate but furtile...

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

when u have all but given up hope.. and then suddenly, unexpectedly a ray of DIM light shines through...
the fantasy long-given up..
reality tells you that it's impossible... you yourself also knows deep down, unconsciously, subconsciously,consciouly that it is impossible... yet you couldnt help but hope...cling on that fray of light... and hope...desperately? maybe...
the desperateness of one..

when your feelings tells you that this time round it feels different.maybe it'ld be different- excellent example of your feling going wrong- couldnt help but want to believe in your instincts, your feelings... however wrong it might be...
why oh why? irrational beings...



my fantasy... desperate claim to it... desperate but furtile...

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 9:34 PM 」

i should keep my big mouth shut.. especially when i cant articulate myself well.. in the end... people just misunderstands me and i cant correct their misunderstandings.. try as i might. FUCK.

went for the 21km run today.. run run run... then reached 9km cmi liaos.. must go ps.. so stop and went macs to use the toilet.. but as u noe.. when u start running and u stop.. well.. its hard to continue after tt... so tried to run a bit.. but more of like short distance before we stop due to various reasons... then summore.. i still felt like ps-ing.. so basically it was a really REALLY torturous run (or should i say walk?) after tt..

qte sad... cus.. had to ps then couldnt like complete the whole shit... then summore i tink i tuo lei my running buddy.. so yea.. sians...

fucking hell still qte pissed with myself... over my inability to articulate well.. 

wanted to collect nike race pack today.. but the queue was WAYYY too long... so ya didnt.

went to watch fireworks on sat... not bad qte nice.. other than the fact that there was this bloody hell AUNTY in front of me who kept opening and closing her umbrella.. -.- bloody hell.. obstruct my view.. but it was nice.. kinda realised watching fireworks should like watch from the correct angle so that you really can see their display as a whole instead of like 2 seperate, non-related display... after tt went to watch this open-air music performance.. they actually had the lead singer from "the unexpected" and eic and god-knows-who-else.. not bad.. but then after the longgg wait i was rather... pissy.. so didnt really enjoyed it as much as i would given other circumstances... then left early also.. cus have to sleep early.. (didnt really in the end... -.-) so ya...

loads of readings to catch up.. realised tha in like 3 weeks time i have 2 written assignments due (research included) PLUS SAVA SPRINTS!!! ahhhh!!!!!!! im dead.. -.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:11 AM 」

stupid shit.. stupid me.. of all ppl to whine to whine to huihao.. in the end... my mood dashed.. by him.. hurrr.. -.-

wad can i say? stupid me la.. happily went to teddy's place and eat "Claypot" courtesy of teddy and candice.. with pok, taychuan, jojo, yenni (who didnt eat). nice.. eat eat eat.. then went back hall.. got hall supper.. kenna pulled by meiyan.. ate icecream.. so sinful rite? so bo bian. run. in the end? tripped and fell.. haven even run abit fell.. then went to wash and cont running... scraped knee nia u noe? so like once u run.. u sorta got used to the pain. TILL.. u stop.. that's when the pain hits u..so ya... sianded... hopefully taychuan will see the superficial wound it is and let me run ahm... my first marathon.. CANNOT DO THIS TO ME!!!

huihao was saying..maybe its my body's way of telling me im too tired/stress.. i tink..with 4 soci mods.. how unstress can u get? -.- maybe its the late nites.. and the coffee.. and the 5 hours str8 of lessons.. bound to cause some problems in my internal body system wadsoever one lehs.. i mena on top of that. i DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL (during lessons).. i mean..ya.. how surprising?! bound to screw up me system some...

lesson was interesting... so funny..was having this linguistic core module.. so u noe hss course(dunnoe bout econs tho) its usually jammed full of girls.. so my lecturer showed us this film regarding the language acquisition of children like toddlers.. so whole show full of babies.. cute little babies.. piang eh... the baby in question did something cute.. the whole LT was filled with like cooings and god knows what.. so funny.. can totally see the air charged with oestrogen and mummy-instincts... aha... think the few pathetic guys in class damn ackward la..its really whole lt resonating with "ahhhhh" kinda sounds.. lols can...

after that had like GENDER AND SEXUALITY.. aha... this time round was like talking about the difference in the way males and females communicate... qte cool.. qte true too... like females tend to want to undergo negotiation before reaching a verdict to show that they give a damn about the other person's feelings.. guys on the other hand just answer straight to the point. i tink this kinda male female different conversing styles... sorta. people these days sorta have an inkling regarding this.. but just cant pinpoint the exact details and say the exact reason behind it.. but generally.. sorta.. here there kinda thing. ya people knows.. also i tink this sorta thing when analysing it yes.. people knows.. but when u are doing in.. like immersed in it.. it wouldnt occur to u to interpret that way so kinda like.. meaningless cus misunderstanding will still occur.. its only till after then u are like "oh ya". but the funniest thing was this story bout this lady and thisman in the car.. so the lady was like "you wanna take a break and get some drink?" so like women being women and all that stuff would expect like "i dunnoe.. what do u tink?" which would show that the person in question you are talking to actually cared about ur feelings.. and then both will n"i dunnoe" and then will see the degree/extent of your wants and their unwillingness and reach a common ground. but guys being guys will just say like yes or no. which BOTH is not the right answer cause they dont show that they care about what you want/feel. so ya... so basically conclusion was "what do you tink?" is generally a good response to any questions a female ask... but when a female asked "do i look fat in this?" and a guy or anyone that matters says "what do you tink?" THAT'S IT.. cus when a women says that, it is their way of showing that they care about what you think, its a female's way of showing the closeness of the relationship... so ya.. but then basically didnt come to a conclusion as to the perfect answer to that question.
cool rite?

anyways... someone had said that in db.. this sports... there is definitely competition.but the competition that exist is very silent.. nobody would want to lose out... nobody would want to back down.. nobody would also want to explicitly say out.. its only till the last minute that we will know who gets the seat and who doesnt. so there will always exist this silent competition... in a way.. im participating in this silent competition too.. unwilling to lose out.. feeling of incompetence and always want to keep up... maybe its this silent competition that im actively aggressively (not that extreme i hope) participating is one of the main reason that i refuse to take a full break.. to that the rest that huihao suggested i should (which seriously is like i dont think so lor no offense)... but ya.. was tinking when he was saying.. the "silent competition" fact just kinda popped into my head and im like "oh ya"....

i tink too much? i beg to differ...
i may be perfectionist in certain area.. when i choose to be.. when i have the interest.. like maths. i refuse to give up.. alwaysthinking im right.. stubborn? yes i am.. in some ways.. im regressing into the old stubborn me in terms of db.. good? bad? i wouldnt know..but yea.. just want to be good at things i like. is that so hard to ask?
like wad i said... this sports.. is seriously ambiguous.. u nv know whether you are doing the right thing or not.. many a times depends on feeling. on perception... perspective.. which makes it even harder to be sure of your own competence.. its not like maths. clear cut.. either u get it or u dont.. db.. is different... oh wells.....
i cant articulate myself well i realised... bo bian le.. angmoh not good... haisss.. sadded...

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:33 PM 」

WHINE!!!!!! whine whine whine :(
sobs...
went runnig today cus too sinful le... tripped and fell... now me knee's bleeding.. sobs :( scrape skin bleed.. but still... scared...
scared to bathe....


just let me whine

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

i feel that in this lifetime of mine... 19 yearsandcounting... i've done realy a lot of embarassing things, a lot of stuff that i'd rather not let people know etc...
(was just reminded of a few from the dregs of my memory ... urghh)

anyway.. today first oficial training after experience. which means first official training with freshies.. hmm.. what can i say.. errr.. ok.. nothing much. no expectations whatsoever so guess nt muchof a dissappointment neither any surprises i guess..
turnout was not bad.. but surprisingly not a lot...
errrr... oh wells. dunnoe wad to say.. guess sorta thought of like one year back... like how was i initially.. my feelings, thoughts and all.. eerr... different la i guess.. one year on....
talked to kaiying and meiyan some.. revelations... some things relevant some not.. had some different perspectives on stuff.. oh wells.. was informative i guess..
did the new conditioning today. think i have yet to got it yet..DANG. shyt.. felt a bit.... not there basically during training... bad bad..
sch work wise not bad. at least i've been doing my readings.. not like on time but at least not letting it pile up TOO MUCH... hopefully can catch up.. now im just on a day-to-day basis.. like tmr tutorial wad reading is required do that. etc.. aha.. extra readings still backlogging. dang...
a bit stressed.. 4 soci mods.. 2 assignments (qte major ones) due in 1 months'time... qtescared.. yet to make any headway.. oh wells.. hopefull can juggle.. 3 months nie.. *crosses finger*
happil mapling still.tink i do better (lvling up) when im standing there and leeching then actually killing myself... aha.. stupid lorh.. damn dumb but ohwells. whatever works i guess..
gotta start stocking up my fridge (finally got one!!!) but then lb this week.. splurged 100 bucks on fridge.. paidfor experience tsinglet(went on a shoppingspree on that bot the max) then still. huurr.. bot a pseudo (Cheaper version) of magiclean... eerr.. tt's bout like bursting me budget liaos... think i shall survive on baos and like godknowswhat for the next few days.. cant wait for weekends then can go home and pig out.. aha...
ok shall stop splurting nonsense and bore the shit out of u guys.. toodles.. till next time ! ^^

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:21 PM 」

you know how sometimes before an event you will start anticipating etc etc... and then when it actually happened it sorta just didnt couldnt match up? oh wells..
db experience was over. wad can i say? had a bloody screwed up. aint gona do coxswain for the rest of my life (though i'l just bet i couldnt help myself) but still..chui-ded.. had a major boo-boo.. like UBER MAJOR.. seriously. sighs..
anyway went out to meet hanifah and xuan to celebrate both their bdays.. went ecp. I REALLY REALLY MISSED ECP CANS!!! :(
anyways helped han buy cigg then bloody hell there was a freaking sign " those who look below the age of 25 will be asked to show their ic" freaking hell.. then i was looking at the sign looking at the lady waiting for her to ask me for my identification. SHE DIDNT!!! haisss.. sadded.. :(
time's ticking.. and the deadline for ad drop's drawing near... and i couldnt make up mymind.. tink most prob i'll procrastinate then end up having 4 soci cores... -.- hais.. HOW?! anybody!??!
diessss~~~

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:08 AM 」

saying fuck is like...once you start u cant stop.
first you have this high threshold which u have to overcome in order to utter the word fuck. after thhat... it just comes dup naturally. as natural as new zealand natural icecream.
meiyan just picked up the art of saying fuck.feel so proud of her.
now she can be true to herself and says what she feels instead of being so constipated and pent-up within her. dunhave to be so two-faced and hypocritical or fake... storing up all the fucks that she wanted to say but couldnt or wouldnt say. now... PROBLEM SOLVED! wanna say fuck. just say fuck. no need fish or coconut or bananas or bombastic bush kinda abbrevatives for fuck. plain sweet simple. four letters nia. FUCK. ^^
i love fuck. ^^
it simply helps u realise ur inner angst and anger and hurt and god-knows-what-else.
thy power of fuck

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:32 AM 」

was watching olympics on the bus today.
somehow they like to keep showing the women's wightlifting segment. dun ask me why. apparently china won. the actual screening of it was like in the morning around 10++, 11++ ? when it was happening live in beijing. somehow when i was taking bus at like 4++,5++ they are still showing it :S go figure.
anyways. was wondering how do they actually train for weight lifting. i doubt they will be lifting weights of like 120kg every training cus that'ld be mad. furthermore, from wad little i've seen, they will keep increasing the weights or something till everybody cmi 'cept for one. that's how the victor emerge.
if that's the case, during training, shouldnt they just like pia 150kg, since like the norm is like 120kg, 125kg around there? so if u can pia 150kg,anything lesser will be like peanuts and the gold would definitely be yours.
however, judging by how competitions goes. if this year's the max is say 130kg? then for the next olympics (in 4 years time) should they really pia hard and like try for 180kg.like tt confirm plus chop wouldnt fall too far off the mark. so even chui also cannot chui till where. seeing how competitive sports are these days. when everybody pia their asses off...... ya.... or play it safe.200kg. should be a fair bet i'ld wager....
anyway. despite the confusion (my own's) regarding the way they train, kudos to the weightlifters. most of them anyways. imagine (regardless of the way they train) how hard it is for them to stop pushing themselves. to know what exactly is their limit and stop there instead of trying desperately to meet the mark then ended up falling hard on their back risking injuries. saw this particular weightlifter. tried damn fucking hard. but then she gamely put down the weights. admitting defeat. that she's not good enough. ON NATIONAL TELEVISION. ok though the national television part is bit redundant. but still the guts to admit you arent as good as ur competitors really sucked big time. furthermore. to have had carried the burden of your nation's pride and yet knowing your limit. knowing that if you give up (in the good sense) means you are letting the whole nation down. throwing away your years of training. leting your coach, your family, your friends, your supporters down. and yet, you still give up. showing true sportsmanship, instead of ying cheng and then ended up falling and all. oh wells that's my take. ya.
kudos to them.
still wonder how they train though.
:S
synchronised diving's nice. as far as the little pathetic part i saw.

essential brew at holland v is like my fav dining place. the food's cool. what's with all thy herbs and all. the flavoring of the food all has something to do with tea. cool shit! damn nice.
then the ice cream palor. the rocky something or another. also rocks off my socks. totally. had like english toffee with bosenberry and cookie dough. nice. thanks to yingli who treated!! hehe.. ^^ fantastic i tell you.

did a bit of groceries shopping at jp. but was a bit chipchop cus they closing. oh wells.got my oatmeal squares tho. ^^ happy happy me ^^

ran around sch today with jiayi (the dragonboat one). seriously AROUND the sch.like the longest stretch u can go. my goodness. im really chui-ded. sadded. oh wells at least thank god for the run. felt better tho after the run. tho i almost dieded. hais.

i realised im rather possessive (refers to previous post) oh wells. that's me scorpionian rearing its ugly head. qte true la.

tml got tutorial liaos.
have yet to do the homework. :( at least its not soci tutorial otherwise tonight must chiong reading. oh wells. but guess it's only a matter of time... sigheded

met with yingli and val today. happy happy~ catching up with frens is always so greats. ^^
happy ole me ^^
too bad nv wear the wedgies. otherwise even happier. aha. but a bit impractical to bring wedgies to sch. walk around will faint one. oh wells. sacrifices. :S

next on shopping list. must buy pencil case and co. liaos.

gonna start on my virgin usage of the esprit towels my sisters bot for me for my bday (yes that was eons ago) finally. looking forward to it. ^^

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 3:10 PM 」

im pissed.
fucking life is like spiralling out of control right in front of my eyes and yet im helpless to do anything bout it.
fucking room's dirty again and i STILL have no broom no mop whatsoever. urgh. pissifying. im anal i noe. but i just cant help it. my one safe haven all dirty and dusty. how sick is that.
bloody hell my paddle got taken by someone else. THE INJUSTICE!! fucking hell its MY paddle k. been using it since..mm... the training for june race? fucking hell. attachment with my paddle GONE. shit la. was wondering if the person who took my paddle was someone else would i mind so much. wouldnt know.
i know its just a simple matter of going to the person and ASK to be given back my paddle. butt........ I SERIOUSLY DUN GIVE A SHIT. YOU SHOULD JUST JOLLY WELL GO GET UR OWN PADDLE. NOT ANYHOW GO KOP ONE NO. TRAIN SO LONG LE STILL DUN HAVE UR OWN PADDLE AR? WTF. fucked up la.
oh wells.. shall have to pei yang gan qing with another new paddle. FUCK. damn pissed.
and i forgot to bring the belt jane gave me for pressie to hall. stupid shit la. took it out somemore. but for the life of me couldnt remember where the hell i placed it. fucking shit.
im still damn pissed. sian.
today's so not my day. hope nextweek's gonna be better though cus i'll have a fridge by then so i can stock up on comfort food. unlike now. all i have is pocky (great comfort food but only have one pathetic box. have to ration :( ), tau sa piah (nice to eat but doesnt rate very high on the comfort food-o-meter) and nuts (still in plastic bag so couldnt be bother to eat it... comfort food so-so nie nia) SAD RIGHT?!
i also nv bring enough sports bra, shorts, comfort shirts. sighs. sadded.
still have yet to make any headway into my readings. sian diaos.
im still pissed. :(

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

its so weird.
its how amazing and frustrating that whatlife can do to friendships.
had this really really super uber(okie maybe not so) close guy fren. as most of u people out there knows,having a guy fren for me is not easy,moreover a close one. so ya.
known him since sec sch. like net frens. but then we slowly evolved to be more than the superficial net frens kind.
basically he's been there for me throughout my ups and downs: the year-long quarrel with chuse, my uber long crush on qs, the horrible terrible incorrigible years in sa (which he disagree, strongly), the horrible studying years. the stressful periods which i even cried to him on the phone. well.. he's been there. with me.more or less. in other words he's like my bestest best girl friend. (tt's what i called him last time)
oh wells. but then as years gone by, we moved from sec sch to jc. from jc to uni. the topics slowly changed and we grew estranged. its kinda sad. when he used to be so close.
back then there was a time when we nv run out of stuff to say. now.there's an awkward silence that neither of us can fill up.
yet how did this change come about. i have no idea. i couldnt, for the life of me, pinpoint the moment where heavens and earth moved (okie pardon me tendency to dramatise slightly). oh wells. sadded. to see a great friendship. slowly fall apart. helpless.

another not-so-bad friendship. with yet another guy. good cameraderie. not close.but nice to insult and crap with. somehow also fell apart. lack of contact. sadded.

now looking at it. my life qte sad huh?
i deemed myself one that value friendships alot. seeing how so many (ok not THAT many) friendships just fell apart like tt. simply breaks my heart. i really wanted to do some repair work. anything. yet couldnt tink of nothing to do. at a loss. hopeless. helpless.
its just so so damn sad u noe?
sighs
sadded

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

i just cant help myself.
i had thoroughly enjoyed the ndp parade. ok basically the front part where the army troops marched in and all....
my sis had planted herself in front of the teeveee to wait for her darling to march past. when its the army guys' turn... for the life of her she couldnt find her darling. cus all the army guys had painted their face in that army gloop. WAHAHAHAHAHA.. hilarious.
she even told her frens that her darling is in the "p" of "ndp 08". her frens had smsed her and said "i saw the p but couldnt find ur darling". damn farnie la....
laughed at those unsynchronised motions of the officers and the crooked way they swing their god-knows-what around.
yup that was about all i watched for ndp. see how patriotic i am? =x

mapling my life away. AGAIN.
its a vicious cycle i tell u. im forever mapling.otherwise playing some random online games.. at this rate..im so gonna flunk out of sch or something. sheesh it.
not say im damn zai at all these games summore. i lvl up faster leeching other ppl than training myself. the irony.-.-
kills self.

ran today during training. think i almost died. sorta had like blurred vision which refuse to clear despite the many times i blinked and also blocked ears and god-knows-what. only managed to clear both my vision and hearing AFTER i squatted down for some time. -.- and it happened TWICE. once after running. another this after some stretching that we did. geee.... goddamnit flu or whatever illness that im plagued with. -.- urghs.
but then felt better after going back and drank some water. almost died of asthma attack (ok a bit of exaggeration here) during rowing. sighs... blame it on the damn blocked nose mans.
but training today was generally good.not bad.
the graduated snrs came back and took pics with their grad gown.oh my god!!! totally so envious. seeing them makes me wanna graduate faster just so i can take those photos also. dang.

tml nd's hols. shucks. think im gonna waste it like mapling again. despite the whole chunk of readings that i have for WEEK1!!! oh my gosh. and i havemore readings for week2 coming along too!!! fucking hell im dead. im screwed.-.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:27 PM 」

im actually a very chatty person. like i like to talk -duh~ ya. i like to just talk about random stuff, my feelings, rubbish. generally just talk.
sch's crap. as usual. wayyy past time i start studying. couldnt be bothered.
as usual, 1 hr attention span. useless~~~
this term's gonna be much more xiong and im happily tryin to figure out how to play the maple.
need i say more?

dying from running nose. desperate to fall like real sick.

i miss home!!! miss my sis!!!
missmissmiss~~

im desperately looking for a job. high-paying preferred.....
any lobangs?

im dying in hall!!! im so fated NOT to have a hall life seriously.

i need detergent. -.- crap.

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 5:27 PM 」

choices are always being made each and every day.
u choose a over b.
then u found out that ur choice was wrong.
whole world came crashing down
no where to turn.
no body to turn to
and u can only end up beating urself over and over again. inside.
blaming urself for the wrong choice u've made.
cus.
its ur fault for choosing a. for believing in a.
own fault.
my own fault.
wrong choice.
again.
FUCK MANS

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

im BACK!

back from penang. back from endless rowings. back from days stuck to one another and inability to differentiate one day from another other than by the type of sets we are doing. back from absolute bliss and back to cool harsh reality.

sch's starting.

or to put it more accurately, school has already started for some and is going to start for me in exactly 12 hour's time.

great.



penang's great. fantabulous. an absolute eye-opener...

was standing on a slope looking down and saw the numerous tentages. looks exactly like wad a carnival would look like in my mind.

heart was bursting with joy that i was part of that exclusive group of people.

at that moment. had a sudden flashback thinking if i hadnt joined db and all, i wouldnt have seen that beautiful sight, the stunning dam or even have noticed the banners that were like hanging all over penang. it would've definitely escaped my notice or wouldnt even garner a beep on my radar. and THAT would be a very sad thing.

basically the whole trip was a mad rush. it was just a blur of waiting, rowing, eating, rowing again and all. the days were run-on. once, i had tried to recall wad day of the week was it. couldnt. for the life of me.



i would've classify myself as a clingy sorta person. even in the friends area. i AM a clingy fren. but somehow. i get pissed off when someone clings onto me.

THE IRONY!

sigh. im just simply a bundle of irony it seems.

i wouldnve hated myself apparently... -.-



saw many teams from a multitude of countries. russian and iran guys are HOT. as in H-O-T. seriously.

was so proud of my russian hotties- THEY BEAT NJC!!

apparently in singapore db sense. nj seems to be the up-there. the WOWS. dun ask me why. they just seems to be mad. yes, i agree they train hard. yes i admire their fantastic timings. yes i feel that their stroke are good. but....... i just cant stand them.dun ask me why.

it may be due to my tendencies to classify and group people, resulting in hating the team because the person i dun really liked LOVES them. (which may be true but even so, only figures in as a small minute factor)

it may be that they seem conceited and full of themselves (which IS justifiable cus they ARE good but still..) and that winning seems nothing to them. no joy, no sorrows, nothing felt. nothing shown on their faces.

maybe their trainings are like for robots. -absolute madness.

it may be ..... wadever.

wadever the case is. i dun like them. and my hot russian team -festu- had beat them!!! whooiess!!!

was falling sick in penang. drank truck-loads of cooling water (works wonders!!!) and popped pills like free...(only at night).. so manage to hold the wheezings and coughings to the minimum during day time.

im gonna get my retribution mans....



sch's starting. sucks. yet to move in.damn.

sighs......

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.