Thursday, September 27, 2007
ok apparently the painw as like some insect bite? but that's beside the point.
halfway through mid-term break. have yet to make any headway into my heap of readings. had ben going for db for like tues and wed, and on fri and sat there's db again. after db too shag to do anything. just fall into oblivion in bed. haha.. life of a classic pig. apparently db aint helping my skin. had like ecezma(sp?) outbreak since like dunnoe when? sat i presume. and it has yettosubside. if anything. it had only gotten worse. -.- fuck. so basically my hands and legs are covered in angry rash which is madeless obvious due to the "tan" i had. haha.. if this can be considered a tan that's it.
had sa "class" gathering last night. pathetic-ness is the word of day. less than 10 turned up? disgusting. dropped by to see xinyan and koped a container full of ice.. hehe.. after tt went by siglap to see han.. in the end ave and shouzi was there.. surprise surprise.. sat there and just chatted.. finally gotten updated on their lives.. ^^ *grinz* had a really great time. ^^
project meeting later. and my skin's screaming tobe scratch. to scratch it, i will not. i hope. urgh.. frustrating.
whole week's been a really mad rush.more or less. no me time.sad. but its alright in a way. in a way. shouzi said that recessweek is a time for ppl to catch up on their work. will i ever get to do it? the catching up.
face been breaking out too. db's fault. hais. guess in order to do one's interest. sacrifices are a necessary evil. BUT WHY ON MYFACE AND SKIN? HOW COME IT COULDNT JUST STOP AT THE BRUISES AND THE BURNT SKIN AND THE ACHING MUSCLES? hope somehow oneday my skin could get used to the sun and the dirt and all and NOT break into ecezma (sP?)
for once. im at a lost for words. geee...
happy studying peeps.
for a footnote (nowthat i know steph is one of the few faithful (?) readers of my blog) HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY STEPH!!!!!! MAY ALL UR DREAMS AND WISHES COME TRUE!!!! sorry we din get to spend the day with u but im sure it was nevertheless great and that u've enjoyed it truly... (at least that's wad i hoped for u^^) love ya girl! *muaCks**breaks into a mad run hugging and kissing all my beloved darlings and babes*
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
i tink its rather common sensical and based on plain simply deduction, one can figure out the reason im blogging now is..... *drums rolling* I COULDNT CONCENTRATE ON STUDYING.
at this point of time (week 6/7!!), where midterms are like popping out of the blue ever so often, every single sane person is busying studying (i shant use mugging cus it has a negative connotation to it) and that no one in their right mind would really bother to go online and blog. with the exception of yours truly.
fuck woke up from my less than anhour afternoon nap and got this fucking ache on my left foot. the top of it. fuck. then practically limped my way all over sch -.- shucks.. damn pain can.. and according to prawn its slightly swollen. :( and i have no fucking idea how come like tt!!!! shit. and to think that i had wanted to run. damn damn damn.
anyway with regards to my msn nick. the "streak of wildness the wild child inside" haha.. went for driving lessons yesterday. then as usual did the circuits and the test routes. then i was commenting to my instructor (the nice one tt i can joke and lame around with) that i very bored. so he was like "then wad u wan?wan to go tampines ar?" then i was like"u say one ar not me" and stuff so in the end we went to tampines. and i sped!!!! fucking fun can.. went all the way till i tink almost 100km/h lol.. and the revolution was like 5000? drive until he damn scared.. or at least he seems to be.. qte fun. adrenaline rush. and before long. it's over. sigh. but still. fun's fun. ^^
got 23.5 /30 for french quiz. whew. did a class discussion regarding the hs101 midterm quiz we had during lecture on monday.apparently it was suppose to be easy. easy my ass. then after tt when the teacher was discussing bout wad we wrote for the essay... urm.. lets say tt he din really bother commenting on my content after hearing bout it.. FUCK...
another test tml. followed by chionging hs103 then going for db. if managed to finish hs103 before db then shall go jy'splace to do jigsaw. friday: lessons, driving, come back for soci bbq. yupyups.. tt's my plans for the rest of the week. gosh can hardly wait till its all over..
painnnnnn~~~~~ :(
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Friday, September 14, 2007
feeling of emptiness.
nowhere to turn.
what am i to do.
tons of work.
concentration failed me.
distractions tempt me.
this is where my sprint end.
back to strolling.
is this how it is going to end up
just a repeated story
is there no place for change
any yearning to change in the first place
clinging to the past
peeking at the future
unsure of the foothold
unstable ground
can i just fall
let it all end
is it possible to give it all up
just stand and be done
feeling of being overwhelmed
yet gaps of emptiness all around
i dont want all this
can i start over again
clean slate
or will i remain tainted forever
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
it's times like this that i really feel a surge of rebellion. felt like going on strike all of a sudden- with all the work piling up and what's not. since the weekend have been chionging nonstop and its not even week10?! heard a senior said that when week 10 comes. the ntu atmosphere will have a 180 degrees change.. haha can hardly wait. sadistic pleasure. cheap thrill.
had this huge assignment due on tues, presentation on tues, and finally today, there's french test. been looking forward to the end of today since EVER and now.. another assignment just arrived due one sunday. whole week packed. tons of readings untouched. AND MY FRENCH TEST STILL YET TO FINISH STUDYING FOR.
dragonboat, publicity subcomm, cultural subcomm, oc programmer.... wonder is it too much for me. sigh. soci's killing me!!!!!!
saw jayne yesterday when i was going for db.. she asked me. "what happened to the zhuhan i know in ngee ann?" i wonder too...
i wonder where's the zhuhan from sec sch.. from jc... from ngee ann.. from gelare... where? can somebody tell me?
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Monday, September 10, 2007
its 3:03 in the morning. i have tons of work yet to be done. and i have absolutely no mood. i have lessons tml even though if its not in the morning. yet all i wan to do is to surf net aimlessly.
there's something wrong with me seriously.
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
