play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

「 bouncing away 5:49 PM 」

throughout my whole 18 years 8 months and 30 days of existence i doubt i have ever openly expressed bout my low self-esteem. my insecurity. but looking at the looming SPORTS camp where there will be swimsuit-wearing involved i couldnt help but scream out I AM INSECURE!!! I HAVE LOW SELF-ESTEEM... can i be excluded?
haisss.. diee.. dreading it somehow.. dunnoe which silly nerve of mine.. just shouted out "OK! SURE!" when they called and asked whether i can make it for the camp starting tml.. fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck. and i have to sacrifice my remaining few sane hours rushing all over the house trying to find like 7 undergarments, 7 sets of shirt and shorts and 1 extra pair of shirt and shorts that doesnt ahve sch logo and additional 2 lousy shirts that will most prob be disposed.. .- fuck... im fucking dead.. oh lordy can someone save me?
realised that so far.. only heard from ave that she finds me insecure, low self-esteem. hmm.. maybe that's why i felt so close to her..
can i PLEASE be excused? .fuck.

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 2:31 AM 」

im fucking goddamn it jealous. everyone's going ntu's going for camp.. me? stuck at home whilst everyone's busy making frens ppl when start of sch will ahve og mates ar og outings.. me? sorry dun have.. sucks la.. urghhh..
realised i really goddamnit have no life of what-so-ever to talk about.. at least last time when meet up with ppl there are still funny incidents to bring up.. still got events albeit being smalll but still its something to talk about, to discuss, to even say just saying it is enough. now.. sorry diff matter. when meet up with frens instead of "guess wad?" it becomes "yes? wad?" -.- sighh... lifeless life of zhuhan's..... maybe tt's the reason behind this flagging entries that i have these days. cos there's aint anything to say!
sigh.... good riddance to me...

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:47 PM 」

its times like this thhat i despised the most. when there's this nagging feeling that there are loads of things to be done and yet i oculdnt figure out even a single thing to do.. shucks...
aint going to hss camp after all that fuss. and the worst reason is u know hwat? my mum din paste a goddamn stamp when she posted it.. wad the fuck? oh wells.. aint fated.. shucks... hate it and to think i was so looking forward to it.
yest went to ntu for medical checkup with chiam.. kinda getting rather scared bout going uni and all le... got that bad karma feeling that i doubt i will be able to belnd in and all.. sighhh..
expectations. that's the problem with everything. u look forward to something/some events and then poof turned out that it aint as nice as u tink it is.. fell flat on ur face. had a horrid time.. tt's what's gonna happen to me i bet. cos even though i tried hard not to tink about what's gonna happen. given all the free stoning time i had in gelare, its not hard to see why i cant stop myself from dreaming and predicting... AND IT SUCKS! FUCK.
urgh.. so hating myself now.. fuck

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 2:33 AM 」

okie.. been dying to blog bout the free hugs campaign that i've joined but couldnt find the time to. so here it is... at like 2.30 in the morn with the vague influence of alcohol causing my vision to be sliughtly fuzzy and my typing to be erred.. yup.. so here goes my long and tedious(typing) entry due to my many errors resulting in deleting and backspacin.. -.- anyway here goes...
after the free hugs incident on korea.. (read previous entries) i went to join the free hugs campaign immediately in korea.. didnt think it'd panned out after last dec when they to had plans but cancelled last minute.. anyways so yupps.. joined and surprise surprise.. it did worked out.. so in the end went for it alone..
ok so on sat morn. went for tuition at my cus' hse the after tt went down to orchard to meet the free hugs peeps.. supposed to meet at like 5? and i reached like at 405? so kinda like paniced esp since im scared the'd left.. so yups walked all over orchard mrt in hope of spotting any of them.. then lie spent 20 minutes walking bout before i saw them.. they were late -.- so ye.a.. anyway supposedly there's like volunteers not including the 3 organisers.. but then only 2 volunteers turned up me and another girl -.- so we paired up and went to the underpass to ask for free hugs..
was a wonderful esperience even though i was rather apprehensive before it started was like panicked that no one would wanna hug me given the society and all... but surprice surprice not a bad turnout at all.. ppl walked passed and said good job.. people hugged me and patted me on the back wit words like "thank you" or "have a great weekend" it really truly a heartwarming experience and though so ppl nv hugggged me when they saw the free hugs sign they turned to thEIR partners and hugged each other.. makes me feel all warm and cuddly inside.^^ yupps yupps....so was like a wonderful experience all in all.. saw waylon with her gf.. act din see him exactly he saw me when i was hugging his gf.. lol...
gonna join it again in like 4-6 weeks' time... anybody interested?
anyway basicaly recently just work work and work.. boring si le no life at all.. uni startin soon getting rather nervous bout it's ok...
initially got loads of stuff to say but couldnt remember none.. anyway signing off now.. ciao babes~~

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.