Sunday, March 25, 2007
went to take the colorgenics test. oh wells realised that once again aint blogging as much as i should.. go figure
You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.Being afraid that you may be prevented from achieving your hopes and dreams is making you anxious and nervous. As a dreamer your ideas can at times move into the realm of fantasy and you could be following that so called illusive dream.
is this true or is this true.. figure it out urself cos i myself ahve absolutely no fucking idea. -.-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
im being like totally retarded or something and there's something real wrong with my body. im like trying damn hard to get a fever (dun ask me why) but yet i still failed. shyt. so now im in sch with a damn clogged up nose and still no fever. f it. -.-
ok i got to say after much thinking and mulling over it i ahve to admit im happy with my results cos a) even though my gp a bit the screwed but judging by my performance with statements like "i want to be free, but not totally free" to be able to get a c6 is really qte good as compared to failing it like the other 7.8% of my sch cohort so yea.. *whew* and even though i want to get an a for my chem but with the "bu xiang de yu gan" that i experienced with chem and my vastly different thoughts of the paper after sitting from it as compared to the rest of my classmates, im glad i got a b at least its better than a c or something.. ^^ the b i got from bio is expected i mean BIO?!!?!? haha.. gp c6 le.. bio so many essays get a also a bit the impossible lor.. lol.. so all in all.. im happy!!! yippie!!!!!!! ^^ cheerios..
was playing with this student the other day (zulkifli) then all of a sudden it just dawns onto me that he's really like qs.. i mean looks-wise, character-wise, attitude-wise basically everything.. dunnoe why.. just "wah he's damn like qs la" sorry very random.. and i can assure most of u good buds of mine out there faithfully reading my dull and nonsensical blog that i am hopefully and 93% sure that i am safely and happily over him (the other 7% being the times when i kept hoping i'll bump into him somewhere.. *winks*) but yes.. as over as over can be..
was at gelare the other day working. had this wonderful encounter with this guest. was like "wow if only all singaporeans are like that" kinda feelings. was serving him his sandwich which apparently was done with the wrong kinda bread thus took us longer than normal to serve him his sandwich. after which when i served to him i was like "sorry excuse me sir, your sandwich" to which he replied "why? why are u sorry?" and i was like shocked la.. then i fumbled and said "urm cos we took qte long to serve you your sandwich?" and he was like "no, you dont have to be sorry. it's right to take long to make the sandwich, it's your right. you dont have to be sorry." i was like "ok" gee.. such a nice and understanding customer. totally loved him to bits ^^ if only all customers were like him....... especially on tuesdays.. -.-
finally march holidays are coming!!! whoopie!!! no school for a week.. ^^ can hardly wait *grins*
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
got results back today.. had a torrent of feelings in me today. oh wells...
in thy morn, was working. basically wasnt really such a great day for me since i keep having like images of me receiving a variety of results which spans from fabulous grades to downright disgraceful ones and all my various reaction accompanying it. there are moments when i just stoned and the next which made me feel like crying and even cried a few times with steph when was just talking bout thy results. butterflies in me stomach and everything else that is possible is happening in my gut. for the first time in my life i've experience dread. pure dread. during the recesses was stalking out my hotties demanding them to wish me luck haha.. was THAT desperate yes. had a long talk with jonathan. ha he's a real great listener though.. really appreciated him being there trying to confort me in the little ways that he only knows. real sweet.. ^^ after sch went to meet miang at tk there cos wanted to eat crayfish noodles but turned out that that silly lil stall was closed SINCE cny.. ended up going sa to eat fishball noodles.. lol.. saw like sch ppl wearing a variety of clothes.. aint used to it..felt weird being back in sajc.. chatted basically but not much act.. then went hall to get results was feeling like panic and fear.. ended up thinking of sa's sch song just to get my mind of the looming results.. din even dared to look at me results after i had gotten it.. went to find chiam cried to her.. then still din dare to look at it.. only till when i've gotten out of sch and met with me sis at potong pasir mrt did i then passed her my result slip which she then promptly shoved it in my face.. a b b c6. cried there and then.. also dunnoe why. din even processed whether im happy or sad.. just plain cried.. after tt msged ppl.. called ppl.. and all.. went to harbourfront there with me sis to buy contacts (she bot for me ^^) then met her bf.. then they treated me to sushi tei.. spent like 80+++ bucks?! haha.. but the food was GREATTTT.. ^^ haha.. took a cab to suntec then took bus 608 to sch for night lessons.. -.- phone dieded so called me sis to exchange phone with me.. hehe.. after tt went to gelare to meet hanifah. saw bern and sarah nadia. sat there and talked.. then hanifah's sis sent me home on her bike.. haha so fun... though i tink i acted like a total idiot sitting behind her going "wheee" sighh.. but was fun!!! haha love moterbike now.. lol..
before getting of results, heon said to me "hey just wanna tell u that u've been a great fren and that all the best cos this is like the last time we're seeing each other" or something more or less to that point.. felt real touched yups.. and its like qte true.. sighh..
when i left the sch only managed to say bye to heon and yingli (cos they're the only two i saw). when i was standing at the busstop opp sch waiting for bus, kinda felt at that moment that my 2 years in jc basically summed up to that. the apt ending to my jc years- a quick goodbye to 2 ppl. kinda made me sad.. but oh wells.. a chapter of my life closed. life still goes on....
realised that human by nature are nv satisfied.. was talking to steph in the morn.. what kind of results is "good"? how "good" is "good"? and i said as long as its good enough to enter uni, its good for me.. now looking at my results.. a b b with a c6, should be enough for uni.. but somehow felt rather sad.. partly cos of the b for chem which i felt bad (in the guilty sense) cos i like dui bu qi mr singh. and also of the cursed eng -.- realised english is like the bane of my life.. -.- always ruining everything!!! urghhh.. hopefully it wont be the deciding factor of whether or not i am able to enter into business fac not lor.. otherwise will be damn sad.. sighhh.. esp since my other choice was like fass? then like gp so lousy a bit the cmi ar... sighhh.. but overall.. was happy since i got the a for amths that i wanted and the b for biology that i expected and hoped for so all in all qte alright ba.. shall not be greedy.. enough is enough.. ^^ im never that smart enough for all a's anyways.. ^^
was telling steph on thurs that on fri i'll be wearing red and white cos according the the cny thingy that red and white is the "lucky" colours for dragons.. (according to jo they all) and was jokingly saying tahtthe best was like if derdum come then like WAH red.. u know? guess wad? firday morning woke up.. bathing.. then halfway.. derdum came.. waas like "pro le lor.. additional 2 'avenues' of having red/white on me and summore is both colours le!!! - the pad(white) and blood(red)" sighh... wasnt sure whether issit a good sign or bad sign.. :s
went to village on thurs with gelare ppl.. makan like pigs like tt.. eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat.. yea basically u got it.. then like wlaked here walked there before finally decided on going k at parkway.. -.- lol.. sat there and hear them sign.. fun~~ ^^
thanks to miang and bern for the nice xmas pressie.. thanks!!! albeit the lateness.. ^^
motorbike is fun fun FUN!!! am going to learn tt next time.. ha goal of me life.. ^^
one chapter closed. the start of another chapter.. ............................................
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
