Saturday, September 30, 2006
i am officially addicted to minesweeper seriously.. ^^ so fun.
geee wanted to go cycling with prawn today.. then it rained.. -.- so din cycle.. then rain so heavy summore so me and prawn walked to vj.. -.- then studied there.. after tt went to parkway to makan lunch before going to my blk the void deck there to study.. ^^ haha.. so fun.. managed to complete cjc this year prelim paper.. paper 1.. wah damn hard lar i skipped so many qns.. such an embarrassment man me.. -.- *scoffs* and the thing is that apparently prawn's tutor told her that cj's an easy paper.. -.- easy my ass lor.. i tink ar.. must be the tutor say to spur prawn on one.. but act its hard.. haha.. cos i couldnt do.. so thanks.. just let me live in my disillusion.. ^^
oh wells anyway today got drenched like mad lor.. not that im complaining.. since i like getting drenched.. but its rather embarrassing to go vj looking like a drenched cat.. yea.. then endured the whole of today wet. think im gonna get rheumatism on my boobs and ass.. -.- seriously..
got me hooked onto 'the l word' damn nice.. ^^
went shopping with kaitian on friday.. hmm.. qte a lot of place got sale but none of it are my fav shops.. ohoh if u all ever see sale at charles and keith or fox.. TELL ME.. s&k also welcomed!! ^^ got stuff to buy.. ^^ retail therapy..
found a nice place to hang and just chill and talk.. marina square foodcourt~ damn nice.. haha.. i likeee~~~
a bit the no life nowadays nothing much to blogg.. geee.. -.- oh wells....
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Monday, September 25, 2006
cna our friendship survive the onslaught of "boyfriends"? im not sure what to think anymore. stop trying to seek help/ammunition from your boyfriend. are you suck a weakling that you cant survive on your own and have to turn to your boyfriend for help every single time we fight. and the worse thing is that its not any serious fight. its just some harmless fight that we used to do. fuck. fight your own battles dammit.
play this interesting game of daidee today. new and innovative way to play esp when you're near teachers. haha.
got back my chem results. all that's left is bio. oh geee.. hope its okie.
mr singh said something last week (when i have only bio and chem paper 1 and 2, maths paper 1) "so baiscally your chem is ur highest subject now rite? that's good. imagine you saying that a few months ago." geee.. tt's rather a depressing thought in some way. -.- IN SOME WAY LAR.. but basically qte cheering also cos tt menas that the tuition worked.. ^^ lol.. sigh
cant wait to go queensway tml with prawn. haha see cute guy ^^
realised im actually qte a coward. i run away from confrontations. run away from problems lar.. basically. but that's who i am.
there are some ppl in your life that makes you wanna both hate them and yet like them and at the same time feel loads of feelings to them.
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
went to celebrate su's birthday yesterday at her house. was really fun. so long since we've just sat around and slack.. i wanna lie on su's lap once again!!!! :(
kaitian said this really interesting thing.: pythagoras opened the first school and its a cult. the students of the school are all vegetarians but yet they dont eat beans (where the hell do they get their 8 essential amino acids?!) as they think that the beans are their father's liver (or something like tt however on another account from wikipedia, they think that the beans contains foetus.. go figure which version u prefer). the school only accepts 300 students who are really the top of the cream in the mathematical field. so baiscally dunnoe what happened and some other cult wanna kill off all the people in the pythagoras cult. so kill kill kill and everybody died. the last person who died was pythagoras- he ran away but reached this bean field, cos he believed that beans are his father's liver/kidney/whatever, he stopped hence got killed. stupid rite? oh btw if u dont know who's pythagoras, he's the guy who came up with pythagoras theorem. stupid rite?
think im obsessed with this sort of weird history. like bibliography kind thing. went to read about cixi (the forbidden city queen) just now at wikipedia. -.- weird rite? im one weird kid.
was reminiscing the past and gossiping bout everybody yesterday at su's place. loads of ppl changed.
btw went out with prawn to town and dine. shopped for steph's pressie. saw this really cute guy at minitoons in heeren. so cute. go check him out. saw another cute guy at supercuts when prawn was cutting her hair. damn cute too.. ^^
kt said there's this hot bung at taka. shall go see one day. haha.. check out how hot she is.
told su they all my results. they said its not bad.. ^^ hmm.. maybe its really not bad afterall..
i really should get back to studying. oh gee..
ponned gp on friday to go out with prawn. turned out that ater i crept out of classroom. the class found out that gp was cancelled.. ms ngiam din go sch. im such a loser rite? -.- dots.
talked to prawn for qte a while on friday night (till 11+!) realised there's a few ppl that i will nv forget and those aint me frens. yups..
shall stop attempting to be philosophical.. aint good.
to kt: sorry i was late yesterday :(
drank yesterday.. nice~ but not alot.. :( lol.. redded though.. :( sighh...
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
i really have no idea what im feeling now. full of conflict. on one hand i know im not really sad at least not in the sense that im upset about my marks, pathetic it may be, but yet there's this nagging feeling inside me that's screaming to be known and yet i couldnt identify it. sigh.
sa's rather fast, while ppl are still finishing up with their prelims, we got back biology paper 1 & 2, chem paper 1 & 2, maths paper 1 & 2 (tml), both gp papers.. gee how fast is that.. such an emotional rollercoaster im on. esp since im not doing well at all. on reflection i thought i studied rather hard. dunnoe how come turned out this way. can someone enlighten me?
keep telling myself nonstop that this is the prelims and usually from prelims to a's will jump 2 grades or more.. yet, i really have no faith in facing a's at all this is sad especially when i oh-so-desperately want a's to be over. gee.. the stuff i can just think offhandedly is overwhelming enough..
i want to play mahjong! anyone up for it?
sis says that the big no-no thing to do is not to think that its over cos its not. well for me, i dun think its over, nuh-uh far from it. yet motivation just refuse to come. felt like a person windsurfing.. w/o wind. just floating around. slacking a lot. bad zhuhan bad bad zhuhan. yet... somehow jsut carn get down to work. sighhh... anyone feel like counselling me?
getting into a reminiscing mood these days. talked bout the good ol' days in tk.. the days when i was so zai at maths. i even thought of elise!! oh gee. the time she asked me bout "black forest" the 1st thing that came to my head.. the blakc forest cake.. -.- the easy-going, happy-go-lucky days when we came just take off walking to nowhere after school. read this ok! mag.. 1st time heard of it, truth to be told, and according to the horoscope page, im suppose to "let myself go" and stop holding myself back. read this email. said "There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around" but sometimes no matter how hard u try, you jsut cant go back to before and trust others so whole-heartedly like you used to be cos you've been hurt and somehow somewhere, subconciously, you want to protect yourself. if only things were less complicated and simply. if only time can be reversed. if only....
mulling alot.. im a muller. mag says its good to have quiet time for urself to think things over. but not for me. the more i think, the more "ifs" scenerios will apaprently and blah blah blah you know the drill.
cant wait for su's birthday!!! funn!!!! guilty pleasures.. but what the heck. bets sitting around and restraining my own activities due to guilt but still continue playing nonetheless.. just different types of games. eg dun play maple, play minesweeper etc. -.-
stupid ppl always comes up with stupid logics.. -.-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
prelims are officially over!! yea!!! haha.. went cycling today.. burnt. tired. unsatisfied though.. :( sad to say. walked round parkway.. haha first time walked so long at parkway yet only managed to cover so little shops.. fun though.. window shopped.. ^^ went to some dumpling and ramen restaurant to makan dinner.. qte nice but damn bloated.. talked a lot though.. okie.. gossiped a lot too.. :( sigh.. i have such a big mouth.. :(
loads of things to say.. but somehow no mood to type it down.. one thing though:
the one person that really knows how to "hong"/pacify me best in me memory is..... STEPHANIE LIM WAN MIN!! seriously, i really think so.. ^^
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Friday, September 15, 2006
can u believe it? for the stupid bio options paper.. which the topics are mainly growth, development and reproduction NOT A SINGLE QNS ON THE FORMATION OF MALE AND FEMALE GAMETES FOR BOTH HUMANS AND PLANTS AND NEITHER DID ANY OF THE QNS ASKED ABOUT THE MENSTRUAL CYCLE NOR THE PROCESS OF BIRTH!!! f it.. pissed me off totally.. sheesh.. and the stupid thing is i was busy trying to cramp all THAT bloody inof into my head.. turned out none of it was impt.. stupid stupid stupid..
anyway left chem paper 1 to go.. sheesh.. on TUESDAY!! how am i suppose to enjoy my brief break peacefully without feeling guilty?!
maths paper was crap.. realised there's a trend in my life...
pri sch - maha bodhi : hard maths paper
sec sch - tkgs : killer maths paper (thanks to ms lui)
sure the maths paper were hard.. but i managed to more or less sail through them without much of a struggle and got an a...
jc - sajc :maths.. hard meh?
wah piang.. the paper ar.. killer can.. totally stoned there.. din noe what to do.. -.- sheesh..
horrible horrible horrible..
yet to find out what's the schedule for sch after prelims and checking through papers.. hopefully study break all the wayy!!!! but seriously doubt so...
the youtube's screwing up on me in this comp!!!! apparently i dun have flash (i've d/led it a gazillion times!!!) or i've had my flash turned off or something..-which i ahve absolutely no idea how to turn it back on.. -.- :(
sighhh.. deprived life...
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
it seems that at times of stress or panic, ppl just momentarily lost all their well-groomed composure, their shield and manners that they've cultivated from youth and seems to reduced to the state that they are when they're young, basically, child-like.
I CAUGHT MYSELF CHEWING/GNAWING ON MY NAIL THOUGHOUT THE WHOLE OF CHEM PAPER 3!!!!! sighhh.. and i though i'vedlost that habit of chewing nails after i've left primary school.. apparently not.. :(
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
long time since i've blogged.. sighh.. today had bio mock test.. once again couldnt wake up in time.. just barely made it to school on time.. it has bad karma stamped all over it i tell u.. sighhh.. retribution.. tt's what's this' called... endless studying on ends doesnt seems to make any difference to me since nothing seems to be going in.. urghhh.. sighh..
made a pact with jason though.. to basically mug our butts off.. hopefully it'll help..
anyone up for studying in the middle of the night under a block? tell me.. ^^
im desperately sleep deprived.. sighhh.. i need my beauty sleep.. eyebags are so big.. i can carry a watermelon with it..
steph sent me a really sweet msg yesterday though.. cheered me up considerably... ^^ thanks girl...
as the mugging goes on... the jokes just seems to get lamer and not so funny anymore..
went out to ps with eu and yingli.. much needed break.. however.. felt real guilty over that.. guess its tonning night tonight yet again.. :(
i hate it when i ahve to share my room.. cant study.. fuckk..
do you know 15 trees have to be cut down for each exam you take? save the environment! say "NO" to exams!!!
haha so funny.. saw from dine's phone...
okie then again.. maybe not funny..
im sleep deprived.. bored stiff.. cranky.. fat and what's not...
i hate studying and endless mugging..
on a lighter note: 2 more weeks before prelims is over!!! me gonna shop SHOP SHOP!! retail therapy, amore workout, swimming and cycling!!! yea!!! anyone wanna join me? lol.. carn wait... .........................two more weeks to go... :( sighhh....
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
