play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

「 bouncing away 10:34 PM 」

hais bad karma. ponned sch too many times. faked sickness too often. now im down with a bad flu, headache and sore throat to the extent of not being able to talk properly.. -.- bad karma.. and the thing now is that im not sur whether im THAT bothered by the bad karma or not cos secretly somewhere deep inside me im qte happy that im sick. but the only thing that's holding me back now is that I WANNA PON ON THURS INSTEAD!!! so like if i skip tml and pon on thurs then so obvious. sigh. and wed carn pon cos going out with van. -.- dots. life's so complicated. how now brown cow?
im gonna feel really silly if i like go airport or somewhere with my nose blocked till like shit and in absolutely no mood to self study. that wil jsut defeats the whole entire purpose of going out-.- on the other hand. im not sure whether my parents will let me stay at home not. hmm.. maybe shall just pretend i overslept or something. hmm.. shall see.. urghhh.. decisions decisions. choices choices. -.-
read this book. "the perfect husband" damn nice. strongly recommended.
one thing i've learnt is not to go to ur ultra bored elder sister who does not need to study/mug or even touch school stuff for a few more months and say "why dont u go library and borrow books to read?" it will just give u more woes when u are not suppose to even touch let alone read all the bloody nice books she borrowed -.- suicidal i tell u. cos that's precisely what i did. and what happened? came home today. "i feel so sick i cant study. so shall go read a bit" then next time u noe? its 10.30 and i jsut finished the whole damn bloody book. -.- addiction.
on a lighter note.. (lol.. once again) talked to qs yesterday. haha.. amde some leeway. thanks ying. but doubt in the near future i will reach THAT stage that u said. lol.
submitted my sgc this morning. realised my sgc is damn short ocmpared to others with even a 60-90 words for one part. -.- parthetic-ness to the extreme...
now waiting for jason to bathe finish. and apparently nobody else is bored enough to entertain me and my brain is so clogged up with my phelgm that i carn even think preoperly let alone study. -.- sighhh.. oh btw.. IM SO PROUD OF JASON!!! HE GOT INTO PES A!!!!!! (even though he said its easy peasy getting into pes a) IM STILL SO PROUD OF HIM!!!!!!!!!
rotting my time away...

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 6:42 PM 」

went to east coast with my sis today. haha so stupid thought today would be raining cos when we left the house it was like gonna rain and all. so yea. din put any sunblock whatsoever. in the end. -.- got sunburn. wtf? lol.. cycled to changi village.. took bout 1 and a half hour. haha. then went to makan. -.- sucks lar.. the stupid drink stall we went to. was like coconut. then they were like sorry no coconut coconut but got coconut drink. sucks alr.. tasted so artifical. then cycled back. changi beach damn chio now. haha great place to make out since i saw qte a few couples there makig out. lol. but damn nice lar. then damn lot of malays. and since i've made up my mind to like marry a malay. i should go hang out there often. haha. chilay all very cute one u noe? then next time....
"xiao shuai ge.." *pinches cheeks*
"aku tatau le chakup apa"
"xiao shuai ge.." *pinches summore*
"mama........" *running off crying..*
haha so cute. tt'll be my son. haha. the chilay. lol. right.. in my dreams.. but one can dream can't i?
lol
my ass hurts now. its the damn bike.
sunburnt. im all read. jsut like my sis. its in the blood.
got this really nice clothes shop at ecp. my new fav shop.
muscle ache. and the damn thing is its not my leg that's aching the most. its my elbow. my hands.. -.- dot dot dot can.
got this ski360 at east coast near the lagoon food centre. damn nice see ppl ski. wah damn chio.
saw many many ppl windsurfing. makes me wanna do it too.. :(
changi beach damn nice.. i liikkkeee... next time shall go changi bbq k?
lol. im bored and dun feel like doing homework though its piling up like shit.
if that's what frens are for. i guess there's not much diff if i have no frens.

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 1:24 PM 」

so happy was out with my dad just now washing car. haha and at the manual car wash there was like 3 bungs washing the car. then so farnie. there's this bung smiled at me!! TWICE!!! so happy. lol going into shock. ahahahahaha.. so cute the bung so cute and SMILED at me!!! yippiee!!! *jumps around deliriously with joy* lalalalal~~ a bung smiled at me, a bung smiled at me.. are u jealous? lol i KNOW u are.. haha.. a hot bung smiled at me ^^
anyway went for choir concert yesterday. wasnt very nice. (sorry if i offended anyone) lol. but yea. wasnt very nice. but then again its like went u go for choir concerts or any other concerts for that matter u tend to do comparison. and obviously the only other choir concert i went for was like what?sex2 tk concert which is like pow-wow.. like wayyy up there. so like obviously its like hard hard (nearly impossible) to measure up so yea. anyway the sajs guys put up a damn nice performance anyway. at least the songs they sing. its more of like "common" yea. then like everyone also can appreciate that kinda songs. the rest is more like selective. only cater to a certain group of people (not me obviously) yea.
on the way home yest from like sch. then cos i was wearing denim skirt die die also cannot climb the fence so like have to walk the ultra super duper long way. then obviously i sorta lost my way (but then like found my way after that lar) so yea. then that stupid mark. insult me all the way. what's his dumb logic for insulting me? "cos i like to insult/offend others and i dun like to offend ppl. so when u offend people u sorta offend me." "then since u dun like insult ppl. why are u insulting me now?" "are u considered people?" -.- fuckkk.. -.- what the? -.- sucker.. kenna insulted by him all the way. so irritating. but qte fun lar.. esp when i told him he's a faker and that i hate st. pats guys. haha.. the look on his face.. priceless.. lol..
btw i always/like to offend ppl meh? no what.. average nie lor.. -.- lol
recently been reading this book: "why men dont have a clue and women always need more shoes" haha.. so farnie.. qte true in a way but then not very accurate in others.. a good boredom-killer book though. lol.
been thiking a lot.. though i dun really particularly wanna think.. ying also lar.. -.- all her fault made me heart itchy itchy now.. (xin1 yang2 yang3) lol.. dots can. -.-
a cute bung smiled at me.. so happy.. lol...
so cute u noe the bung.. tan tan one.. dunnoe malay now..
so cute..
aha hahaha.. cute si le...
a bung smiled at me.. lalalalalalal~
oh yea and prove that it wa a special thing that she smiled at me? she din smile at my sis.. HAHAHAHAHAH.. and yet she smiled at ME!!!!!!!!!!!! woohooo... *throwing confetti* *hops all around the room*
cute bung~~ cute bung~~ smiled at me~~~

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 10:03 PM 」

was talking to donna just now:
* ruining my own life destroying my own self shucks aint it sad? says:
thanks
tj(:hoir [[ c/()/V]\[@ ]] teddy bear philosophy saranghaeyo i love my bearbear says:
np
tj(:hoir [[ c/()/V]\[@ ]] teddy bear philosophy saranghaeyo i love my bearbear says:
say thx for wad sia

its these kinda things that makes u go all warm and fuzzy inside. somehow chuses always does that to me ^^ thank you all of you!!!!! (:

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

did this really cool quiz today. haha.. qte true i realised. i feel lar.. hmm.. i think im one who really relly believe in horoscope. not the day-to-day thing like waht will happen to u kinda stuff.. but more of if u are this this you are a what what person. think it makes sense.. at least to me.. maybe its largely due to the fact that i like having a "double personality" since i have both horoscope.. haha.. whatever it is. im one that's all for horoscope ^^
did cip today. service learning day today. sold spca merchandise along orchard. haha. qte fun. but damn tiring. my feets are aching. think i'll just die tml. i love sa-jiao-ing!!! esp to ppl i dunnoe. ha sa-jiao till they buy. though i dun even know that's sajiaoing. -.- dots. need to seek jiayi, kaitian and jo for advice again. lol. but i wonder when will THAT be. -.-
im stupid. i confess im dumb. buttt.. there's many many ppl who are dumber.. ^^
feel like ponning sch tml but then i pon wayyy too many times.
wonder if just one cigarette will get one hook onto smoking.
saw loads of cute guys today. angmohs~ ^^
its fun selling.
ate tori-q im broke now.
YING! are we still going for the concert?!
missing everyone dreafully all of a sudden.
hope for the rest of the chem test i will be able to scrape through. otherwise.. im dead.
haha someone said im.. not petty!!! haha.. funniest joke ever. seriously if jo hears it or something. bet she'll laugh her ass off.. kaitian also for that matter. first thing that came to my mind when i heard that:"jo will so luff"
qs' getting cuter. seriously.
budget terminal is so budget-looking. gee
i wanna pon tml!! but i noe i cant. :(
im so lost dunnoe what to blog yet i have this urge to blog.
FUCK.

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 10:57 PM 」

stupid blogger.. unavailable just now.. then i went blog surfing.. yesyes my life IS that bad. haha. so anyway jsut finished writing or should i say typing my sgc. dot dot dot.. im like literally drowing in ego-ism. my head's so heavy i can hardly sit up straight. -.- dots. im all full of air im gonna fart nonstop. okie being ultra lame ehre sorry. deliriously happy. found out i can pon tml. lalalal~ yea. dun know what i will feel if it turns out i cant pon. think i will just deflat like a hot air balloon and pull black face whole day. so for the sake of the rest of the world, may i be able to pon!!! *cross my fingers*
felt rather mean today. confession time!! its kawing's birthday and i din wish him happy birthday whatsoever and din even turn up at the cake cutting session. opps. felt so bad. :( anyway, came home, confessed to my sis. and she told me im being damn mean. so wished him ahppy birthday online. but he din reply. -.- aint sure he online not. oh wells. at least i did what im suppose to do. ahha.. im a meano beano.
sigh.. couldnt remember what im suppose to blog about all thanks to the blogger's screw ups. sighh..
HAIS
im so fll of myself right now, i couldnt eat another bite. haha..
okie not funny.
qs aint online.
i dun feel like sleeping.
joy comes first the the guilt slowly sets in.
where shall i go tml? hmmmm.................................................................

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:20 PM 」

pick-up-line-of-the-day (actually qte outdated le just remembered recently though (: ) : did you just fart? cos u blew me away.. -.-
dreading sch.. seriously.. singapore's education system seriously sucks to the max. first it singles out those who have a flair for studying and let them more or less "sail" through their 10 years of school without much hard work. then the deluded juveniles all thought that "hey since i can pass my o's with qte good results, why dont i try for a's since its more or less somewhat the same and im also already used to the system" so these poor little dumb kids go on the jc. in their 1st year, they may not score well but they'll think to themselves "hey i've slacked so many years and managed to buck up at the last minute so why bother changing my style now?" so they didnt give it much thought and goes on the year2. with a few more months to a's these poor little disillusioned kids finally realised the seriousness of the situation. so they buck up and started to mug like shit. mug and mug and mug. but little do they know that they are not trained nor equipped with the endurance and the stamina to study continuously for a few months and that they will just die at the hands of a levels. sigh. sad life. disillusioned kids. for other kids, they like studying, enjoyed learning so they didnt mind the extra studying, the increased workload in a's- they embraced it. yet with a few more months to a's they realised that a's have killed their passion for studying, suffocated their zest for learning for they realised that its not understanding that will help them score in a's but memorising. alas, the ultimate killer for creativity and the start of robot-like life.
seriously, a's just cause most everyone to lost their interest in whatever subjects they used to have. just killed all the interest like "bam bam bam" and poof all died. sucky aint it. but 'tis life. 'tis what we called the singapore education system. haha.. such a joke.
kinda hate my life right now. esp when my older sis rubs it in and says "dont u all have sch tml? dont u have homework to do?" like everynow and then when she's happily watching away her tv shows. urghhh..
dreading sch. what kinda crap issit when we have to both start revising AND keep up with our increased workload with teachers rushing to complete the syllabus and giving us additional papers to do for sch-imposed revision and u have ur own self-imposed revision to do? oh bugger.. what crap. there's nv enough time. sighh... guess the only way is to pon sch more often. haha. biggest joke of the day: skip school to study. i mean how sad can my life gets?!?! tis 1144 and im blogging away. have sch tml, test tml yet to finish studying. tutorials that we will be going through tml yet to be done. and oh on top of that dont forget my sgc which i have to complete for MY OWN sake. wonderful.
bugger it all away.... im really ruining my own life.. sshucks

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 10:43 PM 」

its like stuff like this that happens that makes you forget bout what u wanna blog initially URGH.
anyway today some weird guy stopped me in the streets saying he's some famous guy and wants to do my eyebrows. FUCK. i like my eyebrows just the way they are. BUSHY. urgh.. virgin eyebrows. that's what im gonna have and no one's gonna do anything about it. HA. of all ppl picked me. is my unplucked eyebrows THAT prominent?!?! not say the street devoid of ppl summore. -.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

on my way home from tuition saw this area that was being cordoned off by the police tape. think most prob is somebody die and most prob is jump off building. haha so exciting. kembangan so epaceful also got ppl suicidal one. i know im being uber sadistic by laughing and stuff. but seriously. was thinking. how wonderful if like its a chain reaction thing. then cos the blk is like 108? 4 blocks away from my block. so like slowly decrease. 107. 106. 105. 104. haha at the 104 one. sure will be me one. so fun. haha sadistic pleasures.
went walking with shane. talked. ncie rather relaxing. got some stuff off my chest. then on the bus some stuff happened. FUCK LAR. got so pissed i was like really literally throwing stuff around. think i scared my sis. oh wells. that's me. but now im calm cool and collected. but not for long i tink at this rate. i tink some ppl exist just to piss me off. irritable creeps. FUCK.
okie im all calm cool and collect. today sch celebrated racial harmony day. rather crap. played daidee during the lectures. fun. got this game. damn proud of myself i got 4 dees, 4 Qs, 3 As, a double, 3, 4, j and k. haha. game until damn happy can. fun. btw, the celebration ie the concert was rather crappy.
pick-up-line-of-the-day 1: "tic, you turn me on"
pick-up-line-of-the-day 2: "i lost my no. can i have yours?"
tokyo juliet's really nice. goodness. all thanks to geraldine. im addicted to it when im 6 weeks away from prelims. YIPPIEE!!! fuck.
weighing out the pros and cons of going sch tomolo. sigh. dreading school now.
what things must happened before it can be defined as being made use of?
i hAte the way u work. i hate the way u do things. FUCK.
maybe i should just jolly well outcast myself. i'ld be better off.
is it all worth it?
have loads of things to say to you. wanted and dying to crap with u. but somehow. nothing came out of my mouth.
urgh i hate my life and the way i am now fuck.
tuition was fun though. should just live in the tuition centre. but then again on second thought. NOOOO. cos somebody else is attending tuition there too. SHITTY FUCK.
you really piss me off. maybe cause u affects me too much. maybe cos our frenship ran (used to) deep. that's why my reaction's so big. is this what my dad has said? that the best time of our lives is the secondary sch years and frens u meet after that mostly are......... sounds rather familiar. heard it from jo too. guess there's really some speck or even much more than that of truth in it. sigh. fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
im just vulgar. so kill me. i'ld be much happier anyway. FUCK

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 9:18 PM 」

some stuff happened at home. then ended up going to ecp. seriously ecp will always be my fav hideout place.. so relaxing.. go there straightaway destress.. ahhhhh.. lol.. sat on breakwater.. attempted to study.. ended up watching ppl fish. then talked to them.. and after tt.. studying is history. lol. made f wih the fishing ppl.. nice~ though a tad too old.. lol. so next time can go ask them teach me fish. but THAT will have to wait till after a's. YET AGAIN. sigh
school's boring. irritating to the extent. im pissing everybody off.. or should i say everybody's pissing me off. same either way. shyt. i tink im changing. i know im changing.. and i hate it. how? if only things could go back to the past.
ponned sch on tuesday. tell u its fate. planned to pon. then on tuesday got tummy ache. die die also cannot go sch le. fate. shat 4 times. at this rate, i have no choice but to believe that i have like stomach cancer or something. haha. i wouldnt mind though seriously. at the mean time. i will choose tummyache over going to sch anyday.
should i pon tml? to be or not to be. that is a question.
was thinking recently. if i ahve a son next time and he's a playboy. i will tell him, "u can date and two-timed anyone u want. but do not go and ruin the nice girls. restrict to only u and ur type of ppl" dunch know why. just suddenly thought of it.
would u rather love a playboy and go out with him though u know he will two-time u. or would u rather not and just have some one-sided love or go with someone u dun really love/like that much? i wouldnt know. think i will want to choose the former though i know i will be hurt badly and the relationship will sour soon. but i know in the end the coward in me will choose the latter. sigh. things wont always turns out to be the way u want it to be.
was talking to my dad during one of his reminiscing periods. then thought for a while. does girls who are always late deserve to be stood up or at least taught a lesson? i tink the obvious answer will be yes. but then if the lesson is taught by the bf le? hmm.. first thought that came to mind was "the guy so mean" but then from the guy's point of view, i tink its logical and reasonable and its her just desserts. but then again the feminist and the romantic inside me just thinks its wrong. sigh. its just so hard to make up my mind.
saw this really cool birthday book at popular in sch today. said the character of ppl born on the certain day. haha i itnk its quite true. october 23 :"...gentle..musically inclined.... marry early....." lol.. hhaa couldnt really remember. but then me too broke so din buy. sigh.
i dont know whether issit my fault or not. whether im being overly petty or not. but to me, i tink that's me just being me. so take it or leave it. u know how i want to be treated. my frens understood that and does that. so why cant you?
should we take on the "do unto others and other will do unto you" kinda philosophy or should we take on the "since nobody does it to be, why should do it to pple?" kinda approach. both makes sense to me though. aint no sure no more. :(
the question: will ppl who are stress thinks they are stressed?
questions left unanswered.
who can i turn to?

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 4:55 PM 」

can someone do me a favor and just report me to woodbridge? i tink my prospects there are much brighter than what it is now. I FUCKING LOSING MY SANITY!!!!! 4 months are much too long SOBS

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

who wants to go home to a home that doesnt feels like a home at all?
not me for sure

yesterday went out.. on alternative living. felt rather guilty bout it though cos im suppose to be at home studying. oh wells guess that's what sinful pleasures is about. went on a taitai lifestyle yesterday morning. tanned and swam. after tt went home for nasilemak which my uncle bought. after that went out to meet weilun at douby ghaut and played pool and stuff. experienced what paikia's did. sadly dawned onto me that i can never ever make it as a paikia. can click with one or two paikia. but will never pass as one. SIGH. though it was interesting to watch what they do when they go out. -.- dots. some lessons you learnt are for a lifetime. aint gonna walk like places that are "exposed" ever again. first time after like dunnoe how long (since sec 2 i tink) i went to an arcade again. and arcade is like a meeting place for paikias.. the no. of ppl they can meet. gosh its staggering. interesting though. sent weilun home cos i aint in any hurry to go home. after tt met zhuhui and walked home. haha. walked and just bitched about bitches. nice~ reached home bout 10. watched phantom of the opera into early morning. haha.. sinful pleasures.
today im gonna paly for my sins.. and attempt to study. sigh. sad life. carn wait for 4 months later. long term goal- wait for 4 months later to arrive. till then... HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE *cackles out loud*

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 8:15 PM 」

cravings for the day:
1) tau huei
2) pokey
3) chocolate
4) beard papa's

mood of the day:
-horrid
-bad
-sad

general thoughts for the day:
-depressing
-bleak
-black

people i yearn to talk to:
-weilun
-qs

places that i want to go for the day:
1) east coast
2) kembangan park
3) take bus aimlessly

sometimes just out of nowhere.. just felt sad. initially had this weird vibe so literally begged everyone possible to entertain me. no one did. ended up feeling so bad i almost cried. urgh. i hate days like this. i felt like try tatterton. valerie ask me whether is it pms. my derdum isnt due so soon so i doubt it. sigh. bad day. bad vibe. bad feeling altogether. today aint a good day. maybe i used up all my luck for the week or something on sunday. talked to qs ^^ sighh. somehow had this bad feeling about this whole week. so aint looking forward to it. urgh.
abstinence is the best prevention. somehow in the bleak darkness i couldnt find anyone. lost.
apparently what you want isnt always what you get. and what you get isnt always what you want. i hate my life. bleah.

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 10:38 PM 」

something stupid:
all the schools in singapore all having halfday tml cos the teachers have to go for some lessons by the moe. all except my sch.. cos my sch has halfday alright.. the half of day that's having lessons is the afternoon!! like wtf.. when everybody else ends school at 12? i starts sch at 1245..
oh wow how wonderful. -.-

world cup's coming to an end. after the pathetically few matches that i've watched. one thing that's been naggin at me ever since: why doesnt the coaches just tell their players to try to "accidentally" harmed the goalkeeper? this way, it'll be damn easy for them to score!!
YES i noe im bitter about argentina's loss.. YES i cant let go of the past.. YES im a bear grudges.. but the bottom line is GERMANY REALLY SUCKED.. thank goodness it got out.. HA. serve u right.. *bleahs with saliva included*

feeling rather stupid right now.. doing something i wouldnt really do if it had been other people.. sighhh

took class photo like yesterday.. dumb dumb dumb.. went to like asked hanxiang to take photo with me and yingli for small groups photos.. -.- ended up making me feel so despo.. looked so despo.. argghhhh.. utterly embarrassed.. -.- mei lian jian ren le.. wo dui bu qi ni shijie.. all ur teaching and guidance.. -.- sighhh.. gone just like tt.. sacrificed for the sake of a silly lil' photo!! -.- tell me u're disappointed in me.. cos i am in myself.. urghhhh

boredd.. yes i noe.. im bored too.. bugger..

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 7:36 PM 」

first day of sch was like crap.. sigh got back like both mcq paper.. bio was alright.. 21/30... but apaprently quite bad for someone who studied bio by repeatedly doing mcqs ONLY.. wonderful.. chem was much much worse.. 7/20.. and tt stupid mrs wong when she was going through.. "who got qn.1 wrong? raise ur hands i just wanna see.." apparently i had to like raise my hand like for every single qns.. except for 7 pathetic ones.. sucker.. and she had tt "expected one lor this one" kinda look in her eyes when she look at my raised hand.. f man...
youth day hols yesterday.. went orchard with dine and my sis.. then went far east saw this super hot guy.. seriously he's damn hot.. then after tt went parkway with my sis.. saw another hot guy.. haha.. so happy.. then after tt went ecp.. met up with weilun.. (the fishing guy long long time ago) yea.. then he walked us home.. but like duh~ everyone noes that he willing to walk us home is mainly cos my sis was there.. -.- yups.. but had an enjoyable time talking to him.. damn cool.. he's like my latest idol.. ^^
sch starts.. first tutorial fo the day-bio.. first thing she did.. draw out a timeline for us.. haha.. see le can faint.. din noe time was so tight.. i seriously need to focus.. but somehow lack the... willpower.. shyt.. anyone up for studying at the airport?
on a lighter and happier note.. bev emailed me.. ^^
//edit saw leehui today.. pri sch fren.. she said i nv changed.. since pri sch.. fuck

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.