play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

「 bouncing away 9:58 PM 」

*"eh you again.. must be stalking me right.. i knew it you stalker"
"haha its good to be stalked you know. it means that you are being loved"

*disclaimer: may not be exact word for word quotations.

its the little things in life, the little phrases you hear that makes you go all warm and fuzzy inside.
met steph today after bio paper when we went to yoshi at marina square to eat. steph: YOU ARE LOVED TOO!! one fine day when im all bored and have too much time to spare.. im gonna stalk each and every single person i've known and befriended.. just so to let them know that they are also being loved!!! i'm the all new reformed self.. i love stalking and being stalk!!! come!! STALK ME STALK ME!! lol..
bio paper was crap.. just so you know.. at least its all over.. bio holds no hope for me now...
soccer match later.. germany vs argentina.. so gonna watch it.. *excited*
came home watch "a shark's tale" and parts of "the incredibles".. nice.. fun.. kinda cheered me up though today the train ride home was horrible.. atrocious..
some sort of gloom fell over me today. dunch noe why.. just felt all gloomy and stuff.. went to esplanade with berni, miang, qiaomei and malcolm.. stoned at the rooftop garden.. nice feeling.. but too bad it aint enough to cheer me up bring me out of my gloom.. sorry to be sucxh a wet blanket today though its the last day of the papers.. just so you know.. i aint predictable...
din noe monday was youth day till today after paper.. felt rather dumb.. would have just blur blur went to sch on monday if they din tell me.. thank goodness they did.. thank goodness they wanted/planned to go out on monday and asked me.. lol..
aint not sure what i feel like doing anymore.. maybe its just my subconcious way of proving that im not predictable.. maybe its just be.. unsure of everthing.. dunch noe..
i LOVE WORLD CUP.. I LOVE SPAIN.. CUTE GUYS~~ I LOVE STALKING!!!! yeay.. oh what fun.. -.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 2:29 PM 」

"happy birthday!"
"hey thanks. din expect you to really keep ur promise and remembered my birthday.. im honoured"
"haha.. so how's ur birthday coming along?"
"bad."
"how come? ur frens din celebrate for u meh?"
"nope.. a's around the corner.. they all dun have time"
"haha poor thing"
"why dun you celebrate with me? i'll take it as my birthday present. thanks ^^ meet you at ecp"
"haha kae"
*cues at ecp breakwater
"hey let me see your wallet"
"for what?"
"for fun lar please? thanks"
*scrambling around the wallet
"eh legal de.. treat me drink le.. any kind.. alcoholic one can le.. please? i wanna try"
..........

there are times when before you sleep and you start thinking about anything and everything.. but yet you carn really control the direction of your train of thoughts. that's real bad.. there are some stuff that you wanna tell someone.. but yet you dont know who to say and you know that when you said it to anyone you will feel real dumb. that's real sad.. but i guess its stuff like this that one will post on their blog cos no one's obliged to read your blog.. it's their own free will.. and since its your blog you have absolute freedom to type whatever stuff you want to be it stupid or rubbish.. thus my rambles..
stupid stuff always happens to me.. and rather frequently i'd say.. dunch know why.. maybe its my tendency to be stupid at times.. oh well.. my just retributions.. today had maths paper.. shant say anything about it.. aint wanna start cussing myself and giving meeself bad luck..jinx-ee jinx-er... shall just leave it to f-a-t-e.. anyway.. yesterday night went to bed early even though i din managed to finish my revision.. since its MATHS paper and whats the most impt thing for maths (from my own point of view) is the ability to concentrate so as to minimise the careless mistakes to the minimum.. so SLEEP is VERY impt for maths.. yes.. SLEEP.. so went to bed like 11++? then i started tossing and turning in bed.. trying all kinds of sleeping style/methods whatsoever.. whatever is possible and existed.. i've tried.. din work.. ended up still awake at 1++?!?! like WHAT THE FUCK?! might have had as well gone to study and finish my revision.. -.- F it.. so anyway.. around 2++ in the FREAKING morning then i went to sleep.. finally managed to coax myself to sleep.. woke up at 530 so to finish my own revision.. -.- ful od shit rite me? and to prevent myself from falling asleep during to paper.. kiasu me drink coffee and tea on after another within a short time span of like 10 mins max? yea i noe.. suicidal.. tt's what i am..
ended up right before the test to prevent myself from having like stomachache in the midst of the paper.. i took a bottle of pojiyi right before the paper start.. -.- like.. am i stupid or stupid? -.- and to save you from ur curiosity.. no it didnt help.. -.-
bio tml.. though its the last p[aper for block test.. i doubt i will feel real joy and relief when its over.. cos now.. my sights are set on 4 months later.. all the things i wanna do.. all the shows i wanna watch.. all the jobs i wanna take.. all the things i wanna learn/try.. all i have to wait till... 4 MONTHS LATER... butt.. in the meantime.. anyone up for some hexic? *cues innocent eyes*

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 5:24 PM 」

im gonna screw up my bts
im gonna screw up my prelims
im gonna screw up my a's
im gonna screw up my life...
i should just go and die.. i'ld be better off..

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 6:10 PM 」

today had gp test... DIE AH!!! din managed to finish my aq.. DIE LE!!! din even managed to address the last requirement of the question (Referencing to singapore) DIE LEH!!! so basically im as good as dead.. summore for the compo part.. i din managed to address the "nothing' in the question "science is nothing but a threat to society" GG!!!
there goes my gp..
on a lighter note.. (how light can it be when i just screwed up gp?) i realised that at the beginning of the world cup.. my attitude towards it was "22 guys chasing after a ball.. what fun" then all thanks to my sis who accidentally subscribed to to the football channel on scv and her dragging me to watch match with her when both of us support different teams.. i got to say im a reform person now!! im addicted to football!! i LOVE THE WORLD CUP!!! yippieee!!! though din managed to watch many matches.. so here i am.. swearing that in 4 years' time when world cup comes 'round again.. im going to embrace world cup being the reformed person i am now!!! i LOVE THE WORLD CUP!!!!!!!!!
somehow got the gut-wrenching feeling that my bt2 is gonna be as screwed as can be.. gg.. anyone up for studying at the airport tomolo (tues)? can msg me.. ^^ though i doubt anyone will.. -.- haiss.. i can only look forward to friday and also 4 months' later.... so many shows im gonna watch.. so many things i wanna do.. so many places i wanna go.. CAN I JUST FAST FORWARD THE TIME PLEASE?! *cues in big gooey eyes*

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 9:56 AM 」

had this wave of, what do you call it? sentimental nostalgia whatever. maybe its due to after talking to jason. somehow just felt like his style of talking has changed, which bumps me out of my comfort zone. guess i have to say he's really one of my bestest best friend. no joke about that. anyway my bout of sentimental nostalgia led me to smsing 13 people how much i appreciate them. geee.. and even after that i felt like going to everyone and huggin them and tell them i love them.. gee.. so out-of-character for me huh? see.. that's what derdum does to you.. it weirded you...
anyway after reading ying's blog bout someone confortable to talk to.. think and think.. thought bout the talk me and ying had at the airport... im not sure of anything anymore. used to be so confident about certain stuff.. felt so proud of it.. yet now.. not anymore..
during the famine camp our facilitator said that its fate that bring us together. destiny that caused us to be in the group that we are. i guess its due to fate and destiny that i went to where i went, done what i did and met the people i met.. and i guess its due to fate that some of the frens i have have drifted away.. and that with others i am not so comfortable with them anymore.. some says that frens are for a lifetime.. but how often do u get a lifelong fren? with the passage fo time and the absence of contact.. any great frens may just become acquaintances.. real;ly hope that does not happen to me.. *cross my fingers*
with the upcoming bts and looming a's anything can happen especially when everybody's too busy to maintain the frenship....
guess only the passage of time will tell...
pessimism...

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 5:35 PM 」

urghh.. the stench of blood

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 2:29 PM 」

the weekend passed just like tt.. spent my whole entire weekend at the famine camp held in school. -.- yes back to sa in the hols. yippee what fun!! anyway, was rather surpised to see such a huge turnout from sajc.. saw a lot of ppl.. din expect so many ppl from sa. there's also cj, vj and nyp ppl.. for the vast majority then got like a few adults that came from no where tt kinda stuff.. yea.. was fun.. though the time planning qte sucks.. told us to report at 10. in the end by 1030 we finished registering and had to wait till 1 which is like the time it starts.. so went to ps with chiam and edwin for our last meal.. i noe.. i lead a sad lightbulb life.. -.- rub it in.. anywae after tt for the 1st day, had some sort of stimulation held in a game way tohat let us experience how the ppl in the disaster struck area felt and went through.. seriously i had no absolutely NO idea how bad they (the vistims) had felt till i did it.. basically for the first day (this is gonna get real confusing so yea) it is split into 3 "mock days" that last for like 1.5 hours. so like we were being groupd randomly into like families and all during the registration period then we had this id tags. so basically for the 1st mock day we have to like follow the instructions on our id card and for mine is to report to evacuation centre 1. then is like urm.. there's areas for fathers, mother and children. and the children queue was like super long.. so i literally spent about 45mins to 1 hr queuing there to register with the evcuation centre. at the same time my "Daddy" had to like register, then there's liek a facilitator that will be attached to our family. so my "daddy" had to like search for his kids and wife all over the place which include 3 evacuation centre, hospital and mortuary.. i tink. about there.. so yea.. i was like feeling so pangseh and abandoned during the queuing 'cos the dads of other familis are like walking around with one big group tagging behind, shouting "zuni. who's from zuni" that kinda stuff.. (fyi: zuni is like the surname for hte families. then each surname has about 4 diff families an d there's like a namelist for the dads to search for the correct family members" and apparently there's like no one calling out for kiowa family which is my family.. dman sad.. really felt like unwanted kinda stuff.. yea... so basically after the 1st mock day has ended, all the families are reunited and stuff loh.. then for the 2nd mock day the families were suppose ot like buy materials (either from the govt or the black market) to build houses and obviously work for the money to buy stuff.. then my family went bead picking in like the field, then bean sorting and lastly prostitution. prostitution is like the msot sought after job cos it has the highest paying rate and obviously is illegal. then while we were in the prostitution place we got like fined twice and the amt that we got fined is like the pay lar.. $12 so basically we prostitute for nothing.. -.- and also ended the 2nd day with ziltch materials to build our house. then 3rd day we were suppose to earn $65. so we went to all the govt handouts sectors and got free stuff by performing silly stuff. then kop all the materials that we used to build our houses from all over the school which is liek chairs, tables, cardboard boxes, garbage bags and all.. damn dumb.. my family damn cheapo.. then biuld le everybody squeeze in le.. then we went to sell our materials for like $8 when we nv even pay anything for our house.. tt kinda stuff.. then yea.. then blah blah blah.. went working.. but didnt manage to earn enough for the 3rd mock day.. by then its like at night le.. then we got debrief and all.. before being dismissed to sleep. girls in the netball court area and guys at the track. thenme and chiam wanted to bathe.. waited for like 1++ hour before we got to bathe.. -.- sighh.. then went to sleep.. after that day 2 went to tampines area to collect newspaper during the morning then apparently out of the 8 blocks of newspper we were supposed to and collected from.. 5 blocks of newspaper got cheated away by these 3 ahpeks that were wearing famine camp shirts BUT not from the famine camp ppl.. -.- wtf?!?! so like yea alr.. felt damn cheated.. almost felt like crying when i heeard that we got cheated.. then after tt for the remaining 3 blocks, 1 block worth of newspaper was being stolen cause we din looked after it.. -.- dman sad.. so yea.. so sad.. after tt went back school to clean up the campus.. my family kenna the toilet.. but then thank god for our facilitator damn ncie to the girls.. he helped us clean the girls' toilet.. then the guiys have to go clean theymselves... lol.. yea.. then slack around played asshole daidee.. then after tt got concert where we counted down to the 30th hour.. during th concert was like damn dead lar.. was like got that kinda after tonning feeling.. damn shagged.. but then after the countdown then they threw like confetti... got really high and all lor.. felt like when we count down to the new year that kinda feeling.. ncie lar.. then felt so accomplished.. so proud of myself that i've survived 30 hours of no food just water and sugared drinks lor.. the sense of achievement/ euphoria felt ar.. really really damn shuang.. wow.. then after tt ate bk.. sponspored one.. couldnt finished my burger though.. passed to someone else to help me eat.. then went home.. haha.. yups..
famine camp damn fun!!!! whoopiee!!! wanna join again!!! yeayy!!! i've done the famine have you? lol.. yeay!! im so proud of myself.. are u proud of me?!?!? yeayy!!!
one more week then bt2.. die le... -.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 10:38 PM 」

enlightenment.
had tuition just now - yesyes im having tuition and chem fyi and no its not private tuition- gotta say that im really glad i've joined this tuition cause the tuition teacher is one that really commands my respect. in my 12 years of education -not including kinder-years- i've met quite a few teachers i've really respected, some may be years after they've taught me whilst some commands my respect after a few lessons. have to admit most of the teachers are maths teachers though- mdm le ai lian, xiao ang, mrs loy, ms lui and miss ng to name a few. yet chem- the subject i've hated most- and there it is a chem teacher i really respect. that's like a big big bonus plus for him. ha. got to say that if i ever becomes a teacher of any sort- be it tuition or like real teachers (though i think there would be a super high possibility of me being a tuition teacher again)- i would want and aspire to be one that commands respect from my students.
anyway was on the tuition/teacher topic because of something the tutor had said: "the time for play has stopped and now is the time to really get down and study. there's only about 8 weeks left to prelims and if there's a time to make a serious study plan it is now. choose the people you hang out with wisely and hang out with those who studies because the people you hang out with matters. " that is more or less what he had said, give or take a bit. though i've got to say that a lot of other teacher had said more or elss the same stuff but his words made me think, really really think. even though somewhat similar thoughts has passed through my mind when other teachers said about it and i've felt somewhat a slight inkling of fear yet i've never thought of it so thoroughly, maybe i did just that it slipped throgh my mind and the distance between school and home is too far, compared to tuition to home, for me to blog about it after hearing it. oh wells but real serious thoughts have passed through my mind more than fear and i really got to say i got around to deciding on a few things- whether i will stick to it or not is something entirely else but at least for this short period of time, i hopefully will stick to it.
only time will tell.
on a lighter note, went chiam's house to study. somewhat. today. edwin was there -.-. extraded. talked some stuff. ate canadian pizza for lunch. got to say it rekindled my love for pizzas esp hawaiians. though it highlighted my messiness when im eating.
rekindled. qs' birthday. chiam will noe though. smiles(:
satisfied. at least for now (:

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 6:02 PM 」

watched world cup yesterday.. have yet gotten over the fact that i am watching world cup.. all thanks to my sis.. haha.. so happy australia won yesterday.. against japan.. ^^
depressing.. -.- i am watching word cup.. -.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:08 PM 」

watched spirited away last nite.. not that i never watched before but just forgot the ending.. so sweet.. i tink the cute guy died though.. so saddening.. :( sighh.. after a's im so gonna watch all the anime movies man.. marathon marathon!! haha
celebrated my sis' birthday yesterday.. though her birthday is today.. -.- went jack's place.. saw this super cute waiter that looks like xiao yu from ko1.. haha.. so cute.. then saw qte a few cute guys at bras basah there.. wow.. i should hang around there more.. lol...
sis fren came over to celebrate her birthday.. damn nice lor they celebrate.. -.- sigh.. and i can only envy.. oh wells.. 2 more weeks to go and i've yet to make any leeway in my studying.. GREEEAAATT.. wonderful.. fantabulous.. die le.. -.- gg

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 1:30 PM 」

just came back from bbq and chalet.. shagged.. -.- seriously so zonked out.. first nite was fun at pasir ris park. bbqed.. though it was pathetically small the group but surprisingly was damn fun.. as in like enjoyable lor.. like all thanks to me? since im always the one talking.. -.- but yea.. so it was like an all-girls' bbq.. fun lor.. no bf whatsoever.. then haha our fire is like damn cool lor.. damn fast and damn nice.. msut be all the practice from the past years.. lol.. then yea talked and all.. played games.. mainly asshole daidee.. or was it just simply only asshole daidee? anyway yea.. after tt me and ying went to airport at around 11 plus to ton the nite there.. went to t1 in search of macs but apparently din find any.. ended up stoning at the viewing gallery in t1 then went to some coffee cafe at airport with those cushion chairs. sat there and did our work.. ying slept some..a fter tt cos they cleaning up the place so we left the place then walked to t2 after we went to the skytrain there and found out that the skytrain stopped operating at 130.. and we were there like 2? -.- dots so walked to t2.. then after tt went around walking in search of nice place to study.. surprisingly in t1 it was like qte crowded like got ppl and still "open" in a sense.. but t2 is like all shut down for the day kinda thing.. escalators stopped working and all.. then only can go bk and study.. then at bk got loads of poly students mugging for their paper like in dunnoe how many hours' kinda thing.. qte cool.. then all mug there.. did vectors but gave up shortly then continued with integration.. the whole nite.. after tt around 6, t2 "woked up" in the sense that shops starting to open.. lights arent so dimmed and stuff.. yea..qte cool witnessing how airport like "wakes up" cool.. yea.. after tt we went to the viewing gallery at t2.. saw someone camping there seriously camping with like sleep bags and stuff..at a corner.. then got a couple there also.. who left shortly after we reached there.. -.- yea.. then stoned there for a while waited for time to passed.. walked around.. sat around and all.. then after tt took train to pasir ris.. slept at the bus terminal.. realised bus terminal qte nice to sleep.. then.. went to ntuc fairprice.. -never knew fairprice opens so early- then went to macs to sit down.. stoned.. then walked to downtown east since we got loads of time to spare.. hanged around costa sands.. got entertained by a super cute lil' boy swimming.. or trying to. then stoned around somemore and ended up playing daidee while waiting to check in.. yea.. donna and kenn joined us shortly then 4 of us were like playing daidee at the reception area of costa sands..
after checking in to the chalet we stoned around a while.. bathed then ate lunch.. then after that sat and played daidee and also mahjong.. played for like dunnoehow long.. then after tt chiam came, then geraldine then edwin.. yea then we sat around the bed talking.. after tt playing asshole daidee.. paly until super cmi then went to eat dinner at downtown.. then after tt went back watched tv.. then after tt walked around pasir ris.. and when i say pasir ris i mean PASIR RIS.. as in the whole damn thing.. the whole damn area.. walked from like costa (downtown area) to like the playground there.. which is like near the fisherman's village, the sea sports club there.. -.- dots.. then din paly at the playground cos the sand wet.. -.- while walking there got lost for a while.. then saw qte a lot of groups of ppl walking round also.. saw loads of frogs.. grossed me out totally.. then after tt walked back.. we walked damn fast apparently.. -.- then after tt went back chalet, played cards.. sat around watched tv channel u till it closed at 2..then kenn told ghost stories.. say say say until tlak about fengshui.. -.- played the pig game also.. play until everyone so super blur then went back playing daidee.. by then ying and kenn stopped playing so left me, donna and chiam playing edwin also dun wanna play.. after tt me chiam and donna went walking around costa.. walked and talked.. then talked talked talked.. then after tt went back chalet.. then sat there and talked with donna cos chiam went walking with edwin.. then after tt halfway thru talking i zonked out on donna-dui bu qi donna- lol.. then after tt donna called me to go and sleep.. so i went and sleep.. sleep till.. 1045.. then ying woked me up then kept stuff and all.. then go check out le.. wah can die.. so dead lor.. came home dying to sleep then went to bath.. then now... here lor.. cannot sleep.. sian diao.. -.-
kae lar qte fun.. though pathetically small.. ahhaa.. realised pasir ris is in serious need of lightings.. then also a lot of xiao lians and xiao bengs hang there.. the chalet next to ours was like filled with xiao lians and xiao bengs.. so super noisy until donna got damn pissed off.. qte fun... talked qte alot this time round... nice... but now its over.. have to go study le.. sighh...


::shagged-tired-lacking of sleep-pimples threatening to pop out-broke-fat- yet happy-unburdened-lightened-relaxed-free-cheered-many new buckets filled of happy memories- CHALET JUN'06::

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:47 PM 」

took a test...

3 Congratulations! You scored 50%!

Equally heterosexual and Homosexual. You are one of the few people who could be truely bisexual. Most people who are bisexual tend to lean more towards the men or the women. You could also consider yourself pansexual. Yay for equality.

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:41 PM 」

just gotten another new hobby.. earring making.. oh btw.. since we are on this topic, ppl please go and visit project-bling.blogspot.com its a cip project yups and we are selling earrings so yea for charity ^^ anyway.. its cause of this thingy then i got myself hooked onto this earring-bracelet making thingy yea.. saddening.. at this point of time summore.. gee how great can it be.. -.-
anyway caught myself waiting for you-know-who. kinda thought i no longer liked him.. sighh.. and now this.. geee.. but then.. even though at this time of the year with the usual ding-a-ling going on.. thou shalt not invite him. ha i wun.. hopefully.. geee.. its this custom, tradition kinda thing that made me wanting to invite him kinda stuff.. shit. blabber blabber blabber.. hope im not tripping over my own words though i know i am.. geee..
back to studying yet again... -.-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.