Tuesday, November 29, 2005
hmm.. realised i havent blogged for quite sometime.. my quite referring to quite a no. of things/events have passed without me blogging.. yups.. anywae.. was looking at kaitian's blog, then saw that big hooha bout gep and all.. (this shows how outdated i am by not reading the newspaper.. -.-) yea then was looking thru all her link and all bout immature, snobbery and basically just people expressing their own point of view without really processing it properly and all.. but one thing to be sure-- im not considered in the bunch of people (express stream) who looks down on people from the normal stream.. (obviously.. looking at a VERY good example of QS.. -.-) so yea.. so proud to say that IM SO OPENMINDED I DONT LOOK DOWN ON OTHERS.. lol.. im endangered u know? such species.. in singapore.. lols.. so TREASURE ME.. ^^
okie anywae back to me and my boring mundane life.. oh btw, since im on the topic of qs then hmm.. let's elaborate.. lol... just recently, i was talking to my shijie (online, in msn obviously) then she was saying that the kinda guys that i fall for are bad boys type.. lol.. i tink so too.. *giggles bimbotically*
okie anywae.. yea tt's out of point.. anywae on sunday went to celebrate malcolm's birthday.. surprisingly he's so deprived he didnt suspect anything (or so he says) so yea.. that stupid guy, thinks he's 17 le.. can anyhow anyhow let girlS wait for him.. sibei jiatlat can.. horrible le.. -.- atrocious i must add.. -.- so yea.. anywae just celebrate- went pastamania eat then go to the sofa at the cinema there and sit thn bring cake sing sing blah blah blah.. surprisingly not a lot of ppl noe bout the sofa palce.. hmmm... -.- oh btw.. got a great show coming out.. lilya-4ever.. think its rather nice.. showing only in cine.. bout some underage prostitution and all.. qte cool.. too bad its m18.. :( yea so anywae..a fter celebrating malcolm's birthday then went down to ecp for s14's bbq.. haha.. pathetic mans the turnout.. was like 10 ppl? 'round there.. but rather fun.. 'cos this time round no bbqing for me. just sit and eat and gossip.. lol.. surprisingly how well the girls can click now after the much hostility between us in the first 3 months.. haha.. shocking.. but i doubt like 1 more year down the road with s62 bbq.. can talk to the other clique as well not.. hmmm.. that waits to be determined i guess.. anywae.. so yea.. found out tt in the new campus we (sajcians) can go to the primary sch and secondary sch campus' cafe to eat but they(primary and secondary) cannot come to the jc to eat.. WAHAHAHAHA.. cos (according to weber) the guys (in pri and sec) have horns.. thus they are horny..-.- so protecting the girls lor.. then if the girls wanna go pri/sec campus its at their own risk so yea.. can go.. so fun cant wait.. can go terrorize all those THAT ARE SHORTER THAN ME!!! *evil laughter* so yea.. talk bout a lot more.. but lazy blog bout it..
so yea.. hmm monday..went out with kaitian to bugis.. saw this denim skirt that she fancied.. its nice lor.. but a bit on the ex side.. so yea then today went out with kt again to tanjong pager to register with some employment agency then after tt meet jo and jiayi at town and walked around.. then kt was saying not a lot of guys will go out in pairs cos very gay.. so we decided to go round counting two lone guys going out together only... counted about.. 35? haha.. qte a lot wors.. then was saying bout what girls dun mind gays but guys mind butches.. yea..qte weird ocme to think of it.. oh wells..
yups.. hmm.. carn be bothered to type anymore initially blogged bout cos (haha) tot of qs when i was reading those other blogs.. oh wells.. shall zao now.. ciao babes~
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
this week is seriously in the pits.. most of the time, im jsut at home stoning and all.. only went out with my younger sis for a while to buy stuff and all.. not much...
friday went to baccarat for dinner- some buffet place. firstly which stupid shop will call themselves ----RAT.. so dumb lar totally. the first thing that came to my mind when i heard the name was yea.. this.. rat.. but nevertheless it was alright. the selection available was so-so for an international buffet with like only salmon, fish and chicken for the teppanyaki thingy. seriously i dun remember eating much there 'cept for the sashimi (like duh~ every buffet i go.. i will just beeline to the sashimi counter -.-) but one great thing bout tt baccarat is that *drums rolling* THEY HAVE CHOCOLATE FONDUE!!!! haha.. was like pigging out with my sis at the fondue, totally.. so cool yea furthermore the place is nicely decorated yups, thumbs up for the environment and atmosphere.. ^^
saturday morning went to the giordano warehouse sale with my sisters.. felt rather accomplished 'cause this is the first time going to a warehouse sale and actually buying some stuff back even thugh it was just a pair of jeans and a top.. -.- but yea.. im still rather proud of myself.. after tt went to sing post to buy some stuff then went home to bake blueberry muffins.. hmm have to admit those are rather nice even though i dun particularly like muffins.. yups.. alright lar.. for a rather boring week. ^^
carn wait for next week got bbq.. hmm.. hopefully can get some job by then.. *cross my fingers*
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
I OFFICIALLY DECLARE CHUSE IS A BUNCH OF TINGTONGS!!!! *burst into laughter and scurries off*
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
im so bored im dying.. at this rate im going.. reading other pple's blog..they wun be able to blog faster enough for me.. sheesh.. im dying of boredom... oh gawd.. please.. i need another job!!!!!!!!!!! :(
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
felt so restless.. so bored all of a sudden. its like after the flat is over nothing much to look forward to, furthermore there's is nothing i can look forward to in the near future.. its like this week totally falls flat.. its gonna be one boring week i can so totally see.. after a hectic week.. gee.. -.- what drastic difference..
slept for practically the whole of sunday, 'cept for the few pathetic hours im awake to eat and upload pics and watch harry potter.. felt so great.. think im becoming more and more like a pig.. dreading tml.. have no idea how im gonna spend it. maybe shall go fiddle with my bike.. on second thoughts, maybe not...
cried to jo on sat.. dont know why just felt like crying.. sorry jo embarrassed you... trust me, i felt awkward too. but nevertheless thanks for just being there...
i know im being stupid. but there's nothing much for me to do.. sometimes stuff happens and u can onlystand back and watch it all happens and can only feel helpless. you can only try to catch urself when you slip next time and try ur best to change urself.. just to adapt....
read donna's blog just now.. felt rather like a hypocrite.. so silly.. just a note to u donna: i still dont like ur eugene.. there i said it all out.. have no idea why i helped patching them both up that day when the whole entire 2 years been hoping, wishing and predicting they'll break.. so stupid.. its like the one chance they'll break and there i am trying to help them patch things up.. something's really wrong with me up there.. can never make up my mind.. guess its jsut taht i can never live knowing that donna broke up with her bf because of me.. that i was the cause of their breakup.. but still.. donna: I DO NOT LIKE UR BF.. -.- hope they'll break soon.. with donna initiating the breakup... -.-
im know im being silly.. carn help it.. its inborn.. with the silliness in me.. carn help it.. oh god how i hate myself.. -.- damn
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Monday, November 21, 2005
went banquet waitressing yesterday.. haha.. 1st time did a wedding banquet.. so fun.. in a way lar.. cos apaprently my table was ultra friendly and all.. so even though i dun know how ot portion it didnt matter.. they portioned themselves.. aha.. so fun.. but then aching all over now.. -.- gee..
anyway.. the long-awaited photos are all uploaded.. so yea.. can go and see.. and apparently i go so much photos im into my 7th album.. -.- gee... great
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
haizz.. feeling rather crapped out.. also dunnoe why. just rather confused and all.. sighh.. chalet was.. hmmm.. -commentless-... actually.. its more of a lot of things to say but just dunnoe how to put them into words.. oh wells.. wadeva.. anywae.. harry potter was ultra super duper nice.. its was fantabulous.. absolutely great.. simply love it..
can slowly wait till i've sorted out my thinkings... somehow feel like crying.. anyway, was blog-surfing and came upon shane's blog.. saw the thingy she did.. think its rather interesting though it doesnt make sense to me.. oh wells...
| Your Birthdate: October 23 |
You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.
You're good at so much - you never know what to do.
Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.
You are destined for a life of travel and fun.
Your strength: Your likeability
Your weakness: You never feel satisfied
Your power color: Bright yellow
Your power symbol: Asterisk
Your power month: May |
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
went chinatown just now... bot my court shoes and 3 slippers: those going to beach one lorhs..of course.. so happy.. and of the 3 slippers.. 2 are trail slippers.. yea!! add to my collection.. ^^ have yet to do my i&r.. going to bring my ahma home from the hospital later before going for 4/7 bbq.. carn wait.. so dead.. -.-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
damn i feel so bad.. me and my big mouth.. sighh
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Monday, November 14, 2005
have you ever thought about and pondered over what message is hidden in ur dreams? have you ever woke up and think about the weird dream you just had and wondered what it means? do you believe that sometimes messages of some sorts are passed via dreams, some subconcious thingy? well i do. i believe that sometimes dreams contains messages sorta like a prediction of some sorts bout he future or ur life.. even thoughnot all dreams contains messages and last of all.. not the dream i ahve long long time ago when i was super young.. dreamt that i was chased bout some monsters from power rangers and the monster/robot is storming round the city ruining all the buildings.. OBVIOUSLY this silly dream of mine do not have any message hidden.. or i doubt so.. but last night i had a weird dream.. been thinking bout it the whole morning.. apparently, i dreamt that i woke up in the morning and searched the whole house for some harry potter book but after searching for a very very long time, i still couldnt find it.. then when i go back to my bed, saw that on the cupboard at the head of my bed is the book that i was finding and yet it is not the same book but the current book im reading.. :S weird dream.. hmm.. any suggestions on the dream evaluation part? -.- anywae the book im read.. my sister's keeper by jodi picoult (if u're interested) its a damn bloody good book.. just finished reading it and crying.. its so sweet.. so touching so nice.. it s a FABULOUS book.. sighh.. damn just thinking bout it makes me feel like crying again.. -.-
okie.. hmm.. worked on friday for the first time in my entire life.. a proper job lar obviously no counting the child labour at ying's mum's place there in sec 2.. yea.. hmm qte fun lar the job i tink.. in the torturous way.. as in like i tink learn qte a lot of stuff ba.. like setting the table for breakfast in the chinese style (or was that the english style? :S) yea.. hmm.. but then was very tiring.. cos we have to carry tray containing at least 3 glasses plus a glass containing servettes and another candle holder.. so obviously its qte heavy and walk around in court shoes.. yea.. then have to clear up and all lar.. apaprently jo doesnt think its fun.. :S oh wells.. :S anyone out there with a screwed sense of humour and concept of fun like me looking for job? can work with me.. :P lols.. yea.. apparently worked from 6 -1 am on friday.. then the next day.. my whole left hand ached like nobody's business.. -.- and ONLY my left hand aches.. -.- yea but it was fun.. :)
then sat went to khatib for some venture donation drive.. so dumb lar.. hais.. dunnoe wanna waste time slamming them le.. but basically.. VENTURE is one bloody screwed cca that most of the epople inside has no idea how to organise well and yet keep trying organise stuff.. stupid bastards man.. that bunch fo them.. screwed.. -.- but nevermind.. shant waste my precious energy getting pissed at them.. -.-
hmm.. realised actually im qte a blabbermouth.. as in like once you get me started on something.. i will jsut spill everything out for you and yea.. -.- so stupid rite.. -.- haisss.. nevermind shant dwell on it either.. -.-
carn wait for the chalet......................................... ^^
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Friday, November 11, 2005
hmm today went to get specs after the op.. hais.. op was screwed lar.. on my part.. but oh wells.. at least its over^^ NO MORE PW MEETINGS!!!! yippie!!! anywae.. went to queensway to get my specs. apparently the specs qte lar.. but then too sharp then see le got headache.. -.- went with ying and donna.. lol.. then bring them see my cute guy.. lol.. AND THEY THIK HE'S CUTE TOO!!! so happy.. so yea... but then like no use.. still din manage to really talk tal with him.. -.- sighh.. so paiseh.. anywae.. then was hanging around with donna and ying at queens.. before going to ikea cos donna wanna buy batt.. then after tt went anchorpoint then sit and talk.. haa.. so silly lar.. talked bout so muc stuff and all..
hmm.. today shane help me train my maple acc.. thanks shane!!! ^^ *muaCks* tthen carn wait for tml.. got work!!! hope i duns crew up amns.. *cross fingers* bot everything that's required except court shoes... hmm.. either borrow from chiam or go get tml.. shall wait and see 1st.. -.-
hmm..think a lot of things have changed since the beginning of the year.. its like life's nv constant and u'll nv know what's gonna happen next.. its so sudden and just jumps on u like that.. and all you can do is hope that u can adapt fast enuff.. -.- was just thinking.. that to think that in the beginning of the year was still showing everybody how cute my ahma is and all.. then now.. sighhh.. sad to say she's got a mild stroke recently and shortly after tt she had a fall and fractured one lil bone segment of her spine.. yea.. thanks to all ur concerns ppl though.. cos she's getting around just dainty.. even though she's in the hospital.. cos its not very severe.. *whew* yea.. and to think that such a sudden thing will have such a great impact on our lives.. all of sudden... its as if my wings were being cut off and freedom taken away and i have to cook dinner.. :( but yea.. changes do happen.. guess its only a matter of accepting them.. and make the best out of it.. i guess.. ^^ dunnoe why so philosophical all of a sudden.. must be the influence of donna and ying ar.. -.- sheesh.. haha.. kinda like soothe my emotions recently ba.. but nevertheless.. the bad things will soon be gone.. (pw) and the good things will come soon (work!!! and CHALET!!!) so yea.. guess it time for a mood change.. and i guess.. this also kinda symbolise that my derdum coming soon.................................................................. DAMN
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
guess its only times like these you can catch me blogging..
1) when im bored out of my wits
2) when im chatting on msn about something i deems important
3) when im not playing maple
4) when im done with surfing the blogs and prying into others' privacy
5) when i have some interesting things to talk about...
and currently.. its all of the above..
haiz.. apparently got loads of things to say lar.. but dunnoe where to start.. so shall bore all of u with my lousy week and all.. hmm.. let me see..
okie hmm.. monday went o for like urm mini class outing? apparently 1/2 the class went and the other 1/2 went to sentosa.. so yea.. so dumb lar.. politics and all.. so yea.. anywae.. me went to meet val 1st then went to suntec with her to meet the rest cos we were late.. then reach there.. a eat and talk lor.. a bit silly lar.. like there two groups talking but not surprising.. so anywae..after eating at fish and co.. went to the sky garden then sit around and play ultimate numbers cum truth or dare (minus the dare) so yea.., apparently rite.. the guys in my class ar... tsktsk.. jiatlat.. so many secrets between them then refuse to tell the girls.. make us so blur lor.. tsktsk.. so yea anywae ask some qns.. a bit the sick but yea.. nevertheless.. a bit the typical guys' questions so yea.. then after tt the guys went off to arcade then the girls (5) went to buy shirt for bernie after tt went arcade awhile to see see look see see.. then after tt we (girls) went to nydc and eat.. apaprently the return of the 2x choc cheesecake or something like tt damn nice.. then sit around talk talk.. then went to find the guys then go home.. okie lar.. qte fun lor..
then today apparently got pw meeting.. took up the entire day.. -.- so screwed.. then as usual.. the guys played games.. waste my time mans.. thena fter tt went to meet jo and jiayi then went to the oriental for job interview- banquet waitressing.. apparently they just hired us on the spot.. so cool lar.. my first official proper part-time job.. yeay!!! *confetti and helicopter hovering about* yeay.. so yea.. tis friday got a job.. *cross finger* hope i leave a good impression.. :P
yea.. dunnoe wad more to write le.. sighh.. kae lar.. shall sign off.. ciao babes~
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Saturday, November 05, 2005
wah today's like one sporty day mans.. woke up at around 10+ then after eating breakfast.. cycled to ecp to meet mallie, val, qiaomei, heon, kawing, miang and yingli... then cycled around ecp lar.. in groups of 3-4.. cos apparently some ppl left behind to teach qiaomei how to cycle.. anywae.. not to be mean or anything or like insulting a specific someone.. but then qiaomei apparently knows how to cycle but then dun have the guts to cycle.. then i was like thinking like.. malcolm's so patient to teach qiaomei lar.. if its me i would have killed her long ago.. i mean like im so impatient and all.. then was like thinking actually i cannot really stand teaching people who actually knows how to cycle but dun have the guts to cycle lar.. like eg.. joey leong.. apparently the last few times of me teaching her.. ended up in me screaming at her all along ecp.. -.- dots.. so yea.. was like rather teach ppl who's daring and dunnoe how to cycle lor.. -.- yea basically tt's it.. then was like thinking the people i taught (not cycling but other stuff like ice-skating) was mainly chuse.. then was like making then fall and everything but then like they are like daring to try stuff lar.. then like have to guts to do it lar.. -.- otherwise i tink now chuse no longer exist.. and im behind bars.. would have killed all of them otherwise.. -.- so yea..
then after tt was like thinking actually.. im qte gut-less in a way so who was i to say others.. but then come to think of it.. i'm more of the kind who's like go accept dares and everything then actually is quaking inside lorh.. like so stupid.. like all those rollercoasters and all.. but then i will keep forcing myself till im not scared lar.. in a way.. so actually.. -.- im not tt gut-less afterall.. okie dun really know what im trying to say here.. just typing down my thoughts.. anywae so yea.. then after tt was like after 3 hours of cycling.. i tink qiaomei learnt how to cycle lar..a fter having lots of cuts on the feet and all.. -.- then went to parkway there to play pool.. but then after like playing one game with val.. i zaoed.. yea.. chiong back to meet jo, jiayi and kaitian at kembangan cc to play.. then apparently there's only 3 rackets.. so like played 2 vs 1 most of the times then sometimes played singles game.. -.- haha.. at elast after today learnt how to hit properly and this time round badminton wasnt so bad... but then saw this bunch of 4 girls.. so dumb lar.. inside the hall tt's damn stuffy and no fan no air-conditioning.. they wore JEANS!!! like wad the fuck lar.. then wear those girly slippers to play badminton lar.. i mean i wore trail slippers bad enuff..have to play bare footed.. they leh?!!? like what the fuck lar.. so damn screwed.. -.- then apparently they just hanged around watching this bunch of 6 guys playing badminton.. though i have to admit the guys have skill.. butt.. its so fucking obvious they not watching the skills and all.. -.- u get my meaning.. yea.. bitches.. sighh.. kids these days.. tsktsk...
yea.. basically was downright disgusted by them.. oh wells.. anywae.. just palnned to type all i can today cos i bet tml i wun be able to type.. invalid.. -.-
so yea.. anywae.. today was like qte a wet hair day for me.. cos apparently keep sweating and all.. then light rain and all.. hair was wet whole day.. apparently can tie my my ahir without fringe dropping.. tt's how wet it is.. till now.. -.- *gasps*
keke anywae.. tink i better go off and bathe le.. tatas..
p.s. i HATE loke-yeo now.. sheesh.. wad the hell she thinks she's doing?!!? -.-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
was at NEENEE's house celebrating deepavali today.. then was like blasting music.. then realised this song actually qte nice...
lene marlin -unforgivable sinner
Kinda love your sense of time
Cos the days no matter no more
Or the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You know she hopes you tried
Follows you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
Cos between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see
You know where you sent her
You should know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she'd up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable sinner
You've been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won't ever be the same
Someone cries and you're to blame
Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you'll defeat
The picture you see
It won't dissapear
Not unpleasant mdream
Or the voice you hear
You know where you sent her
You should know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she'd up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable sinner
Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before you hit the ground
Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before you hit the ground again
You know where you sent her
You should know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she'd up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable sinner
steps- deeper shade of blue
Into each life some rain must fall
I didn't know I would catch it all
The clear skies have gone
And you with them too
It's not the same now without you
I used to say you're so beautiful
But it didn't change a thing at all
There's nowhere to run
Got nowhere to hide
I can't forget you and I've tried, but...
I'm a deeper shade of blue
And there's nothing I can do
You're so far, far away
Yeah, I'm a darker shade of me
And I just can't be free
You're so far, far away
You're so far away
Into each life some sun must shine
Well someone else must be getting mine
The days are so empty
Night's are so long
Awaking to find again that you've gone
I used to say you were wonderful
Now I just wonder where you are
It's easy to say memories fade
But I'm still missing you
Nothing's changed ... and
Summer is overA
nd all we are is apart
The nights are so cold now
Without you in my heart
-i hate myself for doing it yet i know fully well i will do it again..-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
today's chinese was.. ALLLLL RIGHHHTTT.. lar.. managed to finish wayyy wayy wayyyyy before time.. then spent the rest of my time trying to keep warm and sleeping.. -.- dots.. apparently im so forgetful that i dint remember how cold the hall can be.. gee.. -.- i mean how dumb can i get? anywae, after tt went to do pw.. stupid malcolm.. go and delete the short video that i've filmed.. -.- damnit.. then cannot show u all stuff.. :( saddening.. all mallie the smellie's fault.. HMPH.. anyway went to ronald's house to do the ppt.. a while finito le.. then went to lavender to meet jo, jiayi and kaitian.. then walked all the way to some ulu hawker centre and eat lunch at like 4+++?!?!?!? -.- dots le.. then apparently the specs shop called me.. so efficient le.. the specs done le..r eady for collection.. :) but doubt i will wear it to school tis year.. so off lar.. :S anywae ying when u free go collect specs with me? *winks* lol.. then anywae went kembangan cc and sat and talked.. then after much clarification and explanation i came to the conclusion that actually people are what/whom they think they are.. most of the time.. so yea..character-wise lar.. so basically if i think im impatient.. most prob im impatient.. blah de blah.. u noe? yea.. ^^ then anywae forgot bout tis part.. apparently kaitian saw her npcc frens on the bus then felt bit nostalgic and stuff.. then was like kinda envy-ing her.. its like she's so lucky to have such close cca mates.. like donna, steph, chiam, ying blah blah.. choir and all..then all like one tight bunch.. then apaprently string e ar.. HAIS.. like.. wad the beep lor.. -.- then now tis cca also a tad screwed ar.. so dumb lar.. like im cursed with bad cca in exchange for nice cliques.. -.- wad the #%&!%^*#$# lar.. -.- sighhh.. apparently VENTURE is sooo screwed u carn believe how screwed they are.. JUST BECAUSE i lost my phone like 8 months ago.. they din bother to change the master contact list bout my phone nos even though i told like so many ppl that i've changed including the stupid chairman himself and most of the exco ppl.. like wad the shit.. then they keep complaining that we din join stuff and all.. nv actively participate when they din even BOTHER TO MSG ME BOUT THE ONGOINGS!!! like wad the fuck.. wad's their bloody problem?!?! and the dumbest thing is that they have the audacity to CALL me on my HANDPHONE which apparently they have no records of to ask me to go champion some stuff and the next day DIN EVEN BOTHER TO MSG ME BOUT OTHER STUFF.. like WHAT'S THEIR FUCKING FUCKED UP PROBLEM?!!??!?!?!?! -.- fuck them mans.. -.- bloody pissed.. okie, im digressing.. back to the topic.. apparently im cursed with charcharred ccas.. was like thinking how nice if i were to go mj.. thenc an like join any cca without being in the recre team cos mj being such a new school so like no trials and all.. then realised that i wouldnt survive in mj cos of the stress level.. -.- hais.. nothing's ever perfect eh? -.- yea so.. was like qte sad bout my cca life and qte envious of kaitian lor.. basically.. -.-
anywae was like looking at jean's blog jsut now.. saw that to my horror tk's classes are now being named after FLOWERS?!?!? and to quote jean: "picture this : what class are u in? oh! im in four daisy. omg... and 4/7 is called four gardenia now. oh great. not only a freakin flower, now its a bread. how cool is that?" yea.. 4 gardenia.. geee.. how dumb.. and btw.. didnt they even bother to ask the alumni or the ex students bout their input on the changing of classes names?!?! like HELLO!?!?? i happen to LOVE NUMBERS?!?!? like 4/7 's such a nice nos.. -.- sighh.. 4 gardenia.. great.. now we are like bread.. -.- bet next time 4/7ners will be like called 4 gardeners or something.. aspiring gardeners.. mr. peh's pet class.. -.- gee.. okie digressing yet again... oh realised that the 7th letter is G.. so imagine wad 1/9 will be called.. iguanas? sorry not flowers.. -.- hmm.. iris? fine nvm.. ignore me..-.- btw saw from www.gardencards.biz/html/flowermeanings_F.htm#G that gardenia's mean "You´re Lovely, Secret Love" -.- dots..
anywae.. he said sorry to me.. i know how hard it is for him to say that.. so i guess he relly means it.. dun really know what to do now.. at a loss.. kinda felt guilty for being pissed at him in the first palce.. but dint think that he knew.. felt bad for him.. felt bad bout myself.. first time felt so bad.. but dun really know how to make up to him.. kinda know what i should do.. but yet i really truly want to work despite eveything.. -at a loss-
saw some stuff that i really shouldnt be seeing yesterday.. realised after i saw that that i was really sad, disappointed, bitter and obviously jealous.. know i have no right to feel that way.. but still i couldnt help what i felt.. joey asked me how i felt after i told her.. was rather confused initially bout my feelings.. but nevertheless.. yea.. came to the conclusion that i shouldnt be like this anymore.. but somehow..this kinda stuff is hard to say.. nothing really goes according to plan.. and what i want doesnt really counts in the great planning of life..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGLI!!!!!
-shant dwell upon it anymore.. -
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
