Friday, September 30, 2005
just went to do a mood analysis test.. my current mood... :S
Much of the time you are preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature. You need stimulation and variation with all matters pertaining to your life. You want to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality being able to charm and influence others. You use powerful strategies with predictable outcomes so as to avoid endangering your chances of success or undermining other people's confidence in you.
For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.
Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.
Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.
The tensions that you are trying to cope with are a result of conditions which are really beyond your control. As a consequence of this almost impossible situation and not being able to get your own way, you are subjected to frustration and almost ungovernable anger. You are trying to remedy the situation but the stress that you are experiencing is making the situation even worse. You feel so inadequate that you are not quite sure which way to turn. A good suggestion would to be to try to relieve the stress and anxiety by participating in some very active physical activity which will relieve your tension.
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
few days ago.. (act. was more than a few days.. but oh well.. who cares?).. went to donna's blog and saw her blog skin.. nice blog skin donna!!! (see so long has passed till i dun even remember whether i got praise her bout her blogskin in her tagboard not.. -.-) so anywae.. then i was thinking... maybe after promos, i should like change my blogskin too.. into something like donna's collage.. scattered photos.. so nice.. esp of HIM.. then was like.. hmm.. act. dun really hav so many photos of HIM.. so then i was thinking.. maybe should like photos of my yan jing tangs instead... then realised.. all my yan jing tangs all see see one.. dun hab their photos.. so qte sad.. cos like i can like cheer myself up whenever i look at my blogskin.. u noe.. yanjingtangs and HIM.. sure brighten up my day one.. then summore can take photo using my phone and use as wall paper too.. then even nicer.. wahh.. ppl can see my phone.. then was like "who are they to u?" then im like "oh its the skin of my blog" haha.. excuses.. so anywae.. was like qte sad lar.. dun habt their photos and all.. then after tt was like thinking.. act. all my yan jing tangs all like determines whether my day is going to be great or wad.. like oh see lucas in the morning then oh lucky day and all.. thenre alised next year's gonna be a really bad year for me.. cos 1) lucas's like either moving house or renovating house.. anywae he's no wehre to be found. -.- and 2) next year i'll be taking bus from another busstop.. so.. wun be able to see even if he moves back.. so was like damn sad lar.. -.- sighh.. so anywae.. was like thinking.. hmm.. maybe can like put all my cliques and frens photos.. like group photos and all..so sweet and nice lar.. reminiscing the sweet times we share... then realised.. actually.. my command of computers are like non-existence.. so basically.. know nuts bout html and all.. then like.. -.- wanna do also cannot do.. so yea.. think so much for wad? waste my brain cells.. gee... -.-
so anywae.. yesterday night was like GREAT... talked to qs.. ahah.. so fun lar.. brightens up my day.. adn luckily qs is sooo cooperative.. unlike.. *ahem* (anywae thanks to shane who bothered to help me ask.. even though its qte useless..) so anywae.. he told me like the criterias for an ahbeng/ ahlian.. even though in the beginning he was like "depends on individual.. diff ppl got diff definition" (of course in simplified english lah -.-) so yea.. but anywae.. dug it out of him anyway.. so according to oh-so-reliable qs.. an ahbeng/ahlian should:
1) smoke
2) have piercing
3) know hokkien
4) tattoo
5) bad words
yea.. tt's all..qte short right.. unlike the list me and shane generated.. so anywae.. was like asking him whether ahbengs/ahlians would consider themselves as ahbengs/ahlians.. then he was like no.. kinda reminds me of something that someone told me some time ago.. (yesyes.. very informative of me) something that goes like " a mad person wouldnt think he's mad" so.. yea.. guess you would think that u are ahbeng/ahlian if u really are.. which meanss.... if u think u are ahlain/ahbeng.. most probby u arent.. HA.... so yea.. -.- i not ahlian.. i not ahlian.. ha right.. who will believe.. -.- yea.. so apparently you wouldnt think u are something if u really are that something.. im not bipolared.. i do not have mood swings.. im not nice... :P
so anywae.. was like talking a lot to qs lar.. then realised.. aha.. he got 6 piercing.. but all close 'cept one.. lol.. so rock lar.. and guess wad? i think (even before i noe he got piercing) that guys with one earhole are really cute... lol.. its fate.. -.- yea.. then anywae.. he got me wanting to pierce another earhole.. this time at the bone there.. -.- yesyes.. i know last time i swore i wouldnt pierce there.. too coward.. buttt... he persuaded me.. so tempting now.. sighh.. but im a coward.. shall see.. -.-
anywae.. in case u all realised.. i changed my dp.. all cos of.. *ahem* lol... hehehehhehehe.. ohoh.. yea.. anywae found out today i passed my cheena.. aha.. so happy.. at least i passed!!! yippie!!! even though the teacher said that our class scored qte badly.. mostly 40++.. but still.. i passed!!! ahaha... so happy!!!! even though the highest is.. 85.. -.- but nvm.. shall be satisfied with what i have and not be greedy.. lols..
ohoh.. got to tell shane" hey girl ar.. thanks ar.. realised act.. u noe me qte well.. aha.. oh anywae.. in case all of u ncie pple out there are wondering how to celebrate my bday (which is coming real soon) shall tell u all.. haha.. can hold an alcohol party.. lol.. then stand/sit around drinking alcohol.. tt'd be great.. thanks ar... lol.. kae lar.. zao 1st le... bb..
(p.s. he's getting cuter.. )
-just thinking of yuu makes me smile-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
hais.. long time no blog.. firstly I’ll like to clarify that is NOT that I don’t want to blog, busy mugging or whatever shit.. it’s cos.. my net is down. -.- somehow, I’ve got used to saying “my comp’s down, my comp’s down” then when ppl realized its my net that isn’t working, they’ll correct me and say “it’s ur net’s that’s down wad.. not ur comp” seriously, I don’t see the point in changing.. since net down= cannot go online, comp’s down= cannot go online.. therefore, comp’s down = net’s down.. same logic.. -.- dun see what’s the big fuss that you people are kicking up about. Anywae.. promos is like HERE. -.- gee.. and guess what?!?! I realized I’ve more or less given up on myself.. sigh..seriously im rather useless come to think of it.. cannot buck up one le.. actually was like all set to study during the 3 days self-appointed holidays. Then something cropped up.. then.. study mood.. byebye.. -.- what the hell lor.. summore the gp and cheena paper was like crap.. -.- sian diao...
oh anyway.. on monday, learnt the mafia language from shane.. aha.. so damn cool lar.. fuck in every other 4 words.. so its like what the fuck am I typing blah blah blah.. so farnie lar.. then was saying the fuck word everywhere.. qte fun.. just that realized that.. my sch.. or rather class is rather sensitive to the fuck word dunnoe why also.. I mean its no biggie rite? I mean.. fuck has 2 meaning.. firstly it’s a vulgarity used to scold pple.. sorta like a derivative from kaninabu chaocheebye.. blah blah blah.. then the other meaning of fuck is to have sex.. sorta like make love in a loveless manner you know? Sexually intercourse.. somehow.. it’ll get everybody so worked up.. I also dunnoe why.. issit ‘cos of the 1st meaning or 2nd? Gee.. now im confused.. -.- seriously dun see what’s the biggie bout the word fuck.. its just a WORD ppl.. CHILL~ or would all of you rather me say like “fish you lar” -.- so dumb lar.. I mean if I say fish.. all of you, with all the bountiful common sense and plentiful brain cells, it wouldn’t take you all long to figure out what im actually referring to is “fuck you lar” so what’s the point of being sensitive to the word fuck?.. I mean.. it sounds like a cross between fish and duck.. tt’s what you’ll get.. I mean like.. if you cross Chinese and malay you get chilay.. so if you cross fish and duck, you get fuck.. ha.. im great aint i? to even thought of that.. haha.. I rock.. okie that’s out of the point…
anyway.. was asking shane what is the criteria for ahlian on monday.. hmm.. seriously rather curious bout it.. I mean like.. if there’s no specific criteria for an ahlian then anybody can be considered an lian.. I mean.. like if you are considered an ahlian in a good sch.. doesn’t mena you will be considered an ahlian in a lousy sch.. you noe? Sorta like paikia and all.. same logic.. so was asking her.. then came to the conclusion that I only fulfilled ½ of the criteria for being an ahlian.. so actually im not really an ahlian.. aha.. so all of you out there who keep saying im an ahlian.. *BLEAHS*
oh yea.. and just the other day.. was happily msging qs.. then somehow like when I asked him bout what course he’s taking.. he daoed me.. damn sad.. but then come to think of it.. our sms-exchanging sessions always end abruptly when I asked him bout what course he’s taking.. -.- hais.. dunnoe why also.. so sad..
and then there’s the other day when me, val, Bernie and qiaomei was out shopping for miang’s pressie.. then come to realized that actually.. even the closest of the closest fren.. may not know each other really well.. yea. Then was thinking bout myself.. actually.. among all my frens.. I may noe their character, their attitude towards stuff, secrets and all that stuff.. what’s their personality and all.. but then when it comes to presents.. my mind draws a blank.. shows how much I know all of you.. -.- IM SORRY!!!!
then recently keep going simei that side.. then pass by ite east.. DAMN NICE CAN!?!? sian diao.. so totally envy tos pple lar.. the sch so nice.. damnit why didnt i get into it mans.. then like all the guys all so cute.. urm.. ppl ar.. ite got yearbook one not ar? i wanna kop and see.. ^^ haha.. then also realised.. actually.. i damn dumb lar.. shouldnt have studied so hard for psle.. then can get into neighbourhood schools.. then wahh.. all the cute guys all my frens.. so nice lor.. changkat changi also got cute guys.. -.- sian diao... hais.. anywae.. think i end here le.. shall continue next time.. byebye.. ^^ i noe all of u misses me.. i miss u too!!! ^^
-i miss yuu and i love yuu..i cant stop thinking of yuuu..-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
wah.. come my blog first thing realised so many pple tagged.. so happy lor.. hehe.. yeay!!! think chuse having chalet again!! so happy carn wait!!! at least this time our social circle has enlarged so wun be as bad as past years.. i tink.. :P
anywae.. having tuition in like half an hours' time.. was debating whether to play maple or blog.. then since all of u so nice.. come and read my blog and even TAGGED.. i shall show my appreciation and start blogging.. anywae.. went to www.m-w.com and type in the word "like" found qte a no. of explanation to it.. a few of which that i think is rather relevant to is enjoy, prefer and want.
actually, after a lot of questioning of other pple.. i still dont really know what kinda feelings towards someone can be defined as like.. and to me i think liking a person can means serveral things.. such as like, liking him in a brotherly way, liking him in a stead way, liking him in a friend way.. so confusing right? and apparently i still carn differentiate like, love, infactuation and crush.. or is infactuation and crush the same thing? oh well im confused.. if anyone's so nice and kind can blog about it.. i shall cite the entire entry from u and publish ur name big in that huge font, bold and in italics so everybody knows how clever you are.. thanks ar... :)
promo's in 2 weeks' time.. hmm.. shalls tart mugging.. remember there's this time in tk someone.. couldnt really remember who.. told me that the way a person run reflects the way a person studies.. think its qte true.. cos for me.. i chiong thne slack then chiong.. so i guess its time for me to chiong now.. hopefully can chiong finish in time.. sighhh... seriously im schizophrenic judging by the way im feeling now.. i dreading promos.. yet carn wait till the end of promos.. BUTTT... even if promos end.. i will still be without a life.. cos my DEAR BELOVED DARLING PW MEMBERS are so conscientious.. they preactically booked up the entire 1 and 1/2 months between after promos and the official start of hols.. -.- bloody hell... NO LIFE!!! @#$^@$&%$@# i mean there's 7 freaking meetings.. sighh.. there's goes my life.. down the drain.. urghhh.. -.- how great can my life get??!?!?! *grumbles*
-carn wait till............................. whatever-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Friday, September 16, 2005
was out shopping for miang's pressie yesterday.. then realised.. *gasp* so many ppl's birthday on sept... and apparently i just found out.. other than miang.. the rest of them -su, jason, steph- all very close together.. and all libra... aha.. LIBRA ROX!!! ^^ keke.. yea.. just found out.. i noe im slow.. yeayea.. anywae.. bot a pressie for miang yesterday- necklace nad a pendant that is her name made of wire.. think its nice..realised how nice is bgis.. so many things lar.. east side rox.. cos apparently we went habourfront first.. couldnt even find anything suitable.. okie maybe there's one.. but the guys rejected it..s o anywae.. the next stop was... BUGIS!! then bot everythign there lar.. the cake, her pressie and another pressie for val's fren.. so nice rite? east is the best!!!! ^^ managed to buy everything there.. ^^ ha..
anywae.. was rather pissed at my class guys yesterday.. so spastic lar.. anywae.. was thinking bout it.. *i realised i think a lot* that actually guys are spastic creatures they are so @&$@$^@ its like they count every cent they spent and makes it totally worth the cent.. -.- i dunnoe.. i tink they live by that rule or something.. "squeeze everything out of every cent that you spent" or some crap rules like that. so dumb lar.. i dunnoe.. just gives me the vibes..dont really know how to put it in words either.. -.-
anywae.. got the pw schedule yesterday. realised that pw officially ends on 16th nov which is a wednesday.. so somebody can PLEASE PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE go book a freaking chalet on the 17th and the 18th? its normal rate.. off peak period.. HURRY HURRY CHOPCHOP!!! :)
-1719-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
was talking in cafe today.. bout my traumatised childhood-how i was badly treated by my grandma whenever she helped me tie my hair. end up everybody luffing.. how mean can people get? i mean luff at my childhood.. sighh.. frens.. how great cna they get.. in the end bernie told me its not the tortures i went thru' that's funny, but the way i said it that's funny.. and she suggested strongly i should join drama.. AHA..farnie.. -.-
top 10 reasons i should NOT join drama:
1) i got stage fright
2) im only this crappy and expressive when im with CLOSE FRENS (those who knows me long enough can attest to this)
3) i have stage fright
4) i have limited facial expression
5) i have stage fright
6) i dont have a nice voice
7) i have stage fright
8) im too short, the audience carn see me (yeayea.. cue to luff at me.. hardehar)
9) i have stage fright
10) i carn remember my lines for nuts
11) i have stage fright
12) i have stage fright
blahdeblah.. point proven..
okie so anywae, drama is out for me.. i carn perform for nuts.. only for my close frens.. ^^ (you ALL should be honoured). anywae.. today yingli was saying that heon said that i was nice.. HA.. actually i was thinking im a very mean person.. NICE?!?! ha.. -.- understatement of the century can?!?! -.- nice.. me? ha.. me? nice? haha... -.- okie... anywae.. was like thinking.. hmmmzz.. if i really really mean rite.. whenever i emtt someone that pisses me off or something i should say "i carn stand u/ur ____, so do you wan me to pretend taht i like everything about you and be a backstabber and a double face or do you wan me just be myself and ignore yo, pretending that you simply doesnt exist in my world?" to them.. cool rite? that' like ultimate mean-ness.. well maybe not.. but mean enough.. ha.. maybe i should.. to people i REALLY REALLY hate... ha... but... since heon says im nice.. i shall be A BIT nice and not say that to them.. (factoring in the fact that im qte a bloody coward)
was writing to shane a letter yesterday.. ha..realised how "creative" i can get.. think the letter i wrote to her looks super nice... should've taken a photo and post it up.. but thena gain.. if i post it up.. all of u can download nad zoom in to the picture thus seeing what i write to her in the letter.. so i shant.. aha.. bet all of you are damn disappointed. so anywae.. was like thinking of all the past letters i've written.. ralised most of them (note i said most) are nicely decorated.. and written in my nice nice handwriting.. haha.. should frame it up lar.. piece of art... damn nice k? yea.. so proud of myslef.. but tt's out of point...
anywae.. today sch was ultra boring.. was thinking like maybe the alst week of lessons or something.. pon the entire week and stay at home to mug.. (YES!! IM GONNA MUG.. BEWARE!!) haha.. hope i can persuade my mum man.. carn stand sch anymore.. they should just have promos right after sept hols.. then after promos.. FREE... stupid schools.. -.-
oh wells.. anywae.. realised ahzai's birthday is on the 19th of nov.. haha scorpio... ^^ (just informing chuse) yea..
hais.. life's in a mess as usual.. life's boring.. as usual.. what's new?
-wasting my time..dreaming of yuu..-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
i love my blog song-its so depressing yet so sweet-makes me cry.. i love it
im a mean bitch and proud of it
i like being mean to people
i love crying
im a crybaby
crying is therapeutic
i love the rain
i love the sight of lightening-beatiful
my life sucks
i don't really care
promo's coming
yet to start studying
im a bloody slacker and proud of it
i rock
derdum's late
stress
i miss reading
i hate people being nice to me
i want people to be nice to me
i love being pampered
im a brat
im a mean bitchy brat
i hate pampering others
i love indulging myself
life sucks
can't wait for promos to be over
gonna chiong
can't wait to chiong
im mean
stress
silly pool's a nice game-almost as nice as maple
i miss iceskating
i miss chalets
i miss all the gentlemanly guys i know
i miss talking to gentlemanly guys
my class guys sucks-mcps
joey lied to me-i think
mind block
stress
i love being mean
i love myself being mean
indulgence is good
i hate lessons
i hate school
i hate travelling to school
feel like puking
bored
i can't wait to go out again
can't wait for tml when im going out with chiam
can't wait for friday when im going out with shane
can't wait to talk to qs again
can't wait to talk to ahzai again
can't wait to talk to jason again
nice guys are rare- not that rare but rare in sa
i love being around with nice guys
stress
don't want to study
rather pon sch and study than go school
hate school
boring
miss maple
wanna chiong maple
hate school
i miss gossiping
can't think of any gossip though
random thoughts
going mad
sighhhhhhh
-i miss yuu.. i really do... do yuu miss me?-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Monday, September 12, 2005
was blog-surfing saw kt's blog the personality test, decided to take it.. here's the result.. ^^
| Global Personality Test Results |
Stability (36%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness (50%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
Extraversion (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
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Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
today went to jurong east swimming complex to swim.. (yeayea.. i know all of u are SHOCKED rite? zhuhan?!?!? swimming!?!?!? yea all of u can close ur mouth now.. i went -.-) so anyway, basically, me and jiayi met at 12 at kembangan mrt station before proceeding to eunos mrt station to meet kaitian, who is obviously late, (dun worry darling.. we dun blame u.. ^^) so i shan't bother all of you 'bout the embarrassing stuff that had happened to me. after that, we took the train all the way to jurong east mrt station before walking one entire big round at jurong eat just to get to the creative building where jiayi had to repair her zen micro. (Realised how lousy zen is.. everything keeps spoiling.. but, as good singaporean citizens, we should support our own local products and not mind the long hours wasted, gone, just to travel all the way to jurong east to repair the spoiled zen -.-) yup, and being the lazy us, we took a bus back to the interchange. oh btw, realised how ULU west side is, i mean the traffic light thingy is like ANCIENT!! -.- so anyway, i went to ask jiayi and kaitian wehther they think east side or west side is more cheena, and surprisingly, they said its WEST!! *gaspS* and i always thought east is rather cheena.. -.- (think qs and my pri sch) so yea..got qte a shock, but, after giving it some thought, i realised actually its TRUE!!! wow... -.- so anywae, by the time we reached the jurong east interchange, joey has reached and we went to the entertainment centre to have lunch.
initially, wanted to eat at deli, then realised its rather ex and all and we shouldnt eat so full and waste so much time eating before going to swimming so we decided to go buy take away food and kfc and macs. after that took 334 to jurong east swimming centre, changed, blahdeeblah and all and off we go swimming. actually we didnt do much of swimming considering we were all (excluding joey) wearing fbt shorts so we are banned from going to the olympic pool instead is only allowed to the fun rides part. its quite fun lar, and according to what jiayi, kaitian and joey said, its more or less like wild wild wet. it would be more fun having a float, but being the cheapo us, and having kept all our belongings in the locker, we are cashless thus not being able to rent even one pathetic float so we can only wade around and all.
saw this couple at first then apparently noticed them looking at us, was rather scared they are from sa. (i mean how maluating can it get.. -.-) but then dont really remember seeing them before so yea. then kinda kept seeing them around. (okies i know its rather out of point.. -.-) anywae, at this jacuzzi pool place, we got round to talking bout having a chalet and all, then realised actually, I NEVER HAD A CHELET THAT DOESNT INCLUDES BBQING!! wow.. i mean.. how deprived can i get rite? lols.. so was thinking of having a chalet during the first two weeks of nov cos its cheaper and all..(HINT TO CHUSE!!!!) yea lor.. but still thinking..cos realised actually the 4some (that's me, jiayi, kaitian and joey) has qte a small circle of frnes.. as in the people that all of us know and can click with is really limited.. (haha..same case as the chuses act. ^^) so yea lor.. -.-
okie, after much fun and all, we decided to go and change, and partially cause joey hurt her toe.. but no worries she's all right now.. ^^ then the stupid toilet is so FREAKING small, so congested and filled with people, 4 of us found two empty toilets and the joey and jiayi went into one and kaitian went into another one, and im outside passing the shower foam and facial wash. so anywae, after much waiting, along came two little malay or indian (im not very sure) girls, one after another, then they were standing outside two other cubicle. (basically its like the toilet has qte a no. of rows of cubicles, then it so happens that the row we were at has 4 cubicles , 10-13, so i was standing outside 11 (kaitian's) and this girl with hair so long its below her butt was standing outside 12(jo's and jy's) and this another girl was standing outside 13) so anywae, obviously the girl at 13 is like the last one to come and queue and it so happens that the person inside 13 came out first, then i mean, anyone with basic courtesy and simple sense will ask whether the people who were first in the queue (which is me) would want to use it first, but NOOOO... that bitch of a girl didnt. instead she rushed into the cubicle BEFORE the previous occupant can even evacuate the cubicle, i mean HOW DEPRIVED FROM BATHING IS SHE!??!?! okie, i know i shouldnt kick up such a big fuss 'cause even if she ask i would also decline, but its the thought that counts and it seriousl irks me that people nowadays, especially kids these days, have absolutely no respect for others nor do they have basic courtesy and smple manners, i mean WHAT IS THEIR PARENTS DOING?!?!?! -.- gee... so anyway, the waiting continues, and this time, whilst joey was passing me the facial wash, the occupant in 10 exited and the silly fucked up girl with long hair so long it's disgusting, rushed into the cubicle like her swimsuit's on fire, i mean.. what's her fucked up problem anyway?! -.- so i waited and waited, then, comes along a whole bunch of girls whom i assume are all meenas, they are so bitchy and kept flaunting their so-called assets (that doesnt even existed) and chatters at such a loud volume its like blasting and at some foreign language that i cannot really identify as malay or indian. so basically, downright bitches. -.-
so anyway, i waited for kaitian to come out and hurried into the cubicle to avoid the swinging hay-like hair that vaguely reminds me of horse's tail and the endless chattering in a foreign language that resembles the buzzing of an enormous bee and frens and basically the sight of them. anyway, after a rather peaceful shower (the sound of water emitting from the shower head managed to block out some of the noise), i exited from the cubicle, which is obviously, being hurriedly occupied by one of the bitches, and saw a harried-looking kaitian. anyway, kaitian, obviously had enough of them, decided to go out of the toilet to wait while pathetic ole me has to wait for jo and jiayi to come out as i have to look after their belongings. so anyway, while i was waiting, they were washing their hair outside, flinging their hair about and basically showering me with the foams and their dandruffs (which i highly suspect they have looking at the state of their hair) and basically giving me nightmarish time. after jo and jiayi came out we chionged out of the toilet without even packing their stuff and packed OUTSIDE the toilet cause the toilet seriously strongly reminds me of the toilets in malaysia- and its not only because of the race of most of the people inthe toilet but also the way they behave, so unruly and all- and it totally disgust me that singaporeans are actually like that.
after that we went to the kfc cum pizza hut and bot some munchies and all, sat and ate, shant talk bout the horrid thing the malays did- acting like they own the entire place- but basically after today, im a self-proclaimed racist and my impression of westies just dropped by a lot of notches. (after much deliberation, me an jo concluded that ying's not considered a westie though, cause she's being educated in the east so she's more of a half-half ^^) -.- i mean, look at the malays in the east-ili mahirah, rury, farhanah, just to name a few- none of them are THAT bad, they are not even NEAR them. -.- so basically my racism only includes those in the west. -.-
okie, after that, we left and walked and chatted and then decided to take 197 from jurong east interchange back, so we sat at the abck of the bus and talked bout few stuff. HA, FINALLY I'VE REACHED ENLIGHTENMENT!!! LOL.. learnt so much bout lesbianism today on the bus, and also what's humping and all lol.. so enriching.. ^^ so basically lesbians steads are only really truly considered and steads after they have some sexual intercourse, which is of course, those in teh red light. ^^ anything before that, even frenching is not truly considered as lesbians partners, so i can sadly conclude that, i will never have a lesbian relationship ever *sobs* cause, i wun do it with a girl!!! :( no matter how much i love her or whatsoever, i think the furthest i will go is frenching, and its ot counted!!! sighh.. so sad, never will i have the experience.. :(
then we were saying bout like lesbians in western countries do not have such things such as active and passive, so basically, passive and passive can also be lesbians, they are called PURE LESBIANS ^^ so cool right?! then we were like saying actually, bungs, being girls themselves, knows what a girl really wants and all so they will make a better stead. quite true right? kinda always thought so myself.
then we also talked bout guys and all, and jo told me that guys have TUNNEL VISION!!! as in they cannot look sideways, so cool lar, never knew that, so basically a girl will know when a guy checks her out cause he will turn his head and look and that girls can check guys out without turning their head but instead look fro the side of their eye. SO COOL LAR I NEVER KNEW THAT!! therefore guys cannot speed read, cause speedreading is whereby one looks at the words at the centre of the page and use their peripheral vision to scan the words at the side, so cool right? i also never knew that!! aha..
then we proceed on to talk bout being virgin brides and guys not being able to erect aka impotent. then jo's like saying act, loads of singaporean guys are impotent, so sad lor, so must learn from shane's mum and go for checkups before marrying the guy otherwise, marry a virgin, die a virgin damn sad lar. -.- then on the other hand nv thought bout girls not being able to satisfy the guys part, i mean like, whilst girls can fake it but then guys will know sooner or later whether its faking not right, and if the girls faking it, then its as good as the guys not being able to erect, cause, for the girls, the marriage will still be affected, hmmm, nv thought of it.. food for thought.. (", )
then talked bout sending our children thru what kinda schools and all. basically talked a lot so fun lar so interesting. was like talking to kaitian bout awkward silence and mutual silence, i tink its quite true that at times silence between frens can be rather comforting.. come to think of it, had a few of the occurence. ^^ thank you kaitian for reminding me of them, but sad to say i had more incidents of awkward silence, and it sucks.
okie, realised this entry is extra long so maybe shall elaborate on it in some other entries. ^^ lols.. ciao babes~
from jo: i hate westies!
-first love is always the one you will love the most-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
this song's really nice.. really luv it.. ^^
Click Five- Just The Girl
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after
[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude powerA
nd the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
just finished one entire bottle of bacardi breezer lime.. somehow.. just felt like drowning myself in alcohol.. maybe wun think so much and felt so bad.. -.- sighhh.... now im all red.. -.-
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
I HAVE NO LIFE... NO LIFE AT ALL.. URGH!!!!!! FUCK...
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
Friday, September 02, 2005
wanted to blog yesterday.. but my stupid bitch of a sis was hogging the comp watching mtvs.. like she always does.. and basically wasting time in front of the comp and depriving me of time using the comp.. stupid... $&#$%#$.. seriously man.. not that im biased against her or what.. (or maybe i am.. a bit) but yea..she's super... cmi...seriously.. carn believe i have such a .. cmi sis.. so maluating.. -.- so yea anywae.. yesterday was the first time i donned on tk u for the first time in like 6 months or so.. then realised actually tk u very nice.. esp the blouse.. so thin lar the material..s o comfy.. but then the pnafore a bit the hot lar.. but anywae tt's out of point. meet joey, jiayi, kaitian and su outside tk that video shop taht busstop.. then apparently qte a no. of ex-4/2-ers.. all there.. then apparently they were like planning to go in late.. so can get caught by mdm khoo and mrs kong.. then were like discussing who wanna go where.. but in the end.. all of us end up going by the main gate where mdm khoo was suppose to be stationed at.. so yea..w ehn we get into the main gate.. then the prefect there was like "what class you from?""why you not wearing sch shoes?""where's ur sch badge?""where's ur name tag?" and all lar.. so silly.. then joey was like saying.. "oh i got caught in the rain yesterday and my sch shoes were wet.. so i wore sport shoes today." and all lar.. then apparently i think the prefect dun believe her cos i doubt it rained on tues.. but anywae su was like "yeayea i was with her and my shoes got wet too." so the prefect has no choice but the believe lar.. then the badges and all were like "oh we lost it " and all lar.. so extra silly lar.. then the prefect was like "urm please put ur belt through the loop" and all.. so stupid.. catch us from head to toe... -.- thena fter that was like what class are you from? then me and jo were like "1/9" then the rest said their sec 1 classes.. then the prefect just blur blur write everything down lar.. then give us booking forms to fill up.. then apparently gladys and dunnoe who din wear pinafore (ex-prefects) so a new teacher came and was like "can the 2 girls not wearing pinafore please come" and stuff lar.. then apparently both of them din move.. then the teacher was like qte pissed then was like "do you want me to invite you here?" then the prefects see le told the teacher that they were their seniors.. then after tt the teacher was like "whya re you all in tk u?" and all.. then all of us were like luffing and all.. then we gave the prefect back the booking form.. then after a while.. the prefet gave us back the booking form then we werelike "Still need to fill up meh" then the prefect wwas like yea.. then we were like " we are ex-tkgians le" then apparently the prefect qte blur then super paiseh and all lar.. -.- so stupid lar..
anywae after tt went to find all our ex teachers and all.. the mrs. sim and mdm khoo saw us were like "wear ur sch u with pride!! look at all ur belts" and stuff.. so dumb lar.. then some teachers were like din realised we were ex tkgians then ask us why arent we doing the aces day workout.. and stuff.. apparently saw adelia chee also.. and xiao ang.. haha.. then xiao ang was like eating banana and all. thenw e were like "mr ang why arent u doing the aces day workout.." then he was like "i need to get energy .." then we were like "aces day gonna start soon le".. then he was like "tt's why must eat slowly.. " so farnie lar.. -.- then we hung around the go and all.. slack here and there.. then keep avoiding loke-yeo.. yucks lar.. u see what she wear.. so obiang.. but tt's her lar.. -.- then apaprently tk was stilld oes aces day workout with tkss.. so dumb.. then saw mrs kong.. then was like talking to her and all.. then she said something bout tk wun turn co-ed cos there's a demand for it.. was rather relieved.. ( malcolm bet u are damn jealous aha) then after that we went to find mrs. loy and ms. lui then chatted with them.. then went class visiting.. apaprenlty they got class celebration lor.. then go and see the teachers... thena fter a while..r ealised its damn hot.. so went to comp lab and slack.. aha.. use comp.. then after tt we changed out of tk u then go hall and watched the performance.. wow..s eriously. its a miracle how we endured 4 years of celeberations in the hall lar.. so hot in the hall lar... and summore the girls were wearing tk u mans.. -.- siao diao.. seriously damn proud of myslef then..s tand outside the hall sweat until like siao liao..s till sit in the hall.. -.- dots mans.. then apparently a lot of tkgians came back after tt.. saw farhanah, debre, keli, sulin, simone, sherilyn, prawn, bern, steph, wendy they all..so happy lar.. aha.. so sad.. din managed to take pics.. with them.. *ahem u noe who im refering to* yea.. then saw bee too.. super bung now lar..seriously looked like a guy.. so scary.. -.- so after that went to bugis with mel, jaiyi, su, kaitian to eat billy bombers... haha.. then took neos too.. so fun.. then mel was like saying some silly econs joke.. "who went poly and who din go poly?" haha.. go think bout it..wanna know the ans can ask me.. lols.. -.- seriously damn dumb man the joke.. -.- yea after tt chiong home, bathe, cooked and all.. then went out to meet jiayi and kaitian before going to city hall to meet su, ode and joey then walked around citylink crapped nad all. qte fun lar.. then walked back to city hall station and walked to substation where srjc had some performance.. "turning otello" some shakespeare show.. qte okie lar.. the theatre was damn small.. then apparently the seat sucks.. then its like a sr gathering or something.. then onli our group not from sr lor.. so weird.. then apparently got this girl called baby.. damn pretty lar.. then was like kissed by the guy 4 times.. then apparently the guy died that time.. his head was laying at her boobs there lar.. dman farnie..t hen the show.. the pple kenna slapped dunnoe how many times lar.. damn sad.. summore they performed 3 time slar.. and rehearsals and all... sighh.. ultra poor thing man them.. so anywae the show was alright.. albeit the shakespearean language.. and all the shouting that totally screwed up the pronounciation of the words... its alright lar.. at least i managed to get the jist of the show and understand more or less what is going on.. aha.. im not THAT bad after all... then apparnelt yht e show started damn late lar.. the lights kinda screwed up last minute so it was delayed and all... joey was in charge of the costumes.. that's why she invited us to go watch lar.. alright lar.. one revelation i made yesterday though was that.. SRJC GUYS ARE DAMN CUTE!!! much better than sa guys.. lols.. yea seriously.. all my type of guys.. lol.. paikia-type.. wah piang eh... they even got pierced ears lar.. got 1 earhole.. dman cool lor... wah go and see the production.. can drool till kenna dehydrated le... the guys... OMG... damn cute lar... sian diao.. should've gone sr mans.. sighh.. biggest mistake in my life.. lols.. but seriously theya re damn cute.. even jiayi says so..we got same taste... paikia kuan... :)
haha.. oh yea.. was talking to mr peh yesterday in sch.. then was asking him wad's his child's name.. then he was like "peh yong" (pronounced as peh2 rong2) yea.. then joey, being joey, was like "why nv giv her english name? like joey peh yong.. so nice lar.." then mr peh, being mr. peh, was like "thank goodness im not tt creative to think of such name.. if i wan to give her english names i would have called her my peh yong.. even nicer." so farnie lar.. i mean imagine a girl called my.. then's like the teacher take attendance "my peh yong" wah ppl will xiang y y lar.. -.- damn farnie.. but then come to thinnk of it..if ever i really lack of english names to give my daughter i wun mind calling her my.. at least like. 1) it's easily pronounced and wun be mis-pronounced 2) its unique and not everybody has that name... so cool rite? haha... but then i may call my daughters like "peace", "joy", "love"blah de blah... hmm.. maybe will name her like "heaven" or "leigh" i think leigh's a nice name.. like the series i read before by v.c. andrews.. damn nice lar.. the main character's called heaven leigh casteel or soemthing like tt.. hmm.. qte nice le... maybe i will name my daughter that.. like leigh lee blah blah.. haha.. (okie.. got tis secret fetish of mine with the surname lee.. lols.. if you know it you know it.. if you dun .. oh wells.. u can either guess or assume.. but just a reminder.. ASSUMPTION IS THE MOTHER OF ALL FUCKED UPS... anywae if you really wanna know why can ask me.. :) jsut depends on my mood whether i wanna tell u not.. ^^) okie.. back to the topic..but then again.. im reather tempted to name my daughter my.. so farnie lar.. tt'll be like super cool or something.. then next ting u noe.. the in thing is to name children "your" "my" "his" "her" and stuff.. lol.. so farnie.. oh wells.. sorry damn crappy.. anywae.. yea.. basically.. srjc guys are damn cute...
haha.. okiee.. urm.. kinda found out some stuff yesterday.. shant say it on the net.. cos is suppose to be a secret.. but was like thinking bout it.. how do you rate ur frens.. has in how close is a fren to be exactly consider as "close frens"? hmm.. issit just gut feeling.. or what? dun really know.. but then again.. if u regard somebody as ur close fren and you wanna tell him/her everything but he/she doesnt tell u everything in return.. issit considered as close fren too? was mulling over it.. then kidna realised that..actually for me.. i kinda like to blurt everything out to whomever who wanna listens.. then in that case.. is everybody my close fren? hmm.. seriously baffled...i guess to me.. i will do selective telling ba.. like see what i deems fit.. oh wells.. shant mull over it... sighh... oh yesterday during the celebration.. ex-4e2-ers performed a song.. qte nice.. thinks it kinda reflects all our feelings.. shall try to get the lyrics and post it up someday.. very nice wors.. :)
okie.. zao 1st le... gotta upload pics and all.. aha... ciao babes~
-keep living in the presnet but dwell in the past and avoid the future.. know its not right. but somehow.. just couldnt seem to help myself.. -
Signing
off, zhuhan.
crapilicious. always crappy.
